Clarke was happier then she had ever been. She couldn't believe that her insane plan had worked. That she got Lexa back. She had spent the last two weeks caring about her. Despite the fact that she managed to bring her back she had been far from all right. Her chest wound was a constant source of worry. It nearly killed Lexa three times during the first week and only Clarke's constant care kept her alive. She had also suffered neurological damage from being technically dead . She still had trouble concentrating and talking but she seemed to be improving every day. She could string almost a full sentence by now

Clarke herself was only mildly injured after her rash attempts to save her Lexa with her improvised defibrillator and the significant amount of blood she donated. She was anemic and had some second degree burns on her hands(with completely losing any feelings in two of her fingers) but she didn't mind. It was a small insignificant price to pay in exchange for Lexa being back. She would have paid any price for Lexa

Titus has been most helpful during this. Clarke would never forgive him for what he did but she could see how much he cared about Lexa. He brought a lot of fresh supplies and kept them hidden so they would have time to recover. He also kept her in the loop on current events. Ontari had followed Titus advice and for now had followed Lexa's policy of containment rather then war. Clarke was surprised and wondered if Roan had something to do with it. Or whatever part of Lexa that had been copied on the Spirit of the Commander had helped to influence her

More surprisingly Pike hadn't made any rash moves till now. He had send scouts but they kept well away from the Grounder troops. Clarke had a bad feeling that he was planning something big and horrible but Octavia would just have to take this one. She wasn't moving from Lexa's side responsibilities be damned. She had given her people more then enough already. They could give her a few weeks

Unlike Titus Murphy was behaving like his usual self aka always being an insufferable brat. Thankfully Titus had provided them with a small apartment in the hidden lower levels of the tower so he mostly stayed in the living room while she was secluded with Lexa in the master bedroom. This didn't prevent him for bothering her with his endless whining about wanting to go free. After the sixth time he bothered her she finally snapped and had punched him. Hard. She made it clear that he would stay here until Lexa had recovered because she had precisely zero trust in him and surpassingly he seemed to get it. How insane was it that Murphy of all people showed more common sense then Bellamy

Putting thoughts on Murphy aside she finished changing the dressing on Lexa's wound and gently caressed her face for which she was rewarded with a smile. A smile that made Clarke beyond happy not just because of the sheer beauty and warmth that came with a Lexa smile.

but because just three days ago half of Lexa's face was still paralyzed. She was making rapid recovery

" Ai..' rasped Lexa as she put a great effort "hod….yu…in"

" I love you too. With all my heart" said Clarke as her vision blurred from the tears. When she had been a little girl she imagined that the first time she had said I love you it would be romantic and in some perfect setting. Something like the movies she used to watch. Instead the girl she loved was half dead and could barely talk and they had to hide in a smelly old apartment with the most annoying person on the planet being in the next room. And yet somehow it still seemed perfect

Taking Lexa's hand again she joined her in the bed and gently embraced her mindful of her wounds. She could feel Lexa's warmth as they both drifted off to sleep. Maybe their little bubble would burst soon. Maybe their people would fuck up again and they would have to intervene but for now they had peace. They had each other and Clarke was going to appreciate every single second of it

Octavia was worried. Two weeks ago she had been furious with Clarke for abandoning her. Octavia wasn't blind, she could see what they felt for each other hell a blind person could but she didn't believe that Clarke would be so selfish as to abandon her people. If Octavia was ready to fight her own brother and to leave Lincoln to rot in jail Clarke could leave her girlfriend for a while and actually do her duty couldn't she? For almost two days she stewed in her own anger while they were patrolling the barricade. And then came the messenger. Lexa had been assassinated. Apparently the last Mountain Man Emmerson had been responsible and according to the messengers Clarke herself had vowed to find and kill him once for all and hadn't been seen since then. This sounded very fishy to Octavia and Indra agreed that it seemed like a cover story for something but there was nothing she could do now.

She wasn't in a position to actually do anything about it and the fact apparently someone from the Ice Nation was Commander terrified her. She had been outraged asking why Indra wasn't made Commander instead or literally anyone else. Indra responding with a condescending lecture on how ignorant she was and then proceeded to explain some bizarre system of something called Nighbloods and reincarnations.

Octavia had no idea what the hell that meant. All she knew was that any moment now this new Ontari Commander may decide to stop honoring Lexa's wishes and start a war. And seeing as how Arkadia began jamming communications for all she knew Kane and all her hopes of peaceful resolutions were dead and Pike was about to do something extremely stupid as well.

" I am scared Indra" she admitted when they were in the privacy of their own tent. She fully expected Indra to make fun of her again for being so weak but instead she gave her a sad smile

"Good. Only fools don't feel fear. Fear is what keeps you alive but you must control it. No matter what the outcomes of this will be your people or what remain of them will look at you for guidance. Ge smak dun…."

"…gyon op nodotaim" finished Octavia. Get knocked down, get back up

She nodded and went back her patrols with a dull feeling in her stomach. She never wanted to be a leader. All she wanted was to be free and the burden of leadership was anything but freedom. If this was how Clarke felt all the time she didn't deserve the attitude Octavia had been giving her. Responsibility was a real bitch

Raven was in bliss. She visited the City of Light more and more recently. The more insane Pike and Bellamy seemed to get the more attractive this wonderful place seemed to be. There was no madness here. Just peace. As she marveled at the shining city a flash of light caught her attention. She saw it barely out of the corner of her eyes but she was curious. It didn't seem to come from any of the buildings in the city. Her natural curiosity made her follow it and soon she was out of the bounds of the city and in the middle of the forest where she saw ….Lexa of all people.

"Lexa? You are here as well?" asked Raven with a grin. Vaguely she recalled that she used to hate Lexa. That she had an unbearable anger towards her but now it seemed vague. She couldn't even remember why she was angry "I am glad you got to experience this. Isn't peace wonderful? Is Clarke here as well?"

Lexa just stood unmoving. She seemed to be meditating. Raven noticed that there was a recent wound on her chest and she seemed much skinnier then before. Her lips seemed to curl in pain whenever she took a deep breath. That made no sense. There was no pain in the City of Light

" Lexa? Are you well? "she approached Lexa with the intent of shaking her to see if she was ok but as soon as her hand touched the Commander her entire world seemed to explode. Suddenly Lexa wasn't alone. Dozens and dozen of semi transparent figures seemed to flicker in existence behind her, each holding a fierce gaze of a warrior. Raven had less then a heartbeat to appreciate the view before her entire existence exploded in pain. It was like someone had decided to film the worst moments in her life. She could suddenly see her drunken mother, her disastrous spacewalk, her finding out about Clarke and Finn, Finn dying, her friends dying….there was so much.

Raven's mind flickered back to a story she read in her youth. "I Have No Mouth, and I Must Scream" as she suddenly understood how ALIE had violated her. How her entire mind had become foreign to her. She had forgotten her mother's name. She could barely remember Finn's face. ALIE had tried to take them from her. She may have hated them at times, they may have caused her pain but they were hers and nobody had the right to take them. The bliss from the City of Light was replaced with pure rage as she found herself back on Arkadia. Her leg was throbbing with pain again but this time Raven reveled in the feeling. Her pain and anger were feeding her determination. She was going to fry this Red bitch if that was the last thing she did. Nobody used Raven Reyes like a puppet and got away with it.

Pike carefully made his way deep into the bowels of Arkadia. Ever since he found the listening device in his office he had become even more paranoid then usual. He knew Kane was out to get him but Bellamy had yet to find any proof. So for now he met in his private quarters, behind locked doors and discussed his plans only with the most faithful of his followers. Not even Bellamy was allowed to know all. The boy was loyal but Pike knew that he couldn't take the risk of the boy choosing his sister over them

"Report" he said with authority as he faced the room

"We have yet to find any weakness in the blockade. We don't have a way to circumvent it"

"We won't need to "said Hannah Green with the smile she usually reserved for gutting Grounders "I have managed to synthesize enough toxin and we should be able rig a launching system soon enough. Those savages tried to poison my son. Now they will see what a true chemical weapon is"

"This is accurate but we have only four canisters. It will be probably enough to take out eight hundred of or so grounders but Lexa's army numbers over two thousand and…"

"And they are savages with swords and bows McGinty. We have guns. The toxin will rattle them and we will break the rest with our guns. We will show them what a true massacre means and none of them will ever dare to oppose us again"

He took a hold of some surveillance picture showing Octavia and Indra . He knew he should have killed them both of them a long time ago. That was the great thing about time. It always provided you with a second chance.

" We start tomorrow morning at dawn. Tomorrow the land will be soaked with Grounders blood and they will know that WE WILL NOT YIELD . THIS IS OUR LAND!

Ontari woke up in a cold sweat. Titus had told her that Commanders of the past would talk to her in dreams but who the hell was this girl with the metal leg? And why did she continue to feel Lexa's presence even after she woke up?

Hope you liked my second chapter. I am still really messed up over Lexa's death and this helps a little bit. I honestly have no real idea what I am doing so sorry if things get a little strange