AN: I'M SO SORRY FOR UPDATING LATEBUT I HAVE SOME REALLY GOOD REASONS! JUST HEAR ME OUT! Okay, so i was just minding my own business when my ex started drama on instagram and it stressed me out and made me have a breakdown. Then the next day at winter guard practice i got nailed in the head/ ear by one of the rifles and almost got a concussion, so i had to take it easy for a couple days. Then I have my first winter guard competition on saturday and im hella stressing cause we don't have our whole show. So i kow this is really late and it's not long and the ending is sorta rushed but there is all decent reasons. Again i am really sorry for this being late but i'll try harder next time. The next chapter is gonna be posted in about a month or so since i lose my weekends to write cause of guard. Thank you to all of the 369 views i got on the last chapter like thats insane that you all like it that much. Also thank you for the reviews cause those are literally what brought me back to writing this. Just thank you all so much ~Aleczander
Alec POV
Looking at the two sparkly words scrawled on the piece of paper my mind starts going crazy. Why would he want me to call him? Surely nobody with magnus' level of beauty would be interested in him. Maybe he just gave him the number as a cheap joke; isn't that the type of thing party boys do? Even if he really did want me to call him nothing good would come from it. If he saw me for who i actually was and how messed up and disfigured i was he would be revolted and want nothing to do with me.
I decide to try and stop thinking about the mysterious boy's actions for tonight and go take a shower. As i strip off my clothing before entering the warm embrace of water spraying from my shower i catch sight of my disfigured body that is littered with what seems like thousands of silver lines and i instantly feel my self hatred intensify. I go and open my mirror and grab the switchblade from the cabinet hidden behind. I make 6 incisions on my thigh; The little voice in my mind states a reason for every cut i create.
You're a disappointment.
You're ugly
Everyone hates you
You're useless
You're a waste of space
You're not worthy of love
I watch as the crimson liquid seeps out of the self inflicted wounds and down my thigh. I quickly enter my shower and wash off the blood hoping that it doesn't stain the pristine white of the flooring or leave any evidence of my affairs. I exit the shower and hurriedly head to my room to get fully clothed in my favorite blue and black plaid pajama pants and an old black thermal shirt with thumb holes in the sleeves. I slide into bed and reminisce on the day's events and eventually my thoughts ease me into dreams of a tall green eyed boy.
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