The last chapter was too short for my liking, so here's another. I may make a few people upset with this one, I apologize in advance. Review please. Any thoughts will help. I don't have a clear direction yet, so let me hear your thoughts. Thanks.
P.s I am writing this on my phone, so l apologize for the mistakes.
Disclaimer:These characters belong to Stephanie Meyers
Bella Pov
If anyone can make me look like a model, it's Alice. I swear that she's a fashion genius. The shit that she throws together is just mind blowing, I just sit back and stare in amazement. She has me in a black crew neck cut out dress, and I swear there's entirely too many cut outs.
"Alice I feel kind of like a slut in this. You said this club is upscale", I pout.
She flips my hair over my shoulder. "Yes, as in you need to look hot, which you do.", She puts her hand on her hip and looks at me in a way that makes me feel self conscious. "You have all the right curves in all the right places, Bells, you should let me be your personal shopper", She nods as if that will make me agree. I laugh.
"And what will I do with my wardrobe", I cross my arms over my chest.
"Throw that shit out. Come on Bella, please. I don't have enough to do to occupy my time", She pouts. I roll my eyes.
"Come work at Cafe Signo", I say with enthusiasm, knowing that she would never agree.
"Me, work for Edward?", She lets out one loud hack. "You've lost it. I can't believe you have the will to work for him",she looks in the mirror and adjusts her dress.
"He's not half bad actually", I shrugged.
She quickly turned to face me. "For god sakes Bella, he made you cry on your first day", I hold up my finger, and she turns back to the mirror.
"That is not fair, Ali, that argument had nothing to do with work. It had a lot to do with him being stubborn", I huffed.
"Bella, you're just as stubborn", I roll my eyes and laugh. "You and Edward practically ran my house, you stubborn asses. I hated that you made Edward grow some balls.", I smile. She walks over to me. "Remember when we were kids, and you told Edward to save your spot on the swing, while you went to the bathroom, and when you came back he was curled into a ball on the ground getting beat up by David", I nodded.
"He was too stubborn to give up the swing.", I rub my forehead.
She laughs. "David was huge though, sorry Bells, I love you, but I would have given up the swing", I laugh with her.
"I cleaned Edward up, and repeatedly called him stupid", I stop laughing just thinking about Edwards sad face. He was so disappointed in himself. I shake my head trying to rid myself of childhood thoughts. She nudges me out of my thoughts.
"You sure that you're up for tonight", She asked grabbing my arm, and wrapping it with hers.
"Do I really have a choice", she looked thoughtful, before smiling and shaking her head no. "Didn't think so",
"Come on Bella, you're going to have so much fun. Have a few drinks, dance, and you may even meet a cute guy", she says with a wink.
That has me thinking about this past week, and my conversations with Jake. I don't want him to feel like I'm leading him on, but I still have absolutely no feelings for him.
I did agree to go on a date with him next weekend, but I'm actually dreading it. Last time Jake and I had a relationship, it completely consumed half of my life. I mean, my life pretty much revolved around Edward but I wasn't consumed. Everything that Edward and I did was by my insistence. With Jake, I was bombarded by demands. His family would have a get together, and I'd have no say in the matter, I had to go because Jake demanded, and my dad insisted it would be fun and that he would be there.
Thats the other problem. Charlie practically bribed me to spend more time with Jake and less time with the Cullen's. I knew when he said less time with the Cullen's, he really meant less time with Edward.
Kind of impossible now, huh Charlie? I work with the guy.
"Bella you okay", I snap out of my thoughts and look at Alice.
"I was just thinking about Jake", I say without thinking.
She frowns. "Oh.", Then she looks away. "How is Jacob?",
I smile. Not at the thought of him, but at the thought of Alice playing nice. She hates him with every fiber of her being. She says his an arrogant ass, and I kind of agree. But he is my friend and has always been there for me.
"Give it up Al, you don't give a rats ass how he's doing", She looks back.
"Well, I was trying to be polite, but now that you mention it, I could give a rat's ass how he's doing", she shrugs and walks towards her bedroom door and opens it half way. "We'll be right out Jaz", she shouts before closing the door back. "Are you two dating", she asks quietly. I shake my head no, and she let's out an enormous huff of air, holding her chest. "Okay, good, Bella, don't scare me like that.", I shake my head at her melodramatic act.
"I am going out with him next weekend though", I walk closer to the door and try to open it.
"Oh no you don't, Bella; what are you thinking? You're like an enormous enigma, I don't know how Edward put up with you when you guys were in best friend status", she rubbed her forehead and I smirked.
"Jee, thanks Al.", She smiles. "It was easy seeing as Edward was my best friend. I wasn't an enigma to him.", I could cry at those words.
I miss him.
I look down at my perfectly painted toes thanks to Alice. "Ouch, Bells that hurt. I mean isn't it obvious that I'm trying to replace him", She says trying to make me laugh but failing miserably.
Edward can't ever be replaced.
"Back to Jacob", she clears her throat. "Why are you dating him again?", I continue to stare at my feet. "I know that he adores you, but damn it Bella he is not the one for you", I look back up her. I feel like I'm being reprimanded over a date.
"It's just a date Alice. Am I not allowed to go on one of those? I haven't had a decent date in over five years, and that was with my ex, whom I hate with everything in me."
"That Brady guy?", I nod. She rolled her eyes. "He was a complete ass to you Bella, no one can blame you for taking a break from dating for awhile."
"Five years though Ali.", I whisper-shout. "He wasted nearly two of my best years", she took out her lip stick and re-applied it to her lips. "Did you tell anyone that I dated Brady in Jacksonville?"
"No, but I mean, you mentioned him so much I thought you were in love. The only person that I would tell, I didn't have the heart to tell", she cut herself off. "Edward", I looked up at her through the mirror. "He would have probably wanted to hear that from you", I nod in understanding.
"I've never been in love", I say without thinking. Have I ever been in love?
I don't even know what it means to be in love. Here I am twenty three years old, and have never been in love with someone. Am I emotionally crippled?
"It's okay Bella. I hadn't experienced love until that great day when I met Jaz.", she looks away thoughtfully. "You'll know Bella, don't force it. Especially not with Jacob. If you weren't in love with him eight years ago, it's not going to sprout up like magic now", she says quickly, and her facial expression changes as if she regrets something that she said. She walks over, and braces her arms on my shoulders looking me in the eyes. "I said that wrong. What I meant was that you need to soul search. Who has never, and will never stop loving you.", I nod.
"Got it", She releases me. "That would be no one", I say lowly. As she opens the door I swear that I hear her mumble, "That you know of", but I brush it off.
I walk into the living room to see Jaz pouring vodka into shot glasses.
"Bella needs at least four of those", Alice says looking at me out of the corner of her eye. Jaz laughs.
"Well, Bella, you heard the lady", Jazz hands me a glass, and I toss it back. I welcome the burn.
"I haven't had a drink in a while.", I say as I reach for another one, and toss it back squinting my eyes shut. "You're right Alice I needed that", I put the glass down and grab another. I look up to see both Jaz and Alice looking at me with a look of wonder.
"Take it easy Bells", Alice says as I toss that one back too.
"You do know that you just took each of our shots", Jaz says. He goes to pour three more. "It's only fair that we catch up with you Bella", Jasper winks before tossing back two shots back to back leaving Alice with one.
"Lightweight?", I ask Jasper pointing at Alice. He nods and laughs.
I look over at her and she's pouting. "I am not. I'm just not a fan of vodka",
Jasper raises and eyebrow. "Alice, you get drunk off of smirnoff", He laughs and closes the lid, putting the bottle up, as Alice and I make our way to the door.
When we get to Club913, I am surprised by how many people I see standing outside. There are two lines, and they both are completely filled to the end of the ropes. "What are the lines for", I ask Alice.
"One is for people like us, you know, VIP, and the other is the basic club line. You wait until the bouncer lets you in.", I figured as much but I almost never see a second line at other clubs. Well I haven't done much clubbing in my lifetime, but the times I did go, I didn't see a second line.
We exit the taxi in front of the club, and are instantly let in.
The club is dimly lit, but has an array of strobe lights that bounce off of the plain white walls. I can see the dj on the stage, as well as a few dancers. The music is so loud its blending with the beat of my heart, I can feel the music, and the bass in my chest. It brings a smile to my face, and as we walk I lightly move to the music. Good thing that I had a few drinks before I got here, or everyone would be met with frigid Bella.
I must saw that Edward out did himself, this club is awesome. I have to compliment him when I see him.
Speaking of the devil. I can see him on a platform near the direction we're walking in. I smile at him, and he returns my smile. Well at least I let myself think he does.
When we arrive on the platform I see Emmett sitting tapping away on his phone drinking a beer. "Hey Em" I try shouting over the music.
He smiles and stands to hug me. "Hey Bella", He sits back down.
"Where's Rose?", I shout again.
"Finishing at work. She may come by. She said something about inventory", He shouts back and I nod in understanding. I look over at Edward to see him staring at me. I offer him a smile as Alice plops down next to me.
"Come on Bella. We have to loosen you up", She shouts before standing up with her arms outstretched rocking her hips to the music, and moving her head side to side. "Come on Bells", She shouts.
Oh, what the hell. I might as well have some fun. I stand up but don't mimic Alice's moves. I sense my happy bubble being popped.
Motherfucker! I shout in my head. I look over at Edward and see a tall, pale, strawberry blonde woman practically sitting in Edwards lap. My face drops, and my body heats with rage.
Bella that's not Tanya. Why are you reacting this way?
I shout to myself, close my eyes tight and reopen them. I see a waitress carrying a tray of drinks, and without caring what I drink at the moment I grabbed one glass in each hand and toss them back.
Alice smiles brightly at me and places her hands on my hips, moving them until I got used to it. I began to mimic Alice's earlier moves before adding my own drunken clumsiness to it. I feel her grab my hand and pull me to the dance floor. We continue dancing and singing along to the songs. I feel eyes on me and turn towards them and I'm met with icy blue eyes. Our eyes lock for a second before I look away and continue dancing. Not even two seconds later I feel hands on my hips, and I see Alice look up. I give her a wink to let her know that I'm good. I practically summoned him over to me. I smile, and turn around and I'm met with the same blue eyes from across the room.
Can this stranger free me from all of my inner turmoil?
Only one way to find out.
I turn back around, my back to his front and grind on him. I feel his hands roam up and down my body, and it makes me feel like a fucking vixen.
Do I really get a rush from doing dangerous shit?
I don't know this guy, yet, my body is reacting in ways I haven't been a custom to in while. I don't even know his name.
As if he read my mind, he bends down and speaks in my ear in a deep husky voice. "What's your name sweetheart?"
I turn my head upwards and shout Bella. He goes back to my ear. "My name is James", I nod and continue dancing. Closing my eyes and feeling the music. "You want a drink?", He shouts. I nod again as we walk towards the bar. "What are you having?", I shrug.
"Whatever you pick", I smile close my eyes and bob my head to the music, running my fingers through my hair. I hear him order us drinks.
When I reopen my eyes, he's staring at me and I blush. He's a really good looking guy. Tall, blonde hair, blue eyes, killer smile.
I silently beg him to free me of my thoughts. He leans towards me. "You're really beautiful", He leans out of my personal space to look at me again.
I lean towards him. "You probably tell all of your women that", He smirks and looks away licking his bottom lip.
Then he turns back and leans really close to my face. "I tell them that they're pretty, but you-", He grabs my hand and stretches it back, and lets his eyes roam my body. "You, are beautiful", He keeps my hand in his.
"Thank you", is my wise response. How does one reply to that. I may have blushed I'm not sure. "How old are you?", He looks to be about my age, but now a days you never know, plus he's very well dressed.
"Just turned twenty eight last month", He says proudly. "You, my beautiful Bella, can not be a day over twenty three", He squints his eyes together as if he's hoping that he's right. I smile and nod. "I'm really good at that", He smiles proud of himself. He drinks his drink, and I look over to see that he order me a brown liquor. I pick it up and toss it back once again not caring what it is. I squint my eyes closed tightly and shake my head.
"Come and meet my friends", I say and he nods. I stand to walk and almost fall over.
"Whoa, there, Bella. Here hold on to me", He steadies me and places his hand around my waist. I look up and see Alice with a disapproving look on her face. Is no one good enough for me in her eyes?
We walk up the platform stairs and the rope is moved for us to enter. I look over to see Emmett, not caring, he's engrossed with his phone. Jasper is standing with a beer to his lips, holding Alice by the waist as she rocks side to side. Her face still the epitome of disapproval. Worst of all is Edward. He is glaring, and not trying to hide it. I mean this is the mother of all glares. It's as if his whole face morphed into a state of unpleasantness mixed with anger. He is heated and it's almost scary.
Scary, yet sexy? Sexy, as in the look on his face is turning me on?
Is that what's happening to me? I try to ignore his face, but I am drawn to it over and over. I can't help but stare into those absolutely gorgeous green eyes.
James blue eyes are cute, but the drunken part of my brain is reacting to Edwards perfect face. No matter how angry his face looks, he still remains handsome.
I soon realize that I can't stand here forever so I walk over to Alice, with James in tote. I lean into Alice's ear and shout. "He's cute right?", I pull my face from her ear to see her look behind me at him before looking back at me.
"Don't do anything stupid", She shouts in my ear, and I almost laugh at her. I roll my eyes, causing me to momentarily be distracted by the blonde bimbo in Edwards lap again.
Bitch!
I mentally scold myself. She's not doing anything wrong, I don't even know who she is, yet I hate her.
Then they kiss, and once again I glare at the back of her and shout Bitch, in my head. I don't have to know her to hate her. I turn my attention back to Alice, who no doubt saw what I saw, as well as watched my reaction, because she has the most sympathetic look on her face.
"I'm going to head out Al", She looks up at James who doesn't seem to be paying us any attention. He's too busy looking around the club.
She pulls me out of James embrace. "With him?", I shrug. "No, fuck no Bells. I'm leaving too. We can leave together", I look back over at Edward who is still in a fierce liplock with blonde bitch. That's her new name.
Fucking blond bimbo bitch.
"Can we please leave now", My eyes swell up with tears. She nods, and I nod back for no reason, making a tear fall. I turn quickly, grab James hand and walk out of the club without another glance in Edwards direction.
Don't do anything stupid, Alice?
I'll fucking show you stupid.
I hate being told what to do, and what not to do. I eventually go along with what I'm told which is something that I hate about myself.
My dad says date Jacob, and I do. My mom says move with me to Florida so that I'm not lonely and I do. My dad says, don't go to college to be a Hospitality major, go into something practical like nursing, so I did, and dropped out completely. Mom says, move to Portland with her bitch of a best friends daughter Lauren.
I swear almost every time that I've been told to do something, I end up more fucked up than what is comprehensible.
I've lost so much.
Out of all of the things that I've lost, loosing Edward's friendship has to be the greatest.
The same Edward that's tongue fucking Triple B?
That's her 'new' new name.
Fucking slut bucket.
Fucking blonde bimbo bitch!
I hate her, and I want to hate him for being with her. I hate him with anybody. But why? I convinced myself that I only cared because he was with Tanya but that's not the case.
I'm too wasted for this shit.
I look into James crystal blue eyes, and he smiles as we wait outside the club for Alice and Jasper.
I smile up at James, and silently ask him to make me forget.
Make this feeling that I've never had before go away. This deep ache in my chest. I press my hand against my chest. I don't want to think. I don't want to feel. I just want to do something.
I turn to James. "Can we go to your place?",