~What Am I Feeling?~

~Chapter 41- Broken Boy~

Through a sleepy haze, Scorpius could hear loud bangs echoing through the room. He opened one eye, only to see Albus shifting uncomfortably, slowly drifting into consciousness himself.

Last night, when they returned home they had engaged in a night of love-making. They had only fallen asleep a few hours prior so they did not appreciate being woke up at this time in the morning. It had been amazing though. Completely worth it. The night prior had turned out to be very special and emotional.

The door suddenly rattled loudly and Albus fully woke up, his nose pressed into Scorpius' hair. Still a bit confused, he started sit up, his gaze alternating between Scorpius who was half-awake and the door.

"Scorpius Hyperion Malfoy! Open this door right now!"

At that point, Scorpius shot up, leant against Albus' body. He blinked a few times but he recognised the voice as his father's.

More knocks and bangs followed. Scorpius and Albus scrambled out of bed together, wordlessly, only exchanging panicked looks.

"Scorpius! Open the door or I will blast my way inside!" Draco's voice was laced with anger and frustration. Scorpius honestly hadn't heard his father this angry, ever before, "I want that idiot of a boy out of my house! Now!"

Albus pulled his boxers on and threw his shirt on as Scorpius started to pull his jeans over his legs, "What on earth is happening?"

"I have no idea!" Albus breathed back, panting as he hurried with the buttons.

"What have you done to annoy him?"

"I haven't done anything!"

The door flung open with an easy spell and Draco stormed in without restraint. The boys were startled and naturally jumped together. Draco hardly looked at Scorpius but went straight for Albus, grabbing the Potter by his shirt.

Draco didn't hesitate in dragging Albus out of the room, "I want you out of my house right now! You will not even look at Scorpius again! No way! No way on earth!"

Albus was so in shock that he didn't struggle properly, he also didn't want to hurt Mr Malfoy and his slight resistance was nothing compared to Draco's strength. His small "Let go!" did nothing.

Scorpius however, grabbed onto his father's sleeve, tugging as hard as he could, "Father, let go! What the hell are you doing?"

"Scorpius! Stay in your room!" Draco shoved Scorpius off with just a shrug and hauled Albus down the corridor and towards the stairs.

"No way! Let go of Albus! What are you doing?" Scorpius launched himself at his father.

"I know about you two! I know you're together!"

Scorpius stopped for a moment, letting Draco get ahead of him for a moment. Albus was babbling on, "Mr Malfoy, please, can't we just talk about this? You don't understand-"

"Don't even speak, Potter! You're not to even look at my son ever again!"

"Father, you cannot dictate my relationship choices!" Scorpius yelled and desperately tried to reach out to Albus, tears starting to form in his eyes. Everything was going so quickly, in such a short space of time. So many thoughts were running through Scorpius' mind but what mainly consumed Scorpius was the feeling that he might be losing Albus; he could feel him slipping from his fingers.

For a moment their hands touched and they gasped, trying to grab onto each other, but again, Draco pushed Scorpius out of the way and continued to pull Albus along the corridor.

Albus continued to ramble on to Mr Malfoy, trying to reason with the man while Scorpius screamed at his father and tried repeatedly to stop him. Mr Malfoy just continued to scold the two of them.

Astoria stood at the end of the corridor, cowering in fear along with some of the house elves who didn't know what to do. She had seen the article with the picture of her son and the Potter, after her husband had stormed upstairs. She didn't do anything to stop him. She knew she couldn't. And at the moment, she had no idea what to think of it all, whether she approved or not. Draco obviously didn't… and she had to follow her husband.

When Scorpius spotted his mother he ran over to her and grasped onto her wrist, "Mother! Please help! Please! Stop him! What if he hurts Albus?" Scorpius cried.

Astoria stood there motionless when Draco interrupted and started to pull Albus down the stairs, "I won't hurt him, I just want him out of my house!"

"Mr Malfoy, please stop! Please listen!" Albus panted.

"Dr-Draco, maybe we should listen to them, talk to them about it!" Astoria tried to reason though it was no use.

"Shut up!"

Astoria was silenced in a second and looked down at the floor. When Scorpius realised it was no use he turned away and stumbled down the stairs after his father and boyfriend.

They entered the foyer of Malfoy Manor and Draco was soon flinging open the door and throwing the brunette out of the house, wearing only a half-open shirt and boxers. Albus dove back to try and enter the house again but Draco held a hand in front to block him and with the other held Scorpius back. It was then that Scorpius also noticed Albus crying, most likely from fear. Another wave of tears overwhelmed Scorpius and he saw his father observe him but the man maintained his harsh persona.

"You are not to see Scorpius again. You are no longer together. Go home, Potter." Draco spat and slammed the door in front of Albus and locking it with his wand, ignoring the cries of the boy. Draco looked to the house elves which were gathered around and ordered a harsh instruction, "Make sure all the doors and windows are locked. I do not want that boy to enter this house again."

Scorpius broke down. He launched for the door, thumping the wood with his fists over and over and screaming Albus' name. Albus responded on the other side, doing the same with Scorpius' name.

Tears were streaming down Scorpius' face. Would his father stop him from seeing Albus completely? Could his father do that? He knew for sure he could live without Albus by his side. It seemed like his father was actually prepared to do that to him. The adrenaline was pumping through his veins but there was an aching an longing in his heart. The possibility of being separate from his lover was approaching and it simply scared and upset him.

Draco easily pulled his son away from the door and stood in front of the entrance instead. He held Scorpius by the shoulders, an arms length away from him. Astoria was standing in the background, watching the events. Her own eyes were glazed over with tears. They stood like this for a few minutes until Scorpius started to calm down and his cries were at a minimum.

"How the hell did you find out?" Scorpius sobbed, not looking his father in the eye.

"Somebody got a picture of you last night. It was in the papers this morning." Draco said more calmly.

Scorpius realised that meant everyone would know, everyone. But he couldn't think too much about that right now, "D-dad… I want Al."

"I will not allow you to be with someone like that and a Potter on top of everything. It was bad enough you being friends b-"

Albus' punching on the door became louder and more excessive. Again, Scorpius attempted to open the door and shouted for Albus but Draco knew he had to be harsher with Scorpius.

With gritted teeth, Draco unexpectedly lifted Scorpius with great ease and threw him over his shoulder. Scorpius screeched and that only caused Albus to become more frantic outside.

More tears flowed down Scorpius' cheeks and he thrashed and kicked his father as he was carried up the stairs. Albus' cries became quieter and he felt him getting further apart from Albus, their bond being breeched. It only made him struggle even more.

Astoria stood there, motionless and silent.

When Draco reached Scorpius' room, he placed his son down on the floor. Scorpius' legs instantly gave way and he collapsed on the floor, his face in his hands as he wept.

Tiggy the house elf, who had followed Draco and Scorpius up the stairs, went forward to hug Albus. She tried to comfort him, but it was no use.

"Tiggy, bring their wands and Scorpius' owl." Draco instructed and the house elf shakily did what he was told, "Stay here with Scorpius. Scorpius, we'll talk later."

The door was closed and locked behind them. Tiggy rocked Scorpius in her small arms slowly, but the aching in the boy's heart did not cease.

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Albus was no better. He was leaning up against the front door of Malfoy Manor, curled up in a ball to keep himself warm. His cheeks were tear-stained and his eyes empty.

It was now night-time. He had been outside all day, trying to find ways to get in and see Scorpius. He was worried about his lover. All the screaming, all the screeching. Even though when he thought rationally about it, of course Scorpius was probably safe, but he couldn't help but think the worse. When it came to Scorpius, he could never think rationally, he was far too driven by emotions. He never thought that when Mr Malfoy found out he would react quite that badly. He knew it would be hard, but never that bad.

He was absolutely freezing but he couldn't find the will to move. He was wandless and tired. He was devastated. He wanted Scorpius. He wanted to see his boyfriend, see his beautiful face. Feel him in his arms.

He rubbed his hands over his face, feeling tears threaten his eyes again. How did he know what was going to happen? Surely Draco couldn't keep them apart… He would see Scorpius again, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow. But he would.

Albus suddenly thought of his parents. He paled at that point. They would know, of course they would know by now. And they must be worried after not hearing anything from him. He wondered what they thought. There was no way they would have reacted as badly as Draco, but Albus was still scared. He had been putting off telling his parents since the start as he was worried they would treat him differently. It was silly, he knew.

He suddenly had new motivations. Moping around here all day was doing no good. Mr Malfoy had the house on lockdown and no matter how much he wanted to see Scorpius, it was wasn't going to happen tonight.

Plus, he needed to get back to his parents. Yet without a wand, there was no way he would be able to tonight. He was too far away and too tired. The only place he could go to that was nearby was Martino Zabini's house. He wasn't great friends with Martino, but they often spoke and when they did they got on very well together. He guessed they were friends then really. And despite Martino being a Slytherin, he would definitely help him.

He started walking towards Martino's house which was still quite far away. It took him at least half an hour from Malfoy Manor until he arrived at the Zabini residence and he was only getting more tired and distraught as he went on.

Knocking on the door of the Zabini's house, Albus rubbed his arms anxiously, trying to make his shivers die down. He just needed some place to rest for the night, with someone who would understand.

The door crept open and the light stung Albus' sore eyes. It wasn't Martino who stood in the doorway, but someone he had only seen at a distance before: Blaize Zabini.

The man had harsh features and looked strikingly like his son. But he looked upon Albus with soft, sympathetic eyes. He knew who he was and he knew why he was here.

"C-can I speak to Martino please?" Albus said with chattering teeth.

Blaize paused for a moment before nodding, "Come in."

Albus stood in the hall while Mr Zabini walked off, not looking back at Albus. He was alone again. But at least he was warm and was closer to home.

Martino rushed down the corridor with a concerned look on his face. He saw Albus standing there, broken and he could only imagine what had happened.

"Albus…" Martino sighed, approaching the Potter. Albus started to shake and more cries broke through his throat.

Martino did what he had never done to Albus before and not to many people at all. He took Albus in his arms and held the broken boy close, stroking his hair. He let Albus sob into his shoulder but didn't say anything. Words couldn't help right now, Albus needed to cry and he needed to let it all out.

"You can stay here tonight." Martino whispered carefully and felt Albus nod into his shoulder.

Martino tried his best to shush the broken boy that night, but it didn't work.

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A/N: As heart-breaking as that chapter was, I have to say it was a pleasure to write because of all the drama! I love writing dramatic chapters! It's so much fun! And the next few chapters, no not quite as dramatic but still very important! I've written most of the next chapter already so it should be up soon!

So what is everyone thinking at this point? I'm hoping no one says they're Team Draco because I will seriously be questioning why on earth you are reading this fanfiction then xD Joking, joking. But really, what does everyone think is going to happen? What did you think of Draco's and Astoria's reactions? And what do you think Harry and Ginny and the rest of Albus' family's reactions will be? Interested to hear your opinions!

There's a character development at the end of this chapter by the way!

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Next chapter:: Albus goes home.

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Draco Malfoy

Most of the same character aspects as the canon, except it is very clear that he can be caring and there is more than meets the eye with him.
Not very close to his wife, married out of obligation, but stays with her for Scorpius' sake and it would look bad on his name if they broke up.
He is very close to Scorpius in their own strange way. He loves his son very much, but still has some of his father's mentality and standards stuck in his head, though he aims to be different to his own father. He doesn't like the Potters still and was slightly against Scorpius being gay.
He's very protective over Scorpius. He hates Albus, because he thinks he's cocky and arrogant and reminds him of Harry. He would prefer him and Scorpius not to be friends.
""Scorpius… I'm not going to say I wouldn't be happy if you told us one day that it was just a phase, just an experiment… but if this really is who you are, then I'll support you," Draco rested his chin in his son's head, closing his eyes, "I do… love you, you know that?"
Scorpius didn't hear those words often from his father and they sounded like bells to his ears, "I love you too, father.""