"Yo, Tsuna!"
"Ohayo, Juudiame!"
"Yosh, Sawada!"
"Ohayo, Tsuna-kun!"
It was a normal morning for Sawada Tsunayoshi. Every morning, he'd walk to school with his friends and his crush. However, this morning felt different than the other mornings. Sure it was lively, but not lively enough. As if someone was missing...
"Where's Haru?" Tsuna asked. The small group skidded to a stop. They hadn't realized that Miura Haru wasn't there. Every morning, she'd hug Tsuna excitedly, a good morning gesture. Every morning, she'd bring him a bento she made just for him the night before. Every morning, she'd walk the group to Nami Chuu before running back to her own school. Even if she was sick, she would ask her friend, Izumi Sayaka, to bring Tsuna his bento, hug him good morning for her, and walk him to school for her. Today was different. Sayaka didn't show up. Neither did Haru. Something must be wrong.
"Maybe she's sick. Saya-chan did mention to me that Haru didn't look so well the last time she saw her." Yamamoto shrugged, trying to calm Tsuna down.
"Even if she was sick, Haru could have asked Izumi-san to hug me good morning, bring me bento, and walked to school with me." Tsuna wondered aloud. "This isn't like Haru. Maybe something's wrong. We should check on her."
"Demo, Juudiame. Let's do that later. We'll be late if we check on that stupid woman right now. Tch. Stupid woman. Making the Juudiame worry." Gokudera murmured the last part under his breath.
"Demo-" Tsuna began to protest. Kyoko tugged on his sleeve and he turned his attention to her.
"Tsuna-kun. Gokudera-kun is right. Haru-chan will be all right. Come on. We better hurry to school or else we'll be late."
Reluctantly, he gave in. "Okay. We better hurry or else Hibari-san will 'kamikorosu' us." The group of teens jogged to Nami Chuu, except for Ryohei, who ran to Namimori High School. 'Something's wrong with Haru. It's unlike her to just not say good morning to me like that. Maybe something did happen to her.' Tsuna thought. The four middle schoolers made it just in time to class. Well, barely. The first period Sensei gave them a warning and to pay attention in class throughout the whole day. Sawada Tsunayoshi never did.
His mind was thinking about Haru and if she was all right. He reasoned with himself and said that Haru would come to lunch here at Nami Chuu. Lunch came and went. No sign of Haru. During the final class, he convinced himself that Haru had to be there after school, waiting for him. She'd smile her famous smile, hug him excitedly, and asked him a bit too loudly how his day was in school. As the final bell rang, Tsuna sprung up from his seat. He dumped his books into his book bag and raced out of the classroom doors and didn't stop until he reached Nami Chuu's gates.
"Tsuna-san!" Haru would hug him. "How was school today? Did you have fun, desu?"
He'd answer, "Haru! Can't...breathe!"
That wasn't the case. He was greeted by busy, bustling people, on their way to work or somewhere important. No sign of Haru. He waited and waited, but there was no sign of Haru. He told his friends to go back home and that he'll see them tomorrow. He sat on the steps of Nami Chuu, waiting for her. She never came. Finally, Hibari had to kick him out.
"NO. I can't leave. I'm waiting for someone." Tsuna tried to resist to the Disciplinary Committee Leader.
Hibari scoffed. "Wao. Speaking up to me, aren't you, herbivore. Waiting for that Miura girl? Go back home, she'll come back eventually." She never did.
Throughout the whole week, Haru was nowhere to be found. Sayaka stated that she never saw Haru in school. When she asked Haru's parents, her dad said that he saw Haru leaving to school everyday and came back home every time. It baffled Tsuna. Izumi sits right next to Haru. If she didn't see Haru at school but Miura-san said she left to school and came home each day, then where was Haru during the whole school day? Little did he know that the worst was yet to come.
Monday morning. Tsuna saw his group of friends and Sayaka. As he observed, he saw a crying Izumi Sayaka. She was crying in Yamamoto's arms. Everyone looked shocked, emotions taking over them. Kyoko cried in her older brother's arms. Gokudera looked spaced out, like he just heard some unbelievably terrible news. Even Yamamoto looked out of order. He didn't smile and his signature "Maa maa!" was gone. As Tsuna approached the group, Sayaka opened her mouth to say something to him, but she just ended up crying even louder. Yamamoto looked Tsuna in the eye and whispered the words Tsuna feared the most.
"Haru's dead, Tsuna. Her body was found floating around in the water under the bridge. Police suspected that it was a suicide. She had cut marks on both of her wrists." Yamamoto looked down, trying his best to stay calm for the rest of the group. Tsuna felt his book bag slip right out of his fingertips. He couldn't cry. It wasn't because he didn't care about her, it was just because he couldn't believe it. Haru. Dead. Impossible. Why would she commit suicide? She always happy, had a great life. "No. It isn't true. Haru isn't dead. This is all a lie. She's gonna pop up any minute now, right? Yamamoto? Gokudera-kun? Kyoko-chan? Oniisan? Izumi-san?" No one answered him; they were all breaking down, crying.
Saturday afternoon. Tsuna looked expressionlessly as the grave diggers dug Haru's coffin. The priest said prayers and speeches were exchanged about Haru. How she was so happy. How they couldn't imagine why she would just commit suicide in the blink of an eye. As the coffin was laid down into the ground and covered in flowers, Miura-san, Haru's dad, came up to Tsuna.
"Arigatou for coming, Sawada Tsunayoshi-kun. My Haru talks a lot about you. Everyday, Tsuna-san this, Tsuna-san that. I just...gomennasai." He took off his glasses and wiped his eyes with the palm of his hand. "She loved you, you know. On the day she died, when I came back home, I noticed that she wasn't home. I called Izumi-san, Sasagawa-san, all of her friends. They never saw her. When I walked past the kitchen, I noticed a letter. Haru wrote, ' Dear Oto-san, Haru's in a better place now, desu. Gomennasai for not telling you. Haru loves you a lot, desu! P.S. Haru made dinner for you. It's your favorite, curry and rice! Enjoy!' With that, the older Miura handed Tsuna a letter. "In my letter, she wrote that she wrote a letter especially for you. It was in her room and she told me not to read it. Here." Tsuna took the letter.
"Arigatou, Miura-san. Gomennasai for your loss." Tsuna whispered. The older Miura smiled slightly before leaving. One by one, the guests left, heading to the restaurant to celebrate Haru's life. Yamamoto placed a hand on Tsuna's shoulder.
"Daijyobu desu, Tsuna?" He asked, sympathetically.
Tsuna nodded. "Arigatou, Yamamoto. I'll be fine. I'll catch up with you guys later." The group nodded before heading to the restaurant. As they left, Tsuna opened Haru's letter.
"Dear Tsuna-san,
Hahi! Haru doesn't know when you are reading this, but Haru's already gone. Haru died by jumping off the bridge you saved Haru a few years ago. Haru even cut herself because she felt useless around you. No matter what Haru did, you always liked Kyoko-chan. Haru did everything. Haru styled her hair differently, didn't speak in third person for three days straight, changed my whole wardrobe. You didn't notice and Haru couldn't stand it anymore. Haru doesn't want to suffer anymore so Haru decided to end her life.
Gomen for not hugging you good morning. Gomen for not giving you a bento. Gomen for not walking to school with you. Gomen for not visiting you during lunch. Gomen for not waiting for you after school. Tsuna-san, Haru just wanted to say arigatou. Arigatou for being Haru's first and last love. Arigatou for giving Haru's life purpose. Haru's life was pretty boring until you saved Haru from drowning that day. Hahi! Arigatou for that too.
Haru loves you, Tsuna-san. Even if you love Kyoko-chan. Haru still loves you, no matter what. Have fun with your life and live for the ones you love. Haru was so stupid, ne? Haru died instead of living for Tsuna-san. Please don't be like Haru! Live your life with no regrets, desu!
XOXO Miura Haru
P.S. tell everyone that Haru's sorry for leaving so soon. Haru loves you!"
Tsuna broke down crying. Haru's letter trembled in his hand as tear after tear fell from his cheeks onto the ground. He was so stupid. Too stupid to realize how important Haru was to him. To late to realize how much she loved him. How much he loved her. He dried his eyes and took out a pen, jotting down a few more lines, adding onto Haru's letter to him. Grabbing the string of rope the grave diggers used to lower Haru's body, Tsuna hung himself right next to Haru's grave stone. He was getting his Haru back.
The End.