Chapter 29: Deal with it.
"You're finally going to school ototo?" Grimmjow would've usually laughed if he ever heard Ulquiorra call him that but he was too edgy to laugh.
It had been a week since Ichigo had woken up and Grimmjow hadn't left his side since. Neither had Shiro though the man would still have time to go to work for at least three hours and spend some time with Ulquiorra but all in all he was there when his brother opened his eyes in the morning and was still there when he closed them at night. It made both the Jaegerjaquez siblings...uncomfortable that they seemed almost used to having one of them injured. Ichigo had convinced Grimmjow to go to school that day, at least just the one so that he could hang out with his friends and the people in school that missed him. Grimmjow had argued with him for hours about how he didn't give a shit about anyone as long as Ichigo's alright and in front of him he didn't even give a shit about himself but apparently bedridden doesn't take away Ichigo's strength because he had punched Grimmjow so hard he could still feel it as he got his uniform on. The orange head had said something about education being important and he shouldn't treat his friends like they're expendable. Grimmjow would've continued arguing but then Ichigo had shut him up with a gentle kiss that made his hairs stand on end and everything seemed so perfect. He couldn't say no after that so there he was, getting ready for school in his own house with Ulquiorra and his father hovering at the door with secret looks of amusement.
That's another thing. His dad. The man had stayed with them for a week and it was surprising enough he hadn't left after two days, an even more surprising thing being he planned to stay at home for two months. He hadn't met Ichigo yet but he had heard enough stories from Shiro that he had officially dubbed the teenager too good for Grimmjow. Father of the year.
"...He told me to." Grimmjow muttered pathetically but he knew it was true. Ichigo had him wrapped around his little finger.
Chlodwig snorted in response just when Grimmjow walked past them, heading for the stairs. "I take it that's why you are so angry?" Ulquiorra asked as they followed Grimmjow down the stairs. Grimmjow growled in irritation as he put on his school shoes at the doorway.
"No. I can't see him till after school because he suspects that I would just stay there." Grimmjow grumbled, accepting the bag of food Shawlong was holding out for him with a nod of thanks.
Chlodwig actually laughed at that. "I never thought I would see the day that my son would get whipped." Grimmjow sent his old man a harsh glare which just made Chlodwig grin wider, showing his own set of sharp canines.
Grimmjow dropped his glare and looked at the ground with a small smile as Shawlong opened the door for him. His eyes showed how much the whole accident was affecting him, if the small panic attacks weren't even more of a hint, but his smile was genuinely soft and his parting words made Chlodwig freeze for a while and Ulquiorra to smile secretly.
"Can't help it old man. I love the guy."
I can't do this.
They were everywhere, all of them yelling well at least it sounded like yelling to him, but he could still hear all their words. Every single one of them making him lose the ability to breathe. He was just headed for his locker during lunch to get his food when he was suddenly attacked by hordes of people.
'Grimmjow! What was it like? Y'know seeing all that blood?'
'Are his brains like all over the place?!'
'I saw the whole thing after they had taken him away! Brutal.'
'How is Ichigo-kun?! Is he okay?! You disappeared on us before anyone could ask?!'
'Serves him right. The queer should've just died.' Grimmjow remembered beating that guy nearly to death later on.
'I am sorry you had to see that Jaegerjaquez-san. There was so much blood. All of it...how horrible. We all thought he was dead or at least dying'
Yes. Blood. Dying. Ichigo is dying.
Grimmjow could remember it. He could practically see it happening over and over again in front of him. The sounds of bones breaking when that car collided with Ichigo. The smell of Ichigo's blood mixing in with the air ad hitting Grimmjow's senses. He could remember feeling hopelessness, fear, pain and terror. Like a cornered animal that couldn't defend itself. He couldn't see the students around him anymore, at least not as students but as the people trying to keep him from protecting the person he cares about above all, from saving Ichigo.
And like a cornered animal, he lashed out.
Faster than any of them could even hope to predict, Grimmjow's arm shot into the crowd and grabbed a boy that had said something horrid about Ichigo's accident by the throat, lifting him up and not even hearing the screams that came from some of the girls' lips as they ran away.
"...OW! GRIMMJOW! LET GO OF HIM! HE CAN'T BREATHE!" It took him a while to realize that the voice shouting at him belonged to Renji. Suddenly, Grimmjow couldn't see some enemy trying to harm his love but a student being choked to death by a hand that belonged to Grimmjow. Grimmjow's expression of mad killer turned into one of bland indifference before he let go, the already unconscious boy taking a huge gulp of air and started choking on the ground. He looked up at Grimmjow in fear then ran away when Grimmjow looked down at him with those deadly eyes. Renji had gone around the school looking for his best friend. They had all agreed to keep him away from the students because they had all seen Grimmjow's panic attacks and they felt like the people's insensitive curiosity would trigger one but Grimmjow had disappeared on them and they were right about him having a panic attack, though he was glad he was able to snap him out of it before anything else happened.
Renji sighed in relief and was about to ask Grimmjow what was wrong when their homeroom teacher, Ochi-sensei, came at Grimmjow looking furious.
"Jaegerjaquez-san! I saw that! I understand you have been going through a difficult situation so I am giving you a minute to explain yourself." She growled with her arms folded, her glare intensifying because her student hadn't even turned to acknowledge her. She knew none of the teachers would dare to purposefully anger the well connected man but still. He nearly choked a student to death for Kami sake.
"Grimmjo-" Renji stopped whatever it was he was going to say because Grimmjow was shaking, horribly and he noticed that his best friend was starting to take big gulps of air. He was still having a panic attack.
"Sensei I'm sorry but we've got to go to the hospital. He's having a panic attack." Renji said firmly but discreetly because he didn't want anyone to know. Grimmjow had more pride than most people.
She widened her eyes but nodded quickly.
"...Ichigo...Take me to Ichigo." Grimmjow whispered almost too low to hear but Renji heard him.
"I will. C'mon." Renji promised him softly before dragging him to his jeep and driving towards the hospital
His heart felt like it was being ripped out of him every time he sent a glance Grimmjow's way. The strong and powerful leader he knew was shaking and breathing harshly in the front seat, his hands balled into fists that looked like were drawing blood and his eyes wide in fear. He knew it wasn't neither he nor Shuuhei's fault, the drunk bitch being to blame, but his mind couldn't help but think about the what ifs. What if he or his boyfriend had seen the car on time? What if Renji had been fast enough? What if it was him that got hit? That last one made him feel ungrateful because Ichigo had risked his life to keep his going and Shuuhei would've been devastated, probably more so than Grimmjow, if it happened to him.
They don't deserve this. They don't deserve this kind of pain. Kami I hope that bitch from hell dies a horrible and torturous death.
Grimmjow felt like he was dying. He didn't understand anything else but that. That and he would feel better if he was with Ichigo. He could feel a ringing in his ear, he could feel his body vibrate at a fast speed. He was sweating badly and he felt like everything was closing up on him. He needed Ichigo. Ichigo would stop this, he's smart. He fixes everything.
An image of the car hitting Ichigo flashed in Grimmjow's mind and his breathing quickened. He was going to die. He was going to die.
I'm gonna die. I'm gonna die. I'm gonna die.
The car stopped but Grimmjow could barely sense anything else but the fast beating of his heart and the ringing in his ears.
"Grimmjow! Grimmjow listen to me." Renji spoke to him as calm and gentle as possible. Sometimes, Grimmjow got rather violent during his episodes so he wanted to make sure he didn't need a metal jaw in the future.
Grimmjow heard him, he used that to try getting past the loud ringing noise, no matter how faint Renji's voice seemed to be. He looked at Renji but then he noticed the building behind his best friend and he couldn't hear anything again but his footsteps as he ran into the hospital. He ignored the yells for his name, doctors that were trying to get to him because Renji had informed them about his attacks on the way, he didn't care because he can see him. He can see Ichigo, alive and there for him. Always there for me because Ichigo didn't leave me. HE DIDN'T!
He slammed Ichigo's room door open, ignoring every single other person in the room, and he let his eyes land on the shocked figure on the bed.
He ran across the room and pulled Ichigo close, unnoticed tears falling from his eyes as he took deep breaths against Ichigo's neck, finally able to breathe again. He was practically straddling Ichigo who had wrapped his arms around Grimmjow, comforting him with sweet words and small kisses even though he had no idea what was going on. Grimmjow sighed in happiness but then the tears wouldn't stop and they turned into small heart-rending sobs that made Ichigo want to hold his usually brute of a boyfriend forever.
"What happened Grimm?" Ichigo whispered softly into Grimmjow's hair, not giving a damn about his stitches hurting because Grimmjow was crying again. The man he loved, always so strong, stubborn and oozing with confidence, was crying again and it was making Ichigo feel so small and useless.
"...Don't die okay? I...I can't have you lea-leaving me." Grimmjow words were broken but everyone in the room heard it, everyone being Shiro, Ulquiorra, Hal, Stark and Momo. Renji burst into the room with a Ryuuken who looked more than a little pissed but after catching a glimpse of the shivering blue head he changed his expression into one of irritation.
Ichigo looked from everyone's faces of confusion and worry then down at Grimmjow who had stopped shaking but was holding unto Ichigo tightly before looking back up, eyes practically begging.
"Could you all please leave?" Ichigo's words sounded rude and didn't really work well with his expression but they did as he asked, obviously sensing that the young couple needed time alone to talk.
When the door closed, Ichigo started running a hand through Grimmjow's hair and started humming some song he couldn't remember the name of or the words but the melody always calmed him down.
Grimmjow listened to his love's lovely voice and calmed down bit by bit.
Ichigo stopped humming and they were quiet for a while before the orange head spoke up. "Are you going to tell me what happened?" H e definitely sounded like he wasn't asking.
Grimmjow smiled at that, finding it amusing that his boyfriend's as bossy as ever, but still told him what happened. Somewhere during the explanation, Grimmjow was spooning Ichigo in the Queen sized hospital bed, Ichigo choosing to be the little spoon because he liked hearing Grimmjow's heart beat. Ichigo listened attentively as he rubbed calming circles on Grimmjow's chest.
"...You had a panic attack." Ichigo stated softly. Grimmjow sighed with his eyes closed feeling too comfortable with his position at that moment but at the same time hating himself for being so unbelievably weak.
"Yeah...They just wouldn't stop with the questions and it brought up memories...Fuck I kept seeing you get hit with the car over and over again and I thought I was going completely crazy." Grimmjow mumbled as he pressed his nose to Ichigo's hair, well what's left of it. It looked more like a side fohawk or something similar with the way it was shaved. Yeah it made his boyfriend look like a badass but Ichigo didn't seem to like it.
Ichigo looked up at Grimmjow with an expression that was an odd mix of worry, confusion and amusement. "You care about me that much?" He teased, obviously trying to lighten the mood, but Grimmjow could tell that the question was valid and he really wanted an answer.
Grimmjow caressed one of Ichigo's cheeks, the right one without the bandage, with his knuckles as gingerly as possible, his lips up in a smile that seemed to be filled with as much love that Grimmjow could give and his eyes sparked with something Ichigo couldn't identify.
"Care about you? Berry, try completely in love with you." Grimmjow whispered gently, his smiled getting wider when Ichigo looked at him with those amber eyes shining with that intense passion that made Grimmjow want to do whatever he told him to, his lips went up with a brilliant smile that showed all his teeth and he even let out a breath of a laugh.
"What a time to tell me watakashi." Ichigo teased making Grimmjow pout jokingly at being called cotton candy but he shrugged as a response to Ichigo's statement.
"I'm not exactly the most romantic guy out there Berry. I told you I love you in a hospital where you're healing from a horrible car accident just after I had a panic attack that nearly made me black out from the inability to breathe. One; be happy you'd never forget this moment, Two; Be happy I didn't say it if and or or when we find a dead body somewhere because knowing our luck it's bound to happen and Three; Be happy I am not hammering on you to say it next." Grimmjow listed off cheekily but made a noise of surprise when he felt soft and warm lips on his own. He kissed Ichigo back, a simple kiss without tongue or a need to bring out lust though it still did a little of that to Grimmjow but it was a kiss to show Grimmjow how Ichigo felt. Grimmjow understood because he was smiling happily through the kiss but it didn't stop Ichigo from voicing them out after he pulled away.
"I am in love with you Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez. Deal with it."
Yo! So this is just like the first part of a whole chapter but I had to stop because it went on longer than expected. The next part would come up later. Hint; We finally meet Grimmjow's mum and another hint for the chapter after that. Sexy times.
It's actually almost over. Like four to five or six more chapters to go. Wow. Seems so surreal. Thanks to everyone that has been with me since the beginning of the story to the end. Means the universe to me.
I have a new one coming up though and it's a cliche but I live for those so don't read if you don't like. Hint; Daddy Grimmjow and Caretaker Ichigo. Shiro would be in it because Sasuke and Itachi made my obsession for brothers with brother complexes come to life. As well as Sam and Dean though they keep forgetting about Adam though I think he's dead but whatever.
Anyways please review and tell me what you think. Gotta go cause the drugs are kicking in and I'm exhausted. Bed neighbor says 'YOU ARE ALL SO AMAZING AND I LIKE BUTTS.' Not kidding. Her words exactly.
Ciao from,
Grimmjowislife.
P.S; Anyone know how to describe a male strip show? I can't seem to get it right.