Authors Note: hey everyone sorry I have been so busy I haven't had time to write. Thank you for sticking with me guys. Thanks to all those who have followed and added this story to their favourites list. Here we go guys:

Saturday 17th September 2011

Hello again angel, I know it has been a while since I last wrote you but have been keeping mummy busy. I spend my days feeding, bathing, changing and bonding with you. When you are asleep I try to keep up with my schoolwork with a lot of help from Edward. It may surprise you to hear this but Edward is actually really bright. He has really helped me this past week; not just with my work, he is keeping me company and stopping me going stir crazy. No offence sweetheart but spending all day talking to a baby who can't talk back gets old pretty quickly.

Me and Edward have been chatting a lot, and are really getting to know each other. He is the only person that doesn't treat me any different just because I have you. We have really connected and I really like him. The thing is that he will never like me that way; no matter how close we get. The rest of the Cullen's are really nice too, they are a lot more understanding than my dad. He seems to think that it is my fault I got pregnant and that I have to just get on with it. Esme has been great; she even offers to watch you but I always decline, I want to spend as much time with you as possible.

I have let Edward in where no one else has ever been; metaphorically speaking. With him I feel so comfortable I am able to tell him almost anything and I know he won't judge me. The only thing is that he will never see me the way that I see him; to him this will only ever be friendship. He features in my dreams every night; the dreams vary but it usually ends the same with him sweeping me off my feet and us living happily ever after. That's the thing though people like me just don't get a "happily ever after".

I tried to explain that to Edward and he told me I was being silly; he said that everyone gets a happily ever after but the difference in real life is that it isn't the end. That the happily ever after is just the start of forever, that there will always be bumps in the road but things will always sort themselves out. I want to believe him I truly do; it is just there is a lot of doubt there.

Today Edward seemed a little tongue tied; like he wanted to say something but he just didn't know how to get the words out. I don't think that I have ever seen Edward this way; he always seems to calm, cool and collected.

Right now I am lying in bed with you writing this letter that you won't understand right now. I ask you whether you like Edward or not and you look at me like I am crazy. I take it that means that you like Edward as much as I do. The only problem is whether or not Edward likes us the same way.

The social workers have insisted that I go to therapy to get over what has happened to me and to help me to deal with the fact that I have had to grow up so quickly. So yesterday we went to another therapy session. You my angel was perfect; you were quiet and slept the whole time. It was really hard to talk to someone and my therapist Heidi did not even ask about anything recent. She was just asking me about family and friends. Things I like and things I don't like. She also, asked me if I knew why I find it so hard to open up. I told her I didn't know but in truth I do. When I was little I was told off for talking about my problems. I was told that I needed to stop complaining and just get on with it. That doesn't help Aimee; keeping things locked inside just makes them worse in the long run. As you grow up I want you to talk to me about everything. I want to sit down with you at the dinner table every evening and talk about our days. I want you to tell me if something is wrong because that is the only way that I can make it better.

Anyway baby girl I need to get you to bed and then I am going to hit the hay. Long day tomorrow of more studying and I want to look good for Edward tomorrow. But hey they never said life would be easy. See you soon.

Love you always and forever,

Mummy

Xxx

Authors Note: sorry this chapter is short and has taken me ages to update but college is crazy at the moment. So I promise Edward and Bella will start to get together soon. If you guys don't mind this length chapter then I can probably update more regularly but let me know. Thank you for sticking with me and I promise I will try to be better in the future. Reviews inspire me to write so please send me some love. Xxx