On my way home, I couldn't help but think how wrong this felt. I shouldn't be going home to an empty house. I should be with my family. Nights like tonight make me realize how much I miss them,... miss her. I want her back, I want our family back. The question is how do I go about making that happen.

I know I hurt her when I walked out of therapy that day, I just couldn't continue the cycle we where in. She thought I walked out because I didn't love her but it was actually because I loved her so much. I know for most people it doesn't make sense but I felt like like we were suffocating each other. I understand now it was because I never had forgiven her so I didn't believe anything she said or did. I assumed the worse all the time.

I had Wednesday off so I slept a little later than usual knowing Sofia was at Arizona's. When I woke up I had a couple of text messages from Arizona and a picture of Sofia in her new outfit her grandparents had bought her yesterday. I decide to get up and run a few errands before Sof gets out of school. I texted Arizona letting her know I would pick up Sofia since I was already out and about.

I pull up to her school and get in line with all the other parents. I'm standing in front of the car when Sofia finally comes out and I give her a wave so she can see me.

"Hi mommy, where's gramma and grampa. " She asks as she looks around for them.

"What you don't want to spend time with your mom?" I ask as I take her backpack from her and open the car door so she can climb in.

"No, mama just said they would pick me up. Is everything ok? Did mama get hurt again?" She asks and I can hear the concern in her voice.

"Mama's fine baby, I was just running errands and I told her I would get you." I tell her. "Do you want to call her." Hoping that would ease her little mind.

"Yes please, " Sof says.

"Ok" I say as I dial Arizona's number and put it on speaker.

"Hello" I hear Arizona say.

"Hi mama."

"Hi baby, did you have a good day at school?" Arizona asks her.

"Yeah, I made you a present in art class." Sofia says.

"You did, what is it."

"I can't tell you it's a surprise, when will I see you." Sofia asks her.

"Tomorrow, grandma and grandpa will pick you up from school and you can come here until mommy finishes work, ok"

"I don't think I can wait until tomorrow, I want you to have it today so you can feel better." Sofia says. "You always say my presents make you feel better."

"Arizona why don't you and your parents come over for dinner tonight." I say. I want to talk to her about Sofia's obvious fear about Arizona's safety.

"Are you sure" Arizona asks me.

"Yeah, come over around 5 we will make it an early night." I say.

"Ok, we will see you at 5."

"Yeaaaaaaaaaa" Sofia yells from the back seat.

We can't help but laugh at her antics.

Arizona and her parents showed up right at 5, and Sofia dragged her grandparents into her room to show them all her things."Don't be long Sof dinner is almost ready." I tell her as they head down the hall.

"You need any help." Arizona asks.

"Sure you can help me set the table." I say.

"So what's up with Sofia, why was it so important for her to see me today." Arizona asks.

"Actually I wanted to talk to you about that. I think she is afraid something is going to happen to you." I say.

"Yeah, I kind of got that impression from her too. She has been extra clingy since the accident." Arizona says. "Do you think maybe I can read her a bedtime story tonight and I will talk to her about it."

"Of course you can, I know she will love that and maybe if she hears you are fine from you instead of me telling her it will help her." I say.

We eat dinner and Arizona helps Sofia take a bath and put her PJ's on. Sof comes and kisses everyone good night and her and Arizona head to her room. I wait about ten minutes and I head down the hall. I can hear Arizona talking to Sofia so I stand outside of the door to hear what she is saying.

"So why was it so important that I came over tonight baby girl?" I hear Arizona ask.

"I just missed you" Sof tells her.

"I missed you too but I would've seen you tomorrow." Arizona says.

"But that was to long," Sof says.

"Sof, you know mama is ok right."

"I know but what if something happens and I'm not there to help you."

"Sof I know you were scared after our accident, mama was scared too, but I'm ok."

"You were scared."

"I was but I'm ok now you know why?"

"Why?"

"Because you are ok ...as long as you and mommy are ok then I'm not afraid anymore, so I don't want you to be afraid anymore either because we are all ok."

"Ok I won't be afraid anymore, ...I love you mama."

" I love you too baby ...so so much. Goodnight sleep tight. I will see you tomorrow ok." She says as she kisses her goodnight.

"Ok see you tomorrow, goodnight."

Arizona comes out of the room and catches me standing in the hall. "So ...is she ok?" I ask her as she closes Sofia's door.

"Yeah, she will be fine." Arizona says. "It's what we thought she was just scared something would happen to me again but I told her I'm ok and there was no reason to be scared, she seemed to accept that but I'll keep in eye on her."