Everyone had left shortly after breakfast. Emily and I hadn't said anything to one another after I had kissed her. I honestly don't know what had came over me. She was just sitting there looking all adorable.. and I.. I don't know. Should I tell her my reason for kissing her? Which was because I wanted to see if I liked her back.. which I do. Should I keep it a secret that she had confessed to liking me first? If I tell her, I'll freak her out and she'll never want to talk to me again. If I keep it a secret, I will end up hurting her and she'll never want to talk to me again. It could go either way. I don't want to lose her as a friend already. Gosh, I'm such a screw-up.
My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on my door. It was probably Aria wanting to check up on me. I walked over to the door and opened it to find Hanna standing on the other end.
"What are you doing here?" I asked, snidely. My mind flashed to Aria. Her crying last night all because of Hanna.
She had an apologetic look on her face. Her eyes were sad and puffy. It seemed as if she had been crying all night.. or day. "Are the others here?" She asked, her voice cracking with each word.
"No they are gone.. why do you ask? Do you want to yell at them and make them cry?" My voice filling with anger.
Hanna puffed. "I didn't mean to make Aria cry.." Her arms now hugging her shoulders. "Can I.. can I come in and explain? Please? I promise I won't yell or anything." Her voice was sincere and desperate. "I can't talk to Emily because she hates me right now, I'm sure of it... I just really need someone right now and you seem like the only person that will talk to me."
She was on the verge of tears. Her face was reddening and her eyes were glossy.
"Come on." I said, opening the door wide enough so that she could enter.
We sat side by side on the couch. I could hear the soft sigh that escaped her mouth, "Before Aria moved out the country, her and I were best friends. Like really, really close best friends. So close that she felt like a sister to me. The day I found out that her dad decided to move out of the country, I was devastated. I.. I didn't know what to do. She really got me through some tough times and then all of a sudden, she leaves me. She told me she would call us, but she never did. I waited and waited for her to call but.."
She paused to wipe a tear from her eye. I pulled her into one of my signature 'it's going to be okay' hugs and stayed silent, waiting for her to continue, "It never happened. Then I started going down a dark path.. a really dark one at that. I started skipping class more than usual which made my grades look like shit, I stole most of the things I own, Emily and I hardly ever spoke to each other, and I became a drunk.. a freaking drunk. I went to jail once for it, you know." A small smile crept onto her face as she looked up at me. It disappeared quickly, "Emily was the one that made me realize why I had changed. I had changed because I lost a part of me.. and I wanted to get that part back."
She sighed heavily and her head then fell, "That's why I was mad at Aria.. she made me become the person that I never thought I'd be." Another tear escaped her eye.
"Hanna, Aria went down that road too. The stealing and the drinking. Aria was the same exact person you were when I met her in Philadelphia. It was like drinking was her hobby and stealing was her addiction. But when she moved back to Rosewood, everything had changed. She started drinking less.. and hell, she even went back to school to finish her education."
"Why did she start drinking?" Hanna asked, her voice barely at a whisper.
"I really don't know.. she was like that when I met her. I was only her lawyer at the time." I chuckled slightly. "She never gave me a reason.. maybe you should ask her."
"Me? Why me?"
"Because basically, you two were in the same predicament... maybe she did it for the same reason you did. She was trying to find that other piece of her." I smiled at Hanna's confused face, "Just ask her, Hanna." I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen, writing down Aria's number and handing it over to Hanna.
"What's this?" She asked, observing the paper.
"Aria's number.. you're welcome." I pulled Hanna up from the couch and pushed her to the door. "Now go get your best friend back."
She smiled at me and nodded. "Thank you, Spencer. You're really a good person."
"I know." I folded my arms over my chest. "Now go."
Meanwhile.
Aria, Alison, and I were sitting in the living room of my house watching television. My mom had insisted that they stayed and kept me company until she came back from work. I decided not to tell them about Spencer kissing me because well.. I didn't have time for their questions.
"Oh this is the part when Jo and Tyler hook up. I love this part." Alison squealed in excitement.
"Of course," I rolled my eyes, smiling. "You love every part in this episode."
Yes.. we were watching Twisted. My new addiction, thanks to Alison and Aria, "True." Alison chuckled.
"So.. Aria how did you find Ali?" I smiled.
"Shh.." Aria said, holding her index finger to my lips. "Twisted is on."
"Okay, I'll ask later." I said, looking over at Alison who was into the television. "Unless you want to tell me." I rested my hand on her arm, making her look at me. She blushed a little and a light smile appeared onto her face.
"Aria and I found each other at the supermarket. Apparently we both wanted a candy bar."
"Let me guess," I started, looking over at Aria whom was still engulfed into the television. "A Snicker."
"Yeah... how'd you know?" She smiled, now turning to face me.
"You always liked your Snickers." I chuckled. "I remember you ate a whole box that your dad got you for your 14th birthday."
"I don't even remember that." She laughed. "How do you remember that? Do you have like super memory?"
"No, I remember because it was one of the best years of my life." I smiled sweetly at her.
"And why was that?" She smirked playfully at me.
I scoffed. "I hope you're not thinking what I think you're thinking.." I laughed.
"I don't know.. what do you think I'm thinking?"
"I think you're thinking that it was one of the best years of my life because we were hooking up." I smirked, making Alison blush a light shade of pink.
"I was so not thinking that.." She spoke softly and her head fell shyly.
My smirk widened and I used my index finger to lift her head. "You so were."
"Hey, you two!" Aria yelled. "Stop flirting and watch this part."
"I've already seen this episode." Alison replied. "So I don't have to watch anything."
"And I'm kind of busy so.." I laughed as Alison punched my arm.
"Wow Em, you've got the magic touch. You go girl."
I laughed loudly giving Aria a high five. Any other day I would have been glaring the hell out of her, but today I just wanted to forget about everything. I just wanted to have fun, "She doesn't have the magic touch on me." Alison said, her arms folding. "It's more like the other way around." She smirked, all her shyness flying down the drain.
"Really?" I smiled. "Last time I've checked, I'm not fourteen anymore."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Alison asked, her smirk never disappearing from her face.
"I can't really put in words what it means.." I inched closer to her face, the distance between us closing in. "I'll have to show you." I whispered seductively.
"Go ahead.." She replied and just as she was about to close the distance between us, I pulled back and smirked.
"But I won't."
Laughter filled the living room and Aria gave me another high five. Alison's cheeks turned fire red. She punched me in the arm once again, "That was mean." She pouted.
"That was priceless." Aria laughed.
"I'm sorry," I whispered, grabbing her hand and squeezing it gently. "Maybe some other time?" I laughed.
"Don't talk to me, Em." She snatched her hand away and pouted playfully.
Little did Alison know, this was payback. Payback from the all times she had used me and made me think that she actually liked me. I was having fun. The beeping of Aria's phone broke me out of my mean and hurtful thoughts.
Aria pulled her phone out of her pocket.
"A text from an unknown number." Her eyebrows creased with confusion, but only for a minute because that look of confusion had been mixed with sadness. "It's from Hanna..." She gulped. "She wants to talk.. right now." Her breathing began to quicken and I rubbed her arm.
"What if she comes to Emily's house.. with all of us here?" Alison suggested.
I nodded in agreement and she soon began to do the same. Another beep escaped her phone.
"She's on her way.. oh my.. sweetness." Aria said in between breaths.
Spencer POV
There was another knock at my door, "Coming!" I yelled, walking over to the door.
Hanna was revealed on the other side. "Okay, they're at Emily's house.. come with me?"
"Uh I don't know.."
I don't think I could see Emily right now. I still hadn't made up my mind on whether or not to tell her.. and now I would have to explain this whole thing to Hanna, "Why not?" Hanna frowned. "All of them, including Alison will be there. They're going to try to gang up on me and I.."
"I'm sorry Hanna, but I can't. Not today."
"Please?" She begged, but I still refused. "Why don't you want to come? Did something happen last night or something?"
This time her voice was more worried. "Spencer?"
"Yes." I let her in, knowing that I was going to have to explain now.
"What happened?" Her voice filling with worry and hurt. "Is Emily okay?"
"Yeah.. yeah she's fine.." I sat down on my sofa, still not making eye contact with Hanna. "Uh Emily got really drunk last night.. and um she kind of told me she liked me."
"I knew it! I knew it." Hanna clapped excitedly.
"But when she woke up in the morning, she didn't remember a thing, which made me do something really bad..."
"You kissed her, didn't you?"
My head snapped towards Hanna and my eyes bulged in surprise. "How'd you know?"
A smirk crept onto Hanna's face. "Secret.." She sighed happily. "Now keep going."
"That's it. I kissed her and then I left.. I left her sitting in my room. I didn't even give her a chance to talk or react... gosh, I'm so stupid. Now she'll never talk to me again." I buried my face into my hands.
Hanna's hand fell onto my shoulder. "Hey, I know Emily and she'll probably act like nothing ever happened.. that's if you want her to. I mean, if you need time.. she really does know how to shut you out. She can go weeks without talking to you. Oh and don't even get me started on sleepovers. She'll make an excuse to not be there and-"
"How is this helping me, Han?" I chuckled softly, which made Hanna smile.
"But really Spencer-"
"You can call me Spence.. you earned it." I smiled. "For making me feel better a little. Emily was right. You do make good out of bad situations."
Hanna pulled me in for a hug and I quickly returned it. She rubbed my back sympathetically, "I'll come with you." I spoke, breaking out of the hug.
"Really?" She said, excitement coursing through her voice.
I nodded, "Yeah. I'll just text Aria and-"
"No." Hanna blurted out. "You can't do that. She can't know you're coming.. none of them can."
I held my hands up in defeat. "Okay, okay. Fine. I'll just surprise them."
Later That Day.
We finally made it to Emily's house. She never told me she lived with her mother. I mean, she would mention her mother, but she didn't really tell me she still lived with her... not that I have a problem with that. I actually think it's kind of cute. I smiled a little, thinking of Emily.. and that kiss. Oh my god the kiss. What do I do?
"Thinking about the kiss?" Hanna asked.
"How the hell do you do that?"
"Do what?" She smirked.
"Read my mind.. how do you read my mind?"
"I told you. It's a secret." Hanna's smirk widened. "Don't forget you have to take me back to your place to get my car."
I decided not to answer Hanna and got out of the car. Of course I would remember. I waited until Hanna got out of the passenger side and followed her lead. She knew the place better than I did. She knocked softly. Like, really soft, "Hanna.. no one can hear that." I whispered.
"Well why don't.." Hanna's words vanished as the door flew open. Aria. Why was she opening Emily's door?
"Hey," Hanna smiled, nervously. "I bought a friend."
I waved at Aria and she nodded, trying to hold in her laughter. Aria then opened the door wide so we can come in and my heart immediately sank into my chest at the sight of Emily and Alison cuddled up onto the couch. And were they watching.. was that Twisted? Anger boiled inside me, but I bit my bottom lip to hold it in. Why should I even talk to her about the kiss? It's obvious she's not worried about it. I don't even know why Hanna wanted me to come here with her. It's not like they were going to jump her.. well maybe they were.
"Guys look who's here." Aria smiled weakly.
Emily and Alison untangled from each other and looked towards my direction. Both of them looked as if they had seen a ghost. Scared. They both parted away from each other quickly. Emily almost pushed Ali onto the floor.
"Hello," Hanna and I said in unison.
Emily cleared her throat. "Uh.. you.. you guys can.. um.. sit down if you want."
"No thanks.. we're fine." I said, coldly. "We're not here to stay."
Alison stood up and walked over to me. "Spence, you okay?"
I couldn't believe her. Well no, actually I can. Classic Alison move. She was acting innocent, like nothing had happened.
"Fine," I brushed her away. "Go ahead, Hanna."
Hanna nodded and took a deep breath before speaking. "Aria.." She started, taking a step toward Aria. "I'm so sorry for the way I treated you. You didn't deserve that. You just really destroyed me when you left.. you destroyed me. But I now know that I have to forgive and.." She cleared her throat. "Forget."
Aria nodded and made her way to hug Hanna. "I forgive you," Hanna returned the hug and smiled genuinely. "..And I missed you so much."
"I missed you too."
Aria gave Hanna a reassuring smile.
Hanna's eyes soon fell on Ali. "Alison DiLaurentis." She laughed dryly. "You really put me through hell.. you know that? You made me feel like the fattest person in the world.. I just wanted to die. I don't think you deserve an apology from me. I think I deserve one from you."
"Hanna.." Emily blurted.
Okay, I have to admit. I didn't see that one coming. I thought Hanna was going to apologize to Alison. That's probably why she wanted me to come over with her... so they wouldn't really gang up on her. Well not they.. maybe just Emily. She was afraid of Emily's response.
"This is between Alison and Hanna, Emily." I glared at her. "So why don't you let her finish?"
Emily stared surprisingly at me, but that look of surprise soon turned into a look of anger and remorse. She was just about to open her mouth, but Alison interrupted her and reassured her that everything was okay, "Hanna's right." Alison sighed. "Hanna, I am ashamed for the way I treated you. I shouldn't have never called you those names. I didn't mean to make you feel bad about yourself. I'm sorry." She stared at Hanna, waiting for her to respond. Hanna only nodded and walked past her to get to Emily, but Emily only stopped her.
"Are you going to accept her apology?" Emily asked, her arms folding.
"Guys.." Alison and Aria said in unison.
"No I won't... not yet." Hanna admitted.
"Well don't even bother apologizing to me."
"What does Alison have to do with you?"
I scoffed. I can't believe Emily was taking Alison's side over her own best friend. That was ridiculous. It made my blood boil even more. Here she was cuddling up with Alison and now she was taking up for her. I gritted my teeth, trying my best to not make an outburst.
"Guys really.." Aria repeated.
"She has nothing to do with me. It's the fact that you're acting like a total snot rag." Emily snapped, her voice raising with every word.
"I just apologized to Aria, what else do you want me to do?" Hanna begged.
I couldn't hold it anymore. Just seeing Hanna pour herself out to Emily and Emily being a total bitch, "Why are you being such a bitch, Emily?" I blurted, glaring at Emily.
The whole living room fell silent and Emily was now glaring back at me, "What does that supposed to mean?"
"It means that the poor girl is sitting here pouring her heart out to you.. I mean literally begging you and you're acting like a total bitch."
"Spencer.." Aria tried to stop me but it was too late. I was already gone.
"No Aria. Alison is an evil person. She can really make someone hurt.. physically and mentally. I know, I was in love with her, remember? I don't know what exactly she did to Hanna, but I know whatever she did really hurt her. It hurt her so much that the poor girl needs time to accept her apology." I paused to take a breath and continue to glare at Emily. "And you're supposed to be her best friend. You're supposed to stand by her and support her every decision... but no. Here you are.. letting your feelings get the best of you while your fucking best friend is standing here begging for your forgiveness. God, I can't believe I actually liked you, Emily."
I went over to Hanna, whom eyes were filling with tears. I grabbed her hand and led her to the door. I took one last look at the three girls. Aria was looking at me, shocked by my rant. Alison had tears in her eyes, and Emily had a blank stare. I couldn't read it. Nothing at all.
"Spencer, wait.." Alison said, walking towards me, but I stopped her.
"I have nothing else to say to you. Not now. Not ever because I'm done with you Alison. I'm so done." I turned my head towards Aria and gave her an apologetic look. "I'll call you later okay Ar. I'm sorry you had to witness this." No response. I made my way out of the house with my arm around a sobbing Hanna, comforting her.
"Thank you so much, Spence. I can't believe you did all of that for me," Hanna said.
"I meant every single word." I admitted it and gave her a light smile. "Now let's go shopping and have a little sleepover of our own.. just to take your mind off things. On me, I promise."
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