Monday comes and I have a lite morning with a surgery schedule this afternoon. Arizona has therapy schedule for Tuesday and Thursday this week. Bailey told her no more than that until she has her follow up next week and the stitches removed. I decide to head down to PT to go over some things with David concerning the vet project.
"Hey David you have a few minutes to go over some things with me" I say as I'm walking through the doors. To my surprise it's not David I see there but Arizona. "What are you doing here, did something happen to the prosthetic?" I ask
"Oops, busted" she says laughing.
"Arizona, seriously you scared me I thought something went wrong. What are you doing? You know your not suppose to over do it." I say . "How did you even get here?"
"I told my parents I needed an adjustment and had them drop me off on their way to the park with Sofia" she says shyly.
"So you lied to them" I say scoldingly like I'm talking to Sofia.
"Lied is such a strong word, I would say more like a little fib." She says smiling at me.
"Smile all you want you will not be working out today, you got it." I say.
"Oh, come on Callie, just a little bit, please. You saw Sofia's face when she saw me standing she wants us to dance together again. I've missed dancing around with her." She begs me.
"Arizona I know you want that, I want that too but if you try to do to much you might get hurt and I don't want that to happen. I know Sofia definitely doesn't want that to happen."I say
"You had to do that didn't you" she says.
"Do what?" I ask.
"Play the Sofia card... you know I don't want to scare her again." She says almost defeated.
"Hey, I didn't mean it like that. I know you don't want to scare her and you're only doing this for her. I know you want to do all the stuff you used to do with her without thinking about," I tell her as I walk over to her. Her head is hung and my heart breaks. "Arizona please look at me."
"Callie, she was so scared after the accident she kept crying and I couldn't move to get to her. That killed me more than any pain I was feeling. I just want her to be happy, I don't want to cause her anymore pain." She says.
"Hey, hey she is happy, she is so happy and you know why?" I ask as I wipe away her tears that are falling. " I said do you know why?"
"Why?" She finally gets out.
"Because you are ok, that's all that matters to her." I say. "That's all that matters to both of us."
"But she was so excited about our dance party, i haven't seen her smile like that in a long time and I feel like it has been my fault." She tells me.
"Arizona I told you the accident was not your fault." I say.
"it's not just the accident Callie, she was effected just as much as we were when I lost my leg. I've tried to do things with her like I use to but we can't just spontaneously do anything anymore. Everything needs to be planned. I just want to come home at night and if she wants to dance or she wants to play I can just do it without telling her to hang on because mama needs to get her other leg or other foot, you know." She says.
I never really thought much about that part of Arizona's life that has changed but she's right everything needs to be planned out now and it has effected Sofia.
"Ok, I will help you practice but only for a little while and if Bailey finds us I will throw you under the bus." I say laughing.
"Really, you'll help me. Your not going to tell Bailey." She asks as a smile starts to form on her face.
"No, I won't tell her but I will only let you workout for thirty minutes." I tell her.
"One hour" she says.
"This isn't up for negotiations, Arizona."
"Forty five minutes." She says popping out those dimples.
I think I just got played." Fine ...forty five minutes but I'm setting the timer on my phone."
"Thank you Callie."
"You're welcome"