He woke early the next day and untangled himself from Alfred's sleeping form and went to go make breakfast for them.
Alfred snuggled into the pillow, hand on his belly. When the smell of food hit his nose, he shot up and ran to the bathroom. He threw up, missing the toilet slightly.
Zeus jumped up from the floor in the bedroom and ran to Ivan, grabbing his pants leg and pulling.
Ivan glanced down at the firm tug on his lounge pants, set the spatula down, and followed Zeus back to the bedroom where he heard Alfred gagging in the bathroom. He winced and walked over to his ailing husband, bending down and rubbing his back lightly "Morning sickness?" he asked.
"…I…I'm sorry about your bathroom…I'll clean it up as soon as I get my stomach it calm down…" he sighed, head on the toilet.
Zeus whimpered and tried to get around Ivan.
He shifted to let Zeus through "It's alright, I'm more worried about you." He felt Alfred's head to make sure there was no fever and confirmed his suspicions "Do you want me to wrap your breakfast for later and make some toast instead? It may help your stomach."
"Please…" he looked at Ivan, leaning into his hand. His hands rubbing the worried dog that was snuggling his side.
Ivan nodded and grabbed a towel to wipe the sweat from Alfred's forehead before using it to wipe up the mess that spilled on the edge of the toilet and tossing the soiled towel in the laundry basket before returning to the kitchen. He washed his hands and started some toast, finishing his own breakfast and wrapping Alfred's as it was cooking.
Alfred stood with some help from Zeus "…Ivan seems mad…" he whispered, sitting on the bed. His hand rubbing Zeus's head. "I…didn't mean to throw up… Arthur use to get mad at me for…throwing up too… you know? Coughing…being sick…always…" he whispered, head down a bit. "…I didn't mean…to throw up…" he whispered to Zeus who was whimpering.
Ivan set their plates on the table and waited a few more moments before worry set it 'Is he still throwing up…?' he wondered to himself before standing and heading to the back to see if Alfred was alright. He paused by the bedroom door, hearing Alfred whisper and instinctively listening in. He frowned, slightly hurt by Alfred's faint words but he had to remind himself of what Alfred had gone through and that it would take a long time before the damage had faded. Ivan knocked on the doorframe lightly to announce himself, offering a slightly timid smile "Are you alright?" he asked.
Alfred looked up at Ivan, smiling slightly "…Yes…sorry I was just talking to Zeus…letting my stomach settle a bit…" he rubbed the bump gently. "…I'll come to the kitchen now…" he stood, making his way towards Ivan. "I would kiss you good morning but…my breath smells like vomit…" he giggled, Zeus following him close.
The doctor quirked his lip in a little smile "How about we wait until we've both brushed our teeth, that way it will be far more pleasant for both of us…" He leaned in and brushed their noses together, knowing his own breath wouldn't exactly be fresh to Alfred and gave him a little kiss on his forehead before taking his hand "Breakfast is waiting" he said with a soft smile.
Alfred smiled "…What a gentleman…" he rubbed his face before rubbing his nose back. He walked to the kitchen, sitting down. Zeus staying close to him again as he ate his toast. "…Complements to the chief."
"Thank you, I'm sure you could've done better though" he chuckled "toast is not my strong suit but I hope it will help your stomach at least" Ivan got them both drinks and settled in his seat next to Alfred to start on his own plate.
Alfred drank some of his drink. He chuckled "It's good love" he relaxed.
Zeus wagged his tailed at the uplift in Alfred's mood.
Alfred smiled down at Zeus "No work for us today buddy…just planning a vacation…and the wedding."
Ivan nodded "We should let the shelter know that you are taking early leave to prepare" he smiled a bit "I'm sure your friend at the desk will be overjoyed" he chuckled "and it will be nice to spend the day relaxing with you, after we get the items on the list the doctor gave us of course but you can stay home for that if you wish."
"…I would love to lay in bed all day…hopefully I won't throw up…I'm so sorry about that…" he looked at his plate.
"It's alright, it's not our fault" Ivan grabbed his hand gently "I'm part of the reason for the little bundle causing it" he teased lightly before he became more serious. "He never should have treated you the way he did. You deserve so much better, better than me, but I will try my best."
"…Vanya…" he shook his head, not willing to accept Ivan's willingness to self-depreciate "…nothing is better than you…" he smiled, relaxing as he pulled Ivan's hand to his belly. "…This is already my happiest and healthiest pregnancy so far…thanks to you…"
"You are far better than you think but I am happy I can give you a chance at a family" Ivan smiled softly, breaking contact with the brilliant blue eyes to look down at the barely noticeable pudge and knowing he had a hand in the little life growing.
"…Hmm" he relaxed "…glad we can have a family…" he breathed, finishing his meal.
Zeus whimpered, nudging Alfred.
Alfred rubbed his head "…Sorry Zeus…I'm just a bit down today…daddy will take care of momma…"
Ivan dropped his hand, giving the big puppy a scratch behind one of the floppy ears "It will be alright and soon you will have someone new to play with."
Zeus wagged his tail at Ivan's words. He let out a small howling bark being playful.
Alfred chuckled and smiled "…He can't wait it seems…"
He chuckled softly "It will be a while longer but I'm sure he'll last. Hopefully he will know to be gentle but we will have to watch the both of them when he or she arrives."
"…Zeus will be gentle" he smiled, rubbed his head. "…Hmm do you want to shower together?" he rubbed Ivan's hand that was on his belly.
The ashen blond nodded "If you would like to" he gave Alfred a little smile, still lingering on what Alfred had said.
Alfred looked at Ivan "…What's wrong…? We don't have to shower together…" his hand stopped rubbing Ivan's. It just laid on his.
He shook his head and kissed the hand as it stilled "I would love to shower with you but do you want to?"
Alfred nodded. Ivan was acting weird "…Ah yes I always love showering with you…" Ivan was not talking to him normally and it was starting to scare him. He hated himself for being scared of Ivan. He cursed Arthur in his head "…Come on…" he stood, holding Ivan's hand. He pulled him to their bathroom, smiling. He pushing Ivan's pants down. Helping him get naked. "…Well good morning…" he giggled down the male. It was weird not to see Ivan not even half hard "…" Alfred felt himself getting lower and lower. He didn't know what was wrong with Ivan. He backed up a bit "…Let me start the shower…" he turned and started the shower, back to Ivan for the moment.
Ivan saw Alfred trying to play off the heavy atmosphere just like he had been doing but it was only getting worse. He quirked a smile at Alfred's little tease and greet but it just didn't feel right and Alfred sensed it. Ivan watched Alfred's back for a moment before wrapping his arms around him, lips resting against his shoulder "I love you…more than you will ever know…" he whispered, barely over the hiss of the showerhead.
Alfred leaned back into his arms. His hands resting over Ivan's "…Vanya…" he turned his head, kissing the cheek of his beloved. "…I love you more than the moon and the stars…I love you more than the air we breathe…and I know you love me more than anything…" he leaned back into his arms. The heavy atmosphere made Alfred want to cry. He felt like his heart was being crushed. He thought…Ivan didn't want him anymore. Those sounded like parting words. A tear slid down his cheek on the other side where Ivan couldn't see. His hands tight on Ivan's.
The pause after Alfred's words pained him; he was scared of what might be hiding in his love's hesitance. "I want to spend the rest of my life showing you every ounce of love that I can but…if you are not comfortable…I still want to take care of you and the baby and I'll provide anything you need and whatever house you want but…you have to tell me… Out of anything in the world…I want you happy…" Ivan's arms tightened slightly and his eyes shut as he tried to embed every cell of Alfred's to memory just in case.
Alfred stopped, eyes wide. He pushed Ivan's arms open enough to turn around and face Ivan. "…You think I want to leave you? Why…why would you think that? I want to spend my whole life with you…I want to be in your arms when we are old and that's where I want to die…that's the only place I've ever wanted to be…but if you don't want me…" His voice started to tremble, throat getting tight "I…I'll leave…just…tell me…and I'll leave…no strings…you don't have to help with the baby…or anything…I just want you to be happy…I…" he started to cry, he tried to be strong but Ivan was his life line. "…Please don't leave me…I…can't live without you…you are the only thing that keeps me sane…only person I trust…only person I love" his hands were shaking on Ivan's bare chest. "…Out of anything in the world…I want you Ivan…that's all I want…" he sniffed "…without you…there is no meaning in living…"
His eyes started to shine with a watery film and he pulled Alfred to him tightly "I will always want to be with you. I will always love you. I can't imagine being happier than having you as my last sight and breath. Tears slipped out despite tightly shut eyes and ran down Alfred's shoulder "I never want to be without you but I will do what makes you happy. If you can be happy with me then I could die happy but if you are ever unhappy or scared please, please tell me. I am still trying to learn you and I can't know everything so I won't always know what to say or do to make you feel better…but…I will try my best to deserve you…"
Alfred cleaned off his lover's eyes with gentle kisses up and down the line of water "…You have been perfect…I was a bit thrown off by your reaction this morning…but when I thought about it…you didn't do anything wrong…I'm still learning too. I'm still…scared of being bad…throwing up was a bad thing to do…in my other…we will call it jail…" he paused to dispel the memories that were coming forth. "…He would beat me for that…it was the first time I've thrown up in front of you…it just scared me…that's all…you didn't do anything wrong…I freaked myself out…you more than deserve me…Now it's my turn to deserve you…" he rubbed his face slowly. His forehead to Ivan's "…I'm not going anywhere…and I know you aren't…" he whispered, soft eyes locked on Ivan's. "I love you my darling…" he whispered. "You're stuck with me…" he chuckled, the only other sound in the more comfortable atmosphere was the water of the shower.
Ivan's eyes opened with the soft kisses along tear tracks that he hadn't noticed and he smiled softly "Body fluids don't bother me; I have been cleaning them for years…" he laughed softly, voice still a bit tense "at least I know you do not have a disease when I clean up yours…" he joked a little back. He took a deep breath and softly sighed it out as their foreheads touched and the tension started to fade "I love you too and there is no other place that I would rather be than with you…" he glanced towards the shower "how about a bath?" he asked, figuring they had time since neither had work and it would be nice to hold Alfred in the warm water, if it was still warm.
Alfred nodded and pulled away gently. He bend down in front of the male, still in his sleeping sweats but was shirtless. He switched to bath and plugged the hole, standing up slowly with his hand on his belly. "…Alright hottie…into the tub with you…" he began to strip himself.
The Russian tossed his shirt to rest with the pants Alfred had tugged down and gave Alfred a hand with his own pants, chuckling light with Alfred's surprise "What? The only "hottie" here is you" he teased.
Alfred blushed, hiding his body a bit "Don't look! You haven't seen me naked in the light since I got a belly…" he was so red. "Hurry baby in the tub! So I can get in…" he was bright red, cute faced.
He kissed Alfred's lower back "I will love you no matter what. Pregnant belly, five hundred pounds, no limbs; no matter what" he emphasized "and the light doesn't change my love for you" he gently but firmly turned Alfred around and kissed the little belly affectionately. It was barely noticeable; a far cry from how Alfred was exaggerating and even less obvious compared to what it would be in the coming months. Ivan's smiled spread "And I like it" he chuckled and gave it another kiss "it shows that you and her are healthy."
"…Her huh?" he smiled, pulling Ivan into the tub and sat him down, straddling him. "…You want a little girl?" he rubbed his chest "…me too" he smiled more, kissing his lips. "…I love you baby…" he rubbed their noses together. "…Now that we are okay…what are we doing today?" he began to wash Ivan.
Ivan blushed lightly "I just want it to be healthy." He returned the kiss happily "I love you too and I would enjoy just spending the day with you but we have to get the vitamins and things that the doctor told us and…maybe we can start planning our wedding."
Alfred blushed and smiled "…We can get the meds…then come home and get in our boxers…and eat ice cream in front of the TV while we plan wedding stuff…like flowers and crap…" he smiled wider.
He grinned "That sounds like a perfect way to spend a day off" he joined their lips and grabbed the soap, parting as he started to wash his love from their nightly activity and the rough morning he had.
Alfred smiled, softly. He leaned into the kiss as soapy hands adored his chest and shoulders, pressing himself closer.
"I love you…" he whispered between their lips, he knew he was being repetitive but he needed to know that Alfred knew he was serious, he had to wipe away any doubts that the younger blond had.
Alfred rubbed his shoulders "…I love you so much too…" he whispered, smiling.
"Thank you…" Ivan replied softly with a small smile and continued to cover his sweet little love with the thin white suds.
"…No need to thank me" he pulled him closer, giggling.
"But I am thankful and who better to thank than the angel that fell into my life" Ivan hugged him close, sudsy hands and all, and rubbed his back gently as he relaxed in the simple embrace.
Alfred wrapped his arms around his neck, kissing the sudsy neck gently "…You are making me blush my darling…"
"I'm certainly not complaining…you're even cuter when you blush" Ivan praised as he nuzzled the wet neck.
"…Hmm…I must have died…Arthur must have killed me…" he whispered, pressing his forehead to Ivan's "…how else could I ever be this happy…this must be heaven…"
"Only if I died as well…" Ivan answered "but don't even think of dying, I need you far too much…you are my heaven and I couldn't live without you…"
Alfred shook his head "I'm not going anywhere…I'm way too happy…" he whispered, smiling a bit as he rubbed their noses.
"That makes me even happier and don't forget" he returned the loving little nuzzle "we have a duty to protect the life within you too so neither of us needs to be thinking of death."
"…Our little girl you mean…" he smiled, locking eyes with Ivan.
Ivan's smile spread as he nodded "That is exactly what I mean, though…who knows…she might turn out to be a boy once you're further along" he teased "or even multiples" he chuckled.
"…Oh lord…" he giggled. "What would happen if I have two kids…" he rubbed his chest, giggling.
"You wouldn't be handling them alone, there are no doubts about that, even if you have ten, though…at that point we would need a much larger house" Ivan laughed, hands resting on Alfred's lower back.
Alfred kissed his cheek "…We should pray we only have two…I don't know if I would be safe enough to hold three or more…big time will all my miscarriages…"
Ivan's smile saddened a bit "You have a good point and we want to be able to have time for them and each other…"
Alfred nodded, leaning against Ivan "That is why I've been so scared…I don't want my scarred, broken body to hurt the little one…" He looked down at all his scars on his wrist and belly "…I should have left sooner…from that monster…and found you…"
"You are far from broken and you do have scars but they show how strong you are. You went through so much and still stuck by him because you were in love. He doesn't deserve you and he never will…" Ivan kissed a couple of the faded scars on Alfred's wrist "But we have each other now and I can try to show you as much love as I can" he softly smiled and kissed Alfred gently "and we can both show our baby the family we never had…"
"…Two broken people…making a very happy and loved baby…" he held Ivan's face in his hands "…no one will get their hands on you again…I'll kill them all…"
Ivan held Alfred's hands to his face as his smile warmed "I would do the same for you in an instant…no one will hurt you or our child."
Alfred nudged their noses "…Hmm big man…" he kissed his lips "…why don't we get out and get my meds…so I can get you home and in boxers."
"Only if I can get you in a pair of mine" he chuckled "though…if you did I doubt we would get anything done…"
"…Hmm…" he kissed his lips and stood with some help. He went to the bedroom. He pulled on Ivan's boxers. He adjusted them and walked into the bathroom "…Like this?"
Ivan had just stepped out and was drying off when Alfred called his attention, he glanced over and a pang of arousal hit him "Yes, exactly like that…" he smirked slightly "but I did say nothing would get done if you did…" he trailed off and strolled over to Alfred, grabbing his hip and toying with the loose band hanging low in the as he joined their lips.
Alfred smirked, breaking the kiss "…Like that's a bad thing…" he pulled him closer, pressing their lips together. His breath picking up as his hands messed up Ivan's wet hair.
"Tease…" Ivan said breathily as he trailed his hands up Alfred's damp body, pausing to brush against the belly lovingly before pulling away. "First and foremost, we need to get the list taken care of" he said firmly, more to himself than Alfred "then…I can take care of your infectious sex drive…"
"Hmmm" he purred, biting his ear gently and pulling it "…alright Dr. Braginsky…maybe when we get back…we can have a therapy session in your office…"
Ivan entertained the thought of replaying that night but he was struck by a reminder of Alfred's last little scenario and tweaked his role "I'm not sure…I'm quite busy and my husband is expecting me home soon…" he said with a little smirk.
"…Hmm forget him…I've seen you jacking off to me…my camera in my room…I know you are watching me…so forget your husband…" he purred.
"You sound confident… Yes there is a camera but who says that I am watching you" Ivan's smirk spread and he tilted Alfred's head up "I have many other patients, who says that I'm not watching one of them?"
"…Because my dear doctor…you have lust and love in your eyes when you look at me…" he bit his lip, pulling it.
"I have no argument for that" he chuckled "you are certainly something to love and lust after."
"…Good…so after we get back…" he gripped the hard member "…you will show me what this thing can do…"
"And show this lovely ass its place…" Ivan grabbed the clothed cheeks firmly and pressed their bodies together.
Alfred was already ready to go and horny. He raked down Ivan's neck "…I want you…I want your cock…" his lips shook against Ivan's as they kissed.
"If I get you in bed now we won't be leaving it for the rest of the day…" Ivan's eyes widened a fraction before lowering and a smirk lit up his face "do you still have the small vibrator I got you?" he asked with a purr.
"…In the night stand by our bed…" he pulled back, walking to it. He pulled it out looking at Ivan.
"How does a little public playing sound?" he asked, fully prepared to disregard the idea at any inkling of hesitance from Alfred "Have it in while we shop?"
"…Oh baby…I like what you are thinking…" he turned around, bending over bed. He pulled down Ivan's boxers to expose his butt "…go head big boy…"
"Are you entirely sure?" he asked seriously "as much as I enjoy teasing you I want you to be comfortable with whatever we do and I'm not sure how long we will be out."
"…It adds some excitement, no? If it bothers me too much I'll go to the bathroom and take it out ok?" he looked back at Ivan.
Ivan smiled as he took the toy "I will trust you to know if it becomes too much" he said and kissed one of the exposed cheeks before spreading them and teasing the hole with the tip of the smooth toy as he grabbed the lube, pulling it away just long enough to slick it up before it was back to the puckered entrance.
Alfred gripped the bed, whimpering "AHH oh baby…your husband know you have such toys…?" he spread his legs more, rolling his hips.
He shook his head "He has his toys so I have had to make due with my own and little toys like you that I pick up" he trailed off as he started to carefully slide it in. It was not much bigger than a couple of fingers so, with the generous coating of lube, it had no problem slipping into the pliant hole.
Alfred gasped, shaking in pleasure "Dirty boy…hmm…" he moved a bit back against it "…I like…the size…" he shivered.
"It is good for quick little things but you will be disappointed later if you think I am even close to this size…" Ivan didn't bother with turning it on, not wanting his lover to be too stimulated to walk properly, but he did make sure it was nice and deep; grinding it against the little bundle as well as he could aim without feeling it directly.
Alfred was drooling a bit as his body shook at each thrust of that toy "…I can't wait to see you…" he whispered, biting his lip.
Ivan chuckled "And I look forward to seeing you…but first we have to see how long you can handle this little thing while the world is watching. We know how much you enjoyed me watching…"
"…"Alfred smirked and slowly stood, pulling the boxer shorts up. He kissed his lips, walking over to his pants and shirt, getting dressed. "…Come on honey let's get ready" he winked.
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~Poison