Ok so know it took a while but I started class little while ago and we have a completely new evaluation system and every teacher seems to be paid to send me as much homework as they can so yeah

So sorry I couldn't update earlier but until I get settles down with all of this I will not update as fast as I would want to so my deepest apologies

Anyway the show must go on

So sit back, relax and most importantly enjoy!

Disclaimer: should I even say it….*everyone nods*fine… I do not own teen titans if I did well that would be interesting….

As I entered the training area my feelings finally got the best of me making me break down in that moment. My body trembled with sobs as tears ran down my face making their way to the floor.

Why? Oh why? Why did he say that? Did I do something to deserve this? Was this that thing that they call karma? Or was it something just to make me realize that they were never my friends? Did I even deserve this?

My mind raced through the possibilities and unanswered questions as my body continued to tremble until I felt a hand in my shoulder making me jump in surprise. I looked up to see the young changeling looking down at me.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing friend beast boy" I said trying to hide my face from his view

"You're crying" he said

"It is nothing friend; I am the fine" I said trying to get up only for him to grab my wrist.

Hard.

"Why won't you tell us what is wrong with you?" He screamed at me. I flinched at his tone "Don't you see everyone is worried for you?" he grabbed my wrist harder this time

"Friend let go, you are hurting me" I pleaded in a whisper

"No Starfire. Are you so self-centrated that you can't see we all care for you?"

"Friend, please" my voice was barely a whisper now; my eyes filling with tears once more

"Take this pain and multiply it by ten Star that is how you make us feel!"

I managed to yank my arm out of his grip. The sudden motion making my body fall with a soft thud, that's when I saw the tell-tale bruise forming on my wrist. My eyes widened and instinctively I took a step back.

"Get away from me" I whispered

"Star I-"

"GET AWAY FROM ME" I yelled and ran out of there. Horrible flashbacks of my time with the gordians going through my mind.

No, that couldn't be happening again.

Just then the alarm started to ring. I ignored it and locked myself up in my room. Meanwhile I could hear all the titans getting ready to leave and eventually leaving the tower to fight whoever was attacking the city this time.

When I heard pure silence my emotions got the best of me and I collapsed right there. Sobs shook me harder and harder while my body trembled. My eyes stung with tears that rolled down my cheeks all the way to the floor. And I just couldn't stop; I couldn't control the growing pain inside my chest nor the equally growing feeling of fear or rejection.

Everything around me was confusing, nothing made sense whatsoever. I didn't understand what to do.

I cursed my luck many times then. How did I end up here? How or when did my dream turned into a nightmare? That's when I knew I had to get out of there.

I packed the necessary things and some things that had a lot of meaning for me, some money I had saved in case of emergencies and finally I took out the presents I had bought for my friends and the star shaped charms I had made and placed them in the ops room.

I took out my communicator and left it on my bed next to my fiery red charm and to a letter directed to each member of the tower.

I placed my bag on my shoulder and for the last time walked through the familiar tower halls until I reached the roof. Funny how this all was familiar but I felt like a guest in my own home?

I was leaving. Not only the tower or my supposed to be friends but my life.

For good

From this moment on Starfire was dead.

This was the new me, the one that knew how cruel the world could be, the one that was now heartbroken, the one that was stronger and wiser.

And I was never looking back.