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Chapter 12 Part 2
Alistair watched Fergus leave the room; he asked Teegan why Eamon was here, the younger Guerrin replied that Eamon wanted to apologize to both of you for his actions. Alistair looked at him irately, "the part where he accused Em of murdering Isolde, or his part in breaking us up, suggesting I send her to her death in Amaranthine, or because of all his actions she had to face the majority of the horde and the Archdemon by herself while pregnant with our child, and now is in danger as Kirkwall is on the edge of war at any moment. Fergus had been eavesdropping outside and sat back down. Alistair knew he heard what had been said and continued talking,"I want Eamon restricted to his room while he is here; he isn't to have any knowledge of what we talk about politically or regarding Em. We need to choose who is going with me as I'm absolutely going, and I refuse to leave Eamon in charge, so I advise two of us going while one stays and deals with things here. When we return I will insist that Eamon step down as arl, and Teegan to be made arl officially, as it's my understanding you've gone above and beyond for the people of Redcliffe. There's no one I trust more in that position. Fergus looked at Alistair asking, "you're not making Eamon your advisor as let it be known that I won't do any business with that man, nor will I allow him anywhere near my sister. Alistair replied "No, I would never do that as what I know now; I can never trust him again and won't allow him near my wife or my children as he's caused too much pain and so much time has been lost. Em and I should be together preparing for the arrival of our child, but because I was an idiot and listened to him, she's enduring this on her own, just like the final battle. Something we never thought would happen and the Maker blessed us and I'm missing it all and may never experience it again." Alistair started to cry, which made Fergus cry remembering Oriana and Oren. The two men hugged, Teegan said that the Guerrin ship was theirs, as he would send word to have it sent to Gwaren which is the quickest route to the Free Marches. They could be at sea within a few weeks, and Maker willing Alistair could be with Em during her last few months. Teegan then said he would send word to Leliana and Zevran about their plans, and they would be in Kirkwall within two months. He knew Fergus would hate him for what he was about to say, "Fergus, I think you should stay here and manage things while Alistair and I go, as Emily may not be aware that you're alive and stress won't be good for her or your niece or nephew."Fergus realized that Teegan was right and he would be reunited with his sister soon. The three men sent for more brandy and food to be delivered and began planning for the trip abroad as well as getting Fergus caught up in Ferelden affairs. Alistair sent a servant to get more tunics and pants for his trip. He told them of the advice Alfstanna gave him about being himself when he was saw Em. He needed to be the man Em confided in and fell in love with. He needed to be that Alistair not King Alistair, which from what Alfstanna told him Em hated that nobleman wanted to be with her just because who she was politically and not herself. He knew he would have to regain Draco's trust as he probably knew that Alistair had hurt his mistress deeply, which Draco may not allow Alistair near her. Fergus looked at the sadness in Alistair's eyes and told him that the Bann's advice was good as he was going to suggest the same "as the one thing that always hurt Em was none of the Mother's attempts at matches wanted to talk to her about politics, history, or weaponry. It was always about status with them as being a teryn's daughter meant a higher ranking politically. Now I imagine Alfstanna told you about Draco, if you can convince him your intentions are true, he'll be your biggest ally in reuniting with my sister. Just be yourself, no talking about duty, if she agrees, and knowing my sister and if you're "just Alistair", she'll forgive you."I would even suggest eloping, as truthfully Oriana and I were already wed a month before we were "officially" married. That will prove to her that you want her for your wife, and not because you need a queen and she's carrying your heir. Not to mention when we reunite with our parents in the hereafter, I don't think she'll want to be lectured by our mother for having children out of marriage.
Teegan laughed as he remembered Eleanor loved her children, but was known for long lectures when either of her children did something she didn't approve of. She even made them hours late for dinners at Redcliffe and Highever due to making sure her children knew she was disappointed; Bryce on the other hand had a soft spot for them especially when it came to Emily. Her father was the reason Em wasn't already married by now, as he gave her time to choose who she wanted to marry. Teegan remembered Bryce telling him that he was letting her pick who she wanted, as he didn't want his daughter to lose herself. She was intelligent, open-minded, and could handle a weapon better than most of Highever's guards. He told Teegan it would kill him if she would be forced to conform to the typical nobleman's wife. As most end up in loveless marriages, where their husbands' cheat and the wives either condone it or they drink their lives away to forget. "I want more for Emily; I want someone who sees her as their equal, their best friend, and who loves her and her only completely. I never want the spark to go out of those blue eyes of her."
Teegan smiled remembering his old friend knowing he owed it to Bryce to make sure Alistair was he would want for his pup. Teegan asked the question he knew Bryce would've asked."Alistair, when you think of Emily, do you see her as your equal in all ways or the dutiful noble wife who only is your wife for appearance and manage your household. Alistair didn't get the sudden change in Teegan but Fergus realized that Teegan was asking what he should've as their father would be asking that of any suitor. She was very passionate about learning, and if she saw something she didn't like she was very vocal about it not caring who she angered. Em also loved her sparring; he wished she had convinced Father to let her go with him then she would've been spared Howe's betrayal. There were rumors in noble circles that Bryce was naming her Teryna over him to increase her marriage potential. The rumor was true as she was being groomed to become the Teryna of Highever, but not for marriage reasons. Their father felt and Fergus agreed that she would be a stronger Teryna as she possessed the same qualities Bryce and Grandfather did, while Fergus preferred the military training to diplomatic meetings.
Fergus now wanted to hear Alistair's answer and he owed it to his father to make sure that fire she had was never dimmed by anyone. Alistair replied that "Emily was, is, and will always be his equal in every way. I won't make a decision without discussing it with her. I think you two can agree that Emily wasn't your typical noble daughter, I would never dare to change her in any way, and I fell in love with her long before I told her. She was the most compassionate, brilliant, funny woman I've ever met. She carried so much on her shoulders, which I regretfully didn't help and never complained. Only way I want her to change is for her to never hide her feelings from me. I want to share every emotion she goes through, if she's in pain I want to comfort and never let her go through anything alone again."Before you ask, as I have a feeling this will come up only woman I will lay with now and in the future is currently in Kirkwall carrying my child."