I apologize for how long it's taken me to update. I honestly ran out of ideas, but hopefully I'll get more as time goes on.

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Disclaimer: These characters belong to Stephanie Meyers!

Edward Pov

She hasn't stopped crying. I want to hold her and make her feel better, but she won't let me.

Charlie passed away shortly after he reached the hospital, before Bella could even get there. I had my share of tears at the funeral, I mean, I've known Charlie nearly my whole life. Just because we had a few disagreements doesn't mean that I ever doubted that he would have my back. When I'd get into trouble, Charlie would immediately call my dad. He could easily have locked me up for some of the dumb shit that I did but he didn't. He'd lecture me, call me a troublesome little shit, and send me on my way. Charlie was a great man, and I'll miss him. He didn't agree with my feelings for his daughter, but I'd hoped that on that day I could have convinced Charlie to embrace my relationship with Bella. Bella needed his acceptance, she needed his assurance, and I would have begged Charlie to give it to her. I wanted him to know that I love Bella, that I'd take care of his daughter, and that I'd do anything for her.

I still want him to know that.

Eventhough she hasn't talked to me in three weeks. Well, if you could count her mumbling, "Okay", when I told her to take a few days off from work after Charlie's funeral.

Oh, and she moved out. She had Jacob come into my home, pack up all of her things and take it to Charlie's house. Alice has been staying with her there, and according to her, Bella isn't doing good. She barely eats, doesn't sleep, and hasn't left the house.

I told Alice that I was coming over today, and she had a fit, saying that I was the last person that Bella wanted to see right now. I can't understand why though. What did I do? We were moving in the right direction. We were going to tell my family, and hers that we were together. That was a mere three weeks ago.

I wish I knew what was going on in her mind. I wish I could make her listen to her heart. I wish I could make her stop giving up on us.

Alice Pov

"Jacob I swear to god, if you don't leave right now-", He shoves past me into the house.

"I don't have time for your shit today tinkerbell. Where is she?", he continues into the house.

"She doesn't want anyone here", I say to him softly. "Seriously Jacob, I told you that I'd call when she wanted visitors", He keeps walking and I follow. I fold my arms across my chest. "You've never been one to follow directions.", He shrugs, and starts up the stairs. I again follow.

"Bells", He shouts.

"In here", she says from her childhood room. We both walk in and she under the covers tucked in the fetal position. I tilt my head.

"Bella-babe, you should eat sweetie", I say walking over to her.

"Yea, Bells, listen to the pixie", I turn around and shoot him a look.

"Hey Jake", she says with a hoarse voice, and smile. He picks her up in his arms and kisses her cheek.

"How are you", He asks with her still in his arms. She shrugs.

"I just try not to think about.", She looks over at me as he releases her. "Alice helped me sort through his things, and we told stories and-", she nods. "I just miss him", Her eyes well up with tears, she sniffles.

"I'm here for you Bells, you know that.", her rubs down her arm.

She sits back on the bed, putting a pillow in front of her, as she picks at it. "Yea I know. I mean, I'm okay, I just...It's just hard", tears slowly stream down her face. She wipes them away quickly. "I have to go back to work tomorrow, I will be okay", she takes in a deep breathe with her eyes closed.

"What the fuck? Does he really expect you to be ready to go back to work so soon", Jake says in outrage, causing me to roll my eyes.

"It was my choice Jake okay. I'm going to come here every weekend to sort things out, you are more than welcome here whenever you like. I know that this is like your second home.", she holds out keys. He just stares at them for the longest time. "Alice and I are moving back into our apartment."

"When everything is sorted what are you going to do with the house", Jcob asks as he takes the keys. He continues to look at them.

"I don't know Jake. I haven't thought that far ahead. I don't know, I don't know...maybe sell it", He smirks, head still down looking at the keys, twirling them around between his fingers.

"Bella, Charlie would kill me if he knew that I was letting you sell his house", Bella raises an eyebrow. "I'm just saying.", He holds up his hands. "Charlie loves this house.", He chuckles slightly, but looks back down and clears his throat. "He, uh, he really loved this place."

"We all do", I chime in, reaching over I rub Bella's back. "You guys remember playing hide and seek", I say and Jacob laughs out loud.

"Fucking Bella always hid in her parents bathroom", He says loudly.

"Whatever, it was a great hiding place, okay. I could fit in the cabinets under the sink.", Bella shrugs. "So many memories here.", She looks up. "The barbecues, remember", she looks at Jake. "You know a few weeks ago, I was thinking about that first fishing trip that Charlie took us on.", Jacob smiles.

"Yea, you didn't catch anything the whole day Bells", her mouth drops.

"Yes the fuck I did.", she reaches up and playfully shoves him. "You know I did, you ass."

"One fish, Bella, only one", she shrugs.

"I worked for that fish, okay.", Jacob nods. We are quiet for a beat. Then his face turns serious.

"If you need anything, Bella, you call me okay. I will not hesitate to be there", she smiles.

"I know Jake", He reaches down to hug her.

"See ya pixie", He winks, and I roll my eyes. "Call me later Bells", she nods, and he's out the door.

Bella Pov

As much as I love my job, I can surely say it wasn't a great idea going back so soon. I'm not the type to get emotional and cry all the time, but when my thoughts get the best of me, I break down. Charlie was my person, my hero, my friend, my dad, and I miss him.

"Bella", I hear my name called and I quickly wipe my face and turn to face the person.

"I'm okay", I say softly. Edward reaches out for me, but I step back. I can see the hurt in his eyes, and my chest constricts. I'm not trying to hurt him. It's hurting me knowing that he's hurting, but I have so much to think about when it comes to our relationship.

"Let me take you home", I shake my head in objection. "It's not busy out there. Rose can handle it", I shake my head again. "Baby", He takes a step to me, and I'm caught between him and my desk with nowhere to move. His hand grazes my cheek and his thumb swipes under my eye removing tears. He puts a hand around my waist and pulls me to him. I'm limp in his arms, and I completely break down. He rubs my back letting me cry, whispering words of support. I need him, and he knows it.

"I can't...I can't...I can't", I say over and over.

Eventhough he probably has no idea what I'm talking about, because I'm not even sure, he whispers back "I know", and he continues to hold me as I cry into my hands. "Let me take you home Bella", I nod. He tucks me underneath his arm as we walk through to the front area and out of the doors. He walks me to the passenger side of the car, and I slide in. I watch him walk around to his side and he gets in. We drive in silence, and I silently wonder if he's going to take me to his place. A few minutes later my question is answered. We pull up to my apartment. He walks around and helps me out.

"You want to come in?", I ask him. I kind of need to talk to him about everything that has happened.

He shakes his head no and backs up. "I'm going to go finish up at work. Get some rest B, I'll come see you later", I nod, and walk into the apartment. I feel a lump in my throat that I swallow down. I am overwhelmed with emotion. I wanted him to come in and hold me. I feel so much better in his presence, he doesn't even realize. I feel my lips tremble as I attempt to hold back tears.

Edward would know just what to say right now to make me feel better. I should have begged him to come in. I miss him. Most of all I miss my dad.

When I wake the next morning I am balled up on the couch with a quilt over me. I hear Alice before I see her.

"Morning Bells", she sings, and I smile. This is how she woke me up for the last few weeks that I've stayed at Charlie's.

"Morning Alice", She giggles and walks over to me.

"So, I was going to make breakfast, but there's nothing here to eat. We have to go grocery shopping", I nod. "Oh, and we can't forget our girls night in", she claps her hands quickly. She starts to walk away. "Check your phone. Renee, Edward, and Jacob called this morning. Edward actually came by at almost midnight. He said that you need him, but then he saw you on the couch asleep and left.", I did need him.

"I did need him, but it's okay. As long as I was able to sleep. What time is it anyway"

"It's a little after eleven. Edward said to tell you to not come in to work tonight, and I agree", Alice said.

"Why am I such a china doll to you people? I can handle work", She shrugged.

"Well, I also just kind of wanted you to help me out with this whole party planning thing. You're good at this stuff", I nod.

"Say no more Alice. I would love to help out. Why don't you let Edward cater it", she shakes her head.

"My mom would kill me if I did that. Edwards a big participant in this charity, she'll hate him working it instead of mingling with her high class friends", I nod and mumble 'of course she would', "What?", she asks. I shake my head. "You want to come to the meeting with me", she asks. I shrug. Do I really feel like dealing with Tanya?

"Sure, yea. Why not?", I get up and get dressed. Twenty minutes later we are on our way to Bellevue for the Touched By An Angel charity meeting.

The moment Tanya spots me she practically has a fit. "She shouldn't be here"

"I invited her. She's my assistant", Alice says as I take a seat looking around the table at women that I've pretty much known my whole life, but of course I'm too low-life to be considered a friend.

"God Alice I find it hard to believe that you need an assistant to organize a menu", Tanya says snidely folding her arms across her chest.

"And I find it hard to believe you're pregnant", Alice replies back tilting her head to the side. "Tanya, I find it interesting that you are supposedly closely approaching what...", Alice looks at me. "maybe twelve weeks, yet you look amazing, minus the glow", Alice says to her. I can kind of see her bump though she's trying to cover it up.

"If you must know, I'm having complications. The baby isn't growing much, but that's none of your concern", she turns to everyone clasping her hands together. "So, how is everyone coming along with their planning", she starts and every one tells what they've done so far, Alice is the last to go, saying that she hasn't come up with anything.

"We gave you the easiest job Alice", Tanya says and Alice shrugs. "So, what do you have an assistant for"

Alice chooses to ignore her and she stands, I follow. "Is this thing over with?", Alice folds her arms. Tanya scuffs.

"Alice have your shit together next meeting or you're off the committee", Tanya says to our retreating forms.

Alice turns. "Oh please, will ya! I want to claw my eyes out every time that I'm around you bitches anyway", And with that she turns and we leave.

"Alice that was a pretty pointless meeting", I say to her and she shrugs getting into the car.

"They wait til I leave and they gossip, so it's not pointless for them.", Alice replies.

"I'm so glad that you're not like that", I lean my head against the back of the seat. "You or Edward"

"Of course not Bells. Our parents didn't raise us to be snobs", Alice says and I blanch. Am I going to have to be the one to tell Alice and Edward how their mom really is? God I hope not!

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