Hello everybody! Im finally back.
Life has brought me to an extreme low in the last few months, and I just stopped writing, BUT good news I'm back now I couldn't just leave you wonderful people hanging. Your reviews and PMs keep me going honestly.
I would like to say my life sucks but that's not true at all there's someone out there who's got it worse then me, I only had my heart broke and in time it will heal. So cheers to you all! This chapter is for you guys :)
The song that I'm going to be using for the next few chapters is Breaking Down by Florence + The Machine, if you haven't listened to her please be sure to listen to her after you read this chapter.
Breaking Down
You look over at her and she's looking out the window you can tell shes just trying to take in all the things that she learned today. A part of you wishes you've never opened your mouth but you had to tell someone. You know for a fact you can trust Brittany with your life and your secret is safe with her.
The drive back to her house is silent but its not an awkward silence. You try to make small talk with her but its just not working. When you walk through her front door you're greeted by her brother and two of your football buddies, her mothers in the kitchen and she informs you all that diner will be ready shortly. You turn on the TV as soon as you enter the bedroom; she sits at the edge of the bed next to you. She lays her head on your shoulder and takes a deep breath.
"If I would've known telling you would make you this upset I would've never said anything." you tell her
She lifts her head and looks at you "I'm glad you told me. I just want to kill him." she says "I still think you should tell someone, he tried to kill you things might go further next time. I need you to be around forever because, I love you and I don't want you to be hurt. I've gotta protect you. You keep me safe so it's my job to keep you safe." she says as you wipe the tears from her eyes.
You kiss her forehead and pull her in for a hug, she wraps her arms around you and kisses your forehead. "You're my guardian angel." you tell her.
(KNOCK! KNOCK!) "Britt mom said diner is ready." your brother says.
Everyone is sitting around the diner table waiting for the two of you so they can eat the lovely meal Mrs. Pierce has prepared. Josh and Frank; your tight-end and running-back are also staying for diner. Mr. Pierce is siting at the head of the table and you always get stuck siting next to Brittany's brother who eats like a wild dingo. You all gather hands and Vance blesses the food.
"So Santana when do you think that shoulder of yours will be better?" Mr. Pierce ask you.
You swallow your mouth full of mashed potatoes and give him the same answer you give everyone "Soon I hope." and you continue to eat.
"Well if we want a championship again this year, then we've gotta get you healthy. How many passing yards did you have in your last game?" Mr. Pierce loved sports and when he started there was no stopping him.
Frank answered before she could "San, was amazing in that game. She had 2 touchdown passes, 60 rushing yards, and 176 passing yards, and she scored a touchdown!" the other players at the table cheered for her and she just gave a little smile. "As soon as she gets better maybe we can win a game, we went from having a undefeated record now weve lost 3 straight games." he snorted.
You look over at Brit and she gives you faint smile. "Dad, Santana got offered a full ride to USC and a bunch of other places." Brittany stated
You blushed once you felt all eyes on you. Your buddies were congratulating you because they knew what a great quarterback you really were. Diner was going great until Mrs. Pierced asked about the attack.
"So have the police found any new information on who may have attacked you?"
Your whole body went stiff and you looked down at your plate everyone at the diner table stopped talking, you shook your head "no" and did your best to hold back your tears.
After diner you go to Brittany's room and wait for her to come out the bathroom, you glance at her clock its only 6:45 you huff and puff because its still early and you and Britt can still have a fun evening. You didn't even notice she came and laid beside you because your so deep in thought. Her leg is draped across your hip and she's got her head on your chest. She said something but you got lost looking in her eyes, instead of asking what she said you just say "I love you, Brittany." and she smiles at you.
All alone
It was always there you see
And even on my own
It was always standing next to me
I can see it coming from the edge of the room
Creeping in the streetlight
Holding my hand in the pale gloom
Can you see it coming now?
Oh, I think I'm breaking down again
Oh, I think I'm breaking down
"Santana? Santana where are you? Come here princess." you can hear him calling you, he's calling you because he wants to have 'special time' all of your cousins are at your house and he just wants to play with you but you don't want to play today so that's why your hiding. You closed your eyes only for a few seconds and when you opened them he was standing right there. "Why are you hiding from me, princess?" he sits down next to you in the closet and you slide away from him and he sighs "You hurt my feelings Santana." your parents had always taught you to be kind to everyone and to treat people the way you want to be treated.
So you moved near him again and apologized "Uncle Ray can you have special time with someone else today, I - I - I don't like special time its not fun. It hurts really bad." your crying now you want this to be over but you don't think it ever will be "I want tot play with everyone else, can you just pick someone different?" you begged him.
He grabbed you by your arm and pushed you to the floor, you held your legs together as tight as you possibly could but that just made him angry, he grabbed you by the face only thing you could do was close your eyes and hope that someone would open this closet but they didn't. You were squirming around trying to get away but he was just to strong, he ripped your shorts off and laid on top of you he was so heavy you could barely breath. "If you make a sound I'm not going to hurt all of your little friends, Quinn, Kurt and all the other kids in your class. Okay?" you just agreed to be as quiet as a church mouse.
You can hear him unbuckle his pants and he started to touch himself and then he started touching you, his hands were sweaty and cold and he smelled like old cigarettes and booze, he kept his hand over your mouth while he continued his assault you could feel every movement and it wasn't pleasant, your insides hurt, your chest felt like it was being crushed, your lower body parts were paralyzed from his weight but you could feel yourself being ripped apart.
All alone
Even when I was a child
I've always known
There was something to be frightened of
You know that I can see you coming from the edge of the room
Creeping in the streetlight
Holding my hand in the pale gloom
Can you see it coming now?
You open your eyes and look at Brittany's clock its only 8:30, you look at Brittany who's still sleeping you just stare at her "San, stop staring at me." she says.
she rolls on top of you and starts kissing you playfully, she blows a raspberry on your lips you both laugh "I love you Santana." you don't have to say it back because she already knows you love her. "I wish you could stay the night, I've really been missing you." she slides her hand down your pants and grabs exactly what she's looking for, your eyes roll back and she bites your neck "Baby just really quick please? Only five or ten minutes that's all I need." she's a full blown sex kitten now.
Just as your unbuckling your pants your phone starts to vibrate, you reach for your pocket but Britt moves your hand back to her lower back. "Britt it might be important - oh my goodness Britt that feels so good." she's biting your neck she knows that makes you melt; anything she does with her mouth makes you melt honestly. Your phone is vibrating again so it's probably important. "I should probably answer it now - its - its ringing again." you moan because she biting your ear and you can feel yourself growing in size because now you need her.
Neither of you are sure how you ended up in doggy style but you've got Brittany's face buried into a pillow and your hands secured on her hips pulling her back into you, sex with Brittany is amazing she knows all the right things to say to boost your ego, you could careless that your phone is vibrating again. You trying your hardest not to cum because you know Brittany isn't there yet but you cant hold it "Britt I've - gotta pull out or I'm gonna-" but she cuts you off.
She lift her head from the pillow and grabbed a handful of your shirt "No - San, baby please don't pull out." she panted out. So you don't pull out you hold her extremely tight to your front and she goes stiff.
You wipe the sweat from your forehead, lean over and kiss Britt's shoulder you both feel your phone vibrating again. "Okay I'm going to answer that now." you chuckle. "Okay mom I'm on my way home now - yeah - okay - bye." you place your phone back in your pocket and slide back into bed with Brittany. "I've gotta go home." you kiss Brittany on the forehead and next thing you know ten minutes have passed "Okay babe I've really gotta go home." she pouts and give you a soft kiss on the nose "You can walk me if you'd like..." you suggest.
You two walk across the street hand-in-hand but Brittany stops in the middle of the street "He's here." she say lowly and her voice is full of glum.
"Its okay Carlos is here he wont let anything happen to me, don't worry I've got a plan to make this all go away so don't worry." you kiss her and she walks back across the street "Hey, I love you Brittany S. Pierce!" you shout across the street.
She turns around in front of her door and shouts "I'll love you forever Santana Lopez!" and then she's gone.
You inter your home and there he is sitting at the bar in the kitchen drinking with your father, and that fear that once kept you prisoner grabs you by the ankles and swallows you whole.
Oh, I think I'm breaking down again
Oh, I think I'm breaking down
I hope you all enjoyed this chapter, I really do apologize for the long wait. In the next chapter its more of the Lopez family and not much Brittana I'm sorry my lovely's.
I've been reading a lot on sexual assault as you all know and I try to leave an educating fact at the end of every chapter.
Sexual predators manipulate there victims by saying they'll hurt people close to them or saying that the victim has hurt them in some type of way.
All of your reviews are welcomed PMs are more then welcomed don't be shy guys.
Special Thank You to my friend Snowdrop1026 : )
Love Neko