"Hey,I know you. You are in those group meetings,yeah?" I asked her and she smiled.
"Yeah. My name is Stella." she said and we shook hands. She had her long hair up in two ponytails and she had brown eyes. Her clothes were similar to Rivens. Dark, skinny jeans, a band t-shirt and martins. The same as his actually. She was very skinny and tall. Almost as tall as me.
"I'm Helia. Are you headed to the meeting or...?" I asked and she nodded while keeping the smile.
"We have meetings only when someone new comes around. So we've been waiting for you." She said and he headed to 'the room'. 'The alive room'? Ah whatever.
"Hey guys." I said as I walked in.
"H-Hey." Timmy waved. when I didn't wave back he hit himself in the head... um... yeah. I sat down on the floor and we formed a circle. The Beauty was there, right in front of me.
"So? Who is going to confess today?" A dude with blonde long hair asked. His light, pircing blue eyes looked similar to mine. There was a minute of silence.
"I guess I'll go." Stella said and sighed.
"Hi everyone. I'm Stella and I have anorexia nervosa." she said, while obviously forcing a smile.
"Hi Stella." everyone,this time me too,said.
"This story started when I was 14. I liked this boy,and... I told him that. I told him what I felt... But he rejected me. He said I was too fat. That he only dated skinny girls. So I went home and that's the first time I ever saw all the fat I had. All of it, just hanging on my bones. My BMI was 22.5 then."
"What is a bmi?" I whispered to Riven, who was sitting next to me.
"I don't know man." he whispered back.
"Ugh, Riven! I already told you at least 20 times! It's body mass index!" she yelled and we stopped talking. We both looked at her furious face expession. She continued.
" Anyway. I started my diets. When I lost some weight, I went up to him and asked him was I skinny enough for him. I was 15 at that point... He... He asked me to come over at his house after school. I did, I was so happy. When I got there, we were alone. He took me to his room and started kissing me... He said that, If we had sex, he would be my boyfriend. And... um..." she stopped talking, then a tear escaped her eye and went down to her blushing cheeks. Beauty held her hand.
"And... I gave in. I had... I had sex with him. After that I... I asked him are we going to be together, and he said we will... After a week, we had sex again. I lost about 2.5kg in that week so I was skinnier then the first time. After we... you know, he placed his arm on my ribs. He said that the skinnier I get, the better It feels. So I continued. All until
I stopped eating completely. I started collapsing one too many times, and my mum finally noticed about 7 months ago. She started forcing me into eating and I gained some weight... the boy broke up with me... And as expected I stopped eating again. All the food my mother was giving me I gave to the dogs on the street. Soon, it went too far. I collapsed in the middle of my driving lesion. I almost died, and... my mum took me here. I'm now 17. I'm here for 5 months now. Now my BMI is 13.4 and... I'm still not eating." she said and looked at the floor. Honestly, she didn't seem that sad when she said the last sentence. Like she was proud.
"We don't judge you." we all said and she wiped off her tears.
"Stella..." a guy with short brown hair called her quietly. His brown eyes looked so sad.
"Yeah?" she asked and looked at him.
"Can we talk? Alone?" he asked and she nodded... both of them left the room. I was too interested. I needed to hear the conversation.
"I'm gonna go take a shower. I'll be back in 20." I said and they all nodded. I got out and sneaked up on Stella and the guy.
"You really didn't eat a thing yesterday?" he asked her and she looked at the floor. She kept her head down, not wanting to face the guy in front of her.
"Answer me, please." he said and she started crying again. This time loudly, covering her face with her shacky, skinny hands.
"I did. I ate the chocolate you gave me for Valentines. You know, you gave it to me now because you didn't know are you gonna be able to go out of here on 14th?"
"I know. And I'm proud of you for eating it. But why did you lie?"
"Because I'm ashamed, Brandon. I even had a panic attack yesterday about it. I cried in my room for hours." she said and moved her hands away from her face. So his name is Brandon, I though. And she is the girl I heard crying in the room close to mine.
"But why, Stella? It's normal to eat. Plus that wasn't nearly enough for a full day."
"I know, but... When I was little, everyone knew me as the fat kid. Until I lost weight. I don't want to be the fat one again!" she yelled and he hugged her.
"Stella, you are not even close to that. And If you ever do get, as you say, fat again, you know I will still love you."
"Oh Brandon." she said a small, light smile formed onher face. They then started kissing, so I decided I should leave them alone. I got back to the 'alive room'.
"That was a quick shower." Riven said as he looked at my clothes. I haven't changed them.
"I changed my mind,I'll do it later." I said as I sat down,back on the floor.
"Whatever. Anyway, wanna go for a smoke?" he asked the girl with long dark blue hair, similar to mine. Her dark, playfull eyes looked at Riven and she nodded. They then stood up and got out of the room.
"I... I need... to go. My sh-shrink is.. waiting..." Timmy stood up.
"Oh shit, the shrink!" I yelled as I ran out. I ran past the clock. It was 12:46pm. I was almost an hour late. Shitshitshit.