Author's Note:
Thank you for the reviews and for reading…
It feels good to be working on this story…
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Gibbs asked Ducky to take him home. He didn't feel right about staying at Jenny's place when she wasn't there. Once there, Ducky insisted on waiting until Tony arrived.
Gibbs was really tired and his headache had multiplied in intensity making him agitated.
"Ducky, go home and tell DiNozzo I don't need him." He said again as he made his way up the stairs to his bedroom. Ducky didn't respond.
Once in his bathroom, Gibbs undressed and headed into the shower. The hot warm soothed his tense muscles. He thought about Jenny and the sound of his babies' heart beats. Leaning back against the shower wall he imagined what it would be like to hold one of them in his hands.
Memories of Kelly as a baby assailed him. She had been a beautiful, chubby little girl with his light blue eyes and her mom's reddish blonde hair. Pain sliced through his heart as he remembered her as a toddler playing with her doll and tea set. He had sat on the grass in the garden, a guest at her tea party. He had pretended to love the make believe tea and cookies and then he had grabbed her, tickling and hugging and kissing her as they rolled on the grass. He remember the last time he had seen her and how she had cried and begged him not to leave her.
Oh God, I am so sorry Kelly.
I miss you so much my Angel, he let his tears flow freely as the hot shower drenched him.
He had not cried in grief before, in anger, in frustration, in rage, yes, but not in grief.
It hurt so damn bad.
Down stairs in his kitchen, Tony and Ducky set about making a light snack.
"His been in the shower a long time." Tony commented as they could still here the water running through the plumbing. "Should I go and check in on him?"
"Let us give him a few more minutes, Anthony." Ducky said. "When he is done, though, make sure he eats something, takes his meds and go straight to bed. Remember to wake him every 3 hours."
"Will do Ducky." Tony said.
"Okay, then I will be on my way. Good night."
A few minutes after Ducky left, Gibbs made his way down the stairway, dressed in track pants and a sweat shirt.
"Hey Boss, you okay?" Tony asked.
"Go home DiNozzo?" Gibbs said.
"Ah, Boss. The Director will have my head if you force me to leave." Tony said noting that Gibbs' eyes were blood shot.
Gibbs headed to into the kitchen, Tony following him.
"Ducky said you should eat something before taking your meds so I made you a ham and cheese sandwich."
"Not hungry, you eat it." Gibbs said, turning to switch the coffee maker on and filling it with water.
"Coffee?" he asked Tony.
"Sure." Tony decided it wasn't prudent not to suggest a cup of tea just then. "You sit, I'll make it."
"Ziva's with Jenny?" Gibbs asked, ignoring Tony's suggestion.
"Yep. She called a few minutes ago to say Jenny was sleeping peacefully and all is well with your babies."
Gibbs sighed as he poured the coffee and handed Tony a mug. Then he headed into the lounge and sat down on the couch. Tony followed him and placed two pills next to his mug.
"You need to take those." He said. "Ducky's orders."
Despite his headache, Gibbs didn't want to take any meds. He didn't want to sleep either. He was feeling overwhelmed and emotionally disorientated. While with Jenny he had been able to logically understand what he was doing, the decisions he had taken and how he would handle things. But now in the house, he, Shannon and Kelly had shared he was struggling to keep his emotions under control.
"Boss, you okay?" Tony asked his hand on his shoulder.
Gibbs shrugged him away, stood up and headed down to the basement. Tony hesitated a moment before following him. He sat down onto the basement step and watched as Gibbs started working on a piece of wood. They remained in silence for over an hour, Gibbs working, Tony watching.
Gibbs dropped one of the many tools he was working on and bent down to pick it up. As he came up, Tony heard him gasp and watched him loose his balance. He ran toward him and steadied him just as he was about to fall over backwards.
"Easy, Gibbs. You need to rest." Tony said, leading him to the couch. Tony forced him to recline and removed the tools from his hands and the safety glasses from his eyes.
"I'll just get your pills and then you can sleep." Tony said heading up the stairs.
When he got back, Gibbs was already asleep. He decided not to wake him. Instead he pulled a throw from the back of the couch and covered Gibbs. Then he headed to the lounge, set his alarm to wake him in 3 hours and stretched out on the couch.
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It was a beautiful day… filled with sunshine…
She was smiling and playing with her tea set. Her dolls lay all around her.
She was smiling and laughing and so was he.
"Have another cookie, Daddy." She laughed.
He took the cookie and pretended to love it.
Delicious…
Then everything changed.
The sky darkened.
The greenery around them became ashen.
Her tea set lay broken.
"Daddy, why did you let us die?"
Oh God, she was bleeding.
"No Kelly!"
She whimpered and held up her dolls.
They were bleeding too.
"Why Daddy? Don't you want us?"
"Oh Honey…I'm so sorry."
She looked at her dolls.
"He doesn't want you too."
"Oh Kelly. I love you. I miss you. God I wish I'd never left you."
"But you did." She whimpered again and looked at her dolls. "He did leave me. He didn't save me and he won't save you either."
She held up the doll to his face.
But they were no longer dolls.
They were young, innocent babies.
They were his babies.
No!