Chapter Seven

Bella

As soon as Jasper walked me into the room I knew he had turned the heat up again. He did this often when I stayed over. If it wasn't for the overly heated room I don't think that I would be able to handle sleeping next to him. Yet, even with the his strangely cold temperature, I never wanted to be any where else.

I also couldn't wait until I could feel his body against mine with no barriers. I didn't care if his body was cold. I have to admit that most of the time when we've had our bodies touching I couldn't feel the cold. Only the heat his kisses and touches made me feel.

He set me on my feet and then pulled me close to his body. His kisses were becoming more passionate, urgent, and so did the need I felt for this wonderful man. I stopped him long enough to pull him to the bed, and as soon as we were there both of us started to tug at each others clothes.

It felt wonderful knowing that he seemed to know exactly what I was feeling. But we both ended up laughing when it seemed that we weren't having much success of removing clothes. His buttons weren't coming undone on his shirt, and because my arms were busy trying to work with my hands he couldn't get my top up and over my head.

He finally pulled away and then quickly had his shirt off then he laid me down on the bed and removed my top. I blushed when he looked at my breasts and yet it sent a fresh wave of desire coursing through my body. The look in his eyes were that of a man starving, and I was his food.

Again I could have sworn that he felt what I was feeling as he pushed his erection into my leg. His kisses were becoming more desperate, and fueled my own desires for this man. He then left my lips only to make a trail down my neck until his mouth was on one nipple while he played with the other one.

He did stop and then asked me,

"Bella, before we go any further I need to know. Have you been with anyone before?"

"No, you're my first at everything. My first kiss, first boyfriend, and my first time making love."

His smile took my breath away and then he went back to ravishing my breasts. My body was really starting to embarrass me as I kept arching my chest into his face and making loud moans. But I couldn't help it. I had my hands on his back and was caressing it and noticed that it felt uneven, as if he had ridges. I was about to say something when he nipped one of my nipples and I felt my whole body react to the lust. I found that I forgot about anything other than what he was doing.

When he moved down my body once more I became nervous. I wasn't a prude but this man was so HOT and he seemed to know what he was doing as everything he had done so far only made me want him more. He spent a minute or two at my belly button before sliding down further. He did stop again and told me,

"If I hurt you, or you just need me to stop, just tell me and I promise to stop. I need you to enjoy this, so promise me."

I promised and then he slid my shorts off along with my panties. He kissed his way up and then teased me by going around where I was needing friction. He stopped at this point and removed his own jeans and boxers. He went right back to kissing my hips and legs still teasing me.

When he finally used his tongue I was beyond being embarrassed. He spread my legs more and then using his tongue at first and then his fingers, adding one at a time I had my first ever orgasm. If it hadn't felt so good I would have been embarrassed again because I grabbed his hair and pulled him closer to me just as I exploded. Oh yeah, I also screamed his name.

He quickly made his way back up my body and kissed me with more passion than he ever had. I felt as he lined himself up with me and then stopped to look me in the eye and said,

"Remember, if you need me to stop just say so."

He gave me a second or two before sliding into me. He pushed hard into me and broke my barrier. He then stilled and waited for me to tell him it was okay for him to move. It didn't take long as I felt lust shortly after and knew that I needed him to move.

He did start to pump but I could tell that he was holding back. I don't know how I knew that since this was my first time but I did know. As I could feel my body getting ready to explode again he did speed up and when it happened I think I saw stars.

He spoke very quietly in my ear,

"Baby, I don't think I can hold out any longer."

Sure enough after a few more pumps he exploded himself but when he did I came again. It was like I went from ten to sixty in five seconds. It was the most wonderful feeling ever, and I knew then that I would never be able to live without this man in my life.

After we both had come down he asked,

"Are you okay? I know that it hurt so I'm not gonna bother to ask you but please tell me that you're alright. I didn't hurt you any more than that did I? It would kill me if I ever hurt you."

I told him,

"Jazz, I'm fine. No, I'm better than fine. That was the most wonderful and beautiful thing I have ever experienced and you made it that way for me. Somehow, you even helped to take away the nervousness I was feeling. I love you, but I will warn you that I'm hooked now and I'm gonna need to do that as much as possible."

Jasper

I couldn't believe it! I had done it. I had been able to make love to her. I have never been with any woman that made me feel like this. Of course being a vampire I was ready to go again but she's human and for now I would have to go at her speed. I spent a few minutes just kissing her and touching her beautiful body and telling her how much I loved her and how special our first time was to me.

I was going to do everything in my power to make sure she knew how loved she was. I got up and ran a hot bath and then carried her into the bathroom. I do admit to getting into the tub with her as I felt she might need my help. You know, having a hard time reaching certain spots.

I knew that I had taken a huge risk by making love to her. Not only because there would be blood but because of my scars. I knew the second she felt some of them but distracted her by sending her some of my own lust for this beautiful lady. I almost had to laugh when she told me how I had made her feel less nervous. If only she knew that I did indeed take it away but not the way she thought.

The hot bath did wonders for helping her with the soreness and I was actually able to make love to her once more before she fell into a deep peaceful sleep. Again I do admit to using my gift to put her to sleep as she asked me a question that I knew would probably come up,

"Jazz, you don't have to tell me but I noticed that you're skin isn't smooth. It's like there are ridges. Can you or are you willing to share what's going on? You don't have to. Just tell me that you don't want to talk about it and I'll leave it alone. But just so you know, it won't make any difference in how I feel about you. I just worry about you."

So, like the coward I am I put her to sleep as I had no idea what to tell her. Of course Alice being Alice sent me a text and told me exactly what to say. So I let my mate sleep naturally until she woke up. I was hoping that she had forgotten but of course she's my mate and didn't forget.

"Sorry Jazz about falling asleep before you could answer my question but it's your fault that I was so tired after the workout you gave me. So do you want to share or is this off limits?"

"No, I'll tell you. You already know that I'm adopted. I had to live with foster parents before I was taken in by the couple that raised me. The foster parents felt that since I wasn't their own that whatever happened to me didn't matter. Their own kids were monsters and used to bite me just for the fun of it. It went on for several years before they finally found my Aunt and Uncle who took me away from the hell that I had lived in for years."

I hadn't looked at her because while I wasn't lying I wasn't telling the whole truth either. She finally hugged me tight and was crying. I felt her heartbreak over my supposed abuse. I vowed right then that never again would I lie to her. But I wasn't ready to admit that I was in fact one of those "monsters".