NEW STORY, THIS IS WHY THE UPDATE WAS SOOOO LATE. ITS ON MY PROFILE (TWILIGHT TOO, SAM/OC) CALLED "I Regret Everything Right Now".
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I ran the way that Alice went through the crowds, pushing on teenagers to get out of the way. They eventually just cleared out a path for me and I got to the end figuring out Alice was no where to be found. I turned around and hauled ass the other way, going down another hall. Her scent was slowly leaving and I figured out that it was really only on the humans I passed by. All the humans that were going another direction.
I went outside finally, trying to get a location on it from the parking lot. She was gone, long gone. I was an awful tracker to begin with and this wasn't going well. I kicked the wheel of the hummer, jarring the car slightly. I slid down to lean back against the hubcap and pulled my knees to my chest. I rested my head on them, feeling the need to cry slowly over take me.
It was hopeless. I hurt her, forced her away, and I didn't even know she was still bothered about that. I had long forgotten it. I loved this life with Alice and the Cullens I was just sad to let go of my old one, I loved Bella especially. I'd been there for as long as I can remember and I wanted to always be there. My shoulders began to shake.
She wouldn't want me anymore, I had pushed her away for the last time. I should have been so much more loving, I just wanted her back. I wanted her to hug me again and tell me its okay.
"Irene? Are you crying?" I heard a voice farther away ask me, and I sniffled looking up as it got closer.
"Oh baby. I'm so sorry." It was Alice. My face began to crinkle into a smile as I looked up at her but then the sobs began to come out harder as I realized she didn't want me anymore. She'd been angry and hurt and it was all my fault, how could she ever want me now? She got close enough to wrap her arms around me and I took a bit of solace in the fact she still smelled safe and comfortable like my Alice.
"I never wanted you to go, I-I love you. I don't want to ever leave you and you never took anything away from me, Ali. Please don't hate me o-or leave me or anything, please stay." I blubbered, hanging on to the arm that I could see in front of me. Today was dramatic as fuck. God fucking damn, first I can kill people then I lose my mate. WHAT THE FUCK, WORLD?
"Oh my goodness, Irene. I thought you just lied to me about being happy, I'm never going to leave you, I love you too much to do that to either of us. I promise." She sounded comforting as she whispered this into my ear, telling me all the things I needed to hear. The water works, the emotions, the general out of controlness was calming down now. I felt rooted to Alice. She was my everything.
"We're going home. I'll let someone know on the way that you're having a study club after school with me, okay?" Alice said this and pulled us both up off the ground. She looked around at the cars and the empty parking lot and pulled us towards the woods.
We'd run to the Cullen's house. I was alright with this, I waited for her to put me down so I'd run with her but she wound up running with me in her arms. I wasn't sure how we hadn't hit any trees but I was definitely content with just holding onto her.
She sat me down lightly on her bed and for the first time in a while I looked around at what was technically our room. She'd painted one wall black with a single line of white damask's painted up the wall. The other three were white, no design on them. She laid down next to me and I felt her hand searching for one of mine. I immediately grabbed hers and we wove our fingers together, staring up at the ceiling.
"Ali?" I called out her name in a whisper and she hmm'd. I could feel her looking over at me so I turned on my side, looking at her.
"What's going to happen?" I asked nervously, she frowned and brushed a bit of my hair over my shoulder, leaning over to kiss it before laying her head back down to respond.
"Eleazer will tell the Volturi, they'll decide if they want to see you. If they do, we'll get a letter and I'll take you to Voltura. They'll most likely insist you have some control over it, which we'll work on in a bit and they may try to recruit you into their ranks." She responded, speaking slowly as she watched my reaction. I nodded slowly.
"Recruit me?" I raised a brow at the idea and she nodded.
"They have a guard, they're made of vampires who have special combat abilities or talents that make them useful to the Volturi. They'll try to get you to join, they've been going after Jasper and I for ages. I almost joined when I thought you wouldn't show up." She whispered the last part and I frowned.
"Why wouldn't I show up?" I asked totally confused, I mean I understood that Alice had seen most of my life as I grew up but I couldn't think of a reason I wouldn't have come to forks.
"It was after you met Dahlia." Alice spit out her name like it was poison to her. I raised a brow.
"You saw Dahlia?" I asked quietly. If she'd seen the things I'd done with that red head, no wonder she was so nervous about me hating this life. It had no Dahlia, but my life hadn't had Dahlia in it for years.
"I saw...everything with that tramp." She was glaring past my shoulder now and I giggled.
"Alice, didn't you have someone around before me?" I asked with a small smile that quickly turned into a frown when she shook her head no. She rolled over, looking at the wall, her back was facing me now.
"You were human. You didn't even believe in the idea of soul mates. I didn't exist to you but you were everything to me. I watched you grow up without me and I had to so I'd be ready for you when you finally came to me." She murmured sadly and I frowned harder, scootching over to be able to wrap myself around her.
"Forget about her, shes long gone. She hasn't been around for years, Ali. I don't even know what shes up to nowadays. You're everything I'll ever need or want. More even. You're perfect for me, I don't care what happened to Dahlia." I whispered this into her neck, kissing it softly a few times. She rolled back over and looked at me suspiciously.
"You mean it? You're not lying to make me feel better?" She asked softly, looking at me for reassurance and I smiled loftily at her.
"Yes, Ali. I mean it. I pinkie promise that you're perfect for me in everyway." I said this with a giggle and Alice's frown broke into a refreshing smile. We spent a few hours just laying there, her playing with my hair or me just playing with her fingers. I could honestly do this forever.
I wound up getting a sleep over out of Charlie that let me stay here for the night and go to school with them tomorrow. He agreed on the condition we finished that 'super important project for English'. I agreed quickly, if he ever asked what work we did I'd pull up my old essay for The Scarlet Letter.
As I watched Alice go through our closet I began to realize how much money the Cullens had. They lived lives of fortune and they could have fame literally just for Rose's looks.
"Come on in!" There was a soft knock at the door and I said this, knowing they could hear me perfectly well.
"Hey. Just wanted to check in, what are you guys doing?" Rose's head popped in and I smiled at her as I caught a pair of stilettos that Ali tossed out of the closet.
"Alice is doing a closet cleaning. She wants to go shopping and add in most of my stuff from home too, even though she thinks I don't know what she's doing!" I responded easily and yelled the last bit at Alice who ignored me. Rose nodded as she took in the pixie as she dashed from side to side.
"Makes sense. She does have the biggest closet. Oh! I like those." Rose caught a pair of heeled boots that Alice tossed out to her.
"I knew you would! They'd look great with the white linen shirt you have, Rose." Alice sang out from the closet and I'm sure I had a love sick look on my face as I watched Alice zoom out of the closet, smoothing out her hair. Her normal hairstyle was the pixie cut but spiked out. Mine was just long brown hair, it was longer than Bella's because I hated going to the hair dresser. They pulled my hair out a lot and after a certain age, I refused to go.
"Bye you two. Glad its all been worked out." Alice returned the smile and I knew for sure we looked ridiculous when Rose rolled her eyes and walked back out.
"Bye Rose!" We both called out, giggling to each other. She pulled me up off the bed and took my hand, leading me to the closet.
"Okay so I know that you're shorter than me and we can only really share dresses or skirts or shirts, but I wanted to make sure you knew that you're apart of this family. I mean I know there's issues with two girls getting married so I figured my wedding ring could just be that until they figure themselves out." Her voice got lower and her hand drifted to the bite mark on my thigh. I got a shiver and smiled happily at her.
"I got it, Ali." I said fondly, and pecked her cheek. She clapped her hands together, excited.
"Good! I just wanted to make sure you knew that after today's little run around. Are you happy?" She got serious at the end and I nodded.
"Yes, Ali." I responded patiently shaking my head at her silliness. She rolled her eyes at tone and kissed my hands.
"I just want you to know this is a forever thing, I know we didn't exactly get a "new mate orientation" day. Human's have flings, vampires can to but when you live for thousands of years, you enjoy having a partner to live through it all with. When they do figure themselves out, I promise we can have whatever kind of wedding you want, baby." She was in a lovey-dovey mood and after today I was in love with it. She leaned down and kissed me softly.
"I get it. Whats mine is yours and whats yours is mine. If I have any questions, concerns, or doubts, I'll ask ya. Okay? Now calm down. We're never having today happen again, I love you and I know you love me and I'm happy." I pulled back and held her shoulders to keep her in place as I stared into her eyes.
She started to smile after the love bit, the lines around her eyes crinkled and I could tell that she enjoyed hearing it. She nodded and pulled me into her shoulder, I laid my head on her chest with my hands wrapped around her lower back.
"ALICE? I'M TAKING IRA FOR GTA." Emmett yelled up and I jumped at the sudden volume. Even though I knew it was just Emmett, Alice growled and pulled me closer.
"Will we ever get over the whole touchy-feely phase?" I pulled back and asked her softly, she shook her head.
"Not really. No. I mean we'll alway want to be around each other, but it won't be such a serious need after some time. We're a newly mated pair, baby. Now go beat Emmett at GTA while I deal with the clothes, I'll be down in a few." She pulled away entirely and shooed me. As I walked away she lightly smacked my ass before I got out the door and I yelped from surprise. She laughed at the look I gave her as I stomped away.