The bell rang and distracted Anna for a moment as the two girls sat in the hall.
Sitting there in the hall, looking at the beautiful redhead in front of her, Elsa was transcended with warmth and comfort. Feelings she hadn't felt in an excruciating long time. She stared into Anna's eyes and looked for any hints of deception. Lies behind the redheads words.
But the longer, and the deeper she saw how Anna was really there for her at this moment. The singing, and the simple questioned that followed seemed so foreign. No on had ever done this for Elsa. And why do it, why chase someone you barely know? Why help someone who is not willing to help herself?
"Ice skating." Her tone was low and very raspy. She felt the sting of stomach acid on her neck, and the pain of her aching stomach muscles. Her legs came up to her chest and her arms wrapped themselves around them. Her head went down into her legs and she cried again. She didn't know why though. It wasn't for how forlorn she felt or how comforting the girl next to her was being.
"Hey, relax. Throwing is not the best feeling in the world, but don't you feel better, getting rid of whatever was upsetting your stomach so much." Ann placed one of her hands on one of Elsa's glove covered hands.
This time though Elsa didn't move, she let Anna's hand rest on hers and continued to cry. For a while the both of them just sat there. Anna would hum the song she had just done, while Elsa sat there and listened. Who is this girl?
Ann finally spoke in low intrigued tone. "So ice skating huh? That's really cool. I've never, ever ice skated before but I've always wanted to. My friends have been asking me do it with them for the past couple weeks but I've been busy with work, school, and my girlfriend." The words slipped, and Anna hadn't realized what she had just said.
Elsa's brought her head up as the words hit her. "What?" Why am I so surprised? Why do I care? But the one question that still loomed over her was, How can she accept being gay, let alone find and be with someone just like her. Elsa's feeling morose feeling was replaced with curiosity and she looked Anna.
"Yah Merida, you know my gir...oooohhh SHIT!" Anna's sudden out burst caused Elsa to flinch. The redhead stood up and paced a short distance in the hall. "Uh what I meant so say was uhh, you see she's a really, no. She and I are, We, uhh." Anna stopped pacing to look at Elsa. "Elsa I'm not attracted to guys like you are," Elsa hated the way the those words sounded. "I'm...I'm gay."
For a while there was a long silence that reminded Anna of the night before. She looked at Elsa who gave the same blank expression everyone else had done the night before.
It was now that for the first time Elsa saw the hints of fear in Anna's eyes. Fear of rejection, non acceptance, and worry of what could happen. Elsa realized Anna had fears too, and this one was something they both shared. Even if Elsa was trying to get rid of the feelings Anna so easily accepted, they both had fears of there feelings.
Elsa went to open her mouth but no words came out and her gaze fell to her knees in front of. What is wrong with me. Here she is trying to help you. She just told you something you've know for the longest time. Rage filled inside Elsa, but not at Anna. It was towards herself. Tell her you've know, tell her that you accept her, tell her something so she doesn't feel hurt. She's been trying to be your friend, now's the time to be one back. DO IT.
As Elsa tried to gain every bit of courage to tell Anna she had known, and that she accepted her, Anna thought it was the end of trying to help and make friends with Elsa. The blonde wasn't giving any response and to the redhead, it was the sign that Elsa didn't accept her. As she hoped for something to happen, tears burned down her face. She tried holding them back long enough to say farewell to the person she needed to help.
"Elsa, I'm sorry for letting that slip out, but please don't hate me for being...gay." Elsa let her head drop to the floor. She thinks you're going to hate her. SAY SOMETHING. FUCKING DO IT. "I don't want to stop helping you but, if you don't," Anna sniffled and held back pools of tears, "accept me I don't think it's going to help either of us." She paused hoping the blonde would say something. As not a single amount of movement came from Elsa , Anna felt as if something inside of her broke. "I'm sorry."
She leaned down and grabbed her backpack and slowly left the hallway. She looked back in hopes to see the blonde say something or do something that resembled movement. As nothing happened she turned her head and disappeared into the hall, desperately trying to hold back tears.
Elsa sat in the hallway mortified at herself. Fuck you Elsa. She has been trying to help you. She chased after you to help. GET UP, NOW. There was still movement of any part of her body. DO IT. With every once of determination, Elsa brought herself up from the floor. "Go." She whispered to her self. Her legs moved slowly at first but then into a fast paced walk. She made it to the end of the hall and turned to corner to a moping Anna make her way down the hall. "Anna."
The red head picked up her head and turned to see Elsa running towards her. "Anna, I...I," Elsa couldn't find the right words to say. "I don't hate you. I..."
Vigor and glee filled Anna's voice"You...are okay with me being...you know." Elsa shook her head with agreement.
Anna wrapped her arms around the taller girl and hugged Elsa tightly.
Elsa felt a smile on her face as Anna hugged her. She tried to hug the girl back but it felt..."Anna, I can't...breath." She tried to get Anna's arms to loosen their grip but the redhead was a lot stronger than she realized.
"Sorry, but this is amazing. You're the first person I've told that I'm not that close to." Elsa's smile faltered a bit. "Don't get me wrong but I'm sure that will change. I'm close with all my friends. I could tell you there life's story, each and every single one of them. All there secrets, wishes, and dreams. And they could say the same for me." As Anna continued to talk a janitor went into the back hall the girls had just been.
"Holy shi...What the fuck!?"
"We better get outer of her Elsa. You did, kinda sort of leave a mess." Elsa felt her smile dissolve as she looked back towards the hall. "Don't worry about it. He'll clean it up. Better him than us though, right." Elsa just gave a simple nod.
Anna led Elsa out of the hall and up to the library. "Anna." Elsa said sheepishly.
"Yah!"
"I've...I've kinda known that you're...gay for a while." Elsa was staring at Anna hoping nothing bad would come of this.
Anna stopped walking and looked back at Elsa with a raised eyebrow. "How!"
"It was..." Tell her, "back in January and you were talking to that other girl,"
"Ariel, red hair like mine but no freckles." Anna giggled, "She wonders why I have them and she doesn't"
"Yah. You were talking and I over heard what you were saying." Elsa's gave fell to the floor.
"Okay. So what you think then, and why did you wait to tell." Anna was more curios and actually a hundred percent curios, thinking about it.
Elsa didn't expect that to be Anna's answer. And she didn't really know what to expect, actually. She only thought the worst of things. "I-I don't know. It's just, how to accept yourself for having these feelings for..." Elsa paused trying to find the right words.
"Girls, and I just do. You know it's just who I am. I can't run from these feelings, nor do I want to. My friends accept me and support my decision. They actually think it's really mature of me to follow my feelings rather than keep them a secret." The more Elsa listened to Anna words the more she wished she was more like the girl. It was something she still didn't want to feel and even listening to Anna, Elsa still felt that getting rid of her own feelings was still for the best.
"Okay." Elsa said weekly, as her gave was still on the floor.
"Alright then, well we're here at the library and turns out it's closed, fucking awesome." Anna sighed. "So it looks like were doin this at my house."
"What." That's pushing things to far.
"Well Elsa, I want really want to choose the song today and practice it. It's Thursday and I can't do it anything over this weekend or Friday. To top things off this is due on Tuesday next week. Sucks that were only gonna one more chance to practice but, hey nothin's perfect." Anna smiled.
"Now." Elsa asked nervously.
Anna thought for a moment before answering. "Later actually works out better. Say around, 8:30ish. I've got a date tonight and I don't want to disappoint."
Elsa couldn't figure out what do. No seemed like the best answer to choose. She'd never been to another persons house before, not even Hans'. Elsa wanted to no so badly because it scarred her how awkward it would feel in someone else's house. But what she said next really frightened her. "Okay." What am I thinking. This is so stupid. It's just so...
"Alright see then." Anna left down the hall and was gone in seconds, leaving Elsa standing alone at the library. Can I even do this? Is it going to far. The more she thought about the more she thought it would best to say she forgot and leave it at that. But then where would that leave her. I'm not going to lie, just get through this just once and then that will be the end of.
Elsa started walking out of the school when she felt her phone buzz. She took her phone out and saw it was Hans. Anger and terror filled her body as she read his text. What it said was that her left her more of her weight loss supplies in her car and wanted her to use some of once she got home. He also said he'd find out if she didn't use it. Why me? Elsa gritted her teeth and felt like screaming in anger. She clenched her phone as hard as she could but all the tension was released when she realized there was nothing she could. The feelings she still had need to go and if it meant doing this to get rid of them, then that's what's going to happen.
"So, you've got another date instead of this one." Merida asked pretentiously.
Merida and Anna were walking around the Rec center and into the trees that surrounded the building. It was dark but they could still see just fine. Anna knew a spot were she and Kristoff would go for a romantic star gazing night. Now with Merida she planned to do something more than just gaze up at the stars.
"Not really, more like a collaboration of me and another person to get a project done." Anna said.
"Well I've heard about the person you've been trying to work with and to me and everybody else it seems your just wasting your time."
Anna felt herself get extremely angry but kept most of it in. "The fuck! Elsa's not a waste of time." Anna's eye brows scrunched together and a displeased look crossed her face. "The hell kind of thinking is that. She needs someone close to her as a friend and I'm that someone. From the outside where you and everybody peeks in from it may seem that I'm getting nowhere but that couldn't be farther from the truth."
"I'm just saying what I've been told. I mean she told you to fuck off. If that were me I would've said fine and let her be. Punzel, Jess, Alice, Ariel..."
"You could just say everyone to save the breath. But I'm not you so," Anna gave Merida a small shove to her left arm, "let it be. I don't care what you or anybody else has to say. In fact, all of you could go to hell for thinking I'm wasting my time." Anna's anger still remained as she finished talking.
Merida felt bad for saying it was a waste of time for helping someone. She knew Anna was doing what's best, it was just that the girl that she was helping didn't want anything to do with and from the looks of it, didn't even want to try and let Anna help her. "I'm sorry Anna. I really am, but this Elsa girl just doesn't want any help. If there was such a big problem why hasn't she told her parents of boyfriend."
"Maybe she doesn't want to tell either of them. Something's people keep from the ones they love to protect them or protect themselves. I still haven't told my mom I'm gay yet, but I've told everybody else." Anna felt herself get angry at herself for still not telling her mom but she kept talking to distract herself from the thought. "Elsa wants to tell someone about whatever's going on. I can see it in her eyes. Which by the way are really gorgeous."
Merida smirk and snorted. "Oh really. What about my eyes. Are they not gorgeous?" Merida raised her eyebrow and looked at Anna as they continued to walk.
"Of course there gorgeous. Every part of you is. Especially those tight lips of yours." Anna felt Merida stop in her tracks and looked back.
"Then why don't you kiss me them." Merida smirked.
"Because, I want you to see something first." Anna winked and she and Merida walked for a few more feet until they came to large boulder that was just as tall as them and flat at the top. It was an odd shape of looking like a large walnut and an exotic bowl for dining.
"What's this?" Merida asked.
"This is were Kristoff and I used to go for small romantic dates."
"So what are we doing here. I'm not one more mushy gushy bullshit."
Anna rolled her eyes. "I know but humor me." She smiled at Merida.
"Okay but things get to romantic I'm out." Merida climbed up the rock. She brushed off snow that was on the large rock and laid down.
"Alright but trust me. It's not going to be that bad." Anna followed her girlfriends lead.
They were both laying on there backs with there arms across there chests but Anna inched her way closer to Merida. Once side by side Anna did the fake yawn trick to get her arm under Merida's head.
"That's really cliché Anna but I'll let go." Merida lifted her head to Anna's arm underneath.
"Just follow what I'm doing I to try something." Anna couldn't see Merida's face but she knew the other redhead was smiling. Merida lifted up her head and shift her body next to Anna's. She rest her head just above Anna's left breast and curled her legs up behind her. Merida then draped her left arm on Anna's body. She didn't bring all the way across Anna's body but rest it between Anna's breasts.
Anna curled her arm around Merida's body and rested her head against Merida's, having her cheek rest on Merida's soft and curly hair.. She brought her right arm up and took Merida's left hand. "Thank you." She said warmly.
"I kinda like." Merida nestled her head against Anna's body and for a while they just laid together and looked up at the stars. Both girls were smiling as the a light winter breeze swept their cheeks. The Arendalle winters lasted longer than usual winters in other towns but no one really complained except Anna. Both girls continued to lie on the cold but warming rock. Merida could smell Anna's peach perfume and watched as Anna's chest would rise and fall from each relaxed and calmed breath. Merida felt her breathing match Anna's as there small embrace continued.
Anna looked up at the stars and with every inhale, she could smell Merida's rose scented shampoo from her hair. She squeezed Merida's hand, feeling the other girls fingers curl around her hand. Anna looked up at the stars and hummed the start to Michael Bolton's Go the distance. Her humming was low and barely audible. But as she continued with the it, the soft sound became audible. Merida could feel the low vibrations from Anna's neck and slowly closed her eyes, So much for too romantic. She thought to herself.
Anna reached the point in her humming that it wasn't enough to just let her throat vibrate the soft tune. She began to sing very softly, almost a whisper, but loud enough for her angelic vocals to emit the course and melodic nature of her voice. "I have often dreamed, of a far off place. Where a great warm welcome, will be waiting for me. Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face and a voice keeps saying, this is where I'm meant to be." Anna went a little louder with her singing and Merida only listened and felt Anna's crisp and sweet voice through the air and the vibrations of Anna's throat. Anna kept the softness of her voice and used small trills to extenuate a longer note. " I'll be there someday, I can go the distance. I will find my way. If I can be strong. I know every mile, will be worth my while. When the distance, I'll be right where I belong."
Merida opened her eyes and pivoted her head so she was looking up at Anna, who was still looking the stars. "Down the unknown road, to embrace my fate. Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you." Anna's gave fell from the stars, as she lifted her head slightly and stared lovingly with a heart warming smile, and looked into Merida's enamored eyes. "And a thousand years, would be worth the wait. It might take a lifetime, but somehow I'll see it through." Anna's singing went up just a little in volume as she held Merida's hand tighter. "And I won't look back, I can go the distance. And I'll stay on track, no I won't accept defeat. Its an uphill slope, but I won't lose hope. Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete."
Neither girl knew who made the first movements but soon enough, Merida's legs stretched out her head move away from Anna's body. In doing this Anna propped herself up with her arms that was cradling Merida's body. She felt Merida's hand she was holding lead her entire body over Merida's. Bring her right leg over Anna was soon hovering above the other girl. Her hair that was not in pig tails because she wanted to straighten for tonight, and it fell to one side of her head. With in all this movement neither of them broke eye contact as both of them felt themselves heat up in the thirty degree weather. Anna was looking down At Merida, who's eyes were filled with lust and love. She began to sing again. "But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part. For a hero's strength is measured by her heart." They both smiled and Anna lowered herself onto Merida's warm body. She felt Merida's hands go to her sides of her jacket and wrap themselves around her shoulders. They were face to face, there noses nearly touching.
They felt each others heart beats become synced with one another. There legs were twisted together as Anna pushed a few stray hairs from Merida's face. They kept eye contact and Anna shift her head ever so slightly to avoid hitting Merida's nose. Her head dropped slowly but she stopped her self before bringing hers and Merida's lips together. She whispered and half sang the next part of the song. Feeling Anna's warmingly cold breath sent a jolt of electricity into Merida's spine and her lips parted every so slightly to release a small breath. "Like a shooting star, I will go the distance. I will search this world, I will face it's harms. I don't care how far, I can go the distance. Till I find my warm welcome, waiting in your arms."
Anna closed the distance between her lips and Merida's, starting as soft and passionate her eyes closed as she could feel Merida's soft thin lips move with response under lips. Merida's right hand moved to the back of Anna's head and lightly grabbed her hair. Anna's left arm worked it's way so that Merida's arm was in grabbing distance. Once there Anna took Merida's arm into her hand and fished her way to find Merida's hand. Once she found it, she felt her fingers twist there way into Merida's. She brought there joined hands out and forced them next to Merida's head.
But there soft kiss was becoming more aggressive, as Merida's other hand pushed down onto Anna's head. Anna opened her mouth and felt her tongue brush against Merida's lips, tasting the strawberry chap stick Merida had on. Allowing the kiss to go even further, Merida opened her mouth as well. They could hear there lips smack as the kiss intensified. Anna's back arched a little and her left hand Merida's and with her other, she cupped Merida's cheeks. The passion and lust that was coming from each of them was pure as there lips smacked more and more. As each kiss felt more and more intense. Neither girl knew what to do with there tongues so they just stayed at peace for the time being, but that didn't take away from how fiery there passion towards each other was being shown by there kissing.
Merida's grip on Anna's hair was increasing and send shockwaves through Anna's body. There breathing started to get heavy as each of them weren't stopping or slowing down a from kissing each other. Anna started to sit up, but her hands that were cupped to Merida's cheek brought Merida's head with her. Each girl was now panting but neither were showing signs of stopping. Anna could feel a heat build up inside and with every lip smacking kiss and sucking of lips that heat erupted. She threw her hands onto her jacket and started unzipping the zipper with no time wasted. They stopped kissing as Merida did the some. There for heads leaned against each other and both girls were panting. Once their jackets were off, they crashed there lips against each other. Anna forced Merida onto her back, and her hands this time, were on Merida's chest. As there fiery passion continued Anna's hands slowly made there way north. She could feel Merida's hands on her side migrating south.
She smirked as there kissing continued. Once her hands found the mounds of Merida's chest they were a little hesitant, but only for a second. Her fingers creped there way around Merida's breasts. She lightly squeezed them and felt Merida hold her breath against her lips. Should could also feel Merida's hands cup her ass and being lightly squeezed as well. But Merida took a step further and gave a semi-spank to Anna's ass. In turn Anna squeezed Merida's breast even more. But Anna soon started to knead Merida's breasts. She could her and feel the light moans Merida was eliciting. Merida's spanking to Anna's ass also continued.
Anna felt another rage of heat inside and her lips were attacking Merida's. In pure lust Anna dropped her hands to the hem of Merida's shirt. Merida stopped kissing Anna for a second and breathily said, "Anna wait wha..." Anna's lips were back on Merida's and her hand went under Merida's shirt. Merida broke the kiss again, "Anna wait we..." Once again Anna cut her off with another passionate kiss. Merida's hands were no longer on Anna's ass and were now trying to stop Anna's from going to far. But Anna's strength and lust was beating Merida out and once Merida felt Anna's finger tips against here bra, she became terrified. Merida shot up and with every bit of strength forced Anna's hands out of her shirt. "Anna please don't." Merida's voice was breathy and shaky.
Anna could see the fear in Merida's eyes and she regained her self control. "Oh my god Merida. I didn't mean-you see it was...We were just so-I'm so sorry." Anna felt her eyes burn and she started to cry, "I'm so sorry Merida, I just couldn't control myself." Anna brought her hands to her face and cried harder.
Merida felt her heart drop and hugged her crying girlfriend. "It's okay Anna. It's okay. I know I can say things really sexual but I guess I'm not ready for anything too intimate." Anna hugged Merida back on rest her head on Merida's shoulder. For a while they stayed like that, holding each other as Anna's crying stopped.
"I'm sorry for taking things too far." Anna said as she brought her head.
"It's okay." Merida smiled warmly at Anna. "I guess we didn't know you are just a sexual deviant." Both girls laughed as Anna wiped away tears that were left behind.
"I guess we know now." Anna sniffled and looked into Merida's eyes. Once again there lips crashed but it was soft, but just as passionate as before.
"I think I'm in love." Merida said.
"I think I am too hot stuff." Merida giggled as both girls looked at what time it was on their phones. "It's almost eight. We should get back to the Rec Center so your mom can take us home. Don't want to miss that other date of yours." Merida smiled.
"After what just happened, I might reconsider." Merida gave a small a laugh and both girls got off the rock. Holding hands all the way back to the Rec Center, neither of them said a thing as they walked hand in hand, on the light of the moon. Anna kept thinking to herself, I think I'm love with this girl. As they waited for Anna's mother ether hands never parted and no words were ever spoken. Every few moments they would look at each other and giggle. It was a perfect star filled night that couldn't get much better.