Friday approached faster than I would have liked. Remus was understanding but just as agitated and full of energy as I was. By the time Friday morning rolled around, even the marauders had gotten enough of us. I could smell everything, hear too much for comfort, had trouble sleeping all bloody week and on top of that, every time Remus was in the room I had the insatiable urge to jump his bones. IT was getting to be a bit too much for me to handle.

Sirius thought it was hilarious, especially since my wolf's influence tended to mean I didn't have a filter like I usually did.
"Fuck of Sirius." I said at lunch time on Friday as he nudged me in the side.
"Since when do you swear little Mia." HE said teasingly and I wanted to punch him in the face. It was about the fiftieth time I had thought that in the last two days.

I honestly had no idea how Remus put up with the ugly mug. He was excruciatingly annoying. I was picking at my food, finding it hard to concentrate with all the noise in the great hall. I found my mind constantly drfting back to the impending full moon and I hated to admit it, but I was scared. I was scared that it was going to be more painful than I remembered. I was scared that I could loose control of myself an end up hurting someone.

I was scared that I would loose my mind from thinking about all the horrible things that might go wring to night. My mind was going into overdrive, that along with the overloaded senses and restlessness was making it hard to focus on anything.
"Since you started being a pain the arse." I replied. Sirius grinned at me.
"More specifically, could I be a pain in your arse?" He asked and I could see the mischievous twinkle in his eyes.

I bit my tongue to keep myself from lashing out at the bloody incorrigible marauder and I stood up. I moved away from the table, mumbling something about fresh air before escaping the great hall.

After I left I found myself running, not really sure where my feet were taking me and not really caring either. I found myself stopping in front of the black lake and I collapsed onto the ground, crossing my legs and just staring out at the water. It was relaxing. I had always thought so, and found that when I needed to think, this was the place I came. I was glad that being in the past didn't change that. I closed my eyes, and focused on the fresh air, guiding it into my body and letting it fill me up, before expellng it slowly.

Meditation helped to calm myself and the wolf. Sirius was lucky I had self restraint other wise he would have a black eye right about now. I sat there for a while, letting my mind be blank, not really caring about the time. I didn't think I would be able to sit through classes this afternoon and resigned myself to ask Lily for notes after I had recovered from the transformation. Suddenly I felt a nudging at the edge of my mind.

Someone was using legitmency. I snapped my mental shields up quickly, banishing the intruder as I hastily got to my feet. I was so completely in my trance that I had let go of my awareness of my surroundings. That could have been really dangerous. I was on my feet in an instant, wand in had. My nose twitched as I sniffed the air, trying to find the person who was violating my privacy. My eyes flashed gold when I saw Severus Snape and Regulus Black sitting under a big tree a hundred meters away looking at me curiously.

There was no malice in their presence and I let out a sigh of relief but didn't lower my wand as they got up and made their way over to me.
"What are you doing out here all alone?" Regulus asked and I sniffed the air again, trying to get ahold of their scents and commit them to memory, thinking they would be handy to have in the future. Regulus smelt like cherries and dusty old books. He looked exactly like his brother with the black hair and aristorcatic sharp features that told everyone who saw him that he was a black.

His eyes were a deep, dark grey and he was lean and tall. He was looking at me closely, almost studying me liike you would an animal at a zoo. It was disconcerting. Severeus on the other hand smelt like fresh parchment and ink and various potion ingredients that made my nose tingle. He was tall, like his friend, but had a bulky build with broad shoulders and a strong chest. His face was closed off and his nose long, but his hair looked soft and hung below his shoulders.

He didn't look at all now Sirius and Remus had described him, he was also a far cry away from the mean old man I had met first year as my potions professor. IT was sad to think that was what was to become of this sweet looking young man.
"I was mediating. What are you two doing out here, shouldn't you be in class?" I asked them and they looked at me with identical expressions of confusion.

"It's about four thirty. Classes have ended for the day." Regulus said.
"Oh, I must have lost track of time." I said and smiled sheepishly at them.
"How did you do that?" Severus asked.
"Do what?" I asked.

"Block us out so completely. We've been practicing but we've never been able to be so powerful and final about it. You made it hurt a bit too, when you cast us out of your mind. How did you do that?" He elaborated.
"Comes with practice. It helped that I was already in a mediative state and my mind was blank. Nothing for you to look at that way. As for the pain, well that was on purpose. IT's what you get for poking about in other peoples minds with out permission." I said with a smirk and Severus looked at me with approval.

Regulus looked at me like I was crazy. They shared a look between the two of them that made me think they were comunicating somehow and Regulus frowned but nodded.
"Can you teach us how to do that?" Severus asked and I raised an eyebrow at him.

"Do you really think that's a good idea? I am a Gryffindor after all and Dumbledore's granddaughter to boot. What if I found something in your mind that you didn't want me to know. Depending on what it was, I might feel obligated to share it with him and the order as well. It wouldn't really help you now would it. Voldermort wouldn't be too happy with you if he found out you'd passed information on to an order member even if it wasn't on purpose." I said and their eyes widened in shock.

I couldn't help but laugh at their reactions. My and my bloody none existent filter. If they had approached me any other time of the month it would have gone better I suppose.
"How the hell did you know we had anything to do with him?" Regulus asked and I turned to look at him.
"I am friends with your brother you know. He could have told me all about it. But then again, he isn't really the type to share all his feelings and family problems now is he?" I said slyly.

Regulus narrowed his eyes at me.
"Well if it wasn't my blood traitor brother, then who the hell was it?" He all but growled out.
"It seems that you boys are underestimating me. I'm an observent gal, and quite a skilled legitimens and occulamens. Maybe I slipped into your mind and you didn't notice. Ususally I'm not so rude as to not ask for permission first but sometimes I get bored and you seem like easy entertainment." I said sweetly and they took a collective step back from me as their frowns deepened.

"I would have felt it." Snap said and I nodded.
"What about you Reggie? Would you have known if someone was prodding around in that pretty little head of yours?" I practically purred.
"No." He said reluctantly. A smile curled it's way onto my lips.
"Maybe you do need my help after all." I said and Severus perked up a bit at that.

"How can we trust you though? I mean, you just admitted to being part of the order. We'd be making ourselves vulnerable to manipulation." Regulus said, his reluctance obvious.
"We could make a deal. I'm sure Hermione has things to hide as well. No offence but you seem like the type of woman who has one too many secrets up her sleeve. We don't tell the dark lord yours and you don't tell the old fool ours." Severus proposed and looked back at Regulus.

He looked at me searchingly for a moment before nodding his head in agreement.
"I have a few rules I am to agree. First, we don't tell anyone. I don't want my friends finding out. They wont trust me after that. Second, I want to know why you've learned legitimency in the first place. Third, if I tell you to get out of my mind, you do it immediately no questions asked. Although I don't really think the last on will be much of a problem. I am quite efficient at blocking people out of my mind." I said.

"Done, done and done." Severus said and Regulus nodded again. We stood in silence for a moment before I sighed.
"You don't want Voldemort inside your minds? Your having second thoughts about joining his ranks as death eaters? You've had to do terrible things, you didn't think this was what it was going to be like?" I prompted.
"All of the above." They said in unison.

"Good, that was what I was hoping you would say." I said and smiled brightly at them.
"So, three days a week, in the library at nine. Monday, wednesday and friday? Unless their are parties in which case I will be getting shit faced with my friends. Agreed?" They smirked at that but agreed. I felt two pairs of eyes on me then, not the ones I was currently talking to , watching me. I sniffed at the air, not subtley and caught their scent on the wind. Chocolate and spices along with cigarettes and leather.

It was Remus and Sirius. I sighed.
"Right well I have to go now, your brother and the other pup are looking for me." I said and Severus raised an eyebrow at this. I winked at him as he looked around and finally latched his eyes of the boys that were making their way over to us catiously.
"Well boys. IT was nice chatting with you. I'll see you one Monday. Enjoy your weekend, don't go killing anyone now." I said teasingly.

I then turned around and ran full pelt at Remus jumping up into his arms and wrapping my entire body around his. He stumbled backwards and fell onto his back as I growled playfully at him. He groaned in pain.
"What the actual fuck Mia?" Sirius said as I burst into a fit of giggles as I licked Rems along th side of his face in a most canine manner. His hands moved up and grasped my hips tightly as he bit my ear lope warningly.

"Do you really want to start something Love?" He growled into my ear and I laughed as I hopped up off of him and skipped away from both of them, making my way back to the castle.
"That woman, Honestly." I heard Sirius say, and it only made me alugh harder as I twirled around on the steps leading up to the castle. I heard them following me and smiled to myself when I felt Remus's stong arms wrap around my waist, hoisting me back into his chest and spinning me around as my legs flailed around in the air.

I was giggling so hard that I was short of breath and I could feel his hot lips on my neck. We hadn't been intimate since that day before Diagon Alley and I had been wanting him all week. I never did anything because he made no indications that he wanted to be with me again. I wasn't sure it if was just a casual shag or whether he wanted more and that made me hesitant to make a move because it was obvious that he wasn't going to.

"Remus, put me down." i said between gasps for breath. I heard him growl into my throat, latching his teath onto my skin in a show of dominance. I growled right back, not appreciating temperamental wolfish antics. After a moment or two he put me down, kissed the place where he bit me and then released his hold of my waist. I stepped out of his grasp and turned to look at him. He was grinning at me, a classic marauder grin that me practically swooning at the sight.

"What's got you in a good mood Little Mia?" He asked as I leaned back on the wall of the hallway just outside the great hall where dinner was currently being held.
"I feel like I'm a bundle of energy and I can't help but bounce around. It's odd because the potion I took before dampened everything. I felt like I was numb the whole time but now I just feel so alive and it's amazing." I said with an awed look on my face that made him smirk at me.

"I can hear everything, smell everything, see everything, feel everything and it's incredible. But I'm also terriblly scared that the transformation is going to hurt. I know it will because it was the most painful thing I had ever expirenced when I was taking the potion. Now that I'm not, I don't really want to know what it feels like normally. And I won't be in control either. What if I end up hurting someone? You or one of the others? I couldn't bare it if I ended up hurting you." I said and because of my heightened emotions I was having erratic mood swings and I could feel tears swelling up in my eyes.

Remus smiled sadly at me and stepped forward, wrapping his arms around my shoulders and pulling me into his chest. I felt warm and safe there. It was nice and comforting, just what I needed in my fragile state. I nuzzled into his chest as he held me tighter to him and breathed in his scent.

Their was a shift in my mind and I suddenly became extremely aware of the moon as a somewhat unpleasant shiver crawled up my back. Remus stiffened around me, feeling it too and moved back from me looking into my now turned golden eyes.
"We should make our way to the Shrieking shack. That's where I transform. Sirius, James and Peter will join us after the transformation. I didn't really think you would appreciate them staring at you whilst naked and in excrusiating pain." He said with a wry smile as he took my hand in his and lead me back outside and towards the womping willow.

Remus freezes the tree and guided me under the branches and to the secrete tunnel that I wasn't meant to know existed. I tried to fake my surprise but failed miserably as I was totally focused on the upcoming pain that I was about to go through. I was terrified and Remus knew that. He didn't say anything though, just held onto my hand tighter when he smelt it in the air around me.

We got to the shrieking shack and made our way up to that smae bedroom we were in when we found pettigrew in my third year. Remus sat me on the edge of the bed and then started to pace. Obviously the moon was affecting him aswell. I felt my skin start to crawl and itch, telling me that everything that I had been dredding for the past wekk was about to begin.

"You should probably take your clothes off it you want to wear them out tomorrow morning in one piece." Remus said and I focused my eyes on him to see he was in the middle of disroabing. He slid his shoes and soaks off anf pulled his shirt and jumper off over his head, setting them aside in a neat pile under the bed so that they wouldn't be in the way. I hardly heard what he was saying, as I watched him move around the room as he unbuckled his belt, unable to stay still as his bones began to ache and shift.

"Mia, now." He said, his voice gruff and deep. I stood up slowly and did as he said, moving on autopilot. Soon we were both standing there facing each other, waiting for the real pain to begin.
"You'll be okay Mia. I'm here. You're not alone." He said as he took my hands in his, comforting me even as his face contorted in pain. I felt it too, the first sickening crack of our backs. We fell to the floor as the pain washed over us. It was aweful, so much so that before I even had time to process what was happening to me, I blacked out.