Dear Parvati,
I snuck out to visit your grave today. It wasn't hard, I mean, it was a hogsmeade weekend. All I did was head out past Hogwarts, and walk to your grave.
I just didn't want to be without you today. You would have been 19 today. And I am 19 today. I guess that I'm finally the older one. It never mattered before. We were always just the same age. Now were not. You never got the chance to be 19.
We always used to give each other presents. Just small presents, nothing too big. But we would always give them to each other by ourselves, so no one would know. I don't even know why we did that. It seems kind of funny now.
Most days I can handle with you not being here. I mean, it hurts when I think of you, when I see your face in the mirror, but most of the time I can accept that you're not here anymore, that you can never talk to me again.
Today though, I can't handle it. I miss you more than ever. I've never felt so alone, not even when I first lost you. Then I felt lost, and grief. I don't feel so lost now. But I've never felt lonelier in my life.
I miss you really badly. Today has been the hardest day since you left. Every year this was the one day that we would spend together. We would skip class, if there was any. We would wander around the castle, avoiding teachers. Sometimes if we didn't want to do that we would wander around the grounds.
This was the one day that we would spend together during school. We would forget about schoolwork. We would just enjoy each other's company.
That's why I'm visiting you now. It's not the same, but it's as close as I'm going to get. Today I stayed with you. For one more day, we were Parvati and Padma again.
Missing you,
Padma