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Mello

What. The. Fuck. Did he I was shocked, Matt just admitted that he wanted me, then fucking put it on me to make the decision. Hell no.

"That's what I thought." Matt spat seething as he moved to pick up the game controller. Whatever that thing is called GS4 Zbox something. Don't care really. Grabbing his hand I pulled the controller away and tossed it onto a chair.

"What did you think would happen? I would pin you to the bed and fuck you the second you told me it was my choice?" His face told me that was exactly what he expected to happen. "Don't you dare put this on me. I told you come to me when you're ready. You have obviously been thinking about it, but apparently your still not sure as you want me to decide if you gay or not. I'm no one's fucking guinea pig."

"But, Mello " Matt looked so confused, so helpless Dammit. Fight it Mello.

"I'm going to take a bath." Ignoring the hurt look Matt gave me I walked to the bathroom. Shutting the door I pressed my back to it before sliding down and sitting next to it. Was I actually feeling something for him? Dammit. I was setting myself up to be hurt. Again. Was he worth it?

I had been in the bath for roughly ten minutes when I heard a timid knock. "What." Matt poked his head in.

"Is your offer from last night still good?" He was pink, and he wouldn't look at me. Fight it. I stood and grabbed a towel.

"It's all yours." I brushed past him as I walked to our room.

"Mello." I whirled to face him as he grabbed my arm.

"Don't fucking touch me."

"What the fuck is wrong with you? One second you're all over me, now you're treating me like a fucking pariah. What the hell?"

"You think you're the only one that you're the only one that stands to get hurt on this? I've been there Matt. I know the confusion, but I can't tell you what to do. You have to figure this out. I can't do it for you." Sighing I bushed my fingers along his jaw.

"I'll wait for you to figure it out, but I won't wait forever, Matt."

Suddenly tired I slid on the sweats Matt had loaned me and slipped into bed. I heard movement in the bathroom for a few minutes before Matt came and slipped under the sheets next to me. At first he didn't face me, in fact he was just as tense as I was. Then I felt arms around me and a face against my back.

"Mello?" Matt's voice was soft and reserved.

"What."

"Maybe I I want to try this I'm scared, no, nervous however. I've never been attracted to a guy before. However, with you it just feels right. So, I think I'm ready to try this; but could we just go slow?"

I rolled over and felt his face press into my chest, mimicking our position from last night. Sighing I returned the embrace. "Sure, Matt. I'll try to go slow. No promises though." I smirked at him as he gave a "eep" as I pinned him to the bed and kissed him softly. We continued to kiss softly for a few moments before I leaned over him and turned off the lamp. "Goodnight, Matt."

"Goodnight, Mello." There was a heartbeat of silence before he continued. "Mello? Can I take you up on your offer tomorrow night?" I laughed softly and tightened my arms around him.

"If you don't chicken out, then yes. You can join me in the bath tomorrow."

"We should go swimming again before we leave too."

"Matt, go to sleep."

"Alright."