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Edward Pov

I can't believe my fucking brother is married. I pat him on the back after he kissed his bride, and he turned to shake hands with me and Jasper before he took Rose down the aisle as we all clapped and cheered.

Emmett is actually married.

No more wild partying, no more one night stands, no more of anything that doesn't involve his wife, and he looks pretty damn happy about it.

I walk over to Vera, take her hand as we follow Emmett and Rose. I look over and I catch Bella's eye. We both break out into a smile, I wink at her, and she looks away still smiling.

When we reach the end of the makeshift aisle in my parents back yard, I turn and hug Vera out of politeness before we part ways. I look up and see her husband, and their two kids standing waiting for her. She turns and walks to them.

I never thought that I wanted to get married, or have kids, but today is making me reconsider. I look at them, and how happy they look. I don't know that kind of happiness yet.

I feel someone tap my shoulder, and I turn around. I feel my heart pick up speed at the sight of my beautiful 'date'.

"Hey you", I say. She giggles and turns her head to look at Rose and Emmett.

She slightly points at them. "They look so happy", I see her try to hid her face as she wipes a tear away. I want so badly to hug her, and I hope it shows on my face. She turns her head back to look at me. "I want that one day.", I nod knowing exactly what she means. She wipes another tear away. "I'm such a cry baby",

"You're fine, Bella. Come on, let's find our table", I tuck my arm waiting for her to wrap hers around mines. She shakes her head and giggles.

"How chivalrous of you sir Edward Masen Cullen", She wraps her arm in mine as we begin to walk.

"Chilvary is most certainly not dead Isabella Marie", She looks over at my with furrowed brows.

"You still have a vendetta against my last name huh", I laugh.

"No, I'm just used to hearing your mom yell Isabella Marie", She swats my shoulder.

"That was eight years ago Cullenboy", she laughs. "That's what my dad has always called you"

"Don't I know it", I look down. I can't think of more than a handful of pleasant conversations that I've had with her dad. I can't seem to understand his problem with me. I have no problem with Charlie he's a great man, he's done a lot as Chief of police, but he is very narrow minded.

I stop when we reach the head table, which Bella is sitting at because she's my date. Bella sees Alice and breaks from my grasp. They hug, and talk in hush tones. I roll my eyes, slightly believing that this is a set up by my sister.

When Bella returns to me, I pull her chair out next to Alice, and take my seat on her left, looking up at the people who have already began to dance on the dance floor.

I glance around and catch Tanya staring at me, but I look away quickly. When I look back, she's not where she was, she's halfway across the way, walking towards me.

"Fuck", I mutter.

Bella rubs my back, I look over at her. "What was that?", I shake my head looking down.

"Nothing, I'm fine", she turns and resumes her conversation with Alice.

I look back up and she's right in front of me. "Hello, Edward. Long time, no fuck", she says smugly, slightly glancing from me to Bella.

Why won't she take a fucking hint? Oh right, because basically all of her life has been spent trying to win my affection, so naturally now she's just a bitter bitch.

Of course. "Tanya, you should go back to your table. Now!", I all but growl through tight lips.

"Actually, she should disappear for good. That was highly inappropriate Tanya",Alice says.

"Yeah well, I find it inappropriate of Edward here, shacking up with both me and Bella"

"What the fuck are you talking about, you delusional bitch? I am sick and tired of you mouthing off at every chance that you get.", Bella says as she stands.

Tanya crosses her arms over here chest and glares at Bella. "The fuck are you going to do about it bitch",

At this point we've got a bit of an audience, and Jasper and I are trying to defuse the situation.

"You do realize that we are at a wedding", Jasper says before I shout, "Go the fuck back to your god damn table Tanya, or I swear to god that I will-", she cuts me off.

"All the fucking threats, what in the fuck are you going to do", she gets right in my face.

I stand and bend down so that we are eye level. "I will tell mommy and daddy what you really spent your money on four years ago, and who your business belongs to", I say through gritted teeth. I crane my neck back to get a good look at her face. She looks stunned that I would stoop that low. She doesn't say anything, as I take a step back and put my hands in my pockets. "Like I said before-", I say in a calm tone knowing that I won. "Go the fuck back to your table", She huffs, but turns and stalks back to her table.

"She's always been one to cause a scene", Bella said. I look at her face and can tell she is still heated.

"She's an attention seeking whore", Alice says, sipping her wine. "Don't let her get to you Bella, we all know that she's full of shit"

Leave it to Alice to put a smile on Bella's face.

Isn't that my job?

Alice is just being a good friend.

A good friend to my ex best friend whom I have romantic feelings for.

I sigh. I'm taking Emmett's advice. No matter what happens, I'm telling Bella how I feel tonight.

"Okay, everyone, now is time for the bride and grooms first dance "The wedding planner announces. Everyone claps as they take the dance floor to dance. It's a beautiful sight. I hear Bella and Alice gushing over how beautiful Rose looks, but I'm looking at them as a couple. As my brother stares down at his bride with a smile on his face, hers matching, looking up at him. They absolutely adore one another. I want that.

I look over at Bella.

I want her to look at me like that.

I sigh again.

I need a drink.

I lean over to whisper in Bella's ear. "You want anything from the bar", she shakes her head no. "I'm going to go grab a drink.", she nods with a smile as I stand.

"I'll save your seat", she says with an adorable look on her face. I tear my eyes away from her beauty and walk over to the bar. I ask the bar tender for whiskey, and he obliged. I sit at the bar, one leg hanging off, touching the ground drinking from my glass, thinking about how badly I need a cigarette.

I push the thought to the farthest place in my mind trying to focus on Bella. Trying to think of how disgusting this habit is to her.

Of course she has no problem with alcohol. Her dad drinks that shit daily.

Her hero.

The man that no man could ever live up to in her eyes.

Can I really live with that shit? As if it matters. She doesn't love me like I love her.

I down my drink, forgetting about the wedding, not even caring that its going on at this moment. I ask for another drink, but think better of it. "Leave the bottle", He looks hesitant. "Grooms my brother", I say not looking up from my hand grasped around the whiskey bottle. He lets go.

I drink down my second drink, still not able to drown my worries or fears. I need a fucking cigarette. I pat my pocket.

Nothing there. Fuck!

I look back at the table and what I see makes me almost crush my glass with my bare hand. I keep my composure though.

That fucker.

Why is he here? He wasn't invited.

I look on and see Bella with a warily look on her face as he takes my seat. She looks around, but for what?

For me?

That thought makes me smile.

She catches my eye, and glances at James awkwardly.

Is that her way of apologizing?

So much for saving my seat.

He takes both of her arms and wrap them around himself, and she giggles. That's all that I can bare to see. I rise from the bar in search of Tanya.

I spot her, and make my way over to her. I grab her arm, pulling her close to me so that I could speak in her ear.

"I need a cigarette", I say lowly. She pulls free and looks at me.

"Why don't you buy your own", she grabs her clutch. I hold my tongue, waiting for a cigarette, and a lighter. "I know what you really need", she wraps on arm around my neck. "I have some on me right now. You can have us both tonight if you want", I look away impatiently.

"Are you going to give me a cigarette or not", I ask. She pulls away to look me in the eyes.

She reaches in her clutch, and grabs the pack, shoving it into my waiting hand. "Lighter?", She reaches in and grabs that too.

I start to walk away but she grabs my wrist. "Tell me not to come over tonight, and I wont",She licks her bottom lip. I start to object but two figures catch my eye, I look up to see Bella and that fucker walking onto the dance floor together.

Isn't she my date?

I left her sitting there alone though did I?

She asked me to be her date to avoid that very situation.

Tanya turns her head to look at what I'd just seen. She looks back at me with a smile on her face.

I pull my wrist from her grasp. "Whatever", I say as I place a cigarette behind my ear and walk to the front of the house.

Every week I'm left in the same state of mind.

Fuck her.