AMOC: Chapter 8: Past Rivalries
"Jealousy is a tiger that tears not only its prey but also its own raging heart"Author Unknown:
JPOV:
Looking at the blood on my knuckles I felt an overwhelming urge to beat Edward to a bloody pulp. Edward got what he provoked me into showing Bella and Charlotte my ugly side. The egotistical bastard knew what to say and how to say it to set me off. Although he was the one with a broken nose, I would be the one who had to face Bella and Charlotte's disgust and disappointment.
"You asshole. You broke my nose." Edward winced as Racquel handed him a dish towel to prevent the blood from getting on her floor.
"You're lucky that's not all I broke. Don't ever talk about Bella like that again. She will be my wife in a few days and I promise you that I won't ever let you or anyone else hurt her again."
My voice was stern despite the twisting knot that grew in my stomach. Hitting Edward wasn't the smartest move. He would no doubt use it against me later.
"Go Jake." Racquel nudged me to move away as Edward's date rushed over to his side and tried to console him.
"Fine." Looking back at the booth I realized that Bella was gone.
My heart sunk as I rushed out in pursuit of her. She held Charlotte in her arms as she practically ran down the sidewalk.
"Bella! Bella!" I shouted but she didn't stop nor turn to look back at me.
I was going to be in the dog house. All the time I put in proving to her that I was worthy just went down the drain. It was going to take a hell of alot of groveling to win her back. Hopefully she wouldn't change her mind about us. If she did, I was going to be stuck with one hell of a house payment and a couple of broken legs.
Rushing after them I finally caught up just as she swung the door open to Alice's shop.
"Bella wait." I grabbed her arm but she yanked it away and continued to ignore me as she put her daughter in Alice arms.
Alice looked alarmed at the both of us.
"Can you watch her for a second?" Bella gulped hard as Alice simply nodded her head in agreement and took Charlotte to the back of the shop.
"Don't touch me." Bella growled as I reached for her hand.
"I'm sorry. It was stupid of me to let him get underneath my skin like that. I promise I won't ever let that happen again." I blurted out.
Bella walked past me and stepped out on the sidewalk before she would look me in the eye.
"I get that you don't like Edward, not many people in this town do however, they don't go around hitting him in the face. He could have you arrested. How will that look in court? If you can't get your temper under control where he is concerned I don't see any reason for us going through this marriage." Her voice trembled as her face and neck became flushed from her anger.
"I know. You are absolutely right. It's just that...well...hearing him talk to you like that made me see red. He hurt you Bella and I won't let him do that again."
Grabbing her hands firmly I stared deep into her eyes.
"I know what he has done to me. I hate him but I'm wise enough to know you can't play with fire without getting burned. I appreciate you standing up for me but next time use words and not your fists."
"I will." Gulping hard I hoped that this meant we were not calling everything off.
"Why did you send him an invitation? You knew that would provoke him." Her eyes glared with frustration and disappointment.
"I..he...it was my way of letting him and his family know that I was making my claim on you."
It was partially the truth. I also did it to piss him off and she knew it. Bella wasn't naive.
"Claim? I'm a human being. I don't belong to you or him. I am my own person. We might be getting married and I will share your last name but other than that, there is nothing else going on between us."
"I know that. It's not like I'm declaring my undying love for you. I just will not let anyone, especially him, talk to you or treat you badly. You are the mother of his child and he should give you the respect you deserve."
"Thank you but he is also Charlotte's father. She saw everything. You hit him Jake! How do you think she is going to look at you now? I just hope she isn't going to be scared to death of you after this."
"Once again I'm sorry for that. I'm ashamed of myself but let's be honest, he isn't her father. He might have been the sperm donor but from what I have been told, he hasn't once acted like a father to her. I will try to explain to her that what I did was not nice and I will apologize to her but I won't pretend for even a second that he is her father."
"Just try to remember that we have endured his hatred a lot longer than you have."
"You have no idea what I was forced to endure where he is concerned!" Jake replied.
It wasn't like Bella had any clue about my shared past with Edward. Not many people knew about the terrible things he put me through or the pain he purposely inflicted on me just because he was jealous.
Edward was the golden boy at Forks High School until I transferred. When he saw the girls flock to me and the extra attention the coaches showed me he started his campaign to belittle me in front of our peers.
At first I just chalked it up to simple teen rivalry but when Lauren walked up to me after school one day and asked me for a ride home, his feelings went from jealousy to pure hatred. Not a day went by that he didn't say something ugly toward me or start up some ridiculous rumor to try and ruin my reputation. I tried to talk to him in a reasonable way but he simply laughed in my face and told me to kiss his ass.
Luckily for me there was a few people in school who didn't believe a word that came out of his silver spoon mouth. They saw through him. It irked him that not everyone agreed with his prejudiced attitude.
I hoped that one day he and I would find a way to resolve our dislike for one another and for a few months he led me to believe that there was a glimmer of hope for just that. However, I learned later it was all a trick. He set out to hurt me in the worse way he could and it worked. The last half of my Senior year was shot to hell but I managed to get through the days and counted them down until I could finally make my escape from this hell hole.
"What did he do to you?" Her voice soften and I caught a glimmer of compassion in her eyes.
A mixture of disgust and self loathing seeped into my heart as I watched her look at me with genuine concern. My hatred for Edward had nothing to do with her. I wasn't about to confess to her about my tormented past. She was right after all, we were only meant to be partners in name only. We had no real relationship. Why should I entrust her with my darkest secrets? It wasn't like she was so forthcoming about her past. This wasn't the time or place for us to start being best friends. We signed a contract and made a legal transaction. There was no grounds for us to be anything other than partners.
"I don't want talk about it." I released her hands and took a step back. Rubbing my neck I turned away from her.
"Why are you so afraid to open up to me?" Bella asked.
"Look, I made a mistake. I get it. I won't let it happen again. If you are willing to keep up with your end of the bargain, I promise to keep my temper in check and do right by you and Charlotte. But don't think for a second you are going to tear down the walls that I've built around my heart. No one will ever be that close to me."
Walking away I left her standing there without a chance to reply. I needed to get away and get my head on straight. Bella would be in good hands with Alice so I didn't bother worrying about how her or Charlotte would get home.
Jumping in my truck I took off. It was my fault for Bella's sudden curiosity about my past but I wasn't about to involved her in something that could never be undone. Knowing Bella she would only try to talk me out of my vendetta against her ex. There was no way I was going to stop what was already set in action nor would I let her think for a second that we would ever share anything together other than our mutual hate for Edward Cullen.
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BPOV:
Walking back into the shop I could hear Charlotte giggling about something Alice was doing with her. Relief washed over me as I heard my daughter sounding normal after witnessing a brutal scene only minutes before.
"Hey." Alice called out as she and Charlotte walked into the room.
"Hey." I tried to smile but my head was aching like hell.
"I got those dresses in the back if you want to join us?" Alice offered.
"Pretty." Charlotte cried out excitedly.
"Sure."
It took us a couple of hours before I chose the dress that I would wear on my wedding day. It wasn't lost on me how I should be more overjoyed about the occasion. Alice could tell I was trying hard to fake my happiness in front of Charlotte.
"Now that is over with, we should go back to your house for a drink." Alice suggested with a wink.
"Sounds wonderful." I agreed as we sat in her car while she locked up.
An hour later Charlotte was playing in her room and seemed unphased by everything that occurred today.
"Here." Alice refilled my glass as we sat on the couch next to one another.
"Thanks." I mumbled before taking a sip of the sweet red wine.
"Okay spill. I've waited patiently for the details." She turned sideways, facing me and criss crossed her legs underneath her.
Turning to face her I placed my legs underneath me.
"We bought a house that I didn't really want but he pretty much blackmailed me into it." I paused taking another long sip. "Then we get to the diner to eat when Edward showed up."
Alice's eyes widen with shock.
"Edward approached our table and began to rattle off about how I was beneath Jake and apparently he felt that Jake was taking his sloppy seconds by marrying me."
"HOLY SHIT! Sounds like the Edward I remembered in High School. Jake and Edward's dislike for one another was notorious." Alice sighed sadly.
"What? Why haven't you told me this before?" I cried out.
"I didn't think about it until now. I mean when you asked about Jake from our High School days I was too busy recalling how hot he looked to think about some stupid rivalry between them."
"Why does Jake hate him so much?"
Taking another long drink I awaited in anticipation to learn more about Jake's past. It was pretty clear that their animosity for one another ran deep.
"I don't know everything, remember I was basically on the outside of their elite group for most of my High School years. However when I started dating Jasper, I remember that Jake was dating Lauren. Lauren was one of Edward's many girlfriends. The only thing that made her special compared to the others was the fact that he dated her more often and longer than the rest of his fan group." Alice shivered with disgust as she started to replay the horrid details of Edward and his famous bad boy reputation.
"Lauren? The woman we met at the Newspaper?" I sucked in my breath as I recalled their reaction to one another.
Jake acted like she was just someone he once knew. He played it off like there was no love lost between them. I knew there was more but I dropped the subject when I realized it wasn't really my business.
"Yeah, she writes the weddings, engagements and other social events."
"No wonder she kept looking at me like I was the bitch."
Sighing I finished my drink and gave myself another refill. It was still early in the day and getting drunk really wasn't wise but after the kind of day I experienced, getting drunk was well deserved.
"Haha. Yeah, Lauren was one of the most popular girls in our school. When she became Edward's girl she became even more popular and envied. Then Jake arrived and like I said the girls went crazy for his mocha colored skin and muscular physique."
Alice took a long gulp of her drink before continuing.
"Anyways, Lauren and Edward were having problems as usual and well she knew how to make him jealous. She set her eyes on Jake. At first it didn't look like he was going to take the bait but eventually she broke him down."
My heart did a flip flop as I listened closely. I already knew how this story was going to end with the way Jake had responded to seeing Lauren and his immense hate for Edward.
"It started to look like Lauren was genuinely falling for Jake but Edward wasn't about to let his favorite girl go to a guy he saw as unfit for any of us pale faces." Alice rolled her eyes sarcastically.
"Edward was prejudice." I shook my head in disbelief.
"Oh yeah. He hated anyone who he didn't see as perfect as himself."
"What a jerk! God I knew he was a certifiable asshole but I didn't know he was a racist."
Shivering inwardly I felt the pit of my stomach starting to twist and turn, reminding me how little I ate today and the alcohol wasn't satisfying it.
"Edward thought his shit didn't stink and if you didn't join him in his tirade on people he bullied then you were against him. Unfortunately for Jake there wasn't a lot of people who would stand up against Edward so he didn't have many friends to watch his back."
"Poor Jake. I can only imagine the hell Edward put him through."
"You have no idea. He started rumors about Jake taking steroids and of course how he carried several sexual transmitted dieases. It was ridiculous but some people blindly believed what he said as gospel."
"That is horrible." I cringed as I recalled how upset he became with me when I mentioned how he had no clue of the possible pain I endured from Edward.
"So what happened with him and Lauren?" I pushed her for more information.
"They broke up for awhile and he was pretty broken up about it. He didn't date any other girl from our school. He was seen with a few from LaPush but never any of the Forks girls. Then out of the blue Lauren started chasing him again. I couldn't blame her for wanting another chance with him. He was incredibly sexy and although Edward did his best to taint his reputation it only encouraged some of us to want him even more." Alice chuckled.
"I can definitely see Jake in the bad boy persona." I laughed.
I imagined Jake walking the school halls wearing a black leather jacket with a cigarette behind his ear like some greaser. It would have made me desire him that's for sure.
"Exactly. Every time he tried to do something to make the poor guy look worse it only backfired on him. So like I said, he and Lauren went back out and then a few months later they not only broke up but Lauren was sent away to a boarding school for girls." Alice licked her lips with a wicked gleam in her eye.
"Why did her parents send her away?"
My curiosity was in overdrive as I nudged her leg playfully. She was purposely taking a long sip on her wine as I awaited her response.
"No one knows for sure. It was rumored they were caught having sex in her room by her parents, who thought he was unfit for their precious daughter and when she refused to quit seeing him they sent her away." Alice shrugged her shoulders.
"Wow! Do you think that's what happened?"
"I don't know. Anything is possible. Lauren was by no means a virgin when she hooked up with Jake even if she liked everyone to believe that was the case." Alice snickered.
"If she dated Edward I doubt Jake was her first lover." I squirmed as my stomach began to heave as memories of my own sexual experience with Edward resurfaced in my mind.
"Me too. Anyways Edward told everyone that Jake was no good and that even her parents saw him for what he truly was, a no good Indian boy whose father had money but it didn't mean he was worthy of any of the towns folks respect or women."
"That sucks! I already had enough reasons to hate Edward but this is just unbelievable. It sounds to me like he was jealous of Jake. I mean, hell, look at the two of them. They are opposites in so many ways although they both share a bad temper." I sat my glass down and rubbed my hands together trying to put some warmth into them.
"They did come to blows from time to time and Jake always won. Edward wasn't exactly good at fighting guys. He preferred to beat up women as we both know." Alice sighed rudely.
"Still, Jake doesn't seem as cold as Edward. He can be obnoxious and even a jerk but I see something in him that I never saw in Edward."
"Oh what is that, a big dick?" Alice laughed hysterically while my face blushed.
"I don't know anything about Jake's dick size." I laughed nervously.
"I bet you will." she declared.
"What! No way! Jake blackmailed me into getting this large house by threatening to sleep in my bed with me." I explained.
"Hahaha! Girlfriend, I don't know why you would be afraid of that possibility. You plan on spending what a year or more with him and you don't think that in that time you won't grow horny with that hotness living under your roof? You are a bigger fool that I thought." Alice cried out with an enormous grin on her face.
"I'm not going to even consider it. I mean, this marriage isn't based on any feelings we have for one another." I shook my head in denial.
"Feelings. Come on Bella! Hot passionate sex doesn't have to have feelings to happen. You've been without a man in your bed in over what three years now? Jake is a normal guy who probably has a healthy sexual appetite. Don't think for a second that before this farce of a marriage is over that you won't agree to a few tumbles in the sack with him."
"I don't know what to think anymore."
Covering my face with my hands I fought back the images of Jake and I rolling around in a king size bed as he did wicked things to me.
"Look, if it happens, it happens. No one would think less of you for it. Shoot as your friend, I would be gravely disappointed if you don't."
"You are horrible Alice." I laughed as she poured me another drink.
"Maybe I am but I'm also terribly honest. As your friend I won't judge you if you find yourself horny and willing to take what he is going to offer you."
My face grew hotter as I pondered her words and realized that sex with Jake could be one of the best things I ever got out of this marriage. If Jake did propose a deal where we would share one another's body with the understanding that neither owed the other anything, I might be willing to participate in that agreement. Listening to my thoughts I felt my core dripping wet with the knowledge of just how wonderful it would be to have sex again, especially with Jake.
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JPOV:
The sting of the whiskey didn't give me any comfort nor ease the fury slithering in my veins like acid. I couldn't stop my hands from clenching into fists as I remembered how wonderful it felt to smash them against Edward's cold pale face. The bastard just didn't know when to keep his mouth closed. I apologized to Bella for my brute behavior but truthfully I think she enjoyed it more than she wanted to admit. My major mistake was inflicting the hit on Edward while Charlotte was present. That was a lousy move on my part. I never wanted a child to see me like that, especially not her.
While we were touring the house, Charlotte was so excited and full of energy. The child might share Edward's DNA but it was evident she carried more of her mother's spirit inside of her. I hated the thought of her shying away from me. I would have to prove to her somehow that I wasn't the big scary guy she witness today.
Pouring myself another drink from the bottle I grabbed from the bartender I sat quietly in the corner of the room and drank until there was nothing left to drink. Sitting up I felt my head spin slightly. I really wasn't in my right mind to drive home but luckily here in Forks it wasn't far or congested with late night traffic like it was in Seattle.
Climbing into my truck I drove cautiously to Bella's. I nearly forgot that I left all my belongings at her house. It wasn't going to be easy in the next few days living in such a small home but I was had no other choice.
Pulling up in the driveway I turned off the engine. Looking out the windshield up at the full moon above I found myself remembering a night, many years ago, when I was a horny teenager who thought he understood what real love was.
"Jake, we can't go any further...it's too soon." Lauren moaned as I kneaded her breasts in the palms of my hands. Our breathing was fogging up the windows of my pickup truck. The air was warm and thick with teenage hormones as we kissed and groped above our clothes.
"It's not too soon. I mean, it's been three months now. Don't you think we could go a little further, just tonight?" I pleaded.
My body was trembling with need and all I could think about was getting past first base with a girl I once deemed way out of my league. The very thought that she was so into me kept me in a state of sexual frenzy. I had been with only one girl up to this moment and somehow I knew that Lauren would teach me much more than my last experience which only lasted about thirty minutes if you counted the time we spent with foreplay.
"Why?" Lauren gulped while her hands gripped the collar of my shirt while we kissed in between our conversation.
"We won. Tonight was a victory. How about showing me some appreciation."
I knew I was sounding corny as hell but she was a cheerleader after all and I a football player who was helping our team with their first ever winning streak. I figured a blow job was the least she should offer for all the hard work and bruises I now wore.
"Jacob...that's sooooo...not fair."
"Don't you want me?" I whispered.
"Of course I do." Lauren looked directly in my eyes as she chewed on the corner of her ruby red lips.
"Then show me. I need some...release." I explained nervously.
"Release, uh?" Lauren chuckled softly before covering my mouth again with hers.
I was hoping like hell this was her cue that she would allow me a little more release tonight.
"Mmmmm...like this." I took her hand and gulped hard as I placed it over my hardness.
Lauren broke away from our kiss as her eyes grew wide with desire.
"Rub it...please honey."
I took her hand and moved it back and forth over my jeans, hoping she might take the initiative and undo my pants so she could feel the real thing.
"Ummm...Jake...I don't know about this. I care about you but I'm afraid if we go too fast too soon you won't respect me." Lauren replied as her hand continued to eagerly stroke me.
"I'm not asking for sex. Just...a little help." I pleaded.
The sound of my zipper sliding down echoed in the cab of my truck and the feel of the button being pulled loose sent me into overdrive. If she didn't hurry up and touch it or put her pretty mouth over it, I was surely going to explode.I didn't want her to think I couldn't restrain myself but it had been so damn long since a girl had touched me like this. Between school, practice and my side job, I hadn't really spent much time wooing the ladies.
"Okay but …..just remember that this is only a one time deal." Lauren licked her lips before lowering her head toward my crotch.
Gulping hard I prayed that I was able to hold back for more than five minutes. I wanted to enjoy every second. Closing my eyes and leaning my head back I savor the feel of her warm mouth as it covered my cock from tip to the base. The girl had amazing throat. Squinting my eyes together I could feel the tingling sensation in my testicles warning me that release was going to happen faster than I wanted.
Ten minutes later I was wiping myself with a dirty shirt from my workout bag. Lauren wiped her mouth with the back of her hand as I turned the engine on to take her home.
"Do you feel better?" She asked, scooting up next to me as I backed up the truck and heading us toward town and to her house.
"Oh much better. You are amazing. Thank you." I leaned over and peck her cheek.
"Don't think I'm going to do that all the time Jake." Lauren warned me but I looked in the mirror and saw a gleam in her eyes that let me know she enjoyed it as much as I had.
"I won't. Maybe next time I can give you the same form of pleasure." I offered.
Her cheeks turn a soft shade of red as she lowered her head.
"What's wrong? You act like you've never had a guy go south on you."
"I ...maybe, maybe not." Lauren ran her hands through her messy hair and turned her head so I couldn't see her face.
"Why are you being so secretive? I thought one of the reasons you liked being with me was how easy it is to talk to me. I don't want us to have any secrets between us."
"I don't either Jake but this...well...it's personal. I don't feel comfortable talking to you about what I have or haven't done with someone else."
My heart skipped an extra beat as my mind begin to wonder just what she had done with Edward. I knew that Lauren was a popular girl who had many boyfriends before me but the one that always created the most jealousy out of me was Edward Cullen. We both knew that he was livid about our relationship and it was only a matter of time before he did something to put a wedge between us.
"I will tell you about my past, if you tell me yours." I suggested.
"No. I don't want to talk about it." Lauren shook her head and chewed on her nails as I made my way down her street.
"Why not?" I frowned.
I couldn't explain it but I feared she was hiding something from me because she was scared it might hurt me somehow.
"I just don't want too." Lauren sighed loudly.
"Fine."
Pulling up in front of her house I felt her trying to scamper out of the other side but I stopped her. Grabbing her wrist I pulled back toward me.
"I care so much about you Lauren. I might...well...I feel like this could be love that I feel for you." I gulped hard as she turned her head slowly and her eyes locked with mine.
Tears glisten in her eyes as she smiled sadly at me.
"Don't Jake. Don't fall in love with me. It will just ruin everything between us." Lauren spoke so softly I almost didn't make out what she said.
"Why not?"
"I...it's just hard for me to love someone back. I know I'm a freak. You deserve someone who can love you the way you think you love me."
Her words stung my heart like a hundred needles pricking my skin simultaneously.
"That's not true. I love you Lauren and I know you can love me back. You just ….well...give us time and I will prove it to you."
"Okay." Lauren replied but with little encouragement in her tone.
"I mean it. You are special to me and I don't tell every girl that I date that I love them." I explained the depth of my words as I pronounced something for the first time in my life.
"Really?" She looked a little unsure about my confession.
"I promise, I will love you and only you as long as you love me too."
"Good night Jake."
Lauren planted a tender kiss on my lips before pulling away from my hold and jumping out of the passenger side. I waited until she was safely inside her house before I pulled away.
The first girl I ever loved not only broke my heart once but twice and I swore I would never let that happen again. The pain was so excruciating that there were nights I contemplated diving off a cliff and drowning myself to stop the constant pain.
Now I was about to give my name and my loyalty to a woman who didn't love me in the least. How ironic that time could change a person so drastically as it had me?
Climbing out of my truck I swerve a bit before I reached the porch. Turning the doorknob I realized that Bella locked me out. Laughing I managed to bend down without falling on my face and pulled back the old dirty welcome mat sign and took out the spare key that Charlie shared with me, years ago.
Opening the door I tried to creep into the house but knocked into the walls a couple of times before I found the light switch in the living room. Sitting on the couch was a pillow and blanket. I guess Bella assumed I would be home before she went to bed and when she realized her mistake she locked me out. Well, I got the last laugh now.
Sitting down on the couch I kicked off my boots and unbutton my shirt. The alcohol I consumed earlier was still coursing through my veins. I felt like I was floating on puffy clouds far above the sky. Yep I was feeling mighty good.
Standing up I fumbled with my jeans. Sitting back down with just my boxers on and my unbutton shirt I heard a door open from upstairs and a few minutes later I spied Bella with a bat. She held it high above her shoulder in anticipation she might have to swing it at an intruder.
"Well, hello honey." My words slurred but I smiled as my eyes wandered up and down her body.
She wore only a tank top with a pair of short, shorts that gave me a good view of her pale, slender legs.
"Jake! Shit! You nearly gave me a heart attack. How did you get in my house?" She exclaimed in a whisper tone so not to wake up Charlotte.
"Umm...key under the doormat. Charlie told me where it was when I use to come by with my Dad." I replied as I finished taking off my shirt and threw it down on top of my pile of clothing.
"Oh. I forgot about that key." Bella sighed and dropped the bat.
"Are you okay?" Bella asked as she took a small step forward.
"Yep." I popped the "p" and flashed her a big goofy smile.
"Are you drunk?" She laughed slightly.
"A little." I admitted.
"Do you need anything before I go to bed?"
"Actually I do. Come here." I patted the couch.
Bella looked nervously at where my hand laid. I could see the uncertainty she felt about being in the room with me, especially in my inebriated state.
"I won't bite...unless you want me to." I winked at her.
This only made her more apprehensive being in the same room with me.
"Funny." She replied sarcastically as she took a couple of baby steps further in the room.
"Damn, I didn't think of you as a wussy." I teased.
"What?" Bella looked startled.
"Come sit down next to me." I asked again.
"Fine." Bella huffed as she sat down on the edge of the couch, keeping several inches between us.
"I'm sorry about making things complicated for you. I will do whatever is necessary to keep my temper in check, whenever I'm around Eddick. I mean Edward."
"Jake, I don't understand what is going on between you two. Why do you hate him so much?"
I sat silently contemplating what or if I should tell her anything about my vendetta with Edward. I didn't want to put her in the middle of it and I sure as hell didn't want her sympathy.
"You look like you just woke up." I mumbled as I pushed a loose piece of hair behind her ear.
"I did." Bella yawned.
"Didn't mean to wake you up but my clothes are here."
Bella's eyes scanned over my body as it occurred to her that I was wearing only my boxers next to her.
"I...yeah." Bella turned her head away, trying to hide the blush that was no doubt covering her soft cheeks.
"Don't be afraid to look at me Bella. You need to get use to it. Once we are married you will see this and maybe even more of me all the time."
Bella's head whipped around as her eyes grew large and her breath came in small gasps. I knew if I placed my hand over her chest, I would feel a rapid heartbeat.
"Stop it Jake. You are drunk." Bella started to stand but I grabbed her wrist and pulled her back down next to me.
"Stop what? I'm only being truthful with you."
"Oh really?" She snickered. "Then tell me why you really want to help me win custody of Charlotte. If this is about getting even with Edward I don't want to participate. I have enough trouble to tackle without you adding more to my life."
"Bella, it doesn't matter why I hate Edward. What matters is that I will do everything in my power to help you keep her safe from him."
"That's not good enough Jake." Bella's face grew stern as she looked at me with a frustrated stare.
"Why not? Why can't we just play the part of husband and wife without discussing my past?"
My hand continued to hold her wrist as I leaned in closer to her. She smelled delicious. Inhaling sharply I smelled fresh strawberries.
"Mmm...you smell so good." I mumbled right before I nuzzled my nose in the crook of her neck.
Her body shook next to me. I couldn't resist licking her bare skin to learn if she tasted as good as she smelled.
"Stop." Bella pleaded but I could feel her body vibrating as I moved so that there wasn't even an inch of air between us.
"Stop what? " I teased.
My tongue glided up the side of her neck until it reached her ear lobe. Opening my mouth I graze it between my teeth. Bella whimpered softly.
She wasn't telling me to stop now and the way her body was responding I was safe to assume that she was feeling the same undercurrent of sexual tension between us.
Taking my free hand I gently held her chin as I tilted it so that her face was down facing my own.
"You are so beautiful." I whispered.
Bella gulped hard and I knew from the look in her eyes she was trying to find away to prevent us from going any further. Preventing her from saying another word I grazed my lips over hers they felt like rose petals, silky and pink. I wanted to feel more of them so I grabbed her shoulders and pulled her up against me as I plunged my tongue between her lips and explored her mouth. Trillion of electrical jolts shot throughout my body as I felt her hands very slowly climb up my chest and circle around my neck as she held onto me.
There was no resisting on her part. A small victory I thought to myself as I continued to kiss her. The need was just as strong in her as it was for me. We both needed some release tonight and I was up for the challenge if she was.
My hands roamed up and down her back before they found their way under the hem of her cotton tank and moved further up until they were covering both of her firm but soft breast. Her body jumped from the contact but I didn't hesitate. I wanted her and she needed me. It was a win-win situation for the both of us as far as I could see.
Her fingers slid through my hair and gripped tightly as she pressed her breasts against my hands. Flickering her perky taunt nipples between my thumb and forefinger I felt her body react and the sound of her passion as it echoed in our open mouths made my dick so hard I feared it would explode right then and there.
Everything seemed to intensify between us as I carefully eased her onto her back while lifting her shirt up so that I can view her milky white breasts. I noticed that her nipples were the same shade as her lips. Smiling to myself I dipped my head to taste one when Bella suddenly sat abruptly up and smack our heads together.
"Ouch." We exclaimed in unison.
"We can't do this." Bella held her head while trying to push me off of her.
"Why not? You liked it." I stated.
"That's not true." She lied and we both knew it.
"Then why did you moan and wiggle beneath me?" I threw the question at her.
"I...it's...I don't want this to happen. It will only ruin things." Bella jumped off the couch and put some distance between us.
Laying down on my back I looked up at the ceiling and let out a long yawn before rolling my head over to look at her.
"You are overthinking this. I have needs and you have them. Soon we will be husband and wife, I don't see why sex would be a bad thing between us?"
"It would be a mistake. I ...you...casual sex isn't in my nature." She argued.
"Trust me honey, there won't be anything casual about it."
"Shut up Jake!" Bella closed her eyes and placed her hands over her ears like a child who didn't want to see their parents making out in front of them.
"Fine. If the thought of having the best sex ever with me bothers you that much then go to bed." I waved her away as I pulled the blanket over me and closed my eyes.
My body was reeling from the pleasure she gave me but it was also exhausted from a long ass day. The alcohol was starting to take a hold of me and I knew it was only a matter of minutes before I passed out.
"Jake, you didn't answer me before. I need to know why are marrying me? I can't walk down that aisle until I know what you are scheming." Bella's voice was raspy with desire despite the ultimatum she was giving me.
"Just let it go Bella." I sighed heavily as I felt the first wave of drowsiness wash over me.
"I mean it Jake. Until you tell me why it's so important for you to get even with Edward I won't marry you."
Her words were falling on deaf ears. I wanted to yell at her and maybe even shake her hard. Maybe then she would get the point that I was not going to open up old wounds just so that she could feel sorry for me or hell, or even try to talk me out of it entirely.
"I'm afraid Jake that what you might be planning will hurt not only me but Charlotte." She continued to plead with me.
"Charlotte isn't going to get hurt. I swear on my life." I mumbled as I felt myself drowning in a wave of sleepiness.
"Then tell me why you are willing to marry me and we both know it's not just for the money." She demanded but her voice was still soft to my ears.
Rolling over on my side I felt my mouth open and words spill out but after that I was lost to the darkness of drunken slumber.
"He took my baby and now I will take his."
I was passed out and didn't witness when Bella's hand flew up and covered her mouth or how she looked so astonished at my unintended confession.
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