Author's Note:
Sorry for the extended delay in updating. My personal life is just extremely hectic now… leaving no time to write…
Anyway, here is the next chapter… It focuses on Gibbs….
Enjoy and review soon….Thanks!
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Gibbs returned to the bullpen, fury written all over his face.
Ziva looked at Tony, an eyebrow raised. Tony looked back, glaring at her not to look at him like that. McGee walked into the bullpen and caught the exchange between Tony and Ziva, and raised his own eyebrows.
"DiNozzo, David, McGee, leave!" Gibbs growled, their covert glances irritating him.
Tony, Ziva and Tim did not need to be told twice. Within seconds, they murmured good-bye and where out of the bullpen.
"Scaring your team again are you Jethro?" Ducky asked.
His voice didn't hold its usual humour.
"What's wrong with her?" Gibbs asked, reaching into a draw a withdrawing a bottle of bourbon.
Ducky sighed and sat on the edge of Gibbs's desk. As Gibbs took a huge gulp from bourbon bottle, Ducky watched him worriedly.
"Jethro you really need to stop…"
"What's wrong with Jenny?" Gibbs demanded, slamming a palm against his desk.
"You know that I can't tell you. But I can suggest that you speak to her."
"I tried to. She shut me out." Gibbs growled, taking another gulp of bourbon.
He was angry with her. But he was even more angry with himself for what he had said to her. Touching her, massaging her skin, smelling her hair, hearing her sigh, had made him realize how much he missed her. Images, flashes of memory combined with sensations of their intimate moments in Paris… Serbia … his basement… all worked to arouse him. He wanted to make love to her again. Slow, deep, all consuming love… just the way he knew she liked it. And after, he would caress her bare back for hours and build the tension again and then he would take her way he wanted too, hard, fast and furious until her gasps of ecstasy pushed him over the edge and he spent himself deep inside her.
"…. you need to try harder. She needs your understanding and support right now." Gibbs caught the tail end of Ducky's monologue.
"She doesn't need anything from me." Gibbs said, willing the erotic images of Jenny to disperse from his mind. "Nor does she want anything to do with me." Gibbs said, before taking another swallow of bourbon.
"She's confused…" Ducky tried to explain Jen's behaviour but Gibbs cut him off.
"She's stubborn and she doesn't care about anyone or anytime but herself. She uses people and gives them a false sense of comfort, drawing you in until your world revolves around her and then she drops you and leaves..." Gibbs shook with the force of his emotions. The bourbon had loosened his tongue and he was ranting now.
Ducky removed the bourbon bottle from between Gibbs' fingers. He pulled him to his feet and helped him into his jacket. Taking his car keys, he led Gibbs out of the building.
Once in his car, Gibbs closed his eyes. He saw Shannon and Kelly, beautiful and alive. A second later Kelly's face was covered in blood and she was demanding a response from him, "Why did you leave us? Why did you let us die?"
Gibbs gasped a breath as Kelly's face became Emily's and her mangled body with dead eyes stared up at him.
"You let me die!"
Tears now rolled down his cheeks as breathing became difficult.
Jenny I need you!
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The next three days passed in a haze for Gibbs. During the day, he drank more coffee then was healthy even for him. In the evening, a bourbon bottle became him companion. During sleep, Kelly and Emily would be there asking the same questions and then Jenny would arrive to taunt and torture him or to give him soul wrenching sexual release. He was sure he was loosing his mind and it was showing in his work.
While in pursuit of a suspect, Gibbs threw caution to the wind and tackled the perp, throwing both of them over the side of the road and down into a ditch.
"Gibbs!" Ziva shouted reaching the edge of the road first.
"Boss!" Tony shouted, making his way quickly down the side of the road.
"He's bleeding." McGee gasped staring at Gibbs' still body. The perp lay next to him, his neck twisted in an awkward position.
"Call for the EMT's and Ducky." Ziva ordered, following Tony.
"Boss, Gibbs, can you hear me?" Tony shouted as he reached Gibbs' side.
"That cut looks deep." Ziva said.
Her hands raced over Gibbs' body, assessing whether his bones were intact.
"Damnit, this is going too far. It's like he has a death wish or something." Tony swore as he pressed a clean handkerchief against Gibbs' bleeding temple.
"No broken bones." Ziva said.
She placed her hand against his neck and took his pulse before opening his eyes and looking at the way his pupils reacted to light.
"He has a concussion." She stated.
"Great. This time it's a knock to the head. Next time he might stand in the way of a flying bullet!" Tony complained.
"Tony, calm down. Gibbs is going to be okay. He just needs to find a way to get over Emily's dead." Ziva said.
"It's not just Emily. It's also this thing between him and Jenny. And he doesn't even know that she's pregnant." Tony said.
"I think he's in love with Jenny but hasn't told her." Ziva said.
"Great. So her being pregnant with some else's child is going to be just enough to push him over the edge." Tony growled.
Ziva looked at Tony and then at the side of the road and then at Gibbs.
"He's already gone over the edge. We have to help him out of this." Ziva said.
"Argh." Gibbs chose that moment to moan.
"Boss, where does it hurt?" Tony asked.
"My head…. What happened?" Gibbs whispered, his eyes closed and his face contorted in a mask of pain.
"You took a dive off the side of the road. It must be something to do with your super hero fixation. You are NCIS' Special Agent … Mr Invincible… Ouch!" Tony groaned as Gibbs' hand connected with the back of his head.
"Shut up and help me up." Gibbs ordered.
"Gibbs, we should wait for the EMT's. You have a nasty cut across your right temple." Ziva said her hand on Gibbs' chest.
"I'm fine…." Gibbs growled as the sound of sirens filled the air.
"Ly back Gibbs and let the EMT's check you out." Tony insisted as the EMT's raced down the side of the road.
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Forty-five minutes later, Gibbs was in the ER at Bethesda, growling at a nurse who was stitching the cut at his temple.
Another nurse, injected a painkiller and calming agent into Gibbs' IV line and told him in no uncertain terms to lie still else she would have him knocked out so that they could complete stitching him up before taking him for a CT scan.
The meds took effect and Gibbs was able to relax for the first time in a very, very long time. A few moments later, two orderlies wheeled him out of the ER and down towards the radiology department.
Gibbs' bed was positioned outside the CT scan room and he was told that he would be wheeled in once the doctors were done with the current patient. As he waited, he looked around at the doctor's rooms that were opposite the radiology department.
"Dr Sasha Malone, will be with you in a moment Ms Sheppard." A woman said.
Ms Sheppard? Gibbs started.
"Call me Jenny." Jenny's voice filtered through.
Gibbs sat up on the bed and squinted to read Dr Malone's specialty.
Gyneacologist!
Jenny has woman problems?
A moment later, a tall woman entered the room and Gibbs heard her say, "Hello Jenny. I'm Dr Malone…."
Gibbs got off his bed and waited for the dizziness to subside. Then he took his IV bag in his hand and walked towards Dr Malone's rooms. Quietly he opened the door and was relieved to find that it was an examination room and not a waiting room filled with women.
"Okay, lie back and let's have a look." Dr Malone said as Gibbs moved closer to the screen behind which Jenny and the Doctor were. He held onto the walk for support, his leg feeling like jelly and his vision blurring and clearing in rhythm to the throbbing in his head.
"Sorry, it is a bit cold. Now just relax as I slip this inside." Dr Malone said as Gibbs watched her disappear between Jenny's spread legs.
The back of Jenny's head faced him so she could not see him. Nevertheless, he had a clear view of the ultrasound screen and he waited in calmed terror to find out what was wrong with Jenny. He knew that what he was doing was wrong but he couldn't leave. He had to know what was wrong with her.
Then a sound filled the room.
Tad...tad…tad…
"Oh my God!" Jenny gasped in awe.
Gibbs blinked at the ultrasound screen and forgot to breath.
"This is the head and this will develop into the spinal column. The length is normal at 1.2inches. The heartbeat is strong and these buds will develop into arms and legs. Your baby is doing very well, Jenny." Dr Malone smiled.
"Argh!" Gibbs gasped as the combination of the concussion, the meds and the shock that Jenny was pregnant all worked to rob him of consciousness.
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Author's Note:
That is it for this chapter.
In the next, we explore Jenny's emotions and the teams…
What will Gibbs think and say when he wakes up…
Stay tuned to find out and please review… thanks!