Leela lay in her bed on her side as a few silent tears fell down her cheek; she knew what she was doing and she felt this gut-wrenching guilt but clearly it wasn't enough to stop her, it was never enough to make her stop; her words from early came to mind one more time, she let out a strangled sob as she thought about the humorous side of her words; it was never just one more time, Cameron was right.

She rolled over to face the empty space next to her where Cameron had been laying not long ago and the tears came even faster; she hated herself.

Cameron had slipped out of Leela's bed about an hour ago to go to work; he worked at 'The Hutch' where he was a chef alongside her brother Ste.

"I've got to go to work" she remembered him saying as his weight moved from the bed and he got dressed, after he was fully dressed he leaned down to kiss her but she moved away as she felt too guilty; this was what always happened after they had slept together, Leela always felt this overwhelming guilt, she always refused Cameron's touch after, but that never lasted long!

Leela lay staring at the empty space beside her before pushing herself up, wrapping herself in her thin robe she made her way to the bathroom, passing Peri's door on the way seeing her bedroom was empty.

"Pez" she called to see if her daughter had returned but luckily she hadn't.

She made her way into the bathroom and firmly shut the door before promptly jumping in the shower; washing her guilty away you might say.

Twenty minutes later Leela was downstairs sitting on the sofa watching Jeremy Kyle where a Mother was being accused by the Father of neglecting their children, she was getting into it before new people came on; a husband and wife, the wife was saying the husband was having an affair which of course he was denying.

Quickly shutting the television off with a sigh she chucked the remote on the table before suddenly the door came open and Peri came rushing in, she ran straight upstairs without a word.

Leela looked concerned before getting up "Are you okay Pez?" she called from the bottom of the stairs.

"I'm fine" came her forceful responce.

Leela made her way upstairs as she saw her daughter's bedroom door firmly shut so she knocked gently "Are you sure you're okay?" she called threw the closed door, she could hear the slight sniffles coming from her daughter "Peri, talk to me, I know something's wrong"

"I'm fine, just leave me alone" Peri said loudly as she sat on her bed frantically wiping at her eyes, willing the tears to stop.

"Okay, but I'm here you know, you can tell me anything, just when you're right I'm here oaky?" Leela said.

Peri didn't answer so Leela decided to go back downstairs, as she went she suddenly heard her daughter's soft voice "Okay"

...

Cameron was on his lunch break at work as he sat in the corner of the restaurant staring at his phone before hearing her, looking up he saw her smiling down at him before sitting down in the seat next to him "I was hoping to see you here" she smiled warmly at him before leaning in and gently peaking him on the lips.

"So what did your Dad want earlier?" he asked his wife.

"Oh, just Nico, she's not coping but Dad's looking after her" Sienna said with slight worry for her daughter.

There was a silence before Sienna spoke "So what did you and Leela do without me?" she smiled.

"Oh, you know, the usual... watched a movie, chatted, nothing special" Cameron said calmly.

"I'm glad" Sienna suddenly said.

"That we watched a movie" he asked with an amusing expression.

"No, that you and Leela get on so well now, I mean I know it was hard, I mean you too have history but that was a long time ago" she said "I'm just glad you can put it behind you and get along, I mean she's my best friend, I don't know what I'd do without her, you know..."

"Yeah, I know" he said "She's pretty special huh?" he added in a low voice as he spoke more to himself then his wife.

"It's still weird to think you two knew each other when you where teenagers" she said to her husband.

"Yeah" he mumbled "Anyway I have to get back to work" he said, getting up and sliding his phone in his pocket of his chequered trousers.

"Love you" Sienna said as she watched her husband walk away "Aren't you forgetting something" she said "Oh" he walked over and kissed her on the cheek before going back to work.

Sienna rolled her eyes at her husband before leaving the hutch and deciding to go and get Nico and take her out somewhere in the hope of cheering her up.

Sienna walked the short distance to the flat she shared with her Dad and Daughter, letting herself in she was greeted by her Dad "Where's Nico?" she asked.

"Oh, she left, she wanted to see Peri" Patrick answered.

"Oh, I was hoping to take her out, cheer her up, ever since she found out it's really got to her, I just don't know what to do"

"You should have listened to me, this is exactly why I didn't want anyone to know" Patrick said solemnly.

"Okay Dad, don't you have somewhere to be" she snapped angrily.

"Actually yes I do, they called me in for a board meeting so I'll see you later" Patrick walked over and kissed the side of Sienna's head before leaving the flat.

...

Peri laughed at her friend as her and Nico sat on her bed, the door closed as they didn't want Leela barging in on them.

"Do you think so?" Peri asked her friend.

"Yeah totally" Nico forced a laugh before her face fell remembering what was bothering her.

"Nico, what's wrong?" Peri asked sympathetically, forgetting about the magazine she had in her hands.

Nico shrugged her shoulders "You can tell me" Peri said gently.

"I just... it's just..." she stumbled over her words "I'm a freak" she said abruptly.

Peri threw the magazine she was holding onto her bed "What?" No you're not" Peri stated firmly "Nico, you are not a freak"

"Do you know who my parents are?" Nico asked without humour.

"I do and it doesn't matter" Peri said "Nico you have to understand it's not your fault"

"I'm some kind of weird freak and everyone knows it" Nico shouted before storming off leaving Peri calling after her.

Nico ran down the stairs of the Lomax house and to the door as Peri ran after her.

"Nico"

"Just leave me alone" Nico shouted halfway out of the door "I don't need your pity" she said and then she was gone.

Peri let of a frustrated sigh before turning to see her Mum who had seen it all.

"What's wrong with her?" Leela asked her daughter.

"You know she's having a hard time accepting her Mum and Dad" Peri replied as Leela nodded in understanding.

"Are you okay?" Leela asked causing Peri to roll her eyes "I'm fine" she huffed before going upstairs leaving Leela by herself once again.

Leela stood in the kitchen facing the sink and she got lost in her thoughts before she suddenly felt a force standing behind her.

"Hey" he whispered in her ear.

Leela didn't really think about it she just let herself feel, getting caught up in her own imagination of who she wanted it to be; the heart wants what the heart wants no matter how wrong it is.

She turned into the pair of arms around her and suddenly found herself being held by Ziggy Roscoe.

"How did you get in?" she mumbled into his shirt.

"The door was wide open babe" he chuckled quietly.

Leela breathed in the intoxicating smell of her boyfriend as the word simple came to mind; Ziggy was simple, it was easy to be with him, no complications, nothing but uncomplicated love.

Simple was easy however it was also plain and boring, but it was safe.

Complicated was hard, however exciting it was, it was still hard work and it was defiantly not safe!

Ziggy was safe.

Cameron was hard and complicated, so unsafe, he was married, it was so so wrong, but it was want her heart truly wanted, but she couldn't hurt her best friend over it.