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Ashlynn's POV
"Rachel, Henry, Maddy, and I were in Mark, Adam, Rachel, Heather, and Henry's room talking about what we would do after dinner..." I start.
Jesse Heather, and Natalia (Francine's daughter) were playing tag. Heather, and Natalia were it and they were trying to tag Jesse. Jesse thought the girls were running after him, but from what I heard the girls were in the kitchen eating apples. Jesse ran into the room and slammed the door shut behind him. I yelled at him and headed for the door. I tried to open it but I couldn't it was jammed. I told Henry I couldn't open the door and he shoved me to the side and said "let the pro show you how its done." He couldn't open the door either. He started to hyperventilate, banging on the door screaming help. That was when I realized we might not get out of there. So I started screaming and banging on the door with him. Then, Rachel got up and told us to stop panicking and to get outa the way. She couldn't open the door either, and I could see her trying not to panic. Jesse was standing in the back of the room looking at us like we were crazy. Finally Mark, and Adam heard our cries for help and came dashin up the stairs. Mark told us to get outa the way cause he was gonna try to break the door open by barging in. Right when he was about to collide with the door my mother showed up with a screw driver. When she opened the door I ran down the stairs down through the sitting room and into the kitchen. I grabbed a cup from the cupboards, opened the faucet, and let the water pour into the cup. I gulped the entire thing in just 2 gulps. Of course we were all mad at Jesse, but we couldn't stay mad at him forever.
"Oi and what's so funny about that?" Don asks.
"Jess's expression of course! And henry's face when he realized we weren't getting out," I say.
"Wait so 5 kids share 1 bedroom?" Jo asks.
"They live in a farm house brainless. The room is quite large."
"What was Maddy doing? George asks.
"I'd rather not say," I reply.
"Oh come on now," Bill says.
"No."
"Why not?" Bill asks.
"Because," I say on the verge of crying.
"Oh no, please don't cry," George says placing an arm around my shoulders. I don't cry I just stare off into the distance, completely lost in a flashback. I completely ignore the fact that the men are trying to get my attention. I could feel Lip shaking my shoulders furiously.
"Someone go get Lieutenant Winters, NOW!" shouts Lip. What they don't know about is secrets that burn inside me. They don't know anything about my horrid past. they don't know that I struggle to keep the secrets down my throat. Everything that ever happened that day was my fault. I can't stop blaming myself for it, even the sky seemed to blame me for it that day...
I wake up to something wet and cold being placed on my forehead. I shriek as I throw it across the room, my heart beating fast. I hear someone chuckle from the corner of the room. I turn my head to see to it is. Of course standing right beside my bed is my old pal Lewis Nixon.
"Great, just great. Why am I here."
"You passed out," he says causally, stepping closer to the bed.
"Mm I see, what time is it?" I ask.
"1000, why?"
"Shit I'm late for laundry duty!" I say jumping out of bed, but I end up getting dizzy, and I fall down. Expecting to land on the hard floor I fall into strong arms.
"Thanks Lew," I say patting his shoulder. I get up and walk to the laundry rooms. I see Annie sitting there already folding clothes. I greet her with a warm smile, and start working on folding the clothes with her. After a while, we finish the folding and start packing them up. She grabs a few baskets and puts about 5 packages of clothing into each basket. She begins to grab a few baskets to deliver but I stop her.
"Let me do it," I say.
"You sure you can do it all by your self?"
"Absolutely positive! Besides, I have lots of tricks up my sleeve I've been dying to show off!"
"Okay then," she says with a chuckle.
"Gee Ann I'm really gonna miss ya," I say.
"Well you don't have to miss me cause I'm a field nurse now," she says. I stare at her with the look of disbelief written all over my face.
"Well, then I'm sure you'll be a great nurse," I say giving her a hug. I slip 2 baskets on each of my arms, place all but one in a wheel barrel. I then place the last one on top of my head and walk out.
I get lots of weird glances in my direction but I could careless. To help balance the basket on my head I sing.
We pull upon the risers
We fall upon the grass
We never land upon our feet
We always hit our ass
Hide tidee, Christ almighty
Who the hell are we?
Zim zam, goddamn!
We're Airborne Infantry
I end up getting the job done, just in time for lunch. As soon as I take my seat in between Bill and Frank, Frank starts babbling on about what type of song im going to sing. It get to the point were I get so annoyed that I get up and throw my hands in the air.
"That's it! I'm not singing anymore, no matter how much you beg I just won't!" I shout. "You can thank Perconte over here for it," I say. I sit down in my seat and eat my meal silently. After my lunch, I head to my barrack to pack up my things. I look inside my foot locker take out all the things I need. A few pair of socks, t-shirts, shorts, uniforms, towels and my toothbrush bras and panties. I silently sing to myself as I put my things away.
I have to keep reminding myself
I'm not like anyone else
That's my face on my ID
That makes me V.I.P.
No one exactly like this
No one with my fingerprints
No one can touch you like me
No I can't fake what you see
They told me: "Girl, to get you're way, you've got to be a bitch!"
They say: "The guy won't get no way, if he's not filthy rich!"
You stop with little changes,
'Til you don't know who you are
Surround yourself with friends
Who only call you a superstar
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
But you don't know who you are
The sky is the limit
And I just wanna float
Free as a spirit on a journey of hope
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless
Millions of balloons tethered to the ground
Weight of the world tries to hold us down
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless,
I'm weightless, I'm weightless...
All the things I held in my fist
If I don't let go, I don't exist
They've become the things that define me
How I look and the things to buy me
That's not important anymore
I feel me rising off the floor
Light as a feather, I'm carefree
I'm weightless...
The sky is the limit
And I just wanna float
Free as a spirit on a journey of hope
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless
Millions of balloons heading to the ground
Weight of the world tries to hold us down
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless, I'm weightless, I'm weightless
La, la la la la...
They told me: "Girl, to get you're way, you've got to be a bitch!"
They say that: "A guy won't get the girl, if he's not filthy rich!"
It seems to me you're so heavy,
And weighs you down like that
Don't wanna be someone I hate
'Cause that don't make no sense...
The sky is the limit
And I just wanna float
Free as a spirit on a journey of hope
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless
The sky is the limit
And I just wanna float
Free as a spirit on a journey of hope
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless...
Millions of balloons heading to the ground
Weight of the world tries to hold us down
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah (I'm free as a spirit)
Oh yeah, oh yeah (There's nothing holding me down)
Oh yeah... (Nothing holding me down)...
"Lieutenant?" I here someone say.
"Jesus Jo, we need to get a bell for you," I say.
"Well then, anyway I got a delivery for ya," he says holding out a box.
"What is that wonderful smell?' I ask sniffing the air.
"Chocolate!" we say at the same time. I take it from him and open it. My jaw Drops at the site in front of me.
"What," Jo says looking over my shoulder. There on the box is about 20 Hershey bars, 12 boxes of juicy fruit, 60 lollipops, and about 100 chocolate chip cookies. I reach out for a cookie, and bring it up to my nose and take a big sniff. Smells like my Mothers cookies. I split it in half, and offer the other half to Jo. He takes it with a smile on his face.
"Mmmmmm! Just like Mama used to make," I say.
"You have to give me a Hershey Bar!" Jo shouts.
"Shush!" I whisper yell. "If Sobel is to find out about this he'll take it all away!"
"Take what away?" Sobel says from the door.
"Nothing Sir," I say avoiding eye contact.
"Really?"
"Yes Sir, just a pack of cigarettes," I say pulling a pack out of Jo's pocket, and quickly slide one into my mouth.
"Very well then, I see you've got new Lieutenant bars."
"Yes Sir." with that he walks out.
"That was strange...," I say.
"You don't say," Jo says reaching for a Hershey bar. I slap his hand away and give him a dirty look. He looks at me with puppy dog eyes, that I just can't say no to. I take a hershey bar break it in half and hand it to him. I grabs it and shoves it all in his mouth. I put the box with all of my belonging and seal the bag shut. I give him my half of the Hershey bar. This time eats it slowly. I shake my head, with a smile on my face taking a piece of gum from the pack I took out of the box shortly before putting it away. The other boys come filing into the room Lipton at their heels.
"Sargent?"
"Yes Ma'am?" he replys.
"You know you don't have to call me that," I say.
"I know and you don't have to call me Sargent."
"I know, anyways make sure the boys are all packed before dinner," I say.
"Yes Ashley," he says.
"See ya later," I say walking out the door, but Lip's voice stops me.
"Where you going?' he says with worry in his tone. I can tell he's worried that what happened earlier will happen again.
"I honestly don't know, I'll be okay," I say turning away. I really don't know where I'm going.
"Okay, just don't do anything stupid," he says. At times Lipton is like an older brother to me.
I end up just outside of Dick's door. I take a deep breath and open the door. He doesn't seem to notice my presence, so why not sneak up on him? I walk lightly on my feet over to where he sits on the cot, with his back to me. I softly place my hand on his shoulder. He jumps up off his cot, tumbling to the floor. I fall into a fit of laughter.
'Oh you think its funny,' he says looking at me, eyebrows raised.
"N- No I don't th- think it's f-funny," I say. "IT'S ACTUALLY HILAROUS!" I shout. Finally I calm down, wiping tears from my eyes.
"Are you done?" he asks. I silently nod my head. He goes back over to his cot, to finish whatever he was doing in the first place. I stare at the floor for a while before an idea pops into my head.
"Hey Dick?"
"Yes?"
"Do you have some paper I can borrow. Oh and something to write with too?"
"That's an odd request, but sure," he replys. After a little bit he comes over and hands me a paper and pencil. Our fingers touch for the slightest moment, and I swear I felt some sort of electric shock. I sit down on the cot next to his and write. I write down all my feelings, letting them drip onto the paper. I feel a few tears slip down my cheeks, and I quickly wipe them away. I bite my lip to prevent the sob from coming out. But I can't hold it in. So I try to sing to calm my self down.
"On the heels of war and wonder, there's a stormy world up there," I sing with a slight tremble in my voice. This causes him to turn around, and look at me. I watch him drop everything, and walk over to me. He wraps his arms around me silently, and i melt into his touch. I cry and cry and cry until my head starts hurting. he slowly unwraps his arms and stares into my eyes. Next thing I know we're having a full on make out session on his cot.
"Hey Doc, hold up!"
"What do you need," he asks.
"Where you headed?" I ask
"Colonel Sink asked me to give the new addition to the medic family a few pointers," he replys.
"I see," I reply with chuckle. He smiles back at me. His smiles are very rare.
'I should be going," he says turning around.
"Bye," I shout after him. I silently to the mess hall. I walked to the line to get my food. Thankfully Winters still hasn't arrived yet. I take my seat between Bill and Perconte. "Hey Frank?"
"Yes?' he says lo0oking up from his plate.
"I'm sorry bout earlier. I was just so tired," I say.
'It's fine Ash."
'And to show that I'm really sorry, I'm a sing a song that came straight from my heart." Everyone's eyes widened, as the all looked at me in shock. "Well are you losers ready for it or not?" I question. They all nod their heads furiously. I clear my throat but I stay in my seat.
If I could reach the top of the world
Be all I am it'd be so beautiful
If only...
I could be brave and I could be strong
I would know where I belong
If only
I wanna feel free to be who I am
What I'm about isn't more than I've been
Ready to show the world who I am
Start letting out what I am holding in
Find my own place to stand
So I could be who I am
Yeaaah
I have it inside, I know that I do
All that I am is gonna break through
If only...
I could believe and live it right now
Take the time to work it out
If only...
I wanna feel free to be who I am
What I'm about is more than I've been
Ready to show the world who I am
Start letting out what I am holding in
And find my own place to stand
So I could be who I am
I'm closer to where I'm meant to be
If I try I know that I can get there
I'm not gonna stop 'cause I believe
That there's so much more... to me to me
So much more oooohhh
I wanna feel free to be who I am
What I'm about is more than I've been
Ready to show the world who I am
Start letting out what I'm holding in
Find my own place to stand
So I could be who I am
Yeaah yea yeaah yea yea
So I could be who I am
I can be who I am
Yea...
I look up from my hands to find every single pair of eyes trained on me. Then he walks in.
Okay guys I'd just like to say a few last words... April Fools! Haha bet I really got you guys there. Anyway I'd like to give a special shout out to Crazeyforkasey. Knowing that people out there actually appreciate my story it makes me smile! Oh and I also got a Wattpad account also called Supportsthebullyed