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I hate girls. They are so annoying, annoying and….Actually, I can't find a word to describe their annoyance. It's like they follow me everywhere, give me love letter everyday and go "Kya! Kya!..." every time they see me. Well, except for her. She is my childhood friend also my next-door neighbor. She is the only person who stands up against me. I still remember clearly the first time we met.
Flashback
I was sitting alone in the garden, reading manga. Then out of nowhere, there was a voice.
"What are you doing?"
"Who dare to disturb my peaceful time?" I thought as I looked up and saw a girl who were around my age wearing a yellow dress with her hair in pigtail.
"Who are you?" I asked coldly.
"Starting today, I'm your next door neighbor. My name is….. Nice to meet you." She said and smiled at me. Her smile was radiant and warm at the same time. I felt safe in her smile.
"Hn."
"What is your name?"
"HN."
"You don't talk much, do you?"
"Hn."
"Do you have any friend?"
"Hn."
"Then from now on, I'll be your friend."
"Whatever, Polka."
"Polka? What do you mean?" She asked title her head to a side which I found it cute.
"Your underwear pattern."
"My unde- What? You peeked at my underwear. Now I can't get marry in the future." She began to cry.
"What do you mean?"
"My grandfather said that I could only show my underwear to the person I'll marry. Now you see it. I can't get marry anymore. Waaaaaaaaaa….."
"What kind of reason is that?" I thought as I looked at her. She was sniffing and rubbed her eyes at the same time. Cute….
Because of that, I sighed. "Very well, I'll be your friend. Happy?"
She looked at me with her red puffy eyes with confusion and surprise in it. Then out of nowhere, she got up, held my hand and smiled at me again. Her eyes were now twinkled and shined brightly.
"You said it. Promise, okay?"
"Hn."
"I'll take that as a yes."
I secretly let out a small smile.
End flashback
After that meeting, my life was somehow become better and happier. I soon realized that there is no girl like her in this planet. She is childish, clumsy, a natural idiot and an air-headed. But she is the only girl in this world can make me smile, make me feel at ease and make me want to protect her even more. She is like a drug to me and I can't get enough of her. Especially her smile. The smile that shines through the darkness and light up my boring life. At that time, I was very happy.
However, those happy days weren't last long. She left me. Just because of my pride and jealousy, I hurt her and lost a thing that I can't never get back.
Flashback.
I was going to class with my friends.
"Hey, are you going to the soccer game?" A boy asked
"Hn."
"I'll take that as a yes."
"…"
"…."
"Hey guys." A boy suddenly said out loud. "I found an letter" I turned to him. What? A letter?..
"Where did you get this?" I said coldly.
"In your desk"
"Hn"
"So what's this?"
"A love letter." Probably from fan girl….
"From who?" A boy asked
I turned the envelope around and on the letter was the name of my childhood friend. Her? She like me? Is this for real?
"Oh my god, isn't she your childhood friend?" That boy said again.
"Yeah." So curious..
"Read it. Read it…." They all cheered out loud as I slowly opened the letter..
"What is this? 'I have always love you ever since we met' " A boy said as he glanced at the letter. How dare he spied on my stuff? "Are you kidding me? She confessed to you. What will you do?"
"Hn. What will I do?" I said "What do you think?" Definitely a yes and she will be mine
"We don't know, she is a really nice and cheerful girl. You can…." The boys said
Nice and cheerful. That words kept ringing in my head as I slowly felt something inside me. Jealousy. Rage. No one could ever talk about her like that. Only me could talk like that. I have to make sure that she is mine.. However, my pride never let me do what I want.
"Disgusting." What? That's not the thing I want to say…
"Isn't it troublesome?" I said as I slowly tore the envelope apart. No, stop it…
Moment later, the door swung open and standing there was her. "It was a prank" She said. Somehow, her voice cracked. "I can't believe you guys actually think that I love that guy. He is just a pervert" And with that, she ran away from the classroom. I felt my hear sink. So does she love me or not?
I intend to chase her but the teacher came in so I didn't have the chance. After school, she went home first so I decided tomorrow will tell her the truth.
However, things didn't go as I planned. The next day, she didn't come to school. I thought she was sick but when the teacher came in and told the class that she would move out today, I was shocked. She didn't tell me this. I quickly got off my seat and ran outside, ignore all the shouting of the girls and the teacher in class.
If I don't hurry, she will be gone from my life forever . I ran with my full speed to her house. Luckily, the truck was still there. Then I saw her there with her parents.
I called her name. She turned to my direction. But she didn't seem a bit happy about it. Instead, her face showed sadness and angriness. Then she got in the car. I called her name again and again. She didn't turn around. And the car left before I even got to them. I fell on to my knees. I can't believe it. Just because of me. I broke her heart. I broke the heart of the one I love. I am such a fool. Now she left me. I can't believe it.
There were many needles came through my heart. It hurts. Why does it hurt so much? With that, I broke into tears, ignore the thing called 'pride'. But it was too late, too late for me to change my mistake…Then something shined on the ground. I picked it up. It was 'the symbol of our friendship'. Why is it here? It is because she doesn't want to remember me anymore? Or because she doesn't want to be with me anymore? Tons of questions started appearing in my head…Then realization struck me. Is this mean she will never come back to me…? No, no, no, this can't be happening… Please, please, forgive me. Please come back to me…I love you. The words that I wanted to say to her but it was too late….
After that day, I spent a week inside my room, not eating anything.
End flashback
The day I got out of the room was the day I changed back to my usual self before I met her. I was cold, hardly talked to anyone and distance myself from everyone. I could understand the reason because I lost the light of my life. My life was now dull, boring and dark. Not to mention 'lonely'. However, until my seventh grade, I met him and he became my best friend. Right now, my life is peaceful. But I still can not forget the mistake that I made from the past along with a hole in my heart.
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By the time you read this sentence, I am already a high school student. And I swear that I will find her again, even it takes me all my life. And if she doesn't remember who I am, I will make her remember and make her fall in love with me again.
Hello everyone.
Like my other stories, you will have to wait for the new chapter
However, after I finish one story, either 'Secret that can not be told' or 'Unbelievable fate' I will update the next chapter.
The purpose of this chapter is for you to understand 'his' feelings
Thanks for reading and supporting me.^^