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Raven's POV

Present time

Looking over at his sprawled out body, I couldn't do anything but fall to me knees. I started to cry just looking at him, I was at a loss for words. My tears started falling more rapidly. I closed my eyes and wished this whole thing was just a dream,
that he didn't take his life all because of what I said. Beast Boy wouldn't do this, he was always the fun-loving, caring, jokester. I opened my eyes to find everything in the room floating and crashing into the walls. I tried to calm down, but I
couldn't, I just kept crying.

"...ugh... Raven?..." I could heara faint voice came to my ears over my crying and the objects crashing and breaking.

I opened my eyes, and saw that Beast Boy's eyes were slightly open and his eyes were like darts looking at me. At that moment, every object that wasn't broken or crashed stood still in mid-air.

"Beast Boy..." I could only stare at him as he began to stir in the pool of blood he lay in. As he tried to rise to his knees, he staggered and I could now see every last cut that was on his arm. There could have been 20 on each arm! I never knew he
would do such a thing to himself, never in my life has Beast Boy even seemed like the type of person to do such a thing. "Beast Boy... why would you try to kill yourself?" He never met my eyes, only stared at the ground and remained silent.

"Beast Boy... please..." I said with concern in my eyes and tone. This time, he looked up at me, but when he did, he had disappointment and pure anger in his eyes.

"Why?!... Why?!... I love you! I fucking love you, Raven!" He stared at me with tears beginning to form in his eyes. "Every day of my life since the first day we met, I've loved you! When you broke up with Malchior, I told you how much I liked you!
I told you how bad I wanted you, how I think and dream of you every day amd night, how youcan make me smile even on my worst of days! But no! No, you always told me you how badhe treated you and how he never gives you the attention you
deserve. I always told you how you deserve to be treated like a queen, like royalty. You deserve to be the most in the world. You are my princess and I would do anything for you, you know that! But every time you'd say 'you still love him' or 'he was your first love' no
matter how bad he treated you! You'd always go back to him no matter what he'd done, but I'd always love you no matter what happened!"

By this time now, he had tears everywhere. Even Ihad tears in my eyes, he had just told me how he felt and I had completley ignored how he felt in the past, despite how I was treated. I was at a loss for words, he cared so much about me and I didn't
care.

I began to cry, he noticed and came to hug me, hold me even until I stopped crying and began sniffling.

"Do you... do you hate me?.."

A small smirk came upon his face, he lifted my head by my chin so I can look in his eyes. "Rae, I could never hate you, you bring me happiness. You are my sunshine, I couldn't live without you..." He said that with the most sincere look I have ever seen.

"Even though all of the things I've done to you?"

"Raven... you mean everything to me, my love for you couldn't be stopped by what you said. I'd always love you even in death."

I looked up at him into his shinyemerald eye's and he stared into mine as well. I couldn't tell what he was thinking, only that I knew he loved me so much. I couldn't give him the samelove that he gave me. He cupped my face and pulled me in
closer. I closed my eyes and he kissed me, it was so passionate, I could tell he waited andwished to kiss me for so long. When we finally pulled away, I just stared at him and him back at me. We sat there for a while just staring into each others
eyes, before I stood up and turned my back to him.

"Beast Boy... I... I have to go.."

"Garfield... call me Garfield.. Gar for short"

"Gar... I'll see you later" I wished I could stay, but my heart wouldn't let me. As I walked out the door my last sight of him was him putting his head down. As he did I heard him say,

"Bye Raven... I love you..."