~What Am I Feeling?~

~Chapter 49- Christmas Dinner With The Potters~

Scorpius woke up to a soft breath tickling his cheeks. His silver eyes fluttered open and he was greeted by the sight of Albus, still dressed in his pyjamas, grinning at him. Scorpius wasn't used to waking up next to Albus… the past five days he had been in his own room and woken up alone. It was strange and lonely… But now he couldn't be happier to see Albus' face.

"Wake up sleepy head…" Albus pecked Scorpius' lips, "Happy Christmas."

Scorpius let a tired smile spread across his face, "Merry Christmas, Al…"

"My parents have already gone to my grandparents… So I thought we could have a little private time while we're alone." Albus smirked, dipping his head to plant kisses over Scorpius' neck.

Scorpius stretched his body out and groaned, "It's too early…"

"It's ten-thirty, Scor!"

"Well, can I at least give you your present first?"

Albus instantly beamed and bounced like a small child, "Yes, yes you can!"

Pushing Albus off him, Scorpius reached under his bed and pulled out a wrapped package, handing it to Albus, "I hope you like it…"

Albus ripped the wrapping paper off the present and raised an eyebrow, "Clothes?"

"It's a nice shirt, I thought it would suit you, you always looked nice in red. It's Muggle style and I know you like Muggle style… You could wear it today." Scorpius suggested, flinging his legs over Albus' thighs.

Albus lifted the checked shirt up, not that Albus would know since he had no interest in fashion whatsoever, "Will I look dashing?"

"You always look dashing," Scorpius flirted, leaning forward to kiss Albus' cheek, "I hope you have some nice jeans… I couldn't afford them…"

Realisation overcame Albus and he stilled, "Wait… how did you get the money for this in the first place…? Your father normally gives you money…"

"I didn't have much, but I used my savings which I keep at school to buy presents for you and a few others…"

"Scor, you shouldn't have done that," Albus said, concerned, "You don't have much money for yourself and you should have kept it for something important."

"This is important," Scorpius frowned, watching Albus through his lashes, "I wanted to get something for you and for my friends for Christmas… I wanted to get something for your parents too for having me…"

"You got something for my mum and dad?"

"Just some vouchers for 'Enchanted Hands', that spa place… I remember them talking about wanting to go there." Scorpius said innocently, twiddling his thumbs like he had done something wrong.

"You are just too nice…" Albus let his fingers glide through the blonde's hair, Scorpius' eyes closing as he enjoyed Albus' hands massaging his scalp, "When we move… wherever we go, you've got to let me pay for the flat and stuff-"

"What? No, Al! We'll pay to-"

"Just until we can both get jobs and everything… my parents will help u-"

"No, Al! I have to help as well!" Scorpius insisted when Albus grabbed his hands, kissing his knuckles.

"Please Scor… just consider it part of my present," Scorpius sighed into Albus' shoulder and nodded reluctantly, "Thank you for the gift… I love it. Now for your present…"

Albus pulled out of a bag, a flat sleeve with a record inside it which Scorpius recognised immediately and it didn't surprise him, "Beyond Magic's new vinyl! Thanks Al…" Scorpius laughed and pecked Albus' cheek again.

"Aren't you surprised?"

"Al, you told me not to buy it myself, I think I knew you were getting it for me." Scorpius chuckled with a shake of the head and leant back to lie on the bed again.

Albus pouted with a smirk on the face, "Sorry, Scor…"

Scorpius shook his head and pulled back up. Albus could be sensitive sometimes, especially when it came down to potentially hurting Scorpius or displeasing him and Scorpius knew this. He was just being silly so Scorpius draped his arms round his boyfriend's neck, "It doesn't matter, Al. I love it. Thank you."

"I've got something else for you…"

Scorpius almost groaned. Albus always spoilt him too much and then he would feel bad for not getting Albus as much… It frustrated him but at the same time, he loved receiving gifts from his lover.

From the bag, Albus handed Scorpius a diary type book which had a ribbon wrapped around, binding it shut. Scorpius pulled the ribbon and the overflowing book fell open, pictures of he and Albus over the past few months and notes they had passed each other in class spilling out. Scorpius flicked through the diary and looked at the words written down, recognising them as some of Albus' songs. It was messy and there were scribbles around the lyrics as well as some words being scratched out.

"It's my first lyric book… I finished it last month… Most of the songs are about you so I thought you might like to keep it." Albus said with a soft pink brushing over his cheeks.

Scorpius stared in awe, then looked up at Albus, trying to hand the book back to Albus "Albus, I can't accept this! It's something precious to you…"

"Yeah, it's about someone precious to me though," Albus smiled and pushed the book back towards Scorpius, "Please, I want you to have it."

Scorpius' heart was beating so hard it felt like it was going to explode. His lower lip quivered, glancing between Albus and the book, "Th-thank you so much…"

Scorpius took Albus' face in his hands and kissed him strongly. Momentarily surprised, Albus returned the kiss eagerly and for the first time since they came back to Grimmauld Place, they allowed their hands to roam.

~X~

Albus and Scorpius arrived at the Burrow with Lily at around one. Albus and Scorpius had taken the opportunity to have some quality time together which had been rather… explosive. They were used to being together everyday, whether they had sex or not, they were pretty much addicted to each other's bodies and the way they made each other feel.

Lily had just been plain lazy and hadn't bothered to get out of bed when her parents called her. It hadn't been good when she knocked on their door in the middle of their alone time. Thankfully they had locked the door and she didn't burst in on them.

Albus dressed in his new shirt and skinny jeans that Scorpius had persuaded him to buy on their last Hogsmeade trip. He buttoned the shirt right to the top and folded the sleeves. Scorpius wore a white shirt, also buttoned up, with a blue jumper over, one which Albus loved on him because it suited his eyes. For them, it was quite smart because they would either wear only pyjamas or just casual jeans and t-shirt when they went out, though Scorpius always was in with the latest fashion, thanks to his mother… though he guessed he wouldn't be so much anymore.

When Scorpius appeared in the fireplace after Albus, he stepped out to a bustling living room full of red heads. Although most of the emotions were probably positive, Scorpius was very glad in that moment that he had the necklace and the Baralime stone because it would have been far too overwhelming having the rush of feelings from such emotive beings. It reminded him of when he first visited Grimmauld Place, then unaware that it would one day be his home, and he was nervous meeting the family he was now encouraged to call his own and who he was about to share his Christmas with.

Most of the family were here, in the living room or in the kitchen. Scorpius had seen a lot of them a few days ago at Albus' official birthday party. It had been friends and family, though it was all the younger family members, Teddy had been the oldest there actually. There was a bit of boozing and dancing, Scorpius had actually had his first drink and got a little tipsy… Albus found that he did like tipsy Scorpius.

The only not there were Louis and Martino, who Scorpius knew were spending the first half of the day with the Zabinis before coming here, and Teddy, who was also coming later and bringing his frail Grandma Andromeda. Victoire wasn't here, not that Scorpius would miss her, she was spending the holiday with her boyfriend and his family in France. Scorpius did spot Charlie Weasley though, who he had in fact never met, despite hearing wonderful things about him.

Scorpius was happy to see George here with his twins. Last Christmas George had been rather miserable as Fred and Roxanne went to their mother's side of the family for the day. It was the first Christmas since they were born that George had been apart from them and Albus had said he hadn't taken it well. However now, George looked happier than ever as Fred jumped on his back and his daughter looked at them playfully, giggling.

Everyone greeted the couple warmly, wishing them a happy Christmas as well as saying how relieved they were to see Scorpius well. Hermione had given him a big hug, saying how worried she had been for Scorpius. Some of the other women had fussed over him too, Audrey and Fleur, and he was expecting much worse when he saw Molly.

Just as Scorpius was catching up with Dominique, Albus close by to make sure his boyfriend was alright, Charlie approached Scorpius, a beaming smile across his face.

"Uncle Charlie!" Albus exclaimed, surging forward and throwing his arms around the older man.

Charlie let out a gruff laugh as he returned the hug, patting Albus on the back, "Albus, you've grown far too much… can't be throwing yourself at old men like that anymore, you'll injure someone!"

"It's been too long, Uncle Charlie!" Albus said with frustration, "You need to visit more."

"Well, you're old enough to visit me now too, kiddo."

"If I'm old enough, then why do you still call me kiddo?"

"Always a smart arse," Charlie rolled his eyes, shoving his shoulder into Albus. He then turned to Scorpius, smiling and holding out his hand for the boy, "You must be Scorpius. It's nice to finally meet you."

Scorpius accepted the older man's hand, "It's nice to meet you too. I've heard a lot about you."

"I'm sure you have… and I've heard a lot about you."

"That does worry me for some reason."

Albus and Scorpius soon walked into the kitchen to see the rest of the family. Molly was rushing around, trying to get the cooking done with the help of Ginny, Dominique and Hugo, who unusually had a passion for cooking. Bill and Ron were casually leaning up against one of the counters with a fire whisky in hand, laughing and talking.

When Ginny spotted them, she nodded in acknowledgement, "You finally woke up, I see."

"It was Scorpius who slept in." Albus said playfully, receiving daggers from his boyfriend.

Ginny reached forward and gave a hug to Scorpius, planting a kiss on his forehead, "Happy Christmas, Scorpius."

Scorpius was surprised but grinned back, "Thank you… you too."

"Scorpius!" Molly threw her spoon back into the pan and rushed towards the Ravenclaw, scooping him up her arms practically and squeezing him tight, "Oh you poor boy! You've been through so much and you haven't deserved any of it! Oh, I almost feel proud of you for being so strong!"

Scorpius choked slightly but allowed a laugh to escape his lips, "Th-thanks Mrs Weasley…"

"I am completely behind you and your boyfriend, one hundred percent! You have all my support!"

"Yeah, hi Grandma." Albus said sarcastically, shaking his head at his relative.

Molly shook out of it and smiled warmly at her grandson, hugging him, "Oh hello Albus… how are you darling?"

"I'm good, Gran," Albus looked to Scorpius who was watching, "I'm great actually…"

Albus and Scorpius talked to Molly and the others in the kitchen. Soon enough, the couple had fallen into a comfortable embrace' Albus' arm slung over Scorpius' shoulder, the other holding Scorpius' hand across his body.

Ron observed them intensely the whole time until with an awkward cough asked, "So… what are you planning to do next year, Scorpius?"

Scorpius knew Ron had always had a certain resentment towards him and his parents, even since the war. Like James, though not quite as bad. He appreciated Ron trying to converse with him and maybe build a relationship with him. It just showed that he was putting the war behind them and accepted he and Albus, "I want to find a wandlore course somewhere abroad so I can learn to make wands…"

"Oh, for you and Teddy's shop idea?" Ron nodded thoughtfully, "It's a good idea, actually… It was a nightmare having to travel to wand shops out of London, especially ones which weren't so good anyway."

"I might save up to buy a new wand from you guys, mine's absolute crap." Hugo said harshly but with a sigh.

"Hugo Weasley! No bad language under my roof, thank you!" Molly exclaimed, glaring at one of her grandsons.

"I only said crap! That wasn't a swear word!"

"Excuse me! Don't repeat it!"

"Mum, he only said crap, it's not a big deal." Ron said casually, pouring himself some more fire-whisky.

"Merlin, you just had to say it didn't you Ron-" Bill started, before an explosion.

"Ronald Weasley!" Molly yelled, pointing her spoon angrily at Ron, "I hope you're not teaching your children that using foul language is okay! I always knew you were a bad influence! What would Hermione think if she knew you were condoning such things?"

Ron shrugged, "Probably string me up."

"Exactly… she would string you up! And you're lucky I don't either!"

Albus and Scorpius couldn't help but giggle at the argument.

~X~

Just before dinner was being served, Teddy finally turned up with his Grandma and only a few minutes later, so did Louis and Martino. Scorpius had seen Louis the other day for the first time for nearly six months. He wasn't going to pretend he didn't miss Louis but the older boy had hugged him so much, even more than Molly and Hermione or any of the others, he thought that he would either explode, or never want to experience human contact ever again.

Scorpius found it more than interesting to watch the way the twins behaved around Teddy. Roxanne flung herself at her father's boyfriend, happily hugging the man. Fred clapped hands with Teddy and laughed as he and Teddy chatted briefly. They even seemed completely unaffected when George and Teddy shared a long, passionate kiss and words of affection.

They actually looked like a family.

Meeting Andromeda was an interesting affair. She was able to come out in sympathy with them, due to the hardships she had faced because of blood lines and disowning… like them. She had been disowned too and knew what it was like. Scorpius found himself connecting with the older woman immediately.

Teddy had studied his and Albus' wands, like he said he would. It didn't come as a surprise when Teddy deemed them to be brothers. It only confirmed Scorpius' theory that there was a certain destiny to wandlore... He and Albus were always destined to cross paths and share a bond it seemed.

They were now all sat down at the long table, the large dinner set in front of them, looking like a hard mission to overcome.

Scorpius sat in between Albus and Louis at the table. Louis was still grabbing onto Scorpius,squeezing his cheeks and telling him how much he missed his fellow blondie. Both Martino and Albus were starting to get annoyed by it, Martino pulling Louis away and Albus protecting Scorpius in his arms.

"Uncle Ron, Scorpius reckons he can beat you at chess." James said with a surge of challenge to his voice.

Ron raised his eyebrows, looking at Scorpius, taunting him with his eyes, "Oh yeah, Scorpius? No one's ever beaten me before…"

The whole table listened into the conversation intently, but Scorpius just smirked confidently, "No one's ever beaten me before either."

"Well I have many more years to vouch for me."

"That's true, but I have much more brains to vouch for me." Scorpius said cockily.

The whole table made wooping noises, anticipating who it would be to win the argument, as well as the inevitable upcoming chess game.

"Malfoy, me, you, after dinner. Chess. We'll see who's the better player." Ron said with a trace of a smile.

"Challenge accepted." The blonde tilted his chin up.

"Oh Merlin, there's going to be a bloodbath…" Albus groaned, burying his face in his hands.

"But it will be a nice show…" Percy added from across the table, "It will be nice to see Ron sweat."

Ron tutted, "He will be no competition."

Everyone looked sceptically at Ron before George yelled, "Any bets? Any bets? Ron Weasley vs. Scorpius Malfoy, Wizards Chess? The unbeaten ginger chess God, or the young genius with the unpredictable moves! Place your bets!"

The family started shouting their choices across the table and offering their money to George until Molly hit the roof, "No betting at the table! Honestly! Have I taught you no manners?"

Many of the Weasleys shook their heads and jokingly answered no.

~X~

Later on, the whole family sat around in silence, surveying the passionate game of Wizards Chess between Ron and Scorpius. Over two hours had gone by and the game continued, though it was reaching it's peak now.

Scorpius was still as confident as ever and he was clearly at advantage. Ron was nervous. His face was as red as glazed tomato, matching his hair horribly. He could see Scorpius was winning and he needed to be on the ball now. He couldn't let Scorpius win… he had never lost! And definitely not to someone so much younger than him…

Ron wiped the sweat off his forehead with the back of his hand and rapped his finger nails along the table. Just as he was about to order his next move, Scorpius suddenly said, "I have literally anticipated every move you can do… and I know exactly how to overcome every single one."

The crowd giggled and chattered while Ron felt a whole new wave of pressure. Biting his lip he said, "Bishop to B2..."

Scorpius grinned widely, "How can you leave your King unprotected? Knight to G8. Check."

Ron's eyes widened and then it hit him. He couldn't destroy Scorpius' knight. There was no way. It was over. He had lost. Scorpius had won. Wow… Scorpius was good. But Ron was ashamed he had lost to someone so young.

In defeat, Ron moved his lone bishop to knock down one of Scorpius' last pawns without anymore words.

Scorpius instantly smirked, triumphantly saying, "Checkmate!"

Gasps and cheers echoed in the room as people started to congratulate Scorpius and tease Ron. Charlie was enjoying belittling Ron as Ron grumpily plopped over to the sofa, Charlie following him.

George started collecting money as well as giving some of it back but overall he looked extremely happy, "Thanks Scorpius for all the money you made me."

"You mean people betted that I wouldn't win?"

"Yes, but you definitely proved them wrong."

Albus circled his arms round Scorpius' neck from behind, pecking his lover's cheek, "I'm so glad that's over… that was so painful watching Uncle Ron… He looked like he was about to faint. Though, I'm very proud of you."

"I'm officially the champion of chess." Scorpius couldn't grin any wider.

"My little champion." Albus said in a teasing voice, shutting Scorpius up before he could protest with his lips. They kissed sweetly and chastely for a few seconds, feeling comfortable enough where they were to do things like this.

"Are you having a good time?" Albus whispered.

Scorpius genuinely smiled back, "The best."

Albus let his thumb swipe over Scorpius' lips "I'm glad."

"Everyone! Everyone! Look at this!" Roxanne jumped up, switching on the radio and singing loud and clear for everyone, "The name on everybody's lips is gonna be… Roxie! The lady raking in the chips is gonna be… Roxie!" Roxanne danced across the room, humming with actually a quite good voice, "I'm gonna be a celebrity, that means somebody everyone knows. They're gonna recognise my eyes, my hair, my teeth, my boobs(!), my nose!"

Everyone continued to enjoy Roxanne's musical performance. Everyone sat down for the rest of the evening, chatting and listening to music, singing together. Some of the more confident family members also got up and performed. Scorpius suggested to Albus he perform a song but Albus was still scared. Scorpius found that endearing about him though.

As Scorpius sat snug on one of the sofas, his legs slung over Albus' lap, snuggled into his boyfriend's side, he chatting to Dominique and Lucy on his other side, he knew he couldn't be happier. He also didn't understand how a family could be so accepting of someone from another. Yet, he was so at home here. With the blazing fire and everyone sitting around, doing nothing more than talking. It was more than he had ever had before and Scorpius was grateful for it.

~X~

A/N: I don't know what happened with the reviews last chapter... Apparently they weren't working properly! I'm sorry you if you were going to review and didn't get to, thank you anyway!

A few things to say, I'm thinking about doing a few extra chapters, ones that would be in Snapshots but here... I was thinking about posting Louis and Martino getting together here, I posted it in Snapshots before but someone asked for it a while ago and I think that's going to be the 50th chapter! So yay. Thinking about doing the same with George and Teddy, though I'll have to cut a lot out of that because most of it is sex xD Also, thinking about doing Albus' birthday party that I mentioned earlier in the chapter... I would definitely like to write Scorpius tipsy... What do you think of that idea?

So, someone said in a review that 'Scorpius has the same power as Jasper'... Honestly, at first I didn't even know who this Jasper was, I had to look around for a bit and found out it was someone from Twilight... I have never read, nor watched Twilight so I didn't know that their powers were similar or anything.. I'm sorry if I have offended any Twilight fans, but any similarities to 'Jasper' are purely coincidence...

The next chapter, excluding the repost of Louis and Martino getting together, will be a filler chapter but it's got some important information! After that... things are gonna get heated! Drama, drama, drama! Which I'm already really enjoying by the way... Anyone can guess what's going to happen? A clue... It involves Malfoys...

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Next chapter:: Albus and Scorpius are planning for their future.