A/N: Thank you for your patience, I know I've been a little all over the place as of late but I hope it hasn't disrupted the story too much for you to continue to enjoy it.

WARNING: Tiny lemon.

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

Bella

"I am so sick of high school."

"Me too! We need to, like, graduate already."

"Do you think, like, that'll be soon?"

I stared blankly at the conversation between Jessica and Lauren in the lunch hall, not quite believing my ears at just how thick they sounded as I continued to take in what they were saying. I genuinely wouldn't have thought it was possible to be that out of it had I not seen it for myself, but then again I knew neither girls were that special in the intellectual department.

"Makes you feel good about yourself, doesn't it?"

Looking at Angela I raised a brow. "What?"

She giggled, gesturing to Lauren and Jessica who had moved onto the subject of boys. I sighed, cursing the sun which had prevented Edward being able to come to school. I missed him already, the tugging in my chest uncomfortable as I constantly seemed to be aware that he wasn't present.

It sucked.

I was surprised that both Angela and Ben had offered me to sit with them, what with considering as soon as the whole being mated to Edward thing came about I had pretty much spend all of my time with him. I didn't regret it, and I highly doubted it would change any time soon, if ever.

"By listening to them," she grinned. "It makes you glad that we were actually born with a brain."

I couldn't help it, I snorted out loud. "You have a funny outlook on life."

She shrugged. "Got to stay positive. So, lover boy not here today?"

I knew some time or another the subject would come up so I wasn't all that surprised that she had finally gotten the courage to ask, but then again it didn't mean discussing the family they all seemed somewhat obsessed with much like the rest of the school made me feel any less awkward.

"Are we finally able to ask about Edward?" I narrowed my eyes at Jessica. "What?" she asked innocently.

"You know they go camping when the weathers nice," I easily used the lie everyone already believed.

"And they didn't invite you?"

I rolled my eyes. "It didn't work on your parents, Lauren. I doubt it will work on Charlie either."

Well, Alice had already seen that it wouldn't, so I was kind of right in that aspect.

"Shame," she grinned. "So, you fucked him yet?"

I scowled at her in distaste. Even if I had, why the fuck would I tell her? Talk about asking something that was none of her business, or anyone else's apart from Edward's and mine. Bitch.

"You really think I would tell you?" I quirked a brow.

Jessica shrugged. "I told you about me and Mike getting it on," she wiggled her brows.

Ah, yes. How could I forget that conversation?

"I really didn't need to know about how talented Mike was in regards to his lips, Jessica" I cringed. "Or the fact he could use improvement when it comes to getting you to the big 'O.'"

"What!"

A part of me actually pitied Mike that he seemed to be only just finding out about this. Perhaps it would have been a better idea if I had just kept my mouth shut, told both of the sluts to mind their own business and keep quiet until the already tedious day finally ended and I got to see Edward again.

Well, it was too late now.

"What was wrong with me fucking you?" he demanded.

Angela leaned over, whispering "this is about to get interesting" as her and Ben laughed under their breath.

Meanwhile, Mike seemed really pissed off that Jessica apparently hadn't told him she didn't think he was up to it in the sack. Personally, I thought it made her even more of a bitch to not only think something like that, but to just come out and say it.

I couldn't even imagine doing such a thing to Edward, but then again with the chemistry we had I couldn't believe that he wouldn't satisfy me in every way possible.

Fuck, I had orgasm on his lap after all with barely any touch.

Jessica shrugged. "I don't know, it just didn't feel as good as it had before."

Mike scoffed at that, "well, perhaps if you weren't so bloody loose down their-"

"Thank god," I breathed when I heard my phone going off. "I'm just going to-" I shook my head when I caught sight of both Ben and Angela caught up in the drama that was Mike and Jessica, so I didn't bother to finish my sentence as I moved further along the table.

"Hey Love," I smiled at his greeting.

"Hey, what's up?"

"I need to see you"

"Are you ok?" I asked concerned, taking note that his voice seemed more strained than usual. "Has something happened?"

I was beginning to panic until he soothed my worries. "No, Love. I just…this not seeing you for so long has me acting less than my usual self-"

"Just tell her you're a stroppy bitch without her!" I heard Emmett boom in the background.

"Back off, Emmett! I hear Rose is thinking about withholding sex again."

"Oh fuck no!"

I laughed as I heard the panic in Emmett's tone, though it did make me have the passing thought of what sort of sexual relationship me and Edward would have. I couldn't imagine withholding it for a punishment, especially since I had no doubts that it would be both addicting and explosive.

"Are you still there, Love?"

"Yep," I grinned.

I heard him sigh out in relief. "I apologise. So, can you come outside, please?"

"You're outside?" I reflexively glanced out the window. "It's sunny," I stated the obvious.

He laughed, the sound making warm fill me from head to toe. "So, is that a yes?"

The hope in his tone made me smile widely. "Five minutes."

~~( )~~

"Thank god," Edward gently clasped my cheeks in his hands, his eyes scanning me over quickly before he lowered his head to gently brush his lips against mine.

I sighed out in content, my fingers gripping at the dark black shirt he was wearing as I tried to ground myself. The fact he was so close, so close that I could touch him had the tugging sensation in my chest lessening by the second, only leaving the sensation of pleasure and contentment in its place.

I wanted to feel nothing else.

"I can't-I can't wait that long again," he muttered out, his nose brushing against my cheek as his lips pressed against my neck lightly. "I'll go mad."

I raked my fingers though his coppery red hair. "Same," I agreed honestly. "The weather for next week-"

"All cloudy and wet."

I sighed out in relief. "Thank god," because I didn't want to be away from him either.

Edward seemed to get a strange look on his handsome features before the next thing I knew I was on his lap as he moved us to the floor, his knees bend so my back rested comfortably against them as his fingers buried themselves in my hair.

"Jesus," I whispered, eyes clenched shut as I tried to stop the dizziness at the quick and unexpected movement.

"You ok, Love?"

I nodded, both of us stilling until the dizziness sensation passed.

"Now, where were we?" I smiled brightly.

Giving me that crooked grin I loved so much I didn't resit burying my own fingers in that incredibly unruly hair of his, playing with the light red strands before I felt cool lips map the contours of my neck.

Fuck that felt good...

"I believe I was making you feel good?" Ah, cocky Edward's come out to play.

I moaned softly as I felt the light sucking on my neck, my grip in his hair tightening as I tried to control the way my hips wanted to grind against his lap. I could still remember how deliciously pleasurable it was the last time Edward had took control with me, and I would be lying if I said I didn't want more of it.

"You-you should get back to that," I moaned lightly. "Definitely…more…"

I knew I wasn't exactly making sense, but I doubted he cared in the slightest as he continued to attack my neck with kisses and love bites which had me craving more by the second.

"How-how come-" I cut off mid-moan, unable to finish my question.

Apparently, Edward was too curious as to what I was about to ask him to continue. "What is it, Love?"

I groaned in disappointment at the sudden lack of lips on my skin, though shivered when I felt light fingers gently touch my waist causing me to sigh out as the pleasurable tingles caused me to shudder lightly.

"W-What?"

He laughed huskily. "What was it you wished to ask me, Love?"

Oh,

"Oh," I slowly blinked. "H-how come you can b-be so close to m-my n-neck, but n-not t-touch me like that?"

It had always bugged me, well not bugged me exactly, but it made me curious as to how it was possible for him not to want to drink my blood and yet when it came to touching me any more than innocently, well…his control seemed to be strained constantly.

He smiled against me. "Haven't you asked me something similar before?"

I shrugged, had I?

"Hurting you is never my intention, Bella. I adore you in every way possible, however, my instincts are screaming at me to mate with you, and well, I know that neither of us are quite ready for that yet."

Oh.

Was I ready?

I knew the answer to the question before I had even asked myself it. Of course I was. While I was in no rush, I knew without a doubt that Edward would always be there for me, so that does pose the question, why not? He was the love of my life, of course I wanted to be that intimate with him.

Wait…did I say love of my life?

"I love you." I guess I did.

When he didn't say anything in return I began to shift uneasily, wondering if all of the emotions I felt truly had been in my head. It wasn't until Edward must have sensed my panic that I felt him pull my closer, his breathing uneven against my neck as he seemed to literally purr out in delight.

"I love you too, my Love. How could I not? You are everything to me, my light, my soul, my heart."

I mentally swooned, could I have caught myself a more romantic guy?

I couldn't help it, the next thing I knew I had my lips on his, moaning heavily into his mouth. I heard him grunt, from pleasure or surprise I didn't know before he was kissing me with more force than I had felt from him before.

It was glorious.

While I knew I was pushing my luck I opened my mouth, managing to keep my tongue under control for now as I gently pulled his bottom lip into my mouth, sucking gently.

"Fuck,"

Edward cursing had to be the hottest thing ever I realised. Due to him being so old fashioned in many other aspects, the fact he seemed to lose that when he was out of his mind with pleasure just seemed to make the whole thing hotter.

I felt myself grow wetter and wetter, my hips moving without my control. It seemed to be Edward's breaking point.

"Bella, Bella….I c-can't."

The shame and self-doubt in his tone brought me back to the present, my hips stopping as I pulled away only to cup his cheeks when I saw how disappointed in himself he looked.

"Hey, baby, it's not your fault" and it wasn't. I pushed his boundaries, I should have expected as much. If anyone was to blame it was me.

He shook his head. "I j-just can't-"

"I know, I know" I soothed him. "It's me, I just can't get enough of you," I tried to lighten the mood.

Thankfully, it worked. A wide smirk appearing on his features making me smile in delight.

"You need to get back to class, Love."

I shook my head in disagreement. "I don't want to."

And I didn't. If I had the choice between Edward and school, well let's just say my education would be the one to suffer.

Edward's lips curved into a smile. "You only have five minutes left of lunch, Love. I don't want you to be late."

I rolled my eyes, knowing Edward wouldn't relent even if I knew he would miss me. So with that I reluctantly allowed him to lead me towards the canteen, his hands cupping my cheeks as we stood outside as he pressed his lips softly against mine.

"I'll see you in a few hours."

I nodded, knowing those 'few hours' as he put it were going to suck.

Walking back towards my table I internally cursed when I saw the looks I was receiving, clearly having seen Edward in the shade as he kept out of the sun with enough care that he had managed to walk me back to the school like the gentleman he was.

"What?" I frowned, sitting down and trying to ignore the looks from around the table.

"Was that Edward Cullen?" Jessica gaped.

I frowned. "Do you have to say his name like that?"

"Don't change the subject! I thought he was camping with his family?"

Shit.

"Uh, yea…he missed me so headed back early."

It was almost scary how believable I sounded, even with the slight stutter. I had never been a good liar, but then again I wasn't exactly trying to lie to the smartest of people. Both Jessica and Lauren didn't even hesitate to believe the bullshit flying from my mouth as they 'awed' through narrowed eyes, giving me the impression they were more pissed than happy for me.

I was I could say I expected anything else from them.

"That's really sweet, Bella" Angela smiled as we made our way to class.

I shrugged. "I know, he's old-fashioned liked that. So, how's things going with Ben?" I quirked a brow, knowing those two had been dancing around each other long before I had arrived in Forks.

Just as I thought, Angela's cheeks reddened. It was nice not to be the one blushing on this occasion, my smile widening as she gently pushed me away in embarrassment.

"What do you-I mean…we're not-"

"I know," I grinned. "You may not be dating, but why don't you just ask? He likes you, I can tell."

Her flush deepened in its red. "Really?" she asked hopefully.

I nodded. "I may not be the best read of character-"

"You know both Lauren and Jessica are nothing but back stabbing cock hungry sluts," she cut me off.

My jaw dropped as I paused mid step, simply staring at her. Since when did shy Angela say cock and sluts in the same sentence without even stuttering?

She laughed at my reaction. "Don't make me laugh, Bella. You know if they had the chance they would be all over Edward within a blink of an eye."

I scowled, knowing she was right. "It's gross."

She nodded. "I know. I doubt they realise that all the attention their getting from boys is only because their easy. I highly doubt any of them are picturing their futures, if not a few days in advance after getting what they want."

I pinched my face up in disgust, not knowing why a girl would do such a thing to herself. It was demeaning as Edward would say, I thought.

"Have they always been like that?" I wondered out loud.

Angela nodded. "I had a boyfriend once, he doesn't go here anymore but I liked him, a lot. Turned out when he agreed to wait until I felt comfortable, it somehow translated to getting a blow job off Lauren."

"And you're still friends with her?" I gaped, because if a girl done that to me then both the bloke and her would be out of my life. I would not put up with that kind of betrayal!

She rolled her eyes. "I don't class her as a friend, I just put up with her company because, well, Forks is a small town."

I shook my head. "Thank god Edward never went near her." He had higher standards than that.

"He never paid anyone the slightest of interest until you came along," Angela pointed out.

At that I grinned. "I know."

Some women may like a man with experience, me? I love the fact that both me and Edward are on the same playing field, that everything was brand new to the both of us.

It made him even more perfect if that was possible.

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