Please dont shoot me for this short chapter. I know that its been so long but my other stories have completely consumed my mind. Good news is that we are three chapters away from this couples HEA! Yea Ill spill the beans its a HEA I wouldn't have it any other way.
Disclaimer: These characters belong to Stephanie Meyers.
Edward POV
You ever get the feeling that you're drowning? Like you just can't fucking breathe, and each breath is so very precious because there's an overwhelming weight restricting air from reaching your lungs. That's how I feel right now. I'm gasping on my last bit of air supply, trying like hell to get to her.
If she leaves I don't know what I'll do. I can't lose her again. Not again! Without an explanation once again, she's just gone. No real clue as to why she left.
"Alice, have you talked to Bella." I speak into my phone quickly as I race down the highway to Bella's home.
"Yea, asshat. She's here, but she's leaving thanks to you again." Alice twists the knife, and I clench my hand into a tight fist around my phone ready to launch the shit through my car window.
"Stall her please, Alice. I swear I have no clue what I did wrong."I tell her, and listen as she sighs.
"She said that you don't love her, and you won't stick up for her anymore. Did you say something to make her think you chose Tanya over her because I think thats what she thinks. Is it because you were Tanya's date? Did you explain to her how this works? That it was purely in the best interest of everyone?"
"Alice you're talking a mile a minute. Just stall her. I'm almost there." I hang up and race down the road to their apartment.
I pull up behind a cab, just as I see Bella exiting the building with Alice right behind her. Bella sees me standing there and she staggers back with wide eyes trying to retreat bsck into the building but Alice is there blocking her escape.
"You were going to leave again without saying goodbye." I walk up the steps until I am right in her face. "You were going to do this to me again. Completely destroy me twice in one lifetime. I almost didn't survive without you the first time and you know that-"
"I almost didn't survive either." She interrupts me, and I take a dangerous step towardd her speaking through clenched teeth.
"Then why are you doing this again? Why are you doing this to us again? Why are you leaving? You're ruining us."
"Because Edward. From the very beginning I knew we could only be friends, and we had respected that line for so long, never crossed it...until one day we did. That was the day I ruined us. Not when I left. Not even today. That day that I kissed you, and we both played it off like it never happened, like it was a normalcy, like it happens all the time. Then I saw you with her, and I realized I could never be your normal. We could never be normal together Edward. You belong with her. Fate has slapped that in my face so many fucking times, and I've been stupid, and blinded by it. You're having a baby with her for god sakes Edward, just let me go, please." She takes a step and I take a step also. Out of the corner of my eye, I see Alice walk past us down the stairs to the cab driver.
I let Bella's words swirl around in my head as I try to pin point the truth behind her words.
"None of that matters because I want you. I want you forever. I want you to stay, and figure this shit out with me, Bella. I don't know what I'll do without you. The only thing that has gotten me through the terrible years without you in my life were the letters we used to write each other as kids, and the faith that you would one day reappear in my life. Everything that I have done in my life was for you. The restaurants, the club, the house, the money, the life baby, I worked my ass off to make sure that if I ever saw you again, I would have the means to take care of you, give you the dream life that we talked about."
"We never once talked about having that dream life together Edward, and I'm thinking there's a reason for that." Bella says and my head drops as my mind reels.
"Yea there is. Fear. Fear is the reason for all of that. We were both afraid, and we have acted so stupidly about it." I grab her arms, and her bags fall to the ground, as tears fill her eyes. She closes her eyes and inhales my closeness, relaxes at the sensation of my touch. "I want to share this life with you B. I want to wake up next to you every morning, smiling because I fucking know you're there to stay. I want to come home from work to the smell of you cooking your fuck awesome fajitas, while shaking your ass to some Justin Timberlake song." A beautiful smile breaks across Bella's face. "I want to love you forever and ever, because it's what I was made to do."
Bella blinks up at me. "Remember when we were seven, and we went to the beach, and wrote our names in the sand." I ask her, and she nods, sadly.
"Yea, and the shore washed it away each time we did it."She sniffles. "Can't believe you remember that."She shakes her head at me, staring into my eyes with wonder.
"You wanted to give up. You were so mad. I can't remember how many times we tried before you gave up, but you were so upset." I tuck a stray hair behind her ear, and her breath catches in her throat.
"You promised me that you wouldn't stop until our names were written forever." She lets out a little laugh, and I nod.
"Did you forget what forever meant Bella? Is that why you keep leaving me?" I ask, and her eyes widen at my accusation. "We couldn't get it to stay in the sand, so we-"
"Carved it into a tree, I remember." She finishes for me.
"Forever is a long time Bella, but even at seven I knew that I couldn't see a day without you in my life. I swear I loved you then."
Bella falls into my arms, sobbing onto my shirt, as I grip her to me. "I don't want to leave." She says through her tears.
"I refuse to let you go Bella. If you leave, I leave." I tell her, and she slowly releases my shirt, and looks up at me.
"You have too many responsibilities here." She shakes her head no. "I can't let you do that."
"Then stay, please! Stay here, and be happy with me. I can make you happy. I want that for us."I lift her chin and slowly place a kiss on her lips. She breaks out into a sob again, and I just hold her close, swearing to never let her go again.
"I can't Edward. I can't be happy knowing all that I know."
"Tell me what it is B, and I promise to fix it. Whatever it is. Please don't leave without at least giving me a chance this time."
"It's Esme, Edward. She doesn't want us together. It's been her from the very beginning, and I can prove it." Bella says, and pulls out her phone. I stare at her blankly, as she taps away on her phone. Then I hear my mothers voice, and I freeze.
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