Chapter 23: Shinji.
"NO FUCKING WAY!" Ichigo yelled in pure excitement. They were in the Kurosakis' living room, Shiro, Ichigo, Grimmjow and Ulquiorra who Shiro had invited for dinner shortly after they had gotten home from that rather terrifying fight.
Grimmjow was sure Ichigo could take care of himself but damn that feeling of pure fear and panic that cursed through him when he saw that bat, he can honestly say he would've murdered those guys. He would've done it without any regrets.
"Yeah way. He called me almost immediately after that interview. He's on his way as we speak." Shiro told an excited Ichigo with a smile of his own but Grimmjow saw something else in his weird eyes. There seemed to be some fear in there.
Ichigo was quiet for a moment. "He's going to kill you." Ichigo looked up at his brother in horror. Ulquiorra had explained the details of the interview to Grimmjow and Ichigo which resulted in both the teenagers laughing their asses off much to Ulquiorra's annoyance.
"Yeah. Understatement of the century but damn do I miss the guy." Shiro breathed out with a small chuckle escaping his lips.
Ichigo smiled as well. "Same. Life felt so weird without him hammering on about looking fabulous." Ichigo joked.
"This the same Shinji you talk about?" Ulquiorra asked looking from brother to bother. He had always wondered who this Shinji person was but he had no idea if it was his place to ask.
Both bothers looked at the two cousins and smiled slightly
"Yeah. Sorry about that. It's just that Shinji's been in our lives since forever." Shiro told Ulquiorra with a nostalgic look on his face.
Ulquiorra wanted to ask him to elaborate but Grimmjow beat him to it.
"What do you mean?"
"Well, Shinji's been Shiro's best friend since even before I was born. They're unbelievably close. Being able to know what the other was thinking before any of them even spoke. Shinji just always seemed to know when something was wrong. I remember when we were kids and Shinji just knew I was being bullied in school. He scared the crap out of those kids and they stopped bullying me for months." Ichigo said with a small smile, he had a lot of good memories that had that blonde involved.
"He was always such a mother hen when it came to my baby bro." Shiro elaborated ruffling Ichigo's messy mane affectionately making Ichigo pout slightly.
Grimmjow wasn't sure if that was all of it. The Kurosakis seemed a bit...attached to that Shinji guy. Like...really attached.
"Did any of you have sex with Shinji?" Ulquiorra, not really surprisingly considering how blunt he is, asked them making both brothers stare at him in surprise then they blushed.
"N-not me! N-no way. I mean...Okay if I'm being honest I wanted to." Ichigo answered first, nervously because Grimmjow was looking at him with that blank expression that always did worry him.
"Talk." Grimmjow demanded evenly.
Ichigo groaned as did Shiro who was trying to avoid Ulquiorra's intense and jealous eyes. The Jaegerjaquez cousins were practically oozing jealousy.
Possessive. So very possessive these men. Shiro thought looking at both strangely beautiful men.
"Well, I did date Shinji. When we were together when we were teenagers...It lasted a while." Shiro mumbled. He had no idea why he was explaining himself. Everyone had people from their pasts, hell he's sure Ulquiorra had more people in his bed than he ever did but something just made him try to explain it to Ulquiorra. For some reason, it felt different from Ulquiorra's exploits. Maybe it's because he actually loved Shinji at some point.
We've only been together for literally three days and we're already meeting exes? What's next meeting families...wait...WE HAVE! Haha. I hadn't even noticed.
"I could've guessed that much by myself Kurosaki. What I would like to know is did you...or are you still in love with him? Both of you actually?" Ulquiorra asked, not being one for sugar coating and avoiding the real questions.
Both Ichigo and Shiro seemed completely taken aback. Ichigo looked at Grimmjow and was even more surprised to see his boyfriend waiting for an answer.
Shiro gulped, knowing he could never lie to Ulquiorra.
"Yeah. I loved him. We were together for six years before he broke up with me. I...guess he wasn't it." Shiro answered honestly, his eyes looking straight into Ulquiorra's so that he could understand he wasn't lying.
Ulquiorra nodded once but didn't say anything.
"Shinji...he was my first love. It was when I was a kid and at that time I guess I saw Shinji as some kind of angel because he always knew how to make me feel better, like my mum used to, and the crush stuck till I one time I saw Shinji and Shiro kissing. I even challenged Shiro into a fight. I cried for hours but then...when I saw how happy they looked I guess I just forgot about it. Now I see Shinji and I strangely see my second big brother. Kinda gross when I think about it but yeah." Ichigo explained to Grimmjow, avoiding his gaze because Grimmjow's blue eyes were making him feel like he did something wrong.
Grimmjow then clicked his tongue in anger. He suddenly pulled Ichigo into his lap, surprising Ichigo making him yelp like a puppy, and then he pressed his head into Ichigo's chest and held him close. Ichigo smiled softly and softly stroked Grimmjow's soft, blue locks with his hand.
Grimmjow was attached. So very attached to Ichigo and he had no idea if he could let go. Ichigo made him so crazy about him from the moment they met. If Ichigo just saw Shinji and realized that Grimmjow was nothing but a replacement Grimmjow knew he'd break. He hadn't known Ichigo for that long, just about two months but fuck he had never felt the way he feels whenever Ichigo was around, no one but the orange headed spitfire had brought out these emotions, this strange happiness Grimmjow hadn't even felt before, and something told him if he lost this he'd never find it again.
It scared him shitless.
"You're mine now. We agreed on that." Grimmjow muttered into Ichigo's chest, his ears going red at how embarrassing he sounded to himself.
"Grimmjow, that was a long time ago. I won't just leave you for someone I don't even think of in that way,." Ichigo told him softly but Grimmjow just held unto him tighter. Ichigo didn't mind, Grimmjow was just too adorable when he got all clingy.
Shiro and Ulquiorra watched their brothers act all couple like, Shiro with a small but reluctant smile and Ulquiorra with a blank expression as it's the norm.
Nobody even noticed there was an extra pair of eyes silently watching the scene at the entrance of the living room. The person was enjoying the show.
"You're all I can think about y'know?" Shiro told Ulquiorra quietly, his eyes still on the two young boys. His smile turned even happier when Ichigo smiled happily at Grimmjow. Then he thought about how creepy it was to watch his brother cuddle his boyfriend and turned his attention to his own.
To his immense surprise, Ulquiorra was already looking at him. "What do you mean?" Ulquiorra asked, confused by Shiro's statement.
"You're always on my mind. Everything just reminds me of you for some weird reason. So what makes you think I'd have time to think about past lovers?" Shiro asked with humor in voice which turned into a soft laughter when Ulquiorra blushed.
"I...I don't really know what came over me. Never really...felt that before." Ulquiorra tried apologizing, his blush getting more obvious when Shiro rose an eyebrow. "Never felt jealous before?" Shiro rubbed in for all it's worth.
Ulquiorra shook his head. "No. Never had anything to be jealous about."
Shiro bent down so he was face to face to Ulquiorra who was on his couch, sitting as elegantly as always. "I have. I get jealous all the time because of how much of a popular guy you are. Ulquiorra, I wouldn't just leave you okay? You're way too special for that." Shiro said with that charming grin of his Ulquiorra fell for. Ulquiorra placed a hand on Shinji's right cheek and stroked gently.
Ulquiorra was, to be exact, head over heels for Shiro. Enamored. Attached. Under his spell. Hooked. Taken with. Whatever anyone wanted to call it. For a man that doesn't remember ever being loved, he was addicted and if Shiro, the man that started this fixation, just left, he knew he'd go through the most painful withdrawal ever experienced.
The Jaegerjaquez men felt threatened by Shinji.
"You boys leave me alone and find two sexy men. I am more than jealous." The sound of the familiar voice made both Kurosakis turn their backs with similar expressions of bewilderment.
There, casually leaning against the living room entrance, surrounded by a bunch of neon green bags and a smile similar to Nnoitra's, was a man with blonde hair styled in a bob with a black newsboy cap on his head. He had a kind of graceful beauty about him. Slender body with long legs, a wine red button up shirt with a black bow tie, a pair of black designer dress pants that showed off those long legs. He was also tall, not up to Grimmjow's or Shiro's height but taller than Ulquiorra.
"Shinji." The brothers breathed out, the surprised expression still there but the name made the Jaegerjaquez men bristle.
He's beautiful.
Shinji's grin widened, as unbelievable as that sounds.
"Hey boys!~ Missed me?"
"No! No! Seriously my favorite part was when Ichigo was talking about his adorable crush on me." Shinji teased hugging Ichigo, not caring how either of the brothers looked like they were ready to off themselves as long as it saved them from further embarrassment.
"What kind of sadistic fuck watches private moments just to have something to tease his friends later on?" Shiro growled at Shinji, his cheeks bright red.
Shinji grinned. "This sadistic fuck. Seriously I'm all ShiUlqui but I think my OTP is more Grimmichi. Grimmjow over there was just too freaking adorable! Hugging my little baby Ichi like a cute child! Gah! I need a boyfriend." Shinji wailed dramatically with an arm on his eyes, his statement making Grimmjow blush from his spot on the couch.
"Shinji...missed you too." Ichigo sighed out with a fond smile on his face.
Shinji looked back at him with a cheeky smile. "Missed you guys sooo much!~ Seriously Tokyo is soo boring without my boys there to give me a headache." Shinji wailed as he hugged both brothers, one on each arm.
Shiro and Ichigo laughed at his behavior, Ulquiorra and Grimmjow watching the way they were so familiar with each other. Their first love. They were wondering how great someone could be to get such an honor from both Kurosaki bothers.
"Now. Boys. Bags. Now." Shinji commanded pointing to the too bright luggage. The brothers groaned but did as was told. Kami knows where their body parts would end up if they complained.
There were literally nine full luggage and they wondered what could be inside. Then they remembered they belonged to Shinji. They didn't need to know.
"C'mon. You're both stronger than normal people. Get on with it, and by that I mean helping me unpack, while I get myself acquainted with your friends. Shiro we'll talk about that interview later." His last sentence was said with a dark smile that sent chills up Shiro's spine but he didn't dare disagree.
When Shinji heard the boys upstairs, arranging his things and everything, he turned to the two cousins with his smile gone. He sauntered towards them then took a seat on the coffee table facing the individual couches they were sitting on, crossed his legs and looked at the more than gorgeous men.
Damn them for snagging these two.
"Soooo...you're both jealous of me huh? Makes sense, considering I'm the amazing Shinji Hirako." Shinji asked casually, like he found the entire notion amusing.
Grimmjow scowled openly at him, openly showing his hatred but Shinji couldn't get anything out of Ulquiorra. The doll like man just stared at him.
"Hmm. You really do seem to be Shiro's type." Shinji mentioned offhandedly looking intently back at Ulquiorra, inspecting the famous man.
Ulquiorra responded with a raised eyebrow as if to ask 'Really?'
"Yeah. He always had a thing for green eyes. Kind of his kink. Well me being an exception." Shinji said, not caring that he threw that small fact in his face, relishing the flinch he got from Ulquiorra.
He wasn't kidding before about being sadistic. He needed something to pass the time.
"Maybe that's why we never worked. Wasn't his type or maybe it's cause I wasn't the one. Never could find the answer to that question." Shinji was talking to himself now. He really wished he knew the answer to that.
Ulquiorra seemed confused at this. He thought he'd hear something cliché like 'back off he's mine' but nothing like that.
"What do you want Hirako-san?" Ulquiorra asked, wanting to leave this man's presence because it hurt his chest.
"Take care of my boys okay?" Shinji suddenly said looking at the two surprised men.
"Huh?' Grimmjow asked sounding stupid.
"Ichigo loved me at some point. He was a kid so it obviously wasn't real. It was because I reminded him of his mother in some way and he was very attached to her so don't worry about him. He cares about you I can see it, hell I can see him loving you and how could he not? Look at those pretty blues?" Shinji gushed at Grimmjow making the teen blush.
"You already love him so I've got nothing to worry about on that." Shinji mentioned off-handedly laughing at the incredulous expression Grimmjow had. "Sweetheart it's obvious as hell but of course Ichigo wouldn't notice. The boy is one of the smartest people I've ever met but also the most clueless, about feelings anyways. He would never notice unless someone tells him. Just take care of him okay, he's my baby bro." Shinji told Grimmjow with a warm smile.
Grimmjow nodded.
"Cifer-san...I'll be completely straight with you, I still love Shiro." Shinji told Ulquiorra with a glare.
Ulquiorra bristled at the news. The thoughts of Shiro leaving him came back. He did say that Shinji broke up with him so it's possible he'd leave him for the blonde. This beautiful blonde that seemed more suited for Shiro's bright personality, not Ulquiorra's dull one.
"A part of me would always love him. We were each other's firsts, at almost everything. Each other's first loves. I know things about him he'd probably never tell anyone, not even you. He has a special place in my heart as I in his but Kami knows that he could never love me the way I loved him. He didn't notice, which was why he was so confused when I broke up with him, but he wasn't in love with me. He loved me yeah, I felt it but he wasn't in love. We fought so much you wouldn't believe it that it sometimes got really violent. Shiro would feel so sick with himself after those fights because you see he hates violence. It made me feel like I was the problem because here was someone that wouldn't even hit a guy that was beating him up and I made him so mad to actually want to hit me. I ended it before we hurt ourselves even more. He looks at you differently, different from the way he looked at me, I see in his eyes when he looks at you, the love I wish he could've given me." Shinji finished with a sad smile.
Ulquiorra stared at the man with slightly wide eyes. He...really wasn't expecting that.
"It actually pisses me off really. I've been with this amazing, out of this world, guy, since we could walk even, trying to make him fall in love with me. You've only known him for the better half of two months and he's head over heels for you. It really...pisses me off." Shinji couldn't hold it in, a tear escaped.
Grimmjow actually felt some kind of sympathy for Shinji. He joked around and smiled for the Kurosakis yet he was hurting himself.
"Kami help you if you break his heart. Both of you. I will gladly kill you and go to prison with a smile on my face. I swear it." Shinji swore to the two meaning each word.
The Jaegerjaquez brothers nodded, Ulquiorra still too speechless to say much.
"My boys have experienced six of the seven hells. I'll be damned if they experience number seven." Shinji warned them with the most lethal smile they had ever seen. It reminded them of when Shiro was pissed.
Ulquiorra and Grimmjow wondered not for the first time,
What had the Kurosakis been through that's so bad?
Unknown to them, had heard every word of their conversation. Shiro had tears silently falling down his cheeks, his body shaking with silent sobs, after hearing what Shinji had said, the amount of pain he had caused and how sad he had made his best friend. Ichigo was holding Shiro as he sobbed on his shoulder, also wanting to just hold his second brother, anything to comfort both of them, anything to take some of their pain away.
Shinji...
So? What do you guys think about my Shinji? He's amazing I swear!
Update for all my people! I know I said I'll only update after my exams but the chapter came to me and I needed to write it before the idea got lost!
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There was fluff then BOOM came the angst.
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