~What Am I Feeling?~
~Chapter 22- On Top Of The World~
Their lips moved passionately and naturally over each other's, like they had been doing it for years. Their hearts were filled with happiness and love, overflowing in their kiss and overriding their thoughts.
Scorpius' fingers glided into Albus' hair, entwining between the dark locks as he hung onto his best friend.
Friend? Did they even call each other friends now? After all this, they couldn't be just friends… they certainly wanted more and felt like more. But in this moment they couldn't think about anything other than this kiss and how amazing they felt together.
Albus' arm draped around the small of Scorpius' back, holding the boy as tightly as possible against him. There was no space between their chests, especially when Albus slid his hand from Scorpius' cheek to the back of his neck to draw the smaller closer.
They were on top of the world. Not a person could bring them down at this point. The castle could collapse around them and they would not notice. The end of the world could come and they would still be standing here, in each other's embrace. It was surreal being with each other like this. Yet it felt too natural to feel abnormal. It was everything they could ever want, everything they could ever need.
Each other. That's all they were consumed by. Each other.
Scorpius felt himself being backed up towards Albus' bed and he didn't fight it. Instead he moaned quietly once his back hit the surface of the bed. Their lips separated for a split moment and they groaned in disappointment. Albus climbed over Scorpius, straddling his hips as they shuffled further on the bed.
Each movement was co-ordinated and they worked together perfectly. There was no awkwardness, they floated with a grace which meant they should have been lovers for years, and they would have been if they had not wasted so much time.
Albus joined their lips together again and Scorpius' hands found their way back into Albus' hair. He realised in that moment how much he loved Al's messy locks and he knew if they continued this, he may get a serious obsession with Albus' hair.
The older boy relished the feeling of having Scorpius' fingers tugging at his hair. Was it possible that just kissing Scorpius felt so much better than having sex with Danielle? He didn't understand what it was about Scorpius, all he knew was that kissing this boy made him feel the best he ever could. It must just be because he loved the boy so whole-heartedly and always would, he couldn't ever feel this way about anyone else.
Automatically, Albus' tongue darted out, licking along Scorpius' lower lip. Scorpius didn't squeak or squeal in surprise but whimpered at the amazing feeling. In instinct, he parted his lips ready for Albus. No games anymore. They gave themselves to each other as much as they could in that moment. Albus smirked into the kiss, an overly satisfying sensation washing over him. He let his tongue sneak into Scorpius' mouth and Scor's was ready for his.
The first touch their tongues felt like electricity through their blood and very soul. They both gasped, Scorpius' hand tightening on Albus' hair and the Potter gripping Scorpius' collar.
Albus opened an eye, curious to see Scorpius' physical reaction to their kiss. His cheeks were flushed a deeper red than he had ever seen them before and his face was contorted passionately.
That finally sent Albus into giggles. Scorpius slowly opened his fluttering eyes. Albus' forehead was rested against Scorpius' shoulder, his eyes scrunched up as he continued to snigger.
Breathlessly, Scorpius asked, "What…?"
"You just look so adorable!" Albus scooped Scorpius up in his arms, cradling Scorpius' head in his hands. Scorpius pouted but he couldn't help but grin too.
They turned their heads, green meeting silver. Albus' smiled softly, running a thumb over Scorpius' blushing cheek. They kissed gently one more time before Albus rolled off of Scorpius, lying together on Al's bed.
In mutual understand Scorpius tucked himself into Albus' arms which enfolded around the blonde tightly and perfectly. Their hearts were thumping, pressed against each other's chests so they could feel the way the other reacted. Scorpius nuzzled his nose into Albus' neck when Albus placed a kiss on his head.
"Break up with Chris." Albus whispered yet Scorpius received it as an order.
"Yes…" Scorpius muttered in reply, "Merlin yes…"
"I've been stupid haven't I?" Albus snickered at himself almost harshly, "This is what we have… this is what we should have always had. You realised before… while I was just being an idiot. I'm sorry Scor… I'm so sorry for everything. For denying that kiss, for not realising sooner, for being an arse to you."
"I've been silly too though," Scorpius admitted, shame ridden in his voice, "I've used Chris to get to you. To make you jealous… I guess part of me thought I might learn to love Chris, learn to make him the one, not you. But it could never have happened. I had too many feelings for you… you're the one."
"I'm not going to pretend I didn't try to make you jealous too. I'm sorry."
"Jealousy isn't something you should ever deliberately cause someone else to feel. When people desire something, or feel that something or someone they treasure is being taken away from them… You shouldn't increase their jealousy. All those silly games we were playing… it was all wrong. No more games. It should just be us now, without using anyone else to get to each other. Not to mention, when you make someone jealous you're hurting that person, which is wrong. We were both wrong to do that. I'm sorry for doing it too you."
"I wanna be with you…" Albus breathed, Scorpius shivering at those words, "We were supposed to be together from the start… We shouldn't have been with anyone else, we were just playing with them, hoping that they would be the one's so it wasn't our best friend who we desired. But Merlin Scorpius… You're so perfect. Perfect for me."
"You're perfect Al… you're the perfect one…" Scorpius inhaled, craning his neck to plant a kiss on Albus' cheek.
"Scorpius… Scorpius Malfoy, I love you."
Scorpius' breath hitched in his throat as he heard those three words that completed a person. His breath was shaky and he felt completely dizzy for a second. Had Albus really just said that…? He really loved him? The boy he loved so unconditionally and irrevocably? It was all happening so quick, so sudden. All the magic in the world couldn't make Scorpius feel the way he was feeling at that moment.
Scorpius hitched himself up onto his elbows, leaning over and pressing his lips firmly to Albus'. They kissed lovingly but innocently, Scorpius holding Albus' chin carefully.
"Albus I love you so much…" Scorpius burst out, pecking Albus' lips, "I love you," He planted a kiss on Scorpius' lips with each 'I love you', "I love you…" He repeated the three words over and over.
Albus knew he was grinning like an idiot, but he didn't care. How could he be happier now? He had everything he could want: Scorpius. Scorpius was everything to him, "I've always loved you Scorpius, since the moment we met. I knew there was something special between us, something to be treasured. I'm just annoyed at myself for not realising earlier. But not we can get on with it, right? Get on with us… what we were supposed to be the whole time. I love you…"
Scorpius felt Albus' lips pressing butterfly kisses along his jaw line and he gasped. It wasn't heated nor lustful. It was soft, comforting and loving. It's all they needed at that moment.
"Al… what about… telling people?" Scorpius questioned hesitantly.
Albus leant back on the bed, a pondering look upon his face, "I don't think I'm ready to tell people that… I'm seeing a guy…" He grabbed Scorpius' hand, "It's not that I'm ashamed or anything! It's just that it's a big step from seeing a girl, to suddenly seeing a boy just after I broke up with her. I'm worried what my family would think. My parents were so pleased when I started dating Danielle. And it's not that they would be disappointed because it's you but because you're a boy. I think it would just be better to wait a while longer."
Scorpius sighed into Albus' shoulder, abusing his lower lip with his teeth, "Your parents are the least of our worries…" Albus frowned at Scorpius' solemn words, "My father… over the holidays he expressed his opinion about you and the Potters and Weasleys…"
"Like what?" Albus exclaimed protectively.
"It was just one thing. But of course it stuck in my mind because it meant he could never knw about my feelings for you. He said that he would never allow me to be with any Potter nor Weasley. He said it was hard enough accepting that I wanted to be with a boy, but if it was with a Potter or Weasley too it would just be unforgivable. And if it were you…"
"Merlin, he hates me doesn't he?" Albus chuckled gravely, trying to lighten the mood though it didn't work.
"Unfortunately yes…" Scorpius shifted his position so he was staring into Al's eyes again, "I want to be with you in this way. I'm not going to give that up. But until I come of age Al… we're going to have to keep this quiet. We can't let anyone know, because he might find out. As much as I love him, I fear what my father would do… and because I love him, I don't want him to know so we can keep our relationship the way it has been. When I come of age-"
"Even when you come of age, I doubt your father would accept us." Albus said stiffly, but his hands came up to stroke Scorpius' blonde locks.
"When I leave Hogwarts then. When I leave Hogwarts, he won't have such a great say in my life and then we can tell everyone… then we can tell him."
"So we can just pretend that we've decided to stay chaste for the rest of our school years." Albus grinned cheekily, kissing Scorpius' cheek.
Scorpius giggled, "I guess so. Though I'm not sure they would believe it when it comes to you."
Suddenly, voices were heard from the down the corridor, the voices of their dorm mates. Albus sat up abruptly, reaching for his wand. It would be ironic if they were caught before they even started. And with their red lips and bright faces it was more than obvious what they had been doing, even a Hufflepuff could probably figure it out.
Albus cast a spell to drop the curtains around their bed and then a silencing spell so they couldn't be heard. They heard Ben and Thomas (their room mates) entering the room.
Albus whispered, "Stay quiet for a second," Despite the silencing charm already working it's magic.
Albus poked his head around the curtain, grinning at his two friends but careful to not let Scorpius in their view. They frowned at his unusually upbeat behaviour. Well even more upbeat that normal anyway.
"You alright mate?" Ben perked up, heading over to his bed, "You look a bit flushed…"
"Not feeling to well to be honest." Albus lied expertly.
"Sorry to hear about you and Danielle by the way…" Thomas said softly, "It was pretty intense."
Albus shrugged, uncaring, "Nah, don't worry. Not really that bothered you see."
"Really?" Ben frowned again, crossing his arms.
"No, it means that a lot of new possibilities have been opened up." Albus said blissfully, feeling the urge to glance back at Scorpius.
"Well good for you," Ben cried out with a smirk, "No bitch to hold you down now!"
"Indeed…" Albus yawned, "I'm gonna go to bed guys. See you tomorrow."
Albus crept back fully onto the bed, yanking the curtains so that they had privacy. He turned back to Scorpius and he felt butterflies flutter in his stomach at the sight of the beautiful boy. Leaning down, he left a long kiss on Scorpius' lips. Even after they separated, the burning of the kiss lingered on their lips.
"Are you feeling okay about Danielle?" Scorpius asked for reassurance.
Albus slumped down next to him, smirking, "Well, I was slightly upset before, mostly angry, but I am feeling considerably better about it. Mainly because I realised I am indeed in love with my best friend who happens to be an amazing kisser it would seem. So yeah, I'm feeling pretty good right now."
Scorpius laughed and kissed Albus again, unable to resist the boys sweet lips. They could kiss each other all night long with no hesitation. It was overpowering this feeling, the only thing stopping them from attaching their lips together all night was that they wanted to speak to each other, hear their soft voices and tell each other they loved each other.
"I love you, Scor…" Albus repeated. For the first time, instead of tapping Scorpius' nose, he kissed the tip.
"I love you too, Al." Scorpius beamed, touching his nose where Albus had kissed it.
"You're beautiful, you know that? Everything about you. I love everything about you and always will. I don't think there's anything about you I don't love really. I've always thought you were completely perfect," Albus continued to shower kisses over Scorpius' face and collar bone, "You're beautiful and you're mine…"
"Yours… yours completely," Scorpius smiled dreamily, running his hands over Albus' back, "And you're mine…"
They were on top of the world.
~X~
Scorpius' eyes felt tired as they fluttered open the next morning. No wonder with how late they had stayed up the previous night. Until about three in the morning, Albus and Scorpius had stayed up exchanging gentle kisses and sweet nothings in each other's arms. It had been amazing. Everything they could want of their first night together like that.
Just before they had both drifted off to sleep, Albus had called Scorpius his boyfriend. It felt so good to finally hear Albus say that and to know that he didn't mind it either. He understood that Albus probably didn't like just boys, maybe he didn't even like other boys; just Scorpius, but he would also like girls too… it was comforting that despite this, he was still comfortable enough to call Scorpius his boyfriend too.
Albus was already awake, as always. He had been for about half an hour, just watching Scorpius as he slept so peacefully. He was stunning. Even as Scorpius slept, not saying a word, unmoving, he made Albus' chest tighten and made him so happy. Just looking at Scorpius, made him happier.
Albus pondered why Scorpius could never make him happier through his power. He thought after last night's confessions, Scorpius would desire for Albus to be the happiest he's ever been and he didn't doubt he did. But Albus thought… that maybe he didn't need to use his power for that. Maybe it was already the happiest he could ever be just being in Scorpius' company.
He felt even more cheerful when he saw those glistening silver eyes, momentarily confused as he was greeted by the sight of Albus, until memories of the previous night flooded back. Scorpius smiled up at his love.
Albus carefully pressed his lips to Scorpius for the thousandth time in the last twenty four hours, though it felt just as explosive as the first time they kissed and they couldn't see it ever wearing out.
"Morning." Albus whispered blissfully.
Scorpius tucked his face into Albus' collar; they hadn't bothered to take their uniforms off last night, "Morning…" Scorpius nibbled on his lower lip unconsciously.
"I love it when you bite your lip. It's so endearing." Albus squeezed Scorpius tighter to him, nestling his lips into Scorpius' blond locks.
"Stop…" Scorpius blushed, this time in embarrassment and released his lip. Scorpius kissed Albus' cheek fondly, "I love you."
By the back of Scorpius' neck, Albus pulled him down for another lasting kiss. Their smiles radiated through the kiss and each knew quite how ecstatic they were. They separated and Albus' thumb passed over Scorpius' lower lip, "I love you too, Scor."
It wasn't long before they had to get up and get ready for the days classes ahead. They wished they could stay in bed together all day alone, kissing and touching again. But they knew they couldn't. They had to go out and face everyone and out up a front. They had to forget all this for the time being, everything which had happened between them, everything they were together. To everyone else, they were just friends. Nothing more, nothing less. Best friends, 'celibate' best friends as Albus now put it.
Scorpius sat on the sink, swinging his legs as he brushed his teeth. Albus' hand was rested on Scorpius' lap as he told Scorpius about a prank he and Uncle George played on Uncle Percy over the Easter holidays. It involved the new Jelly super shooter which Weasley Whizzes had introduced and it didn't sound pretty.
"You're mad," Scorpius rolled his eyes once he had spat his tooth paste out, "So easily entertained."
"Pranks are hilarious. You're just lucky I've never done one on you." Albus teased, smudging a finger of tooth paste over Scorpius' nose.
Scorpius squirmed, squatting Albus' hand away, "And I trust you never will."
"Hm… Can't guarantee that…" Albus smirked mockingly, stealing a quick kiss from Scorpius.
Scorpius left the kiss beaming but felt cautious as he noticed the unlocked door, "We can't do this at all in public."
Albus nodded with a smile, trying to be strong but knew he would miss being like this during the day with Scorpius, "I know… And I understand. We'll just make the most of it when we can be together like this."
"I'm going to break up with Chris at lunch." Scorpius was scared of upsetting Chris. He did care for the other boy, despite what he had done to him the previous day. He didn't want to hurt him. But then again, he probably already had. He had been with Albus all night and Chris was the one who was supposed to be his boyfriend. His relationship with Chris had been over before Chris even knew.
"Okay…" Albus smoothed his hands over Scorpius legs until they reached the Malfoy's hips, "Then I can officially have you all to myself."
A promise of giving themselves to each other was sealed with their lips. A promise that they would be together forever, that Chris and Danielle and anyone else who tried to dwindle their way in their hearts were out of the picture. It was a promise that it would just be them, even though no one else would know it.
They were on top of the world.
~X~
A/N: YAY. So they're finally together :3 It's all so sweet isn't it?
I didn't get this chapter done as quick as I would want to, but I bloody loved writing it! So much fluffiness compacted into one chapter, oh it was pure bliss! Can't wait to write more scenes like this and I hope you can't wait to read them either!
I don't think there's much more to say about this chapter other than I hope you all enjoyed it, hope it was believable and everything that was needed to be said was said. Originally, I wasn't going to have them say 'I love you' in this chapter but wait until the next one or the one after that because I thought it might be too soon even though they both felt that way, but when writing it I realised that actually it was pretty needed and is what they would have naturally done.
Thank you to NekoAkitsuki, XxKit-ChanxX and Words Of A Feather for reviewing the last chapter! Love getting all your opinions!
Next chapter:: It's time for Scorpius to break up with Chris, but the thing is: Will Chris let him?