Thanks everyone for being so patient with me. This is my first real attempt at writing. I love writing, I just wish that I were better at it. I have so many ideas in my head playing like a movie behind my eyelids, but my writing skills are heavily lacking. Can someone let me know if a Beta would help that or am I basically going to have to learn how to better my descriptive writing skills on my own. I don't mind, I want to learn, but a Beta would definitely be a great help right?
There is a lot left to this story. Im only half way finished with it. Please review, nothing is written in stone. Tell me what I can do better, what you liked, what you hated. Tell me what characters pissed you off, what characters you love. Tell me what you would like to see in upcoming chapters. Flashbacks maybe? Do you want Renee to make an appearance. Anybody see Tanya as the bad guy, or is she just an innocent woman? Do you think Edward overreacted to the news? Is Carlisle still hiding something? Is Bella still hiding something? Does Esme know anything?
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Bella POV
When Edward left we were all left stunned just staring at the door with open mouths. How had his mood did a complete 360 within the past twenty minutes? Alice is the first to break the silence.
"What the fuck?", She shouts. "Great! I upset the princess", she throws her hands up.
"You are pretty harsh Al? Like all the time", I say to her. "You never know what he's going through", I look over at the door. "Did he take his phone with him", I rush to my cell and dial his number. It goes straight to voicemail.
Fuck.
"He'll be back. He probably just went out for a drink", Jasper says. I nod still worried. "Would it be fucked up if we ate without him?", Jasper asked staring at the food on the countertop. I wave my hand dismissively.
"Knock yourself out", I grab my purse and head for the front door.
"Bella where are you going", I hear Alice ask from behind me.
"I think that I know where he went. I just want to make sure that he's okay", I turn again, but she grabs my arm.
"You're going to walk, by yourself, at night", I nod. "No way.", I groan her name. "Give it an hour okay. If he doesn't come back then we go get him. Deal",
"No fucking way. I'll give him thirty minutes", She nods grabbing my hand and shaking it.
"Just because you two are an item now, doesn't mean that you have to put on a show for us, Bells. We get it", She giggles. I stare at her with furrowed eyebrows.
"What are you talking about, Ali? Rather we are an item or not, he's my bestfriend. I'm allowed to worry about him", She rolls her eyes.
"Yeah, I know that it's just that it's all of a sudden.", I have no clue what she's referring to, and she can tell by the look on my face because she continues. "I'm sorry Bella, you know how I am. Edward and I never got over our battle over you, and I lost you again", I scuff. How the hell?
"Alice how did you loose me again? You can see me whenever you want to", I shove her.
"Yea but you're living with him", She states.
"Temporarily", I roll my eyes. "Is that why you've been giving Edward a hard time?", I ask. She shrugs looking down at her feet.
"I don't know. I'm just trying to spend as much time with you, in case you ever leave again because of him", she points to the door but I know that she's referring to Edward. "I wasn't prepared last time"
"Alice, please tell me that you never told him that's why I left? He can never know that", she shrugs again looking at the ground.
"I never told him", Her eyes snap to mines. "But I do blame him", I shake my head. "I love Edward to death, don't get me wrong, but he's doesn't make the best decisions, and he constantly fucks up when it comes to you", she points at me.
"He does not constantly fuck up", I say looking at the ceiling. "Why are we even having this conversation", I say in a rush shaking my head. "Alice, I thought you were all for us getting together? What changed?", she's silent. "What happened to, 'if it's what my brother truly wants'", I mock her. "Is it about the money with you too"
Her face registers the insult instantly. "What do you mean by too, as in also?"
"Do you and your family still not want Edward and I together because I do not have money, or a title, or a fancy car, or a rich daddy to buy me whatever the fuck I want", I glance beside her to see everyone has exited the kitchen into the living room. I instantly regret what I had said. There's a way to say things, and the way that I've said it is not the way to go. "Alice", I say quietly reaching out for her.
"You think that I'm like that?", Alice snaps eyes brim with tears. "Fuck you Bella", I mutter her name again, blinking away tears. How did we get to this point? "I can't believe you", Alice scuffs, reaching behind me to open the door slamming it shut behind her. I jump slightly.
"What the hell is going on with every one", Emmett yells. "It's like when we were kids all over again. Alice and Edward fighting over you", He bellows.
"Don't forget Jake", I mumble.
"Oh yeah, Black.", He nods. "That fucking prick", I shake my head.
"I'm sorry Bells, I have to go after Alice. I'll see you later", He kisses my cheek, walks pass me and out of the door.
"More for me", Emmett says rubbing his hands together. I force a smile, wiping my tears away.
"Of course, Em", We decide to eat at the counter since its only us three. Rose and I talk about work, as we watch Emmett toss back enough food for six people. When he's done, he leans back and rubs his belly. I giggle, absent-mindedly glancing up at the clock.
"It's been an hour. Why isn't Edward back", I put our plates in the sink, resting my palms there.
"I'll go get him, and bring him back here. I know exactly where he is.", I nod, trusting him. Emmett stands, and walks out of the door with a thud.
Rose turns to me. "What was that about?", she points her thumb to the front door. "What have I missed in the past two weeks? You and Alice love each other", I nod not being able to meet her eyes. "And Edward", she starts. "I've seen him snap numerous times but never at Alice. Never like that", I nod again still not looking at her. "Bella?", she calls. I snap my head to look up at her.
I rub my temples with closed eyes, inhaling and exhalong sharply. I shake my head from side to side. "I'm thinking", I say to her harsher than I intended. "I don't know what's with Alice and Edward, but I can see where he's coming from. When it comes to me ever having a relationship with Edward, she needs to back off", I say in a rush.
Rose rests her hand on the couter looking around with furrowed eyebrows. "I thought that Alice wanted you two together. She begged you to move down here for that reason", I shake my head no.
"Alice begged me to move down here for her, mentioning Edward sealed the deal for me.", I close my eyes thinking back to that conversation. "I missed him, and I wanted a chance to apologize, and, I don't know-", I wipe away a traitor tear quickly.
"Everything's going to be okay Bella", She reaches for a hug and I allow it, slightly breaking down in her arms. Alice and I have never had a fight so I have no idea how to recover from this. I voice this to Rose.
She leans back with a raised eyebrow. "She'll come around. There was only words exchanged, plus she loves you too much to stay mad at you",
"I was pretty harsh", I pull out of our hug turning away.
"A little", I look back in time to see her one armed shrug. "Come on have a drink with me, and tell me how you and Edward are doing", the mention of his name fills me with worry, I glance to the door. "He's fine Bella", she grabs my arm. "So", she starts as she pours two glasses of wine. "Did you two share some magical kiss after my wedding?", she giggles and I try to perk up and think back to that day.
"After the shit with James, Edward was so sweet to me, and-", I take a drink. "I love him Rose. I love him so much", I say brightly as a smile takes over my features. "For some reason, I couldn't-", I look down and lightly tap my wine glass. "I didn't want to admit to those feelings for so many reasons. Some reasons he'll never know", she nods in understanding. "After the wedding, he sort of made me admit it, and it felt so good, but it scared me, so I tried to run from it. I just have never felt for anyone how I feel for Edward", I smile again.
"Sounds like Emmett and I when we first started dating.", She smiles recalling a memory. "I loved him instantly. I know that love at first sight is real because I have experienced it.", I mirror her smile. She looks down at her glass. "But I thought Emmett was like all the others. I was scared of my feelings for him so I ran. I ran half way across the world", She looks up again. "He found me, in Italy, and literally the rest is history", She laughs and I join in. "Bella you're not the first to run from intense feelings, and you won't be the last.", she drinks her drink. "At least you only ran once right", she smiles taking another sip of her drink.
"Actually, I ran from it eight years ago thinking it would go away.", I rub my forehead.
"That's why you left?", she puts her hand next to my hand on the counter looking at me with wide eyes.
"I left for more reasons than I can remember", I close my eyes momentarily, before reopening them. "I only came back for one", She sits back in her seat. "I felt stupid after seeing him with Tanya one night", I hit my forehead. "I had already decided to leave with my mom, but seeing that was the push that I needed.",
"And you don't plan on ever telling him", I shake my head.
"Rose if he knew that I left because A) I was scared of my feelings for him, and B) because I saw him with Tanya, he'll think that I'm some stupid, insecure girl", I wave my hand out.
"Well at least he'd know something Bella. Right now you just seem like a frigid girl that can't make up her mind. And would it kill you to show some emotion?", she laughs at me.
"Would it matter if I said that I'm trying?", I shrug with a grin on my face. She mumbles sure. "Rose, I promise that I am trying"
"Progress is what I want to see Isabella. Words don't move me. I need action", Sje shoves me playfully. "He loves you like a lot",
"I know", I say quietly.
"Seriously, before I really knew who you were, I knew who you were because anytime that you were mentioned Edward would either leave the room, or say something really fucking stupid like one time-", I interrupt her with a shove.
"I don't want to hear it", She laughs.
"Seriously, one time Alice said, 'Renee is a fucking bitch'",she stops and looks at me. "Wait who is Renee", she leans slightly looking in my direction.
"My mom", her eyes widen.
She sits back upright. "Welp, alot of Alice's stories started with 'Renee is a fucking bitch', I never asked who she was", I grin at the thought mumbling 'its okay'. "Anyways, she said, 'that fucking bitch called Bella fat today and told her she needed to start going to the gym or she'd never get a boyfriend",I laugh. I remember that.
"That's Renee for you.", I shrug. She doesn't say it to be mean. In her own way she shows that she cares. "When I was thirteen she told me that I needed a nose job.", Rose mumbles fucking bitch under her breathe and I laugh. "Apparently I'm cursed with the swan crooked nose", I subconsciously rub my nose.
"Bella you're nose is perfect. Edward talked about your nose", My eyes widen. What the hell?
"He was the main one that teased me about my nose growing up.", I say with shock evident in my voice.
"Yea thats mainly what he said, but one time he said, 'it was the most perfectly imperfect nose, on the most imperfectly perfect woman'", I look down at my glass. "She blushes", Rose says shoving me again.
"He did not say that", I say dissmissely. "I honestly have no clue what Edwards attraction to me is.", She shrugs at me.
"You're perfect for him, and he knows that", Such a corny thing to say, but it's probably the most accurate thing that she's said. "Why did you two never date back then"
I turn my body to face her. "We made a silly ass pact that we would never let anyone or anything between our friendship, not even a relationship",
"That is silly", She says grinning.
"We were like eleven", I shrug. "I told him that I never wanted to loose him as a friend so I thought that the pact was a good idea. I didn't know that I loved him then", I say to her. She makes a humming noise, before hopping off of the seat.
"Do you know how epic your love is? To be in love with someone for nearly what's that fifteen years?", she looks at her fingers trying to count. I laugh at her. She waves her hand and starts towards the stairs. "I'm going to the bathroom", I nod, tossing back the rest of my wine.
I start to settle back into my seat when I hear someone at the front door. I walk towards it, and stop short trying to hear if it's Emmett and Edward. The door handle continues to jiggle causing me to take slow steps back. Edward has his key, so there would be no need to toy around with the front door would it? I inhale sharply.
Then there's two loud pounds at the door. I jump with each, completely scared out of my mind. There's another thud followed by the handle twisting some more. I put a hand to my chest trying to slow my racing heart. I think about calling for Rose, but what will that do?
Who could be at the door? Only possibly explanation that comes to mind is James. Who else would bam on the door like a crazy person?
Does he know that Edwards not here? Has he been following me?
No one has seen or heard from James so it could quite possibly be him, but how'd he find me here? Fuck!
I look on as the door handle continues to twist and turn, and my instinct is to run, but run where? My stomach lurches in fear. Where the fuck do I go?
Where's Edward?
Where's Emmett?
What do I do?
I turn quickly to run up the stairs when I hear the door burst open.
"Bella?"
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