"That didn't take long." Lily said as I approached her at the door. I suddenly felt really tired, as the professor has suggested.
"I jsut had to tell her what subjects I wanted to do really, so that she could enrol me and order my books for me as well." I said as we started to walk in the direction of our common rooms. The whole way, Lily kept on asking me questions and I could feel a headache coming on. It wasn't that I disliked her, but I was really tired and her constant barashe of questions was making me want to growl at her. I refrained of course.
"So what made you want to come to Hogwarts now?" She asked and I sighed.
She already knew my favourite colour, food and book. As well as my hobbies, career goals and childhood animals. It was the longest walk of my tired little life.
"My parents were murdered by death eaters at the start of the year. Grandfather is my only living relative after my mothers sister, but I never got along with her anyway." I said bluntly and Lily looked startled and apologetic. She started to spurt out appologies but I held up a hand to silence her as we finally got to the common room entrance.
"You didn't know. Don't worry about it. I'm just tired and I tend to become blunt and emotionally stunted when I'm tired. I just really need to get some sleep." I said and she nodded, stunned into silence.
She said the password and lead me into the common room that was full of people talking and laughing. My headache just got worse. I realised just then that I had no idea when the next full moon was. That was dangerous not only for me but everyone. Maybe I should have a conversation with Remus before I went to bed.
"The girls dorms are on the left. I assume that you will be bunking with the rest of the seventh years so that's the last door on your right." Lily said and then went over to her friends, not knowing what else to say to me. I was glad.
I thanked her before she left and then went in search of Remus. I closed me eyes and focused my senses, picking out his scent amongst the rest and then following it gracefully dodging everyone in my way blindly as I went. I didn't stumble or faulter, nor did I run into anyone. I opened my tingling eyes right in front of the one I was looking for. He was sitting in front of the fire with Sirius, James and someone I assumed was Peter. They were all staring at me.
"Remus can I talk to you in private for a moment." I asked and he nodded.
"We can go up to my room if you want. The guys won't follow us." He said and I raised my eyebrow at him but stayed silent as he lead the way. We walked up the stair and he stopped at his door, the same one that Harry lived in, in his hogwarts years.
I smiled at this. Remus held the door open for me and I walked in to the room. It was exactly the same with the red and gold them, the bed placed in a circle around the room, every single one messed with clothing and various items and belongings. I walked into the middle of the room and then turned to face Remus.
"When is the next full moon?' I asked and his eyes widened.
"Wh-why d-do you nee-need to know th-that?" He stuttered. I sighed.
"Don't be a fool Remus. I'm tired and can't be bothered playing dumb. I can smell it on you, just as you can smell it on me. If you can't then you're an idiot." I said a tad too cruelly.
He looked at me with adorable wide eyes, in complete shock. I sighed again.
"I'm sorry that was mean. I've had a hard couple of days as you can imagin. Waking up in the middle of a forest in nothing but a lovers shirt, not knowing where I am is a bit daunting." I said and Remus calmed somewhat.
"Right, so you're a werewolf. I'm a werewolf. How do you forget something like a full moon?" He asked.
"I hardly knew what day it was until Albus told me in the hospital wing earlier." I replied. I could tell he had questions and I appreciated that he didnt ask them.
"It's about a week away. Friday to be exact. Are you going to be transforming with me?" he asked curiously.
"That would be the logical option." I said. I didn't like the fact that I was going to have to transform with out the wolfsbane potion for the first time. It scared me.
"You're scared." Remus stated and I cursed his wolf senses. He could smell my fear.
"I used to have potion that helped me keep my mind when I transformed. It was something my father came up with. He was always messing around with potions in his spare time. But now... He was the only one who knew how to make it. Their was enough to last... but it ran out last month. I've never transformed with out it." I said.
"Can't he just send you some more?" Remus asked and I laughed bitterly.
"Not from the other side he can't." I said and Remus's cursed before wrapping his arms around me comfortingly. I couldn't help but snuggle into his arms. He was so warm and comfortable, just as he had been in the furture. I noticed that he was lighter than his future self, but exactly the same height. I began to cry at the thought of being away from my people for so long. I had no idea when I was going to get back to them. I had never transformed alone either, Remus or Sirius were always there with me and I hated the idea that this Remus might turn me down and leave me all alone. Remus tightened his arms around me as I wrapped them around his waist, pulling him closer. I inhaled his scent and tried to calm myself down as he whispered soothing things into my ear.
"I'll help you, don't worry Mia." He said and I nodded into his chest. After I don't know how long, I pulled myself together and moved out of his embrace, wiping away the tears and gave him a small smile.
"How long have you been a werewolf Mia?" Remus asked suddenly.
"Five months." I replied.
"Fucking hell. You've only changed five times. I'll bet the potion muted the pain and wolf's influence too right? Does your wolf have a voice yet?" He asked and I shook my head. Remus had told me about Moony's voice before, since he didn't have the wolfsbane potion in his youth, Moony's voice and influence developed as a part of him before he could repress it.
He had less control over himself. I hoped it would be like that for me. At least if my wolf had a voice, I would be able to talk it into some kind of agreement.
"No, but after friday I'm sure she will." I said shivering slightly at the thought of friday night. I was not looking forward to it at all.
"Don't worry Mia. You won't be alone. I'll be there. James, Sirius and Peter too. As you already know thanks to Padfoot's idiocy, they are animagus's."
"Thank you Remus. I know you don't know me very well but I'm glad you're helping me. And I can assure you I'm not a death eater." I said causing him to blush at the idiotic thought he had yelled to Sirius in the Hospital wing earlier.
"I'm sorry about that. I didn't know..." He trailed off.
"I want to show you something. It will reinforce your trust in me." I said and he looked at me curiously.
"You don't have to. I have no reason not to trust you." He said.
"Yes, but you also have no reason too trust me." I gave him a small smile and then rolled up my sleeve slowly, nervousness making my arms shake. Remus took them in his hands to steady them and then took over rolling up my sleeve, getting the idea. Once he had he looked at my arm intensely, seeing the 'mudblood' carving in my skin. A low growl bubbled up from his throat as he took in what this meant.
"Someone held you down and carved this into your skin." He said and I nodded.
He traced the letters with his fingers lightly and I bit my lip as it still stung slightly.
"You're not even a muggleborn though." He said through gritted teeth, trying to repress his anger but failing.
"I'm half anf half. My mother was a muggle and my father a wizard. The woman that did this to me didn't care that my father was a wizard. She thought that anyone with even a little bit of muggle blood in their veins deserved to die. She was bat shit crazy." I said and it was the truth, even though I actually was a muggleborn, Bellatraix did in fact, have this view point.
"I can't believe someone could actually do this to another person." He said incredulously as he looked away from my arm and up to my face. I smiled at him sweetly.
"Well not all people are as kind and sweet as you are Remus. The woman who did this to me is also the reason I'm a werewolf. She let another death eater have me after she was finished. It was only luck that my friends and a very loyal house elf got to me when they did other wise I could have been worse off. I don't even want to think about what Greyback would have done if he hadn't turned when he did. They hadn't kept track of the moon you see. He managed to bite me when I was trying to escape." I said and Remus's eyes flashed gold and stayed that way when I mentioned Greyback. The monster that cursed us both.
"I can tell that you were turned by him too. You smell like familiarity, pack." I said and he nodded in agreement.
"So do you, now that you say it out loud. I've been trying to place it all day but I had no idea what it was until you told me."
"I like it." I said.
"So do I." He said and we stared into each others golden eyes for a long moment before the door crashed open and Sirius and James ran in, only to stop when the say us staring at each other, standing closer then either of us realised. Our heads snapped to them as they came in, moving with werewolf speed. They gave identical amused looks at each of us. We took a step back at the same time.
"My dear Hermione, may I ask what it was that you had to talk to Remus about?" James asked curiously.
"Sure you can. Doesn't mean I'm going to answer you." I said, trying to pull down my sleeve without it attracting their of the boys attention. I failed.
"What is that on your arm?" Sirius asked and I pulled the sleeve down faster now, not wanting to have to repeat the conversation.
"Was it a tattoo?" James asked, not having seen it.
"No, it was a scar." Sirius said, his usually cheery face turning dark and dangerous.
"It's also none of your business Black. Back off." I growled at him and he took a step back instinctually.
"Well I guess I'll be seeing you." I said and made my way to the door. James and Sirius blocked the way, exchanging looks before nodding at each other. Sirius grabbed my arm and pulled up my sleeve suddenly and I growled once more and used my werewolf super strength to grab his hand off of my arm and twist it behind his back. I pressed his up against he wall and growled into his ear.
"Don't ever touch me with out my permission again." I said and he groaned in pain.
"Mia. Let him go." Remus said in a low commanding voice. My wolf heard his wolf and recognised him as the alpha in this situation. He was stonger than me, bigger than me and had James on his side. If I didn't concede then I was toast. I let go immediately and backed away, not really comprehending what I had done until I caught Remus's eyes. He looked concerned.
"It's okay. You're new to this. Five months isn't enough time to get a handle on everything. You're still learning. No one here is going to hold it against you." He said in a calming tone that soothed the panicking wolf inside of me.
I took deep breaths, closing my eyes until my heart beat slowed down to a regular pace and my fists unclenched. I opened my eyes to see all three men staring at me.
"I'm sorry." Sirius and I said at the same time. He smiled at me and I just looked at him, trying to figure out if I could trust this younger version of the man that I knew in my time. He wasn't the same, he was more reckless, less sensitive and less rational. This was the Sirius who was falsely accused of murdering his best friends because he went into a blind rage. The Sirius I knew, had spent twelve years in prison because of that rash action and knew that what he had done was wrong. They were very different people.
"I shouldn't have invaded your personal space like that. I'm not too keen on scars and the like. I was just concerned is all, that doesn't excuse my actions though. Forgive me?" He asked and he sounded genuaine.
"Don't ever touch me again unless I say you can, or it's none threatening." I said with a nod. He accepted this and I could tell he was trying really hard not to make some sort of lured remark.
"I do have a scar on my arm. I have shown Remus what it was. I will not be hideing it in the future, but I will not display it for everyone to see either.
I give Remus my permission to tell you what it is, whether you believe him, well that is up to you." I said with a look to Remus. He nodded in understanding, both of us knowing that as soon as I walk out the door, he was going to be bombarded with questions.
"Can you please inform your friends of our arrangement for friday night aswell, Moony." I said, with emphasis on his nickname so that they would get the point. Then I left.