Disclamer: not yet.

The next day John had come by with his family. She told me about John and Roy keeping the streets safe at night, and about little Sara. That's she grown a lot, how good and cute she is. And that one day she wants a child too, I could hear the sadness in her voice when she said that. I always knew that Felicity wanted a family, and I always pushed her away telling her I was no good for her. I've been so stupid, not seeing what was in front of me all that time. Now I'm afraid that she would move on. And I can't let her go. I need to wake up, now.

I was so happy Oliver moved yesterday but now he is just lying there just as still as before. I really hope he wakes up soon, I can't stand it to see him like this. Not hearing his voice or seeing him smile. I miss him. It's hard but I manage, for Oliver. So I talk to him as much as I can sometimes about what happened that day or about John and Roy. And other times about me. Stuff he didn't know or thing's I haven't told him about. "John was here he checked your wounds, he says there healing well. Lyla looked great, she's really happy with John. I hope I can be that happy to with someone one day. Sara is really growing fast and she is the cutest and sweetest baby I know. She has dimples in her cheeks when she laughs. I hope that one day I have a little one like her, that I can be a mother. Hmmm…" It's always hard to think about this because if I really want to be married and have a child someday, I know it wouldn't be with Oliver. He made that very clear. There were tears in my eyes and I quickly wiped them away. I can't think of that now, he needs to get better first. I lay my head down on his chest. I really want him to wake up but when he does I can never do this again so I will cherish every moment I can get.

She was sleeping, I could hear it at her breathing. After a while she begins to mumble. "Oliver… come back. Baby… yours…please…" Did she really dream about having a baby with me? I need to talk to her, tell her i love her. That I want… But what do I want? Felicity? Yes, I want her no matter what. But do I want a baby? Maybe… it's not like I thought about it before. But… Ahhh I need to wake up. Since last time I tried the feeling is getting back slowly. Now I can move all my fingers and my mouth opens when I try but so far no sound has come out. I tried harder, this needs to work. I need to wake up. My hand strokes her back and I can feel her waking up so I kept going. "Oliver?" Yes, yes it's me I can hear you. My mouth moves but still no sound but I keep trying this time I wouldn't give up. "Fe…Fe…" "OMG! Oliver." I could hear in here voice how happy she was but I wasn't because I could feel myself slipping away again. I tried one more time. "Felicity… Love you…" After that everything went black.

"Oliver just talked, he talked John." I was so happy, I feel so good Oliver talked. My name telling me he loved me. "Really?! Is he waking up?" I could hear the excitement in Diggle's voice. "I don't know, it's like he slipped away after that but it means that he trying right? That he is fighting to come back." "Yes that's a very good sign Felicity. Did you call Roy already?" "No I wanted to talk to you first." "I will call him. And I will pick him up on my way to you, I want to check on him." "Okay, see you in about 20 minutes?" "Yes. Be there in 20." I felt so good, he finally talked. And more, he said he loved me. "I love you to Oliver, I hope you know." I stayed with him till Roy and John where here, scared to miss it when he would speak of move again. But he stayed silent.

Another week passed without any sing of life from Oliver. Felicity got scared that he had a relapse. But this time refused to give up hope. She never leaved his sight, talked to him as she did before and got in bed with him at night. In this week the color got back to his cheeks and a few from his bruises where already healing.

When I woke up I could feel that something changed. I was more aware of my body then before. When I moved I could feel it was easier. I tried to speak. "Felicity." This time it came out loud and clear, but rasp for the lack of using. My throat hurt but I said it again. "Felicity." It felt good to say her name. I could feel her stiffen next to me and I opened my eyes very slowly. And there she was tears running down her eyes and shocked, but still as beautiful as ever. She just looked at me like she won't believe her eyes then the next thing I know she has her arms around me sobbing and laughing at the same time. All I could do was sneak my arms around her and holing her as close as I can.

I woke up hearing my name, it was Oliver. But it can't he hasn't moved or said anything in a week so I must be dreaming, but still it sounded like him. I looked carefully at his face searching for a sing of life when his eyes slowly opened. I couldn't believe my eyes. Finally he's awake! I could feel tears running but I don't care. He is really awake! I put my arms around him and hold him as close as I can. "Oliver how… you're awake! I…I…" This is the happiest I ever felt in my life, I just can't describe it. "You asked me to wake up." "Hahaha I asked you that more than 2 weeks ago and now you decided to wake up?" I tried to sound stern but I couldn't hide the smile that crept on my face when I said it. I hugged him again "Yeah I remember." "How are you feeling?" Leaning back so I can look at him but I still leave my arms around him. "Not that bad actually. But I've been better. Hey don't be sad the worst is past I'm here, I'm okay." He holds me even closer now. "I need to call Diggle and Roy, tell them the good news." "Felicity wait I need to talk to you first." "No Oliver I need to call, they're worried sick about you I can't let them wait any longer." "Fine but afterwards we need to talk." I gave him a little nod, I'm a little scared what he wants to talk about that's so urgent…Hmmm… It can't be good. Well whatever it is it has to wait I need to call the guy's first.

Felicity called and Diggle and Roy where here in an instant. They were very happy and relieved that I was okay. The hole day I answered questions and they told me what they've been doing in the city. Felicity's eyes never leaved me but something was wrong, she was distracted. When everybody left she was alone with me, but still not saying anything. "Come sit with me?" I padded the spot next to me on the bed. Slowly she walked to me sitting on the edge of the bed facing me. "What's wrong?" I took her hand in mine, stroking it. She looked at our hand with rumples on her forehead. "You wanted to talk to me." "That's eating at you? That I needed to talk?" "Yeah…" She gave no explanation why that's a bad thing, I didn't want to push so I didn't ask. "Felicity, I heard everything you said to me." "Everything?" She blushed. "Everything and I'm happy for it. Look I know I told you we couldn't be together and then when I left that I love you… I know it must all be very confusing for you knowing what I heard but I just wanted to say…" Why is it so hard to simply tell her the things I need her to hear? "I want to say I lo…" "Stop!"

"Stop!" I don't know why I stopped him but I coudn't hear it knowing he'd leave me. "I don't want to hear it again because it won't chance anything. You'll still say that you're no good for me and leave. I think no I'm sure that you are good for me." "Felicity" "No Oliver, i mean it. But like always once you made up you're mind nobody can change it." "Felicity." "No I don't want to hear it." "Felicity just stop talking. I love you." "Oliver…" "I do love you Felicity, with all my heart. And if you'll still have me I would like to stay with you, for as long as you want me. Because I need you and I can't live without you. I tried that, it didn't work. I was miserable seeing you struggle with your feelings and fighting my own, but I won't anymore Felicity I can't do that anymore. I can't stay away from you anymore." I don't know how to react, it is so much to take in. "But if you don't want me anymore I understand. Then I've waited too long." The choice is mine, but of course I want him. I never want anybody else then him, how can he doubt that. I love him, only him. "Of course I want you Oliver." "But?" "But nothing. I just can't believe it. You wanting me to. It's everything I ever wanted." "Oh believe me I really want you Felicity more then you know. I love you!" I smiled my biggest smile at him. Those stupid tears running down my face again. "I love you to!" He pulled me to him and I kissed him. After a while he stopped kissing me. "I still want to say one thing." "Oh okay." The smile never left my face. "I heard you talk about Sara." "Yes." "About you wanting a baby later." First I blushed but then fear kicked in. "Yes. I do." "I don't…" "Oh well Oliver…" "No let me talk, I don't want one baby, I want at least two." "You do want a baby?" "Yes I want a baby with you Felicity, only with you." I was so happy, this is the best day of my life. This time I pulled him in and kissed him with al I have. Tasting the promise of so much more on his lips.