kirsty21: thanks!
animelvr23: Haha and yes one less thing. But there will still be many other things ;)
lilyflower101: Yes, Severus is a former deatheater
AN: Just a warning, this story is rated M for now on. Sorry to change the rating, but I just wanted to let you guys know before we continue with the story. I hate to spoil this chapter but there will be some sexual content.
Harry's PoV:
Harry had been so stupid. He had acted like a naive child, and had allowed himself to hope just enough to be disappointed when things didn't go his way, when the man he was in love with fell for someone else.
He went back to Severus's rooms, hoping the other man wouldn't think to look for him there. But of course he did eventually, after the tears had dried on Harry's cheeks and he sat down on the loveseat in silence, numb, and exhausted.
Severus sat beside him, in silence at first, neither man knowing what to say to the other. It was an awkward moment, stretched out over what felt like hours. Harry felt vulnerable in Severus's presence, terrified of him, for the first time since they became friends.
"You lied to me," Harry said, refusing to meet Severus's gaze. He couldn't look into those onyx eyes that he had fallen in love with. "You told me you weren't interested in Emma."
"And I'm not." Severus moved to sit closer to him, closer than usual, and Harry's heart fluttered despite everything. "After Lily, there has only ever been you. Didn't you ever wonder why I wasn't seeing anyone?"
"I just thought you hadn't found someone yet," Harry said, his heart pounding in his chest.
He looked up at Severus, and the Potions Master shook his head. "On the contrary...I couldn't bring myself to even look, not after I fell in love with you."
Harry's eyes widened at Severus's confession. "I didn't ever even consider that you might have feelings for me," Harry said. "You're my best friend, and you're much older than me. I thought you saw me as an immature, reckless child."
"You can be reckless sometimes," Severus agreed, "but maturity is quite a different thing. I have seen much of it in you, when we work together in my lab, when you come to me for advice. I saw it when I watched you grow up here, and I saw it this evening when you confessed your feelings to me."
Harry tried to swallow the lump in his throat. "You're really in love with me?" He couldn't bring himself to believe one hundred percent, for fear of being disappointed.
"I have never been more certain of anything in my life," Severus promised him. "I love you, Harry James Potter."
Harry swallowed when he realized how physically close they were. "I love you, Severus Tobias Snape." Harry's heart was pounding so fast that he could hardly breathe as Severus's thumb brushed against his jaw. Shivering, Harry leaned into his touch, wrapping his arms around Severus's neck. Their lips brushed very softly and tentatively at first, both of them still hesitant and nervous to take the next step in their relationship. Severus's lips were soft, softer than Harry had even dreamed they would be, and very gentle against his own. Their lips fit together perfectly, like pieces to a jigsaw puzzle and Harry leaned into the kiss, becoming more comfortable as the seconds passed. Severus was growing more confident as well, Harry noticed as he felt a warm, wet tongue run along his lower lip. Oh Merlin, Harry thought, I'm not ready for this. I'll make a fool of myself. Likely sensing his hesitation, Severus did it again, and Harry moaned softly and opened his mouth. He was not prepared for the feeling of his mouth being filled by Severus's tongue, slowly licking his own tongue and moving farther back into his mouth to explore. No kiss had ever felt this good, this special, and Harry slowly became undone in Severus's arms. With his eyes squeezed shut, he was much more focused on the taste of Severus's mouth, the feeling of his hands grasping Harry's hips. Harry did something he'd been longing to do for months and ran his fingers through Severus's soft, silky hair, satisfied when the Potions Master moaned into his mouth. They were completely lost in each other, in the passion and hunger that had been building up between them. Their kisses were growing more heated and Harry felt a familiar tightening in his pants. He tried to press up against Severus on the couch, and ended up awkwardly straddling his lap, his erection pressing against Severus's thigh. Flushing in embarrassment, Harry looked at Severus, and felt his eyes widen when he saw the desire and lust in Severus's gaze, burning into him like fire. It was the hottest moment of Harry's life, and after months of hiding his feelings he couldn't believe this was actually happening. It wasn't a dream - it was the most real thing he had ever experienced.
Severus pulled Harry against him, squeezing the younger man's ass with his fingers. Harry thought he was going to come right then but Severus must have seen Harry's thoughts in his expression because he said, "Oh no, you aren't coming yet." Harry gasped in surprise when Severus lifted him in his arms and carried him to the bedroom. The next thing Harry knew, he found himself resting on Severus's soft bed and warm lips sucking on his neck. The Potions Master nipped his skin and Harry knew there would be a hickey there by morning, but that was the least of his worries as Severus pulled back to look at him. "Are you sure about this, Harry?" Severus asked, doubt lingering in his eyes. Harry knew what his best friend was asking.
He smiled and pulled Severus down for a long, deep kiss that left them both breathless. "I have never been more certain of anything in my life," he said, repeating Severus's words from earlier.
That earned him one of the soft smiles that Severus saved just for him, and Harry hadn't realized what that look meant until now. What an idiot he had been.
The thought left his mind as Severus's fingers slipped up his shirt, caressing his bare skin and pinching his nipples. Harry let out a desperate whimper, and Severus chuckled darkly as he pulled the shirt over Harry's head. He bent his head to kiss Harry's neck again, and moved down to his collarbone, then his chest. Severus paid thorough attention to his nipples, pinching, licking, and sucking them until Harry was moaning loudly. Severus trailed kisses down his stomach and swirled his tongue in Harry's navel. He stopped at the waistline of Harry's trousers and looked up at the younger man for permission. "Please," Harry whined, lifting his hips.
Severus hesitated for only a moment before hooking his fingers between the waistband and Harry's bare skin, and pulled his trousers and underwear down. Harry couldn't help feeling exposed under Severus's burning gaze - this was the first time he had been naked in front of anyone, much less his best friend.
He looked at Severus, scared for a brief moment, but his worry dwindled away as Severus smiled and said, "Beautiful." Harry sighed in relief and then moaned as Severus's hand wrapped around his cock and stroked him.
Harry moaned, desperate to have Severus's mouth on his erection. "Please," he whimpered as Severus touched him until his cock was wet and throbbing. He leaned his head back against the pillows and moaned as Severus squeezed him, sweat beading on his skin. Harry knew he wouldn't last long as Severus took him in his mouth, precome dripping from the head of his cock. Severus's tongue rubbed against the head before he took Harry deeper and sucked. It wasn't long before Harry exploded, crying out Severus's name. Severus moved back up the bed to kiss him, pulling the younger man's body against his own. Harry gasped into his mouth, moaning when he felt Severus's hard length pressing into his leg. "You are wearing too many clothes," Harry said.
Severus smirked as Harry fingered the many buttons on his robes. "And what are you going to do about it, hmm?"
Wearing a matching smirk, Harry removed Severus's shirt, then reached down to pull down his trousers. Severus's cock was huge and Harry's eyes widened at the thought of it inside him. But it was something he wanted desperately. He wanted Severus, more than he'd ever wanted anything, and he put a gentle hand on Severus's throbbing erection. Severus's eyes closed and he moaned as Harry stroked him. He felt Severus hardening and was so focused on pleasuring his love that he was surprised when he felt a finger pushing against his entrance. Harry looked up at Severus in surprise, and the other man asked, "Is this alright?"
Harry nodded and reached down to guide Severus's hand. He had never experienced anything like this before. Severus pushed his finger deeper inside of Harry and added another. The younger man couldn't help the moans that escaped his lips and he completely relaxed against the pillows, closing his eyes and allowing Severus to pleasure him. When Severus's fingers pulled out of him, he said, "Accio lube," and was suddenly holding a jar of lubricant. Harry's eyes widened at the sight of Severus spreading the lubricant on himself and he lay back eagerly, submitting himself to Severus completely. He trusted him, and he wanted his first time to be with Severus. After asking Harry once more if he was sure he wanted this, Severus positioned himself in front of Harry's entrance and warned, "I will be as gentle as possible, but this will hurt." His thumb brushed against Harry's jaw. "I love you."
Harry smiled up at him. "I love you," he murmured, and kissed Severus deeply. When the kiss broke, the younger man braced himself, but still was not prepared for the pain when Severus pushed into him slowly. He grasped Severus's bare shoulders, crying out in pain. After a few moments, the pain dwindled, and Harry was able to turn his focus away from the pain as Severus pushed deeper inside him. Harry pressed up against Severus, causing both of them to moan. While it was a bit uncomfortable at first, Harry knew he would really enjoy this. His bare skin caressed Severus's as they moved together, their bodies fitting together so perfectly and naturally. Moans and whimpers soon filled the room, and Severus's fingers laced through his own. The feeling of him moving inside Harry was amazing, and Harry met each of Severus's thrusts in perfect sync.
After a while, Severus came inside him and pulled out. They lay there for a few moments panting, and Severus pulled Harry into his arms. "Merlin, that was amazing," Harry gasped, and snuggled against his lover. He had never felt happier in his life, not even when he'd first discovered the Wizarding World, not when he'd seen Hogwarts for the first time or first been on a broom. Nothing compared to this, this intimacy with someone he cared about so much and would do anything for. Harry lifted his head and kissed Severus deeply, letting it linger for several moments before pulling away to look into his eyes. "I love you," he said.
Severus's smile left Harry breathless. "And I love you," he replied, kissing Harry again and pulling the blankets over them.
Severus's PoV:
Early the next morning, Severus woke to a knock on his door. Harry was also stirring in his arms and Severus smiled when Harry opened his eyes. "Good morning."
"Morning." Harry smiled back and leaned in for a kiss. The kiss lingered and after a few long moments, another knock startled both of them. "Who's at the door?" Harry asked, pulling away from Severus's lips. The Potions Master wanted to pull Harry back to him and forget whoever was at the door this early, but he didn't.
"I have no idea." Severus pulled a robe over himself and Harry quickly pulled on his clothes as they walked out into the main room. Severus opened the door to find Albus, the usual twinkle in his eye gone. "Albus? What are you doing here? It's six in the morning."
"I'm aware, Severus, but I'm afraid I have some bad news." Albus noticed Harry and paused, looking from Severus to Harry and then back to Severus, the twinkle in his eyes returning. Severus groaned, knowing he'd never hear the end of this from Albus. "Is there something you two wish to tell me?"
Harry turned bright red and Severus felt his own cheeks burning. "Why don't you come in, Albus," he said, and made them all a cup of tea. "What is going on?"
"It's about Emma," Albus said. "I was talking to her yesterday and I noticed she was wearing this peculiar bracelet." He held it out to Severus. It was a silver bracelet shaped like a snake. "She refused to tell me, and so I gave her Veritaserum. Severus...Emma is part of a group that is attempting to finish what Voldemort started."
AN: Ah, another cliffhanger. I'm sorry guys, but I had to. I also hope you guys don't mind that I changed the rating to M. I hope you liked the new chapter and I will have more updates soon :)