~What Am I Feeling?~

~Chapter 31- Lust And Love~

Albus and Scorpius were given strict instructions to go to the cottage in which Molly and Arthur were staying for breakfast. They had to come before eleven o'clock because Grandma Molly refused to make any more food after that time because it would be too close to lunchtime.

Fortunately, Albus woke at ten-thirty which was unusually late for him, but it probably did have something to do with the fact that he and Scorpius had been lying on the beach for hours last night, kissing and touching. Albus smiled to himself. Not only had it been the most romantic thing they had ever done, but it had been bloody good… to think, touching Scorpius, even with clothes covering them, had been a million times better than sex with Danielle.

He could only imagine how good having sex with Scorpius would be.

But he dismissed those thoughts knowing Scorpius and himself were not ready for that yet.

They walked down the road in their pyjamas, in a hurry so they didn't miss breakfast. The sun was already shining heavily over Cornwall and shouts of children could already he heard at the beach.

Albus knocked on the door to his Grandparents cottage and it was Lucy who opened the door, making sure to lecture them about how they should get up earlier which Albus just argued with the 'beauty sleep' reason.

"Ah, awake at last boys? And I thought at least Albus was an early riser!" Ginny chuckled as they slowly stepped through the crowded house into the kitchen.

"Well," A voice came from the sofa, "Maybe they were up late last night."

The couple stilled in shock. How did whoever that was know they were up last night, Albus wondered? Were they seen by whoever that was? And maybe whoever it was could know about them...

But Scorpius sussed out who it was immediately and knew that maybe they weren't seen. That mocking voice could only belong to one person. Peering over the sofa he was greeted by the sight of a smirking Louis with his boyfriend's arm around him. Martino was sending his lover a stern look.

Two things could be going on Scorpius thought… Louis could just be being himself and just trying to make a joke, which wasn't funny. Or he could of jumped to conclusions about them… he always had a mind where he would think of people being in relationships and make innuendos about it… it might be that…

Or he could have seen them last night on the beach... Louis could very well have been there. They weren't exactly careful, he and Al hadn't even checked once to see if there was anyone around. Plus there must be a reason Martino was scolding him… and it wouldn't just be because Louis made a bad joke… it could be because they had found out a secret. Something they weren't supposed to know and Louis was giving it away.

"We had a long day is all…" Albus countered back, dragging his feet across the floor as he and Scorpius went to get breakfast.

As they ate, Albus and Scorpius exchanged nervous glances. They were silent, but just by the way the other moved and the looks on their faces, they knew they were both worried.

Soon, the others piled out of the house to start getting ready for the beach. It was only Albus and Scorpius, Louis and Martino, and Rose who was washing up left, Molly and Arthur were upstairs getting ready.

When Louis and Martino sat on the counter next to them, they fidgeted about anxiously. Louis and Martino were staring at them before they peered over the heads and made sure Rose couldn't hear them.

"We saw you last night." Louis said openly and honestly.

Albus' face went into his hands while Scorpius just paled. They were the first people to know of Albus' and Scorpius' relationship and this scared them. For outsiders to know… meant there was more chance of others finding out. It definitely wasn't Louis and Martino who they really wanted to keep it from. They just didn't want to risk it.

"Don't worry, we're not going to tell everyone, you obviously want to keep it quiet." Louis crossed his arms, looking at them harshly.

"W-what were you… why were you watching?" Albus said angrily, glaring at the other two boys.

"Well, we were going for a romantic walk too. But… we kinda ran into something we weren't expecting…" Louis shrugged, "When did it happen? You two?"

"Just before I broke up with Chris. The day before, in fact." Scorpius spoke for the first time, his head hung in shame.

"I won't pretend I didn't have my suspicions…" Louis finally smiled supportively, "I knew Scorpius was in love with you Albus, and the fact that I hadn't heard anything about you two for months…"

"Well… I love him too… More than anything." Albus whispered, threading their fingers together under the counter.

"Aw!" Louis squealed, "I'm so happy for you two!"

"But why are you hiding it?" Martino asked abruptly.

"Because my father would string us up." Scorpius said simply. He knew Martino would understand. Martino's father, Blaise Zabini had not exactly been very supportive when he found out about Louis though accepted it eventually. But Martino knew Mr Malfoy and knew he would be ten times harder on Scorpius. When he heard about Blaise and Louis, the first thing Draco said was: "A Weasley? I can't believe Blaise is allowing him to date a Weasley! And a misfit Veela one on top of that?" His reaction hadn't been pretty. And for Draco, a Potter was even worse than a Weasley.

Martino nodded in understanding and didn't say a word more. But of course, Louis had something to say, "But when will you tell everyone? You can't keep it a secret forever!"

"Shhhh…" Albus warned him, glancing over at Rose who was luckily, still absorbed with the dishes. Good thing it was a magic free holiday too, she would be done in a flick and would have all the time to listen into the conversation, "When we leave Hogwarts… Scor's dad will not be able to have any say in who he dates and stuff like that then…"

"Oh, I really am so happy for you! You make such a cute couple!" Louis excitedly said but in a hushed tone, "And bloody hot yesterday! Tell me all the details! How far have you gone? Is Albus good? Is Scorpius good?"

"W-we haven't done it!" Scorpius hissed.

"God, how have you been able to keep it in your pants, Albus? Scorpius is hot stuff!"

Even if what Louis said was uncomfortable and Scorpius wasn't used to it, he was glad they knew in a way. This way, they had someone to talk to about their relationship and if they had any problems, their was someone else to go to other than their partner.

They both knew, it wouldn't be that bad that Louis and Martino found out. It might even be better.

~X~

Scorpius lay on a towel on the sand, absorbing as much sun as possible. Scorpius didn't get a very deep tan, one which looked unnatural anyway. No, he got a nice golden tint to his skin, something which matched his hair.

Albus loved it when Scorpius got a tan. He thought he looked… beautiful. And yes, attractive. He had to be careful not to stare too long. Not to mention, Scorpius was bloody topless.

Albus wasn't so lucky with his tanning. He had his mother's skin and went a horrible red in the sun. He would get burnt so easily and his skin peels… well it was all horrible. He would have to coat himself with sun cream though hopefully Scorpius would offer to rub it on his skin… Albus scolded himself again for such thoughts... Anyway, Scorpius said he thought it was endearing when Albus had a slight red to his cheeks.

"Let's go swimming, Scor." Albus rolled over, lifting his sunglasses over his eyes.

Most of the younger family members were already in the sea, playing with balls or just lounging. Hugo and Fred had been bought body boards and were surfing on their bellies. Rose was digging a big hole which soon enough the tide would come in and fill, but she was determined to get it as deep as possible until that happened. Ron, Harry, Etienne and Teddy were playing a ball game with Louis, Martino and Dominique, which actually looked quite rough as it seemed to involve purposely aiming the ball to hit each other.

"Sure, wait I just have to take my necklace off."

Scorpius had almost lost his Baralime necklace once when he was taking a bath. It was around his neck and it must have just floated off when he was relaxing. His father had to levitate it out of the drain while Scorpius was almost panicking, thinking he wouldn't have that to block others emotions out. Ever since, he would always take his necklace off for showers or baths and definitely going swimming.

He tucked the necklace safely within his bags and let emotions around him flood his mind. They were good emotions though, happy emotions.

Scorpius and Albus ran towards the sea and Albus immediately dived in head first. Scorpius giggled but lowered himself into the cool water more gracefully, his head floating above.

They swam further out than any of the others were, until they couldn't touch the sand below themselves anymore. They kept their heads above the water, alternating between going on their backs and using butterfly strokes on their fronts.

"Let's just float…" Scorpius blissfully said, out of breath.

Albus complied, clutching onto Scorpius' hand as they floated in silence. It felt magical to them. Just drifting over the water with such grace, the only thing keeping them from gliding away was each other.

Scorpius glanced back to the shore where the first thing he saw was George and Teddy chatting on the sand, their feet dipped into the water. Scorpius smiled at them, but when George rested a hand on Teddy's shoulder, Scorpius felt their emotions spike into something he didn't expect, something no one around them seemed to suspect.

Lust.

The blonde almost sank at that point. He struggled to keep himself up and Albus laughed at him, unknowingly. But his mind was numb.

He glanced over at George and Teddy again who were now standing up and the feelings of desire were even greater than before. The look in the eyes, the way they touched, Scorpius didn't understand how he couldn't have noticed it before.

He didn't know that Teddy was… gay… There was no question about it. He was almost undressing George with his eyes. With everything Scorpius had been through, all the hardships he had faced because of his sexuality, had Teddy been going through the same? Or had he before? And… he didn't even tell him… didn't give him any advice…

But that wasn't the most important issue here. George was married. Married with kids. And not to Teddy. Scorpius could tell that this wasn't the first time they had felt this way towards each other and they had definitely acted on those feelings before.

George was cheating on Angelina.

Scorpius had known for years that George didn't truly love Angelina. He had a headache while he was at Albus' house one day, so took his necklace off and George and Angelina were there. Although he had never seen the married couple have much affection for each other, he was still shocked to realise George and Angelina didn't love each other. They were married out of pure obligation. Of course, he didn't know why they didn't love each other or why they married, but he knew there were no feelings there.

But he always thought George would still be loyal to Angelina if they were still together. Well, obviously not. He and Teddy were now walking away, back towards the houses, their excitement jittering. What was George thinking? He was responsible enough and Teddy was twenty years younger than him!

Scorpius didn't know whether to be ashamed of them. He admired George and Teddy greatly, especially Teddy… but to do something like this to Angelina, to Fred and Roxanne, it was unacceptable. Scorpius looked to Angelina who was talking to Ginny, blissfully unaware of what was happening between her husband and Teddy. His heart leapt for her. No, she didn't love George either, but surely she would feel betrayed if she knew?

However, just as he was starting to resent George and Teddy, a feeling radiating from both of them hit him like a truck.

Love.

They loved each other? Scorpius could tell it was unsure love, they didn't know whether to feel that way or not. They probably hadn't confessed to each other…

But those feelings were very much real and alive. They were just as strong… as the way Albus and Scorpius loved each other. So despite the fact they were cheating together, Scorpius sympathised with them in a weird way. He would do anything to be with Albus… and they were just doing the same.

Albus glanced over at Scorpius in concern, "Are you okay, Scor?"

Scorpius decided against telling Albus. He wouldn't understand unless he could feel the way George and Teddy felt for each other, how much it was like them, "Yeah, I'm fine."

In a split second, Scorpius was dragged under the water. He let out a yelp but when he felt warm lips against his and gave into another incredibly romantic kiss with Albus.

And if Scorpius' senses were so high from the kiss with Albus, he would feel the satisfaction of George and Teddy being able to finally kiss each other too only round the corner.

~X~

A/N: I think something went wrong while trying to upload this yesterday so here's my second attempt!

So there you have it! A few of you guessed George and Teddy so well done! There's not much to say about them at the moment other than you won't actually see much interactions between the two for a few more chapters, unless you read Snapshots. Snapshots tells the story of how they got together but it very much rated M! Normally I would say, read the first part and miss out the end if you didn't want to read the M part etc but really most of it is mature stuff! If you can't read it, don't worry, because eventually George and Teddy will talk about how they got together! Basically, that Snapshots chapter isn't necessary like the rest of them xD

I'm posting the Teddy and George story on Snapshots now as well so check it out if you do want to read it!

I was really happy to write a bit more of Louis in this chapter! And it's nice that they know in my opinion, so Albus and Scorpius have someone to talk to :)

Thanks to NekoAkitsuki, Japanese Sinister, truehpfan94, athenarox, Words of A Feather and lordsteinman for reviewing the last chapter! Much appreciated as usual! Please keep reviewing everyone!

Next chapter:: The holiday speeds through quicker than they could have thought.

~X~

Martino Zabini

Son of Blaise Zabini and boyfriend to Louis Weasley. Blaise wasn't that accepting over his relationship with Louis at first, but soon gave in.
Fell for Louis, first because of his looks and charm but eventually fell in love with him.
Can be very cold to other people, typically Slytherin. Though Louis says that he always sees a side to Martino that nobody else does.
Doesn't speak very much, but if Louis asks him to do something he will. Beyond loyal to Louis. But can get very jealous when Louis is with other boys or talks about them romantically.
Comes to care for Scor and Al too, particularly Al as he gets on well with him.