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'Blond' thoughts
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-Lavi's P.O.V-
From the moment at the Order all the way to the train, I knew something was off about Allen. I knew it... people were sending hate messages and attacking him. I know he is strong, but sometimes I can't help but feel that he isn't as strong as he seemed. I'm worried for him... I know that everyone is hating him for attacking me, but he didn't mean to do it! I know what I saw, in his eyes...that pain, shock, sorrow, and lastly...fear. I know he didn't mean to do it! I bet he doesn't even know why it had happened! I know that he is scared of everyone now, I can tell. He has changed he does speak anymore, he doesn't even look at anyone, and that smile...his smile that could brighten up a room in a moment...it's...gone. I don't see it any more. Something big caused him to be like this...but what. Worst of all his caring eyes are...gone they are so dull, full of nothingness. They looked so lifeless, like a broken doll. What happened to him.
I can tell for his eyes, he feel no love and he know no one loves him...but that is wrong if only he knew that me and Kanda will always love him. He is like my little brother, that I could never hate. While I knew Kanda could never hate him. In fact it was quite the opposite. He loved him! Even though he won't say it out loud...The man just had to much pride to say anything, But I knew even if he had so much pride, Allen need to hear those words. That he is loved even after what he has done.
While we were on the boat, Yu-chan and I were trying to figure out what had happened to him. Something else was giving off a bad vibe. We both know that something big must have happened to him to make him like this, but we can't figure out what it was exactly! We have even notice the way he starts panicking
Once we were on the train, the moyashi looked at us, but seemed to ignore our presence. I also took note that he fell asleep with his head leaning up against the window and the shallow breaths he was taking.
'I'm going to look around the train' Yu-chan said as he got up from his spot and walked over to the door.
'Alright' I replied as I watched him walk out the door. I knew he want to check if there were any akuma on the train, but I knew he wanted to find a peaceful place to collect his thoughts. Now it was just me and the Moyashi in our compartment.
Not long later Allen was starting to wake up. When I heard him move I looked over at him. When we made eye contact, It felt like it has been for ever since I ever looked him the eyes...But all I saw that same hurt, fear, and...regret in his eyes like before. I hated to see that expression on him - it even affected me. I notice Allen flinching away when we made the eye contact and I just couldn't take it any more. I got up from my bench and walked over to Allen's seat and sat next to him. I notice he was trying to ignore me, but I wouldn't have it. I grab him and pulled him to my chest and held him in a tight hug. Keeping his head close to my heart. I soon spoke so softly, I thought it wasn't even possible.
"Allen… I'm sorry….I'm sorry you have to be the one suffering… without anyone to be there for you...or even their help." I paused for a moment before continuing.
"I'm sorry I wasn't there for you…but I don't blame you for what happened...I know you didn't mean it. Hell I don't even know if you know what happened, But you should know I will be here for you and if you need a shoulder to cry on, I'm here." I paused again to wait and see if I got any response, but there was none. I could feel him relax a bit in my arms, so I continued on speak, every word I spoke made him relax just a bit more.
"I'm not the only one. There's Kanda too, even though he won't admit it…We are here for you Allen, so please just let it out." Once I got those words out I could feel all the tension in him, leave. He just laid there on my chest, relaxed. It was then that I noticed the heavy pants coming from him. I also saw that he seemed to have fallen asleep.
"Oi. Allen are you okay?!" I got no answer, and That is when I started to panic.'He's definitely asleep.' I thought to myself. I placed my hand to his forehead and noted that he had an insanely high fever.
'How come I didn't notice this fever before?!' I panicked mentally, while trying to figure out what was happening to Allen.
'How long has he been like this? This is not normal.' I knew the moment we got off this train, Allen would need medical attention.
It was at this moment Yu-chan chose to come back into the cabin, and let me tell you, he was not pleased at all to see me holding the one he loved to my chest. If looks could kill I knew I'd be dead by now.
I just hope he will listen to me...before he chose to Kill me.