Quiet, dark, and boring, Anna sat and watched TV on the couch alone. Her straight face and slumped posture into the couch as she flipped through the channels did her no justice as to prepare her for talking to her mother. Her heart wasn't racing yet but she felt sick to her stomach and her mind raced as to what could happen. She usually would've been working on a ways to lead up to telling her mother about being gay but there had been so many situations like this that she already knew what she was going to say. The red head thought she had an answer for everything but she knew that things could change on a dime.
Her mother could just say how happy she was and have the conversation be over in less than a second or question Anna on every little detail of her relationship. She could cry, hug and kiss her for coming out to her. She could show no emotion what so ever and just shrug the hole thing off. At the same time Anna also thought of the worst things her mother could do and say. Like telling the red head it wasn't right to be gay, how it was unnatural and inhumane, that it was just a phase and would pass in time. Then there was the possibility of having her mother break down and wonder what she did wrong to make her daughter have these towards girls, or get furious and forbid Anna to pursue her feelings.
There were just too many thing to think about and Anna knew she was overthinking it. Everyone kept telling her that her mother would accept her no matter what. The reason being was just the plain fact that she was her mother and had to accept her because she loved her. But that reason was worthless and hopeless and every time Anna would hear it she would get annoyed and angry because that didn't answer anything.
Just because she my mother doesn't mean that she has to accept me. I really want her too but what if she doesn't, then what? Anna stopped flipping through the channels and walked into the kitchen to fill up a glass a water. How can Kristoff, Rapunzel, or anyone else tell me this when they don't even share the same attractions I do? How can they advocate for what for what my mother can say. I don't even know what she can say and I'm her daughter for fuck's sake.
After taking a few gulps of water, Anna rinsed out her glass and went up to her room to grab her phone.
She sat down on her bed and scrolled through her recent calls and called Rapunzel.
"Hey Anna, what's up?" She said cheerfully.
"I don't think I can do it. I can't think I can do it Zel."
"What are you talking about?"
"Coming out to my mother, I was going to tell her tonight but...there's so many things that can happen that could split Merida and I up that I can't do it." Anna slumped over, her voice low as she folded an arm across her chest.
"Anna your over thinking this. Your mother loves you and finally sees who you really are."
"Not all of me. I can't let her find out from someone else, but I'm so scarred to tell her that-"
"She's you mother Anna, she-"
"Don't say it's because she's my mother. I'm tired of hearing that, it doesn't help one fucking bit. Give me a real reason why she 'has' to accept me." Silence followed for the next few seconds. Anna's her grip on the phone intensified and the only thing she wished for was for her dad to be sitting next to her telling her everything would be fine. That everything would end happily and that she and him would find a way to tell her mother with out getting too worked up about it.
Her father always knew what to say and he was the only one that did everything for her no matter what.
"I-I don't...have one Anna. Sorry." Rapunzel said defeated.
"I'm so lost on what to do. Merida is the only one who can understand me but she and her parents have always been close. Even though there were some hiccups on the way everything was fine in the end. I don't know anyone else that can harbor these feelings from others, especially the people they love. I don't know how else to talk to."
"Then why did you call me?"
Anna scratched her head, "I don't know why, maybe for the hell of it I guess, to vent maybe."
"Sounds to me that you could spend time relaxing, Eugene and I are over at my house. You want to come over and go see a movie with us?"
"Merida's coming over soon, so thank you but no thank you."
"You want us to come over to have company while you wait for her."
"Nah, you guys enjoy your date. Tell Eugene I gave you the mouth wash."
"Good-bye Anna." Anna bent her lips into a small smile. "We're here if you change your mind."
"Kay, see yah." After hanging up, Anna lied down on her bed, looking at the ceiling, observing how her fan did a piss poor job of making any kind of cool breeze.
It wasn't long though until Merida arrived and the two of them were cuddled on the couch together.
"Nervous." Merida said hushed, giving Anna a small kiss on the cheek.
"That's not the word I would use." Anna laid her head on Merida's.
"It'll be alright."
"How do you know that? I can't shake this feeling of doubt. It...scares me to think about it."
"Don't be scarred, that only makes things worse."
"Then what should I do? I'm open to ideas."
"Don't let fear be your enemy."
"That doesn't mean to use my own quotes. Think of your philosophical things to say."
"Still though, it's not bad to take your own advice."
"True." Anna slowly lifted her legs off the couch. Feeling the movement Merida shifted herself and laid across the couch next to where Anna had been sitting. "Let's go outside for a few minutes."
Smiling Merida said, "Alright, looking at the stars it is."
"Hey, it calms me down." Merida giggle and Anna smiled.
"I know, I know."
Together they walked through the kitchen to the slider doors that led out to the deck. Together they sat outside on an outside lounge chair, Anna on Merida's lap.
"When will your mom be home?"
Anna took out her phone and checked the time. "Probably not for another hour and a half."
"I would offer kissing but I just remembered that you went for an adventure after you made me walk back to the Rec center alone."
"I didn't make you go alone. You chose to go back."
"Ugh, hello, I had a dentist appointment to go to."
"Your teeth are fine, why the fuck do even have a dentist."
"Some of us care about dental hygiene, Anna."
"I brush my teeth twice a day."
"But you eat chocolate like an animal. For all I know you could have cavities."
"So?!"
"I have to kiss that mouth and if it's filled with rotted teeth I don't want to get sick."
"That's not medically possible so shut up. I have great teeth and here's a smile to prove it." Anna smiled wide and gleefully.
"You have food in your teeth."
Anna rolled her eyes. "And your hair is oily."
"Fuck you no it is not." Merida made and uncertain face and reached up to run a hand through her hair. "Maybe a little, but not a lot."
"Still-"
"Quiet you. We got off track, I want to hear what you found while adventuring."
"We'll come back to your oily hair another time." Merida lightly punched Anna. "Okay, okay. Well for a while I found nothing and the whole time I was humming what the lyrics of my song would sound like." The curly red head was about to make a snarky comment but Anna knew it was coming from the start and stopped it from happening. "Don't say anything about that. I mean it."
"I wasn't going to say anything, but continue." Merida said sarcastically.
Anna huffed, "Yah okay. But anyways, I eventually came up to a frozen lake. It was really pretty on how it reflected the sky and trees. It was as if it were frozen in time, not realizing that spring was here, still holding onto it's winter memories. I wasn't going to stare at all day though. It was getting late as I was leaving someone walked out of the woods with this giant animal, which I thought was a white bear."
"A white bear, did you smoke anything while I was gone?"
"No, just here me out first."
"Okay, for the record though to have a bear for a pet is pretty cool."
"I would've said that at the time but he-"
"Whoawhoawhoawhoawhoa, he?"
"Hold on, I'm getting to that. But yah he, caught me off guard and I didn't know who the person was except for that fact the she had a bear for a pet."
"She?!"
"Well when I first saw she had on some designer clothing that didn't look to be for a guy. But anyways, I was stepping back when the bear barked."
"Are you sure that you didn't smoke anything, because I'm getting lost."
"Hold on, god. So this bear charged after me and I was lost on what to do."
"From the looks of you got away some how."
"Well, I remembered what you had told about bears and how I should play dead. So I did just that and waited. But it turned out that the bear was actually a Great Dane named Marshmallow, so I was scarred shitless for nothing."
"Okay I get that part now, but what about this girl and why was she at this frozen lake."
"It turns out that the girl is Elsa."
"That girl from you music class," Anna nodded her head. "That's weird."
"What?"
"Well, and don't get mad at me, her being at a lake for no reason makes me think that she's one of the drug runners in the school."
Anna shot up and looked harshly at Merida. "What in the hell gives you that idea?"
"You say she's always skipping, and pushes people away, plus she's told you to fuck off. Maybe she hides the drugs at the lake."
"That's the dumbest thing I've heard in a long time."
"Anna think about it."
"No, Elsa is just lost."
Merida furrowed a brow. "What do you mean? She's was in the middle of the woods and at a lake, yah she's lost."
"You weren't there. Elsa goes to that lake to be alone. She and I talked and for the first time in a while and she sorta opened up to me about herself."
"Then what did she say."
"I'm not going to share what she said because it's wrong but I think she and her parents are divided with something."
"You think."
"Yah, I told her about my not being able to tell my mother about being gay. When she talked she made it sound like she was going through something similar."
"Well, I'm talking your word for the drug thing, and I'm saying this. Maybe she's gay too. If she and her parents are divided then it might be about her sexuality."
"I don't think so, she has a boyfriend and Kristoff says when there around each other they're can't be separated." Anna looked up at the stars. "I don't know what's going with her life but she needs someone."
Merida let out a breath, "Another reason to love you, always thinking of others and how to help them."
"But I can't help myself." Anna lowered her head.
"What you mother says just means that she loves you and wants what's best for. We'll tell her and everything will be okay."
"I hope so."
"I know so, so lets kiss while the night is young."
"Okay, let me check the time first." Anna took out her phone, she still had an hour left before he mom would be home. What would come after that would happen and no matter what happened, she would feel great for finally telling her mother, even if her mother didn't accept her.
Life isn't supposed to be easy, so Anna just took what time she had left to kiss Merida with all her passion. If her mother didn't accept Anna knew she would find a way for she and Merida to stay together.
Her phone vibrated in her pocket again. Not wanting to take her eyes of the dark and twisting road, Elsa nervously felt around her pants pocket to get her phone. Another vibration, another message from Hans. It was terrify to here from him and even though the blonde wanted to get him from her life, she knew he would send those pictures of her all over the school if she did something to make him upset. That was just one thing he said he would do thought. He hadn't taken he innocence yet but tonight that could change.
Elsa pulled out her phone finally and slowed her car down, the speed limit was forty-five and she was doing sixty.
"Come to the old shack on Depraved Drive. We need to talk now."
"Where are you? I not going to wait here all night."
"Let's go bitch, I've been waiting here for the past five minutes. Don't make me angry."
Elsa wanted to stop the car and through her phone into the dark and fiendish trees. But she was terrified of what Hans could do to her if she didn't come. Whether it was for sex or drugs, tonight was turning into a nightmare. Her parents had put a boot on her car and told the guard at the gate to not let her go anywhere. Her parents had also hired a therapist to come every night and try to talk to her about why she's so despondent. Elsa knew her parents where at their wits end with her but what else could she do.
This whole thing started with trying to hide, suppress, and get rid of her feelings and attractions to girls. No matter how bad she wanted to tell someone, Elsa thought it would ruin her life even more.
The only other person that could feel this way was Anna.
Elsa's grip on the steering wheel caused her knuckles to turn white. Anna could be the only the person to understand the blonde. But I don't want her to help me. I don't need her interfering with my problems. There mine and I can deal with them myself. But Elsa only kidded herself, she was falling for the small red head and there was nothing she could do to stop herself. Every time she was around Anna the only thing the blonde wanted was to open up and finally tell her who she really is.
The small shack came into sight as the headlights flashed onto the dirt road. Elsa saw three other cars, one being Hans' stupid Mercedes, the other Butch's pile of thrash truck and the other was a new one she'd never seen, it was a red Cadillac that looked to have a model from the Fifties. Her heart went immediately into her throat and she trembled profusely. What was going to happen when she got inside?
She parked across from the other cars. She turned the keys and watched as her head lights went out. For a few moments it was completely black. The only sound coming from the whistling wind. Elsa couldn't see her hands but she knew they were shaking as was her entire body. Nobody was around her, it would only take one second to call the police and have this all be over with. It would give her a second chance to be happy.
But what if the cops arrested her too, then what? She wasn't old enough for jail but the juvenile detention center ten miles from the town was just as bad as the prison. Stabbings, rape, and deaths were a daily occurrence. Kids that went there either died or became monsters.
But they could pardon me for doing the right thing. Then again, by the time they get here everyone could be gone and Hans would ruin my life. Elsa turned off her phone and got out of the car. By the time she took her first steps two guys had her by the arms and were dragging her inside the small shack. There was not point in trying to struggle, her muscles and bones were so weak that being dragged was almost a saving grace from sore and cramping muscles later on.
"It only took you ten minutes of my life to get here. Thanks for wasting my time. Get her inside this is important." Hans said in the door way with his arms crossed, looking at her with oppressive eyes.
When she was inside the two guys released and she fell to the ground. She heard both of them grumble at her to get up and do what ever Hans told her to do. Elsa looked up and saw a table with no chairs in the middle of the room. There was a single light that hung and was dim to he point of near darkness.
"Hey, don't pay attention to her. She's mine so fuck off."
"Don't tell me what do Hans. I could break you neck in a second so don't get mad at me." The one guys said as he took a cigar out of his pocket.
"What ever Butch." But there was something off when Hans said that, it seemed that there was a hint of shakiness to his voice, like intimidation of sorts.
"You talk big Hans but your just a bitch who's parents don't even like you. Just know we both are stronger than you, Roids or not." The other guys said as he winked at Elsa.
"You boys disgust me. But you're the only ones that are making a good profit and trafficking everything so I'll put up with you dumbass' for now." Elsa didn't recognize this voice, but she could tell it was woman's and she sounded regal but very dominant and condescending.
"So why the fuck are we here if every things going fine." Hans said.
"So stupid, do you not know what happens around you." She spoke like she was a queen talking to her peasants. "Your school knows about the drug trades and are determined to catch us. You need to find a way to hide every thing you have in that school. But I want it to stay there. You understand me."
"Yes ma'am." The three of the said in unison.
"You blonde, get over now." Elsa walked slowly towards the table. "You're here because Hans tells me your the one who stashes all the merchandise. What we need for you to do is tell us where it is, and places it can be transferred to."
"I-I don't know where else it could go. Everything's hidden in random unused lockers and in the ceilings."
"Ceilings good, lockers ugh. Why did you three dumb shits tell her to put them there?"
"What?! How do you-" Gaston answered.
"Can it pretty boy. There's now way this girl would've done something that obvious. From the looks of here she would don anything to stay out of trouble. So, what I want now is to have my money and a plan on how to move my merchandise into a more desirable location and one that can be easy to get to and difficult to find."
"What about here." Butch said.
"Good one, and when you drop a match to light that dick in your mouth I'll make sure to sell you for half price." Everyone shifted a bit. "Anymore bright ideas from the guys. No, then how about you girly. Got any ideas."
Elsa's throat was completely dry, "No ma'am, sorry."
"I'm so fucked." The woman said under her breath. "Well your out of options now. So I guess I have to do everything myself. Waste of my fucking time to be done here. Blonde, give me the locker numbers and I'll have everything removed before the sun even breaks. You three leave now."
Without question the three boys left and it was just Elsa and the woman. Elsa gave the older woman the locker numbers and what was in each one. "Leave now darling. I no longer need you here. Oh and before you leave know this, if any of my merchandise is seized you'll be the one that will take all of the blame."
The room was so poorly light that Elsa couldn't even see the woman she was talking to, but she knew that the woman was smiling devilishly at her.