Prom was this week and I was excited. This was the part where I became prom queen. I knew it was going to happen. Not to mention, I ended up getting more votes by having a part of my past revealed. I decided to embrace it because people liked the honesty. I would do whatever I needed to win prom queen other than pretend to be straight or an atheist. I wanted it a lot. It was my dream and my mom supported my dream. Jessa supported my dream as well. The only downside was that she couldn't be queen with me.
One thing that I would be doing was going dress-shopping with the girls. By that I meant Tina and her friends. I actually already had a dress, but it was more of a female-bonding exercise. It was also to see if I could become friends with them as well. I really could use more friends and I was also entertaining the idea of letting my Goth side come out again. I wasn't sure if I would do it this year, but I was considering doing it for senior year. Hopefully by then we would have a national championship under our belt.
I couldn't decide if I was going to give a speech or not. I didn't even know if I could give a speech to be honest. I would probably say something after winning. I just didn't know what.
After school, I decided to rehearse what I was going to do when they called my name. I couldn't help but wonder if I should give a surprised face. I was pretty sure that Taylor Swift did it because she didn't want to look smug. Being surprised even though she knew that she was going to win made her more approachable. I also began to practice a song. I wore a red cardigan over a black tank with a black fringe miniskirt, red tights and red flats.
Lying here with you so close to me, it's hard to fight these feelings when it's so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile
At that point, Jessa entered the room and began to join in.
I've never opened up to anyone, so hard to hold back when I'm holding you in arms
But we don't need to rush this let's just take it slow
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight, just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't wanna mess this up, I don't wanna push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might be the one I've been searching for my whole life
So baby I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight
No I don't wanna say goodnight
I know it's time to leave but you'll be in my dreams
Tonight, tonight, tonight
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight, just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't wanna mess this thing up, I don't wanna push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might, be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright let's do this right with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight kiss goodnight
"Hey." I greeted her.
"So I heard you were going dress shopping." She remarked. "I thought you already had a dress."
"I do, but I'm trying to make some friends." I declared. "Plus it can be fun. So you already have your dress, don't you?"
"Yes." She responded. "You know I lost prom queen to this slut last year. It's too bad that I can't run again this year."
"How about when I when, I dance with you instead of the king?" I offered. "You deserve that moment."
"I've never seen you so confident before." She stated.
"Well I like being popular again." I explained. "Before I got pregnant with Beth, I was the most popular girl in school and people are finally starting to think of me as that girl again, even though I'm not a cheerleader again."
"You know you don't have to be popular for people to like you." She pointed out.
"I know." I responded. "But I really want to win prom queen. I deserve this."
"Well in case you don't win, there's always next year." She declared before she kissed me. "I love you."
"I love you too." I reciprocated before I went to meet Tina, Cara, and Daisy at the mall.
"You know they don't really make prom dresses for girls like us." Daisy remarked.
"I don't think it's really that hard to find something that you like." I argued. "They make prom dresses for pretty much everyone these days."
"Yeah I guess if they have to make them for fat girls, they should make them for goth girls too." Cara responded.
"Is she always like this?" I asked Tina.
"Pretty much." Tina declared. "You know I'm really excited about the music for prom. I hope they play this song."
She says she's no good with words but I'm worse
Barely stuttered out a joke of a romantical stuck to my tongue
Weighted down with words too overdramatic
Tonight it's can't much worse vs no one should ever feel like
I'm two quarters and a heart down and I don't wanna forget how your voice sounds
These words are all I have so I write them so you need them just to get by
Dance, dance we're falling apart to halftime
Dance, dance and these are the lives you love to lead
Dance this is the way we loved if they knew how misery loved me
Why don't you show me a little bit of spine
You've been saving for his mattress
I only want sympathy in the form of you
Crawling into bed with me
Dance, dance we're falling apart to halftime
Dance, dance and these are the lives you love to lead
Dance this is the way they'd love dance this is the way they'd love
Dance, this is the way they'd love if they knew how misery loved me
Dance, dance, dance, dance
Dance, dance, dance, dance
"Tina, that song is about sex." I told her.
"What no, it's not." Tina argued.
"Yeah it is." Cara agreed. "I remember losing my virginity to that song. That girl was such a freak."
"Cara, you're a freak." Daisy told her.
"Okay, no more calling anyone freaks." I mediated. "It's not nice."
With that we went to the store and they got their dresses.
On prom night, I wore a strapless sparkly blue gown with a pair of blue heels. It was kind of expensive, but nothing that my family couldn't handle. I saw that Jessa was at the bottom of the stairs with my mom and wearing a cerulean strapless ruffled gown with a pair of matching heels. We even had a little prom dress for Beth.
"What are you thinking about?" I asked Jessa as we posed for pictures.
"How I landed the two most beautiful girls in the world." She responded. That got me to swoon.
From there we went to dinner before heading to the prom, which was at the school. I assumed it was because they didn't want to rent out a hotel. The Glee club was going to be providing the entertainment.
Once we got there, Artie and Puck were singing first. Apparently we were starting off with a new wave song.
I'd drive a million miles to be with you tonight
So if you're feeling low turn up your radio
The words we use are strong they make reality
But now the music's on oh baby dance with me yeah
Rip it up move down, Rip it up, move down to the ground
Rip it up cool down Rip it up Don't hang it on the borderline
Everybody have fun tonight (Everybody have fun tonight)
Everybody Wang Chung tonight (Everybody have fun tonight)
Everybody Wang Chung tonight, everybody have fun
On the edge of oblivion and the world is Babylon
And all the love and everyone a ship of fools sailing on
Everybody, everybody have fun tonight
Everybody, everybody have fun tonight
Across the nation around the world everybody have fun tonight
A celebration so spread the word everybody, everyone everybody have fun
Everybody have fun tonight (Everybody have fun tonight)
Everybody Wang Chung tonight (Everybody have fun tonight)
Everybody Wang Chung tonight, everybody have fun
Everybody have fun tonight Everybody Wang Chung tonight
"That could have been worse." Jessa told me. "They could have sang 'Friday'."
"What's Friday?" I asked.
"You're better off not knowing." She admitted. I smiled and gave her a kiss. For once, we could actually be affectionate at school. "You know I think I do want to become a teacher."
"But I thought you wanted to sing." I declared.
"Well I do like performing, but I also really liked teaching this year." She explained. "I'm thinking about taking some classes at Lima State in the fall before transferring to wherever you go to school."
"Well if that's what you want to do, I think that you should go for it." I declared. To be honest, I wasn't even sure what I wanted to do. I hadn't given much thought into it. I did want to be a performer, but I knew that business was hard to get into. I needed to have a sort of backup plan in case I failed. I just didn't know what that backup plan was going to be.
I looked around the prom a little bit. That were a few interesting fashion statements there. For one, Sam was wearing a bolo tie. It looked weird, but it didn't look as weird as the kilt that Kurt was wearing. I didn't understand why he would wear something like that, unless he was transgendered, which I wouldn't have a problem with. Actually, it would be kind of cool if he was transgendered because I never met anyone like that.
At that moment, Blaine began to sing a song. I hadn't heard it in a little while. It was actually a good song. I was throwing my hands in the air.
I came to dance, dance, dance, dance
I hit the floor cause that's my plans, plans, plans, plans
I'm wearing all my favorite brands, brands, brands, brands
Give me some space for both my hands, hands, hands, hands
Yeah, yeah, cause it's goes on and on and on
And it goes on and on and on, yeah
I throw my hands up in the air sometimes, saying ayo, gotta let go
I wanna celebrate and live my life, saying ayo, baby, let's go
Cause we gon' rock this club, we gon' go all night, we gon' light it up like it's dynamite
Cause I told you once, now I told you twice, we gon' light it up like it's dynamite
I'm gonna take it all like, I'm gonna be the last one standing
I rove around like, I'm gonna be the last one landing
Cause I, I believe it and I, I just want it all, I just want it all
I'm gonna put my hands in the air, H-hands in the air
Put your hands in the air-air-air-air-air-air-air-air
I throw my hands up in the air sometimes, saying ayo, gotta let go
I wanna celebrate and live my life, saying ayo, baby, let's go
Cause we gon' rock this club, we gon' go all night, we gon' light it up like it's dynamite
Cause I told you once, now I told you twice, We gon' light it up like it's dynamite
At that point, Principal Figgins took the stage.
"Would all of the candidates for prom king and queen please walk up to the stage." He instructed. I walked up there, grabbing my skirt because it was easier to walk that way. Santana was there and so was some other chick. "The 2011 William McKinley High Prom King is David Karofsky."
I couldn't believe that he won. I definitely wasn't going to dance with him. I also really hoped that Santana hadn't come up with upset.
"And the prom queen with an enormous amount of write-in votes is…" He started. Oh fuck. I lost. Please don't be Lucy. "Kurt Hummel."
I was shocked. I had lost. I had lost to a guy. Kurt looked really upset as well. I couldn't take it anymore. I ran out of the gym and into the bathroom. Jessa ended up following me. I was crying.
"I can't believe it. I lost prom queen to a guy…to a guy." I wept. "I don't want to go to school here anymore. I can't show my face out there."
"Faith, look at me." She declared as she grabbed my face. "You're beautiful. So what if you didn't win prom queen. You're still a queen to me and there is always next year. Now go back out there."
"Will you hold my hand?" I requested.
"Sure." She replied.
Kurt also went out to accept his award, but Karofsky understandably didn't want to dance with him. Jessa and I began to dance as Lucy sang the final song.
I heard that you're settled down, that you found a girl and you're married now
I heard that your dreams came true, guess she gave you things I couldn't give to you
Old friend why are you so shy, it's not like you to hold back or hide from life
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, but I couldn't stay away, I couldn't find it
I'd hoped you see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over
Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget I beg, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
Nothing compares no worries or cares, regrets and mistakes they are memories babe
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste
I heard that you're settled down, that you found a girl and you're married now
Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget I beg, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead
I just hoped that I would win next year.
So Faith didn't win Prom Queen, but she had Jessa to help her through it. The songs are "Just A Kiss" by Lady Antebellum, "Dance, Dance" by Fall Out Boy, "Everybody Have Fun" by Wang Chung, "Dynamite" by Taio Cruz, and "Someone Like You" by Adele. Please don't forget to review.