Author's Note: Yay! I had time today for a chapter! I've got to admit, I got slightly emotional while writing this. Enjoy!
Rey and Kylo Ren were now walking through the corridors to their ship. He felt so at ease now, as if he were floating. He was astonished about his conversation with Snoke, that he let them leave, let them live. He thought how happy he was that they were leaving there together, with only a few cuts and bruises to remember this horrific occasion by. "We made it" he thought. His plan had worked.
They hadn't said a word to each other since their telepathic conversation they had within their separate rooms. He thought then how he had told her, told her that he loved her. He wondered if she believed him, and if she felt the same. As he walked beside her now, he noticed how serious her face was. She was staring straight ahead, and her eyes were maddening.
"Would you care to tell me how exactly we are still alive?"
She met his eyes then, and she noticed how they moved frantically from side to side as he looked at her. He studied her face, and the intensity of her eyes made his throat swell.
"Luck, perhaps?"
She stopped in her tracks then. He knew she was angry, she didn't have to verbalize it. He could feel everything she was feeling, her anger, her annoyance, her frustration. Her hands were on her hips. After waiting in silence for what seemed like years, she began to grow more and more irritated. "I suggest you answer my question immediately," she spat. "before I am forced to recall on our most recent training session."
He stared straight ahead, he saw Captain Phasma in the distance. She was standing in front of their intended ship, pistol in hand. "Not now," he said. "I know you are angry, and confused, but please wait until we are safely abroad the ship. I shall explain…everything."
She was angry now, but she contained it as best as she could for the time being,
"Captain Phasma," he said as he heard Rey's thoughts, she was cursing in frustration, pretty profusely. He gave her a side glance, "I must thank you for your assistance, I am most grateful for your quick actions this evening." "No need to thank me sir, it is all a part of the job," she informed.
"Thank you," Rey interjected, "for cleaning my wounds and finding me fresh clothing, I appreciate your kindness greatly." Phasma simply looked at her, and said nothing, "Ren, you must take my ship. It is most reliable, and it will get you to your intended destination within a timely manner." Kylo Ren felt the familiar emotion of gratefulness once more, and his face broke out in a slight smile, "If you insist, Captain. I will return it to you safely within a months' time." The chrome armored woman nodded, "Excellent, now, I have personal matters to intend to, so if you no longer are need of my services, I best be off." He nodded in agreement, and he and Rey watched as she strode off through the corridors.
As soon as Rey saw that she was plainly out of sight, she turned to him, "Alright now, she's gone, now will you tell me what the blazes is going on?" He looked at her now with similar maddening eyes that she had given him shortly before. "Like I said, I will tell you everything safely on the ship." "I don't understand why you-"
He was angry himself now, not necessarily at her. It was simply the fact he wanted to get the hell out of there. "Will you just get on the damn ship?! Please?" She scoffed in frustration, and walked up the track, her face a blood red.
As he walked in behind her, he waved his hand simply to close the door. Rey watched as he sat in the pilot's seat, he was running his fingers through his black curly hair. He then began to enter in the coordinates of their intended destination. "What I am about to tell you," he said while typing, "you most certainly will not believe, You must agree to bear with me, and most importantly, not to interrupt. Do you understand?"She nodded in agreement, and stared through the window of the ship as they were now traveling through hyperspace.
"When Snoke seduced me to join him as a child, I was terrified. It all started when I heard his voice in the night, simply calling my name. I thought I was losing my mind. He was inside my head, Rey, constantly. He told me to abandon the light, that I was worth more, that I was destined for greatness. He told me of my grandfather, of his powers, and said that I was destined to fulfill his legacy, and finish what he started. My Uncle on the other hand told me nothing but of Anakin Skywalker. The desert slave from Tatooine who was the "chosen one", the one to restore balance to the Force, and how he failed when he was overcome with the dark side. I was a foolish boy, Rey, young and naïve. I didn't know who, or what to believe. That is, until Snoke appeared before me in holo form when I was just fifteen years old, ordering me to kill the all of the Padawans. I knew then what I had to do. I had to gain his trust, in order to get closer to him."
Rey gasped in horror.
"That, is why I killed them, and many others. That, is why I murdered my father, a man I loved. That, is why I retrieved you from Ahch-To. So together, we can truly finish what my grandfather started, to restore the galaxy to its rightful state, and to kill the Sith once and for all."
Rey felt like she couldn't breathe. Her heart was pounding in her chest so hard she was sure it was going to come out of her body. She felt extremely dizzy as if she had just spun around a thousand times. She needed to sit down, catch her breath from all of the information just thrown at her. He turned around to face her then. She was crying profusely, and her hand was over her mouth, shaking her head from side to side.
"Please, he begged. " Say something, anything." She lowered her hand, and said through her tearful eyes, "I have no words."
He rose to his feet, and began to slowly inch closer to her. He wiped away her tears with the pad of his thumbs. She tried best not to meet his eye, but she finally did so. "You murdered all of those people, all of those innocent people, including your own father. How do you live with yourself?"
He started crying then, "Do you not think I have remorse? That I don't think of the eyes of those innocent children as I ended their lives? Do you not think that I don't miss my father every miserable god forsaken day of my life? That I regret never telling him I loved him? That I was sorry? I live in agony with myself every day!" He was crying harder now, "When I came for you on Ahch-To, my sole intention was to gain your trust, to teach you, so you may help me with my mission. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would ever fall in love with you."
She stood there now, and wiped the tears off of his cheeks. "You are my world now Rey, my everything. And if I were to lose you, I don't know if I would have the strength to live." "Hey...hey...look at me," she hushed. "Ben look at me." He looked at her now, eyes slightly swollen from crying, "That name," he said. "I do not deserve to have that name."
She kissed him then, ever so gently. "Yes, you do. You were named after Obi-wan Kenobi, my grandfather. From what Master Luke told me, he was the bravest, strongest man he had never known, besides his own father."
"You are Ben Solo," she continued. "The man who has gone through and survived the darkest times imaginable. The man who is strong, brave, and determined. The man I am so in love with it drives me mad. So don't you dare shame your name again. Do you understand me?"
He grabbed her face then, and pulled her in. He kissed her, rather passionately with his lips, now soaked with tears. "I am so glad to hear you say that," he said. "I was beginning to worry that you would always hate me." She laughed at him now, "Not a chance," she said, as she sat down in the pilots seat. "Now, where are we going to complete my training, Master?"
Author's Note: You guys continue to leave me speechless. Over 3,000 views now? WHAT? I am so honored and happy you lovely people are enjoying my little Reylo fic. I hope you all are enjoying it as much as I am writing it! As I said on the Author's Note on the previous chapter, this week is a crazy one for me. I should be back to updating daily after Friday! Hooray for Spring Break!