Disclaimer: not mine. Still. Which you all know.

A/N: Oh my god im so sorry for the huge time gap between updates, though this chapter is bloody long so it kind of makes for it.

Im posting this chapter in honour of Harry Shum Jr's #AskHarry Twitter chat today, it will happen at 9pm England time, in about 1 ½ hours. :) Its for the Shadowhunters tv show and Harry is playing our glorious Magnus Bane… so if you've got Twitter, get online with your questions for him now! I already have :)

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Magnus was discharged from hospital a few days later. Izzy was still there for physio and Jace and Alec were at home while Robert and Maryse were working with the Feds to bring down their adversaries.

They all had the week out of college on account of their injuries so Magnus was back in Brooklyn with his aunt while Alec was stuck in the family home in Alicante. But he called Magnus every day and they would talk about anything and everything. Which bought Alec to this question.

"How did you know my name when you... Uh... You know...?" He asked awkwardly, remembering perfectly well the circumstances under which Magnus had said his real name.

He heard Magnus chuckle, then hiss in pain, before replying.

"You mean, when i screamed it oh, so loud as you rode my cock so good and hard and gave me the greatest orgasm of my entire life?"

Alec was blushing furiously as he heard Magnus giggling.

"Um, yeah, i guess. Just answer the question!"

Magnus laughed before telling him a story about Cat and her father being a Fed who worked with Alecs parents to bring down Valentine. Alec was impressed.

"Wow. Ok. Look, Magnus, I'm sorry."

Alec spoke quietly.

"For what, darling?" Came Magnus' response.

Alec took a deep breath. "For sneaking out on you. For leaving you alone after the best date I've ever had. For letting you think that i didn't care. For everything."

Magnus stopped him with a sharp call of his name.

"Alec! Shut up. Ok? Let me talk. Was i upset that you'd gone? Yes. Did it hurt? Like hell. Did i go and look for you? Yes. And when i didn't find you, i looked for Jace, you were both gone and that was when i realised my mistake. If i had been you, i would've done the same thing. You thought i wanted to kill you. You thought i would have done a Sebastian on you. You didn't know the truth. And I'm sorry because I should have just told you."

Alec sighed and smiled. "Its ok, Magnus. I think i can forgive you. Considering you took a bullet for me. And you did also, uh, give me, what was it? Oh yeah, the greatest orgasm of my entire life."

He was blushing like crazy as the words left his mouth but Magnus' gasped breath on the end of the line made it worth it.

"Oh, Alexander. When the doctor gives me the all clear, I'm gonna make that night seem like childs play. Just you wait, baby. Because i am gonna go full on crazy with that body of yours as soon as i am physically able to."

Magnus basically growled into the phone and Alec shivered, his breathing getting harder.

Though part of him was terrified, repulsed even, by the thought of that. Not because of Magnus. But because of his scars.

Sebastian had cut him up good. All over his arms, his chest, his stomach, his legs. Everywhere. All those little cuts that showed just how much Sebastian had been able to get to him. To get all over him. Sebastian had covered him in scars, both physical and emotional and Alec was terrified of letting Magnus see them. He was no longer the tall, muscled, perfect tattooed Adonis that Magnus wanted. He was tall, thin, scarred, broken and mutilated. The scars painted twisted patterns in his skin, it was a sick kind of work of art. One he never wanted to bestow on anyone.

"Alec? You still there baby?"

Came Magnus' voice, snapping Alec out of his mind.

"Yeah. Sorry. You just... Uh..."

Magnus laughed. "Getting a little hot are we Alexander?"

He teased as Alec groaned. They laughed for a while until Alec had to go for dinner and Magnus needed his bandage changing. They said their 'I love yous' and hung up, the next two weeks passed in a very similar fashion.

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Alec dumped his bags back in his dorm. He had a new one now, due to his rejuvenation and injuries, the college gave him a single room only for him on a much lower floor. He liked it. But he didn't really stay to admire it because he had somewhere he needed to be.

Smiling widely, he ran through campus, much like his first day all those weeks ago. But this time, he knew who he was running towards. Flying through the doors and shooting up the stairs, he started shouting.

"Magnus!"

Over and over as he ran. People must have thought he was insane. But when he came to the end of the hall and saw the love of his life casually leaning against the doorframe waiting for him, it was worth it.

He bit his lip and ran towards him, as Magnus beamed, laughing softly as Alec shoved through a group of drugged up chavs. Alec reached Magnus eventually and stopped just in front of him.

"Hey." He said softly, his chest heaving as he struggled to regain his breath. Magnus smiled.

"Hey yourself."

They shared a small smile as their eyes locked on each others, then Magnus reached out and slipped his arms around Alecs waist, pulling him close and kissing him softly.

Alec moaned as he fell back into the bliss that was Magnus Bane. He knew people were watching them but he didn't care. He just wrapped his arms tight around Magnus' body, twisting one hand in Magnus' soft hair, and kissed him back.

He had to be gentle due to Magnus' healing wound but he still pushed their bodies together so close and kissed him deeply. His tongue slipped out and gently stroked Magnus' lips before dipping into his mouth and playing with Magnus' tongue. Magnus was moaning softly, pulling Alec closer, and devouring him as he kissed the blue eyed boy deeper and deeper.

Their tongues started moving faster and Magnus gripped Alecs hips as Alec tightened his grip on Magnus' hair. They were breathing hard as they pulled apart due to lack of oxygen and they pressed their foreheads together tightly.

In the silence, filled only with their gasping breaths, they heard clapping and cheering and wolf-whistling. Alec flicked his gaze down the hall and blushed hard as there was at least 30 people watching them. Magnus giggled at Alecs blush and hugged him tight, throwing a smirk and a glittery wink at the crowd before pulling Alec into his room.

The crowd was laughing and they heard someone shout "Be safe! Use a condom!"

Alec groaned and blushed, burying his face in his hands and laughing in mortification as Magnus grinned and chuckled softly.

Alec sat on the couch and Magnus perched next to him, clasping their hands together.

"Are you ok?" He asked softly, stroking Alecs knuckles with his thumb.

Alec smiled and nodded. "Yeah. You?"

Magnus smirked. "I'm good. Doc called this morning, he said my internal wounds are healed, but go easy on myself for a while so that the skin can heal properly."

Alec nodded and gripped his hand tighter. "Good. I'm glad you're ok. And I'm sorry for every-"

He was cut off by Magnus' index finger pressing against his lips, silencing him as Magnus grinned wickedly. Alec felt his eyes widen a little as Magnus moved, graceful as ever, until he was kneeling beside Alec. With one smooth motion, he swung his leg over Alecs waist and straddled him, pushing him back against the couch.

When Alec went to speak, Magnus slipped his finger into Alecs mouth slowly and traced his lips almost curiously.

"You need to stop with the apologies. I did this because i wanted to. It was my choice to take that bullet and i don't regret it for a second. Now-"

He cut off as Alec began to talk and he smirked, kissing the blue eyed boy into silence.

"Now, its been over three weeks. I cant go much longer. I need you, baby. And i know Doc said 'no strenuous activity' but i have a plan, Alexander..."

He whispered as he slid his body against Alecs, kissing the corner of his mouth before slipping to his ear, where he licked the shell slowly, a heated caress, and he whispered lustfully.

"I'm gonna fuck you nice and slow. Deep and hot, a perfect little slow fuck. How does that sound? We can make it last all night if you like..."

He pulled back and licked Alecs jaw, so slowly, yet it had Alec quivering beneath him. The boy was shaking as Magnus kissed him deeply, his tongue delving into Alecs mouth, licking the roof of his mouth teasingly. They were both moaning softly and their hips started grinding together as Alec felt Magnus' hard dick against his abs. He gasped softly as Magnus tugged on his bottom lip and sucked it into his mouth gently, his hands sliding all over Alecs body in torturously slow movements. Alec was panting and kissing Magnus with everything he had, holding him tight as the boy writhed in his lap. But Alec suddenly snapped out of their little trance when he felt Magnus lift his shirt and touch the bare skin of his stomach, as he slowly sucked on Alecs neck.

Alec moaned and grabbed Magnus' hands, trying to push them away.

"Magnus." He moaned, trying to get the guy to stop, but hearing his name only spurred the boy on.

He slid his hands to Alecs crotch and started gently rubbing against the hardness in Alecs pants as he panted heavily while kissing everywhere he could reach. Alec was keening below him and as Magnus went for his shirt again, Alec snapped.

"Magnus stop!" He demanded as he grabbed Magnus' hands and threw them off of his body before gripping Magnus' hips and pushing him off. Alec stood with lightening speed and Magnus was sprawled against the back of the couch. There was a moment of tense silence before Magnus spoke cautiously.

"Alec? Are you ok? Baby... What's wrong? You know you're safe with me... Alec?"

Alec froze as Magnus stood up and walked towards him. For the briefest moment it was not Magnus before him, but Sebastian.

You're safe with me.

Sebastian said those words the night Alec had gone to him. And he had walked towards him with same look in his eyes that Magnus had right now.

He started shaking as Magnus came closer and as he reached out for him, Alec broke and the tears started flowing, his blood was pounding and he almost screamed.

"Get away from me Sebastian!"

He choked and his voice broke, cutting off and giving way to uncontrollable sobs.

Magnus took a step back and watched as Alec started hyperventilating and he began to cry. Alec was afraid. And it broke Magnus' heart.

"Alec, baby... Its me, its Magnus. I'm here. Sebastians gone away. He's gone. You're ok. I swear."

Alec stopped shaking and was breathing hard, staring at Magnus with wide, tearful eyes. He was panting and clenching his fists and Magnus felt himself start to cry as he flew over to Alec.

He hugged him tight, wrapping his arms around him, cradling his head and gently stroking his hair at the base of his neck. Alec breathed deeply, taking in Magnus' sweet scent and calming himself, giving in to Magnus' soft caresses and focussing solely on the soft whispers of Magnus' honey smooth voice.

"Its ok, baby. You're ok. I swear, I've got you. Nothings ever gonna hurt you again. I love you, Alexander, i love you so much. I'm never leaving you and I'm gonna protect you forever. We're ok. I love you, so, so much, you're so perfect. You're so beautiful. You're everything I've ever dreamed of. I love you, oh my god, i love you... I've got you, baby. Its ok. You're ok, my little angel."

Magnus whispered his words through his tears, meaning every word with his whole heart and soul. He knew right then that Alec was the single most important thing in his life. He was like Magnus' air, he couldn't live without him, he was necessary for him to function. Magnus needed him more than anything.

Alec gradually calmed down and hugged Magnus back gently, tipping his head back to meet Magnus' gaze.

"I'm sorry." He spoke roughly, his voice wavering.

Magnus stroked his cheek and kissed his forehead.

"Its ok baby."

Alec smiled as his tears began to dry.

"I love you, Magnus."

Magnus beamed and hugged him tighter, peppering his face with kisses, making Alec blush as he winked and licked his lips as he pulled away.

"I love you too Alexander. I meant what i said, you're perfect and i love you."

Alec looked down and bit his lip, letting his arms fall from around Magnus' waist. Magnus' brow creased and he let Alec go.

"Baby? Whats wrong?"

Alec sniffed and whispered painfully.

"I'm not..."

Magnus looked at him curiously. "Not what?"

Alec sighed shakily. "I'm not perfect."

Magnus scoffed. "You are."

Alec shook his head. "Not any more. Not after..." His voice trailed off again and Magnus could feel his pain and he heard something almost like shame in his words.

"Alec? What do you mean? Because i think you're beautiful."

Alec licked his lips and hung his head, like he was trying to hide. "I used to be. But i have... I'm not what i used to be... He ruined me... I have scars. I'm horrifying to look at now."

Magnus gasped quietly and felt tears sting his eyes. He knew that Sebastian had physically hurt Alec, but he didn't realise to what extent it hurt him emotionally. It destroyed his confidence. And now Magnus' angel didn't know that he was the single most breath-taking being on the planet. And that broke Magnus' heart.

"Alec. Look at me."

He spoke softly but not lacking conviction and Alec was compelled to look up with those bright blue sapphires.

Magnus walked towards him and placed his hands on Alecs face, forcing their gazes to lock. Stroking Alecs cheekbones lightly, he spoke with more emotion and sincerity that he ever thought himself capable of.

"Listen to me. You are not ugly. And he didn't destroy you. I saw that knife of his, i know he hurt you, and i know you've got scars. But they are nothing to be ashamed of. Because they show your bravery. You didn't give in. You stood up to him, fought for your family, you never gave him the satisfaction of beating you. You should be proud of those marks. I know i am."

Alec was crying silently as Magnus stared into his eyes, holding him softly. Alec cleared his throat and spoke with a broken voice.

"You haven't seen them though. If you had, you'd run away. Theyre everywhere and it just shows how much he got to me. How stupid i was for trusting him and not you. Theyre a constant reminder that I'm just an ugly, stupid freak." He ended bitterly.

Magnus shook his head almost violently.

"No. I wont let you believe that. I wont let him destroy the boy i fell in love with. I love you. I love your scars. I love your bravery. Don't let him take your confidence, don't let him make you doubt yourself. Don't let him make you think you're anything less than the most exquisite beauty I've ever seen."

Alec laughed without humour and angry sadness in his eyes. "A bit too late for that. I don't want you to see me, because you'll leave. When you see them, you'll be repulsed. I was when i first looked in the mirror the other week."

Magnus shook his head again and pressed his forehead to Alecs, gripping his hands tightly as he felt himself shake and cry at Alecs broken shell.

"I will never leave you. And i will never be repulsed by you. Surely you know by now that you are obviously perfect otherwise i wouldn't be here, i wouldn't have fallen in love with you. But i have fallen so completely in love with you and nothing will change that. Let me prove it to you, because i worship you, Alexander. Let me worship you baby..."

He moaned as he pressed his lips to Alecs almost desperately. Alec kissed him back softly but quickly, pulling away to look down again. Magnus sighed and knew he'd have to make Alec see it some other way.

"Alec? You're not the only one with scars you know."

Alec looked up slowly with wide eyes and Magnus smiled a little.

"I have a gunshot wound. That means i have a weird scar on my stomach. Its big and jagged and pink and ugly. And do you know what? I'm proud of it. Because that scar saved your life. It was the price to pay to keep you alive and i would gladly pay it a million times over just to have you here with me."

Alecs expression softened as Magnus spoke and the green eyed boy knew that he was starting to get through to him. So he pulled out the big guns.

"I have other things. Not scars, per say, but marks that made people hate me and fear me all my life."

Alec was watching him curiously as Magnus took a deep breath and readied himself to unveil a truth that's he'd never told anyone before.

"My eyes. Theyre bright green yes? But otherwise normal?"

Alec nodded slowly, staring at Magnus' entrancing emeralds. Magnus licked his lips and sighed.

"Theyre fake. I mean, theyre contacts. I have to wear contacts every day to hide my real eyes. Because when i was born, my mother saw my eyes and thought i was the devil. She was highly religious and pair my eyes with fact that i also have no bellybutton, she believed i was essentially devil spawn."

Alec stared at him in shock and shook his head slowly, not know what to say. Instead, he gently kissed the back of Magnus' hand and held it tight as the green eyed boy continued.

"She hung herself in the barn after a few years, she couldn't stand the sight of me. I killed her. She's dead because of me. And when my step father found her there, he tried to kill me, he was convinced i was Satan. And to be honest, at the time, i believed that too. You see, i was the product of an attack on my mother. She was raped. And i came from that. Add that fact to my eyes and my dead mother and i understand people's logic. I was the devil. I believed it. And so i hide every aspect of my past, of me. I never speak of my family, i hide my eyes, i never let anyone in. I lie, or at least avoid the truth. I'm not perfect. But that makes me very good at spotting perfection in others."

Alec was crying and only when he stopped talking did Magnus realise that he was crying too. He'd never told anyone this. Not even Ragnor and Cat. But he wanted Alec to see himself the way Magnus saw him. Perfection.

Alec hugged Magnus tight before pulling away and biting his lip. He took a deep breath before he spoke and Magnus readied himself for the cliché apologies that everyone dished out without really meaning. But that never came. Instead, Alec simply said:

"Take them out."

Magnus pulled up short in shock. "What?"

Alec smiled and stroked his cheek softly. "The contacts. Let me see your real eyes."

Magnus gasped and bit his lip at Alecs request, but he knew that if he wanted Alec to trust him, it had to go both ways. So he took a step back and released his grip on Alecs hands, turning away and removing his contacts slowly. He put them on a shelf and turned back to Alec with his head down. He heard Alec sigh softly and felt a finger lift his chin until he was facing straight ahead. But he had his eyes firmly clenched shut and he was shaking slightly, knowing that this would freak anyone put more than a few scars. This could scare Alec away for good.

"Magnus... Baby, please open your eyes..." He whispered as he stroked Magnus' cheeks lightly, an encouraging touch of unconditional love.

Magnus took a deep breath and bit his lip, slowly opening his eyes and staring right at Alec through his tears.

Alec gasped when he saw them. Green like fresh cut grass but with flecks of gold bright as sunlight and rich as King Midas' golden touch. The black pupils were not round, like that of normal eyes, but vertical slits, like a cat. When Magnus blinked, his eyes glimmered in the light and Alec watched in fascination as Magnus' pupils dilated outwards at the sight of his smile.

Alec couldn't help it, he had to smile. Because he had never seen anything so captivating or alluring in his life. They were breath taking and unique, just like Magnus himself. Though they were different, they suited Magnus perfectly and Alec couldn't even remember what Magnus looked like with normal eyes; nor did he want to. Because this, this was...

"Perfection."

He whispered almost silently, his breath stolen by the sight before him. Magnus was watching him intently, his tears dry, as Alec spoke while he gently stroked under Magnus' eyes with tentative fingertips.

"Theyre beautiful. Amazing. You're amazing. Theyre perfect, just like you. I love them, i could get lost in them, Magnus. They put my eyes to shame. God, you're beautiful. I love you. And don't you dare ever hide them from me again. When we go out, that's ok if you want to, but when we're alone, no. I want to see the real you every time i look at you. And you are... Just... Wow."

He finished in wonder as Magnus smiled softly. Alec leaned up and kissed Magnus softly as their hands clasped together tightly. Magnus pulled back with a smile on his face and his cats eyes shining.

"See, not all scars are bad, Alexander. Everyone thought i was the devil because of these eyes, but you love them, you love me. And i swear to you that i will love your scars as you love mine. As i love you. I promise."

Alec nodded a little before kissing Magnus again, wrapping his arms around Magnus' neck as Magnus circled his hips. Their kiss deepened and it was like they were finally home. The shocks that ran through their bodies made them feel invincible, strong, loved. Like they were infinite. Together. And it made of their hearts one heart, beating in sync with every passing second. After everything they'd been through, they were bound forever, by love and by circumstance and they wouldn't have it any other way. They knew each other heart by heart and even an act as simple as a kiss was enough to bare their souls for the others eyes only.

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