~What Am I Feeling?~

~Chapter 38- A Little Advice~

It was a few days before they were to return to Hogwarts, which also meant just over a week until Scorpius' birthday. His birthday fell on a Monday this year, a school day because it was a leap year. They were upset that they couldn't have a whole day together in private, but their evening would sure make up for it.

Albus was visiting Teddy and George for the last time before he had to go back to school. He was going to go with Scorpius, but Scorpius decided to meet up with Louis today for some reason, maybe even for the same reason Albus was going to Teddy. He wanted… advice, from Teddy in particular and he was the only one he could go to.

He and Teddy sat on the sofas in the living room, sipping on some Muggle tea that Teddy was obsessed with at the moment. Teddy's legs were thrown over his lap as he sat crossed legged.

"If you get a tattoo, I will not speak to you ever again." Albus shook his head with a haughty look on his face.

"Why are you so against tattoos, Albus?" Teddy laughed.

"Because they look horrible! Especially when you grow old and wrinkly! And you can't remove magic ones! If you don't maintain them, they get all shrivelled and disgusting…"

"Well obviously I would maintain mine! And just think, when you're just a dead body, if you have a tattoo, it sets you apart and makes you different from all the other boring dead bodies." Teddy said like it was the most normal thing in the world.

Albus gazed and him in shock, "What the hell? You're absolutely bonkers! Why would you think about something like that?"

"I don't know, I just do!"

Albus chuckled, absolutely flabbergasted at the obscurity of his god-brother. But it was one of the reasons he loved Teddy.

"Teds, I need some advice and stuff…" Albus said hesitantly, "But it's kinda private..."

Teddy lolled his head to the side when a smirk appeared on his face, "Is is about… the sex?"

Albus rolled his eyes and smacked Teddy's leg, "Yes! But please take it seriously! I really need some help, Teddy! I'm… I'm actually scared about it."

Teddy sat up and slung an arm over Albus' shoulder, "Don't be scared. It's exciting, new. You're sharing yourself with the person you love."

"I am excited, of course I am! I'm only scared because… I'm worried about Scorpius really, and worried that I'll hurt him…"

"Oh, I want to get in on the sex talk…" George slipped through the door and plopped down onto the sofa next to his boyfriend, "I can imagine that you're one of those couples who seem all sweet and innocent but actually do it like rabbits."

"No jokes! I really need some advice…"

"Just ignore him…" Teddy said sticking his tongue out at George, "What do you want to ask?"

"Well… is it different from doing it with a girl?"

"Of course, Albus. I mean, other than the obvious fact there's not the same parts as a girl, it's different in other ways too… I mean, you have to be extra careful and do twice as much preparation, because not only do you love Scorpius, it's not as natural as it is with a girl. It can hurt like a bitch if you don't prepare properly."

"That's not helping, Teddy…"

"Look, if it hurts Scorpius too much then you stop, and try another time. It's not a big deal. But it will hurt but he will have to get past that."

"It's endurable though," George added, "But in all seriousness… you need to find out if Scorpius has had anything up there before."

Albus gaped at his Uncle, surprised by his bluntness, "W-what?"

"Because if he has, you won't have to be as careful!"

"No, you be just as careful." Teddy said firmly.

"H-he's a virgin!"

"Doesn't mean he hasn't had anything up there before." George winked.

"Albus, you be just as gentle as you would ever have been. The best thing to do is get to know each other's bodies as well as possible but the only way to do that is experiment. If you're that worried about hurting Scorpius, then why don't you offer to bottom, for the first time at least?"

"No… we talked about it. He said he wouldn't be comfortable with topping and it felt more natural with me topping…"

"The only thing you can do is be prepared. Go slowly and be prepared. Once the first time is over, it will only get better. And anyway, your first time will still be amazing. They always are." George said honestly, peeping up at Teddy.

Albus shifted and smiled, "I am really excited."

"Of course you are! You're a boy who's gonna be getting some sex! Boys are always happy when we get sex."

"Which is why me and George are so happy all the time." Teddy said with a cheeky smirk.

"I love this man so much," George was grinning like an idiot, "Ah, wait!" George suddenly leapt off his seat and rushed out of the room. Teddy just shrugged while Albus looked startled. When George came back into the room, he planted a little bottle in Albus' hand, "It works better than spells most the time because it's guaranteed to work, but spells might not. We haven't used that bottle, I swear!"

"I can't believe I'm sitting here, discussing my sex life with my Uncle, as well as his sex life too," Albus cringed, "There is something wrong with me."

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Unlike Albus, Scorpius went to Louis that day, though like Albus, it was for the same reason. He wanted advice too about having sex with Al. But, he was very much regretting coming to Louis. He wanted to go to Teddy however when he found out Albus was going that day, he knew that meant he couldn't. And Teddy was going to Germany to meet some friends for a few weeks, the day after tomorrow, but was spending his last day with George.

While Teddy was away, George was going to be trying to regain control of his shop which Ron had officially taken over throughout the whole situation. With George and Teddy escaping together, he couldn't run the shop without paparazzi snapping photos and crowding the shop, not to mention George's presence hadn't had a good effect on business with a lot of the public being against his in particular. Son Ron begrudgingly took on the shop until everything calmed down.

However for Scorpius, the main problem at the moment was being forced to talk to Louis of all people about his sex life.

He and Louis were sitting on the beach outside Shell Cottage, soaking up the sun. They sipped on fresh lemonade, letting the soft tide splash against their bare feet.

Louis had sunglasses covering his eyes as he giggled at Scorpius, "I knew you hadn't done it! Still! Ah, you're so innocent aren't you? Such a sweet, but weird relationship! Oh Merlin!"

"Louis please…" Scorpius begged, "Don't make this harder… I didn't want to come to you as it is but you're making it harder!"

"Charming, Scorpius. Thank you."

"I didn't mean it like that… I just knew you would tease me and I don't need that right now… I'm kinda nervous about it…"

"I understand, okay okay seriously, now," Louis put on a cool, calm persona with a serious look on his face, "Have you ever wanked up the arse before?"

Scorpius spat out his lemonade all over his t-shirt, coughing violently. Louis couldn't help but explode into laughter, holding his stomach, "L-Louis!"

"I'm sorry, your reaction was just too funny!" Louis giggled uncontrollably, "But the question was serious! Have you?"

"O-of course not!" Scorpius spluttered with a distraught expression painting his face.

"You have not lived…" Louis chuckled rather darkly, "And you are far too innocent for a teenage boy."

"And you're far too blunt." Scorpius grumbled to himself.

"Your main concern will be staying safe. I'm assuming your planning to bottom?" Scorpius nodded and Louis went on, "Well you just need to take it slow, make sure Albus is not rushing it or being too rough. I'm sure he'll be just as nervous as you so you need to try and stay calm and relaxed. It does hurt, Scorpius, I'm not going to pretend it doesn't, but as long as you're well-prepared the pain should be bearable. If it doesn't work out the first time, then it's not the end of the world. You stop and give it a go another time. Once you get past the first time, you won't have those worries."

"H-How much does it hurt? How do I know if we should stop?"

"The pain… it fades. When Albus prepares you, it will sting a little but after about a minute that should fade and become fine. When he actually enters you though…" Scorpius gulped and the prospect, "It will hurt badly. But you need to pause, leave it for a few minutes until the pain starts to go. If after a few minutes it doesn't, then that's when you stop. Albus might not have prepared you enough or you might not be as relaxed as you should be. Just stop and try again another time. At least your first time will not really be ruined then."

"What about… w-well, pleasing Al…?" Scorpius said hesitantly, "I mean like… giving back?"

Louis grinned, "Well… I am going to have to be blunt Scorpius-"

"-Oh Merlin!-"

"-The best way to give back would be to give him a blowjob." Louis said casually slurping his drink.

Scorpius slowly blinked; once, twice before finally muttering, "W-what?"

"Or a hand job can be just as good if done well. I think a blowjob might be pushing it for your first time, especially with how innocent you are. I don't doubt Albus has imagined you doing that to him before."

"Oh Merlin," Scorpius groaned, "Why am I here?"

"Give as much as you get because Albus is guaranteed to be just as nervous as you are about the whole thing."

"Oh Merlin!"

"Seriously though Scorpius," Louis caught Scorpius' eye, "Be safe."

Scorpius nodded and whispered, "Thanks… even though that was extremely embarrassing."

"Oh! I forgot!" Louis started rummaging through his bag when he pulled out a little bottle, "Personally, I like it better than any spells. It makes it more… raw and sensual, I think anyway."

Scorpius stared at the bottle in shock, "Why are you even carrying that around with you…?"

Louis shrugged, "I always carry a bottle of lube around with me. You never know when you're going to need it."

"Oh Merlin!"

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A/N: God that chapter was so much fun to write! Especially at the end with Scorpius and Louis!

I was worried I pushed it a bit far... Do you think this chapter is still appropriate to the rating? I personally think it is, but some people might not...

Next chapter... Scorpius' birthday! Obviously I can't put the big first time up in this story but of course, I will write the full chapter and post it in Snapshots for anyone who wants to read it.

Thank you for reviewing the last chapter: lordsteinman (I actually do appreciate some constructive criticism sometimes so thank you! I'll take it into consideration in the future!), Satary, SpencerReidFan89, Curly Wurly Me and XxBandersnatchxX.

Next chapter:: Scorpius' birthday.

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James Sirius Potter
Al's older Gryffindor brother. First depicted to be very aggressive towards Scor, bullying him intensely for years.
VERY close to family, especially Al and Lily. Admires his father.
Took on an attitude (From his Uncle Ron it is assumed) that the Malfoys are bad, including Scor, so immediately takes a dislike to the boy, despite Al defending him.
Deeper feelings revealed later. ( Was jealous that Scor was so close to Al and it wasn't him anymore. Thought Scor had replaced him).
Later proves himself to be a good person.
Enjoys Quidditch like the rest of the family. Plays Keeper though he fancies himself a Seeker. Loves Wizards Chess. Inherited his father's invisibility cloak, while Al got Harry's map.
Goes on to study curse breaking after Hogwarts.

Quote- "How the hell did you get into Ravenclaw with your stupid little arse?" James said with raised eyebrows, twisting his mouth.
"Shut up! The sorting hat obviously had a different opinion." Albus huffed, crossing his arms and raising his chin.
"And it was also a big surprise that Malfoy here didn't get into Slytherin."
The sudden resentment from the older boy immediately shot through Scorpius making him shiver.