Author's Note: Due to recent inspiration, I will be writing at least two or three more chapters to this story. So here is the most heartbreaking thing I've ever written. (Please don't hate me)

"….Ben?"

She was awake. Yes. She was awake. He immediately rushed into the room as fast his legs would allow him. He noticed how she was looking around the room in confusion.

"Ben where are you?" she asked. "Where am I?"

He crouched down to meet her face then, and gently stroked her hand in an attempt to calm her.

"You're in the medical wing Rey," he informed her. "You've been severely injured by force lightening and-"

She interjected then, for she had no recollection of the events that took place in that cold, dark chamber, "Force Lightening?" she asked. "What?!" She then glanced down at her stomach, clutching it slightly in pain.

He looked at her with a rather sad smile, "Snoke," he said. "It was Snoke who did this to you."

Rey looked at him eyes widened, "Is he –"

"Dead?" Ben interjected. "Yes. "

Rey looked at him confused, "Why…why can't I remember anything? She asked. "You think a person would remember being struck by force lightening."

Ben then caressed her forehead, "Because, the lightening was so strong, it rendered you unconscious," he told her. "Which was when I brought you to where you are now."

She looked up at him then, "What about you? Are you hurt?"

"Physically? No. Emotionally? Yes." He said.

"Rey," he continued. "I want to apologize for my behavior back on D'Qar. It was unacceptable, and I should not have left you and-"

His heartfelt apology was then cut off by Rey's agonizing screams.

"Rey!" he exclaimed. "What's wrong! Tell me what's wrong!" She didn't respond, and simply exclaimed,"Get me help. NOW!"

Ben found her voice to be slightly terrifying and he stumbled back. His eyes widened with sheer panic. He could not move. As he continued to hear her screams, he remembered then what she had requested of him. "HELP HER!" he screamed. "Get in here NOW dammit!"

A medical droid then entered the room, and tilted its head in confusion.

The droid proceeded then to walk over to Rey, who was still screaming. She was in an upright position, and her hands were firmly grasped on each side of the bed.

"Lie down please," the droid said.

As Rey did so, the droid stood at the foot of the bed and scanned her body once more.

Ben watched on, "What is it?" he asked. "What is it?! What the hell is wrong?" The droid simply stood there for a moment. "Answer me or I'll turn you into scraps!"

The droid paused for a moment, and looked at Ben. "Sir, I do not know understand why or how this given information was not picked up on my sensors when I scanned the girl the first time. The girl-"

Ben was growing restless, "The girl what? Did the Bacta not heal her properly? Is she bleeding internally? What?"

"Sir," the droid said calmly. "The girl, she is with child."

Ben's throat slightly closed up, he felt like he couldn't breathe, his eyes widened greatly. "What?!" he exclaimed. He looked down at Rey, who was carefully avoiding eye contact as she continued to scream in pain.

"You're wrong," he informed the droid. "Your sensors are wrong. Scan her again. I demand you scan her again."

"Sir, I shall scan her again if you desire, but my sensors are not wrong. The girl is indeed with child."

Ben calmed himself down then, and looked at Rey once more. She was looking straight ahead.

He hesitated, "Is it….alive?" He asked.

The droid then looked down briefly and then back up at the man that stood before him. "Unfortunately sir, I must inform you that my sensors indicate no life within the fetus. It most likely perished when the girl received her burns."

Rey was now crying, rather hardly. For she remembered what her grandfather had told her when he appeared before her in her cell,

One of you must die, it is the only way.

Ben read Rey's thoughts at that moment, he was, furious. "You knew?!" he exclaimed. "How dare you keep this from me! It was my child just as much as yours!"

Rey couldn't meet his eye, she was still crying, "Ben I…didn't know I swear," she said through a shaky voice. "I didn't know officially anyways. I noticed a change in my appetite, and my clothes started feeling a tad tighter, but I wasn't for certain!"

She continued, "I was going to tell you. Tell you that I thought I may be the day you left D'Qar. But I never got the chance."

Ben Solo felt more foolish than he ever felt in his entire life. Here she was, the love of his life, screaming, crying, in agony with their deceased unborn child within her body, and he was yelling at her. He immediately adjusted his attitude.

"Sir, the fetus must be removed at once, or all of our efforts in attempt to save her shall be in vain."

Ben couldn't bear to witness the droids surgically removing his unborn child from Rey's body. The droid then gave Rey some anesthetics. As she began to slip out of consciousness once more, Ben held her hand for a moment before he left the room.

When she was finally out of it, he faced the medical droid. "Contact me when it is done." The droid nodded, and Ben looked back at a now peaceful looking Rey, and left the room.

He didn't know what to do at that moment. He needed to talk to someone, and the only person he wished to talk to was now currently unconscious. He then pulled his comlink out of his pant pocket, and entered in the encryption to contact his mother. He did not wish for her to see him in this current state, so he decided to communicate verbally.

"Mother," he whimpered. "Mother, it's Ben."

"Ben? What's wrong? Is it Rey?"

He nodded to himself, and remembered she could not see him. He was crying now, "Yes." He said as he bit his lower lip. Leia could barely understand him through his shaky voice. She waited for him to continue on.

"She….she...she was pregnant," he finally said, rather somberly.

He heard nothing in response but static, "She was PREGNANT!" he said now with anger.

Leia covered her free hand over her mouth as she continued to hear the sound of her son's crying. "She was pregnant? Was?"

"Yes, was. As in past tense. As in my child is no longer alive. It's dead. DEAD!"

Leia was crying now herself. She said nothing.

"If I wouldn't have left her she would have told me, and I would have stayed," he said. "If I wouldn't have left her, she wouldn't have followed me here. If I-" Ben then cut off the connection, and threw the communication device across his room, shattering it into pieces. Ben Solo felt Kylo Ren return to his body once more.

He ignited his red blade, and proceeded to thoroughly destroy his chambers. Snoke had truly taken everything from him. His childhood, his sanity, and now his could-have-been family with the woman he loves.

He slashed at his walls repeatedly. He slashed, and slashed, and slashed until there were burn marks across the walls. He even slashed straight through his bed, slicing it in half.

He paused then for a moment, and turned the end of saber to his chest. I could be free He thought. No more pain, no more suffering. I could be free.

As he was seconds away from driving his saber straight through his chest, he heard a voice. A familiar voice.

"STOP!" it begged him. "PUT DOWN THE SABER KID, DON'T BE STUPID."

Ben was horrified. He dropped his saber then, and was taken back when he saw the figure before him. He was positive he was hallucinating.

A faded white ghost like figure stood before him. It was the man he missed, the man he loved, the man he killed.

"Son," the ghost said. "Don't do this."

"How is this-?"

"Possible?" the ghost of Han Solo interjected. "You know what kid, I don't really know to be honest, but hey I'm here now. And I'm here to tell you stop acting like a damn lunatic."

Ben was crying in anger. "My child is dead!" he exclaimed. "Did you know that? I have every right to be angry."

"Angry," Han said, "is one thing. But suicidal however is another. Don't be stupid."

"You gotta stop this kid," Han continued.

"Stop what?" Ben asked with a wrinkle in his forehead.

"Blaming yourself."

Ben looked to his left, and then back at the ghostly image of his father. "Some things," Han continued. "you just can't control. I've learned that the hard way."

Ben thought then of the night he met his father on that platform on Star Killer, "Father, I'm-"

Han interjected. "Save it kid. I know."

"She's out of surgery," Han continued. "She's alive Ben. And she needs you now more than she ever has. So please, stop acting like a numskull, and be there for the woman you love." He paused. "God knows I should've."

As Ben opened his mouth to speak, he found himself in his room, alone, once more.

He then ran out of this room, and made his way back towards the medical wing. As he walked into the room, he saw her. Her eyes were slightly opened, and she was smiling.

"Hey….." she said still kind of out of it.

He rushed over to her, leaned down and kissed her. "How are you feeling?" He asked.

"Like I was just cut open," she replied with a slight chuckle.

He kissed her forehead, "I'm sorry Rey. I'm sorry I was such an ass earlier, and all of the other times beforehand."

She smiled greatly, "Glad to hear you finally admitting it."

He laughed, and brushed the hair out of her face.

"Ben, I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I'm sorry I should have told you the first time I suspected that I was—"

He interjected by kissing her. "It's nothing," he informed her. "What's important now is that you are okay."

Ben noticed then that the medical droid had walked into the room, "I want to thank you," he said gratefully to the droid. He looked back at Rey, who was not trying to adjust her head on her pillow. "for everything."

The droid nodded, "She needs two days times to recover from the surgery. Then you may be on your way."

Ben smiled, and walked back over to Rey. She was drifting off to sleep. "Rey," he said. "You need two days time to recover, then, we will be on our way back to D'Qar." She nodded slightly, and fell asleep.