Authors Note: I am wowed by the response that I received for this story. I will try to update this story as much as possible but I can't make any guarantees as it depends on my workload at college. On with the chapter:

Sunday 11th September 2011

Doctor Cullen came to see me last night to check me over to make sure that I am physically healthy enough to go home. He has deemed me so which is both good and bad. Good because I really hate hospitals and can't wait to be out of here. Bad because I will have to take care of you by myself and trust me when I say that is a scary thought. No offense Aimee but I mean I can barely take care of myself let alone another human being completely dependent on me but I will do my best for you. My father however, is a traitor. He has decided that as a welcome home celebration we would have the Cullen's over for dinner. Not that I have anything against the Cullen's it is just that there will be more people judging me on my parenting skills and more importantly me and Edward will have to sit in the same room when it is clear that he doesn't like me in any way shape or form. It is going to be so awkward.

Plus when Esme (Dr Cullen's wife) came to visit me in the hospital yesterday she kept trying to take over and I really want to prove to people I can do this on my own. I mean it is not like I don't like the help and support it is just there are a lot of people out there that are banking on me failing as a mother and I will be damned if I don't prove them wrong. They say that once you are a mother that instinct takes over and I am not going to lie when you cry I do get this need to comfort you. I always want to be close to you and cuddle you and not share you with anyone else. It is times like this that I both resent and love the fact that I am doing this alone. I love it because I get you all to myself. I don't have to share you or have anyone else claim you as theirs because you are MY little girl. But I resent it because I can't help but wonder what it would have been like to do this when I was older and married. To be sitting here with my husband both nervous about the prospect of taking you home. Someone to share the night feeds with; someone to moan and yell at because we are both exhausted. Our own house with a big garden where you can run and play. I really shouldn't let my mind wonder to what ifs because they will never happen. None of that is true. It is just you and me in this battle sweetheart and we are going to have to fight our whole lives.

After I woke up this morning the paediotrition came down to check on you before we went home. Then I got you fed, changed and dressed before getting myself ready. At around 11 we were discharged and Charlie or I suppose granddad to you came and took us home. We took the short drive from the hospital to home. Now this is only like a 10-15 minute drive but today it felt like it took hours. I don't think I have ever been so scared in all my entire life. I am scared that I am going to mess you up just like the social workers and statistics say I will and if I do Aimee I am truly sorry as it was never my intention. I always wanted my children to have the life that I never did but I am not completely sure I can give you that. I will do my best to give you everything you deserve and so much more but that may not always be possible.

Once we got home I got you out the car and as soon as we get inside this is it the start of our life together. Dad has work so straight away we are left on our own to fend for ourselves. For a while I just lay on the sofa with you in my arms cradling you close. I never ever want to leave you. After a little while I place you in the bassinet and decide I need to get some school work done so that I don't fall too far behind. Whilst I wait for my laptop to load up I go into the kitchen bringing the baby monitor with me to make myself lunch. I make myself a simple sandwich as I am too tired to do anything extravagant. I place my sandwich on the table and pick you up out of the basinet. I lay you on the sofa next to me. I pick up my sandwich and eat it all the while rubbing your tummy gently as you gurgle and coo away. Once my sandwich is finished I place the plate back on the coffee table and pick up my laptop.

I am taking online classes this semester with the prospect of maybe going back to high school next semester. I log onto the site that sets my work and has all the presentations on the information that I need. I decide to start with my favourite subject English. Much to my delight my first piece of work is an essay on Romeo and Juliet. We have to write two essays one titled: Discuss the character of Romeo and his infatuation with Rosaline. Does this weaken the credibility of the love he feels for Juliet? And the other titled: Examine the role of women in Romeo and Juliet.

I lift you up and we traipse upstairs to find my battered copy of Romeo and Juliet. Once we reach my room I stop and lift you up showing you the room. "This is your room too Aimee; we are going to have lots of lovely memories in this room. Lots of cuddles and bed time stories. One day though baby girl mummy will make sure that you have your own room. You can decorate it just the way you want it." I pause in my story long enough to walk to my old rocking chair and sit down. I begin to rock us back and forward as I continue, "one day beautiful maybe you will have a daddy and mummy a husband. Someone big and strong but not too big. Someone loyal and protective to look after us. He might even have bronze hair and green eyes just like the guy mummy likes right now. He will never like mummy back so don't get your hopes up but maybe someday he might be ours."

I get back up and grab the book that we came up for. We head back down the stairs back to the sofa so we can get on with our schoolwork. As I begin to reread the play I lay you on my chest as I lay on the sofa. Soon I am immersed in the world of forbidden love. Suddenly my attention is drawn back to you as your breathing speeds up and the crying starts. I glance up at the clock and see that it has been 4 hours since your last feed. I sit up and feed you. Once you are fed I decide to change your nappy before I get back into my work.

The rest of the day proceeded in the same fashion. At 5 dad arrived home and said "Bells, the Cullen's will be here in one hour!"

"Okay," I say back trying to be quiet and not wake you up. I continued on with my work. The doorbell goes but I am so engrossed in my essay I leave it for my dad to get. He lets the Cullen's in and then ushers them into the living room. I can feel their eyes on me as I lay across the whole of the sofa with you and my book on my chest and my laptop on my lap. I realise that I look horrendous; I am wearing sweats and a baggy t-shirt and my hair is completely tangled from the amount of times that I have pushed my fingers through it. I go to move to make space for everyone to sit when Esme stops me. "Don't worry dear we will make it work, you stay just where you are." I look at her and nod in agreement. They probably think I am a terrible mum sitting here on my laptop so I feel the need to defend myself.

"I just wanted to get some school work done and I must of lost track of time. I didn't mean to still be doing this when you all got here."

Everyone makes idle chit chat whilst we wait for dinner to be delivered. Just before dinner I lay you down in your basinet and go use the bathroom. When I return from the bathroom everyone is sitting at the table and the only seat left is between Edward and Alice. Begrudgingly I take my seat next to Edward. He turns towards me "I'm Edward Cullen I don't believe we have had the pleasure of meeting yet. You must be Bella" he holds his hand out for me to shake. Hesitantly I take it and shake his hand. I must ask you princess how can one man be so perfect. We continue through dinner with more chatter. After dinner everyone goes back into the living room, I grab you and decide to head to bed. I said goodnight to everyone including Edward who gave me a kiss on the cheek and told me that we needed to get to know each other better.

That brings me to where we are now baby girl. Laying in mummy's bed having your bedtime feed and cuddle. Once you have finished your feed I get out an old copy of 'Guess How Much I Love You' and read the story to you. By the time I reach the end of the story you are asleep so I lay you in your cot and tuck myself in to write this letter to you. All I can think about is Edward Cullen and why he would want to get to know me better? Oh well I guess we will never know.

Love you always and forever

Bella (mum)

Xxx

Authors Note: so there you have it chapter 2. Feel free to let me know what you think and I promise that Edward and Bella will start to get closer soon. Check out my other story as well A Trip Down Memory Lane. Reviews make me happy and update quicker so please drop me a line xxx