Emison confess their feelings. Set 6B-
As Emily drove from the airport back to Rosewood after four long years she couldn't shake the anxiety filled her every vein. Four long years since she had left her childhood home and everything that came with it. The only thing she had allowed to stay with her was the friendship with the very four women she was going to meet. She had managed to stay in contact with Hanna, Aria and Spencer easily, having spent years tortured together they had almost become a part of the very skin that covered her bones. However, there was one woman that she had pushed away in an effort to move on. The blonde haired beauty with ocean blue eyes that exposed her very soul and yet were so unreadable that made Emily hooked to her like a drug. She had spent more time thinking about Alison over the years than she had trying to move on. At times it drove her to the point of 3 am walks because she just couldn't shake her. Emily can not recall a time she didn't love Alison, and even now she feared she still did and that she would fall apart the moment that brown met cerulean blue. A few months into college Alison had diffused out of conversations between the girls, at first Emily had believed that it was too painful to talk about her without bringing up the torment of her sister and the years they had endured the torture; however I think it was more for Emily's benefit. The other girls had heard about Emily's troubled love life with a queue full of flings and affairs. Emily wondered if they too had sussed out that Emily was never truly over Alison. As Emily thought about her past in rosewood and everything that she had left behind running she began to panic as she saw the old 'Welcome to Rosewood' sign post. She could feel all her muscles tense up as her surroundings were all too familiar. This visit was an arranged meet up before thanksgiving holiday. Emily's parents had moved permanently to Texas meaning she was staying at the Marin household for the short week stopover before leaving for Texas. It had been nearly a year and a half since she saw any of the girls, and a full four years since seeing Alison. Her mind kept going back to the blonde no matter what she focused on, then in no time she found her taxi outside the Marin front yard. She paid the driver and pulled out her suitcase just as she was jumped on by her favourite blonde friend and Aria. As she hugged the two girls in return she watched as Spencer await patiently for her own hug. She literally had to peel off Hanna before she could even move to embrace Spencer. After being bombarded with a million different questions from the 3 women she just soaked in the atmosphere before saying, "God I missed you guys." She was not expecting to feel so relaxed and at home once she had settled in, especially considering her near one panic attack in the taxi. The four girls spoke as if not a single day had gone by, as if they were still the same teenagers arguing about 'what Hanna meant'. Even though they had changed their connection had not. They conversed for so long they had not noticed how dark it had gotten outside. Emily had found out that Spencer as predicted had been excelling at college along with Aria. Aria had even had a book published as well as moving towards opening her own gallery. Even Hanna had gotten her act together and had been promoted from intern to full time member for a fashion brand. Emily was almost embarrassed to say that she was kind of just floating though college without making any concise decisions. She hardly added much to the conversation simply enjoying rediscovering her best friends. She did however become a little more invested when they very name that still made her heart race was mentioned. "Anyone heard from Ali yet?" Aria had asked looking at me. "We're not really in touch anymore," I answered meekly. "Oh really, I didn't know, I just assumed since you two were…" She trailed off looking for help from the other. "Since you two were in love and had like a secret relationship for like the whole of highschool," Hanna blurted out before earning a hit from Spencer next to her on the couch. "What did I say something that wasn't true?" She said annoyed at Spencer. The brunette ignored her and responded to Aria instead, "she couldn't make it today she was out of town with Jason visiting…" For a second the atmosphere in the room became tense and uncomfortable. The girls all looking at each other with horror playing behind their eyes. "Cece." Aria finished Spencer's sentence. "Last time we spoke she said Cece- Charlotte was living in Cape May with their grandmother." Aria elaborated. "Yeah that was a couple months ago now, she says that psych doctor actually helped her compared to Radley." Spencer said with a hint of sarcasm in her voice. "What that doctor Rollins?" Hanna asked. "The same doctor Rollins she's dating?" Aria added realising too late her mistake. Emily tried to play it off, even though jealousy was now seeping it's way through her. It hurt to think that Alison had moved on, hurt to think that things were working out for her when Emily's life was so unorganised and out of control. "Who's doctor Rollins?" She asked attempting to keep the bitterness out her voice. "Don't you remember that young doctor that treated Mona at Radley?" Emily nodded as she vaguely recalled the fairly handsome young doctor. She tuned out as the subject topic shifted on to Mona. About 5 minutes later the doorbell rang and instanteously everyone's guard went up, I guess this was the lifelong side effects of the 'A' game. "Hanna were you expecting someone this late?" Aria asked. "No it's like 11pm," Hanna called out as she left to go answer the door. "Should we go with her?" I asked slightly alarmed. But before I could get up Hanna had walked in squealing. "Look who I found!" She said virtually pushing the girl into the room. Emily breath was taken away, her heart sped up. She thought she probably looked a fool just gawping at the woman, but she didn't really know what to do with herself. To think Alison had been the most gorgeous girl Emily had ever seen as a girl, now however she was beyond words. She still looked young but there was a certain maturity in her features, he long now golden tresses still not a hair out of place. She had filled up a bit with curves in all the right places that had Emily's mind spinning. She just couldn't look away as she stared at her. Their eyes connected and Emily once again felt like that young girl still hopelessly in love with her best friend. Their eye contact was broken as Ali hugged each of the other three girls. For the first time in a long time Emily felt awkward, didn't know what to do with herself. She stood and walked towards the blonde going for an embrace only to be met with a slap in the face. All the girls gasped and looked around not really knowing how to diffuse the tension. "Ali?" I said voice wavering as I held my cheek. "I'm sorry I just-" she began. "I just got caught up in-" she stuttered. "Are we missing something?" Hanna asked looking between the two ex lovers. "Maybe they need a minute alone?" Spencer stated more than asked. "Yeah we should probably go get some alcoholic beverages." Aria added ushering Hanna out the room. The blonde began to protest but left anyway. The two women looked each other up and down with a variety of emotions playing across both their faces. Emily watched as Alison finally settled on relief as she pulled Emily in for a hug. At first she was surprised but easily settled into it as the blondes familiar scent encircled her. She hated herself for falling so easily into old ways, hated that the arms that circled her midsection felt like home. She felt the most at peace in a long time on the few moments that she was in Alison's arms. "Can I ask what was that for?" Emily mumbled with her face still buried in the blondes hair. Alison pulled away and examined the brunette a face and tenderly trailed her fingers along Emily's cheek. "I'm sorry em, I had no right," she said dropping her arms and taking a step back. Emily missed the warm heat of Alison's skin on her own and she cursed herself for even thinking about it. "That's not an answer," Emily said raising her eyebrows questioningly. "When I saw you I was just so angry that it had been so long since I'd heard from you. I got caught up thinking about how you pushed me away so coldly after you left…and I literally just snapped." She explained her face masked with a serious expression yet unreadable emotion. "Wow, you're actually being straight up about our feelings. I guess Doctor Rollins really is a miracle worker," I responded sarcastically. Emily was surprised at her own coldness and at the fact her jealousy too had made her snap the moment she saw Alison. Her eyes dropped to something shiny on the blondes finger. Her heart plummeted to the ground as her mind out two and two together. It felt like a physical blow and she didn't know how to process it. She wanted to be calm and react like a sane normal person but just like Alison her emotions regarding the blonde got the better of her. You would think after so many years things between them would have had time to simmer down but it seemed that things had only become more heated to the point of boiling the lid off once in sight of one another. "You have no right to judge me-" Alison began as she too looked down to what Emily was intently stating at on her hand. Emily raised her voice at the blonde," whatever Alison, I don't care." Poison seeped into her voice. She new she could stay here, the room felt like it was closing in on her and she headed for the door hastily. A hand landed on her wrist causing her to stop momentarily, "you don't get to run from this too," Alison said staring up into her chocolate brown orbs. Emily's eyes had already filled with tears at this point. She couldn't face to look at the beauty any longer it almost burnt her eyes like looking Ito the sun. She snatched her arm away and barged past the blonde and out the house, not waiting to listen to the protest of her other friends following her out the house. Once outside she realised she didn't have a car to escape with so she took to hurriedly walking aimlessly.
She had walked for nearly an hour when she realised where she was. She sat on the same kissing rock that Alison had bought her to so many years ago. The same rock she had had her first kiss, her first kiss with Alison too. That day had been so bizarre, with Alison having spent all day at her very meanest only like to later on escape with Emily and show nothing but pure tenderness and sweetness. She remembers feeling so elated for days, she wasn't sure she was ever going to recover from her time at the kissing rock. It had become a sacred place for her where she would come to think and feel at peace. But now she was so angry with everything. She was angry with herself for allowing herself to still cling so desperately and shamelessly to everything she shared with Alison. She was furious with Alison for still having this hold on her. She was angry because even now she couldn't still fully decipher what she was feeling towards the blonde and where she stood with her. She knows it was her fault the relationship disintegrated. She was the one who had stopped responding to Alison's emails and texts suddenly, the one who had rejected all the blondes calls, the one who had changed her number without letting the other woman know. Yet here she was truly livid because the blonde had taken the hint and decided to move on. However, she knows that they had grown apart much earlier than that. The dollhouse had been the straw that had broken the camels back and Cece being Alison's pyscho sister who had tortured Emily and her friends had been the knife that had finally killed the camel. There had been much left unsaid, so much lies, betrayal, lack of trust, guilt and blame between the two and they had yet to be an actual couple. Emily didn't see anything salvageable but she still felt absolutely everything for the blonde.
Hours later Emily returned back to the Marin household to find the other girls all asleep in the living room. She had smiled to herself watching the girls look at ease in their sleep for the first time in years. She even smiled as she watched Alison breath in and out. She looked so very young again and also beautiful. She had really forgotten how much Alison's beauty affected her. She couldn't help but to walk over to the couch Ali lay on covered with a blanket. She sat down on the floor next to her face and gently moved the few strands of hair that splayed across the blondes face. Emily wasn't all that surprised when she met blue eyes as her lids opened lazily. "I'm sorry," she whispered. A smile tugged at Emily's lips as the blondes eyes closed heavily. "We seem to be saying that a lot today," Alison replied opening hers once more. "Hmm" was all Emily said before she found her hand brushing at Ali's face once more. Alison was unable to really hold Emily's eye contact as sleep kept calling her. Emily thought she would fall asleep soon, yet she managed to get up and make room on the sofa. The blonde yawn as she lifted the blanket indicating Emily to move in. She thought about protesting but was not in the mood to argue again today. She slipped in to be spooned Alison on the lay down sofa. Ali's arms found their way around Emily's middle and Emily didn't push her away and instead intertwine their fingers. She felt Alison's chin at her shoulder and sighed content with having Alison's scent and arms around her. Just being surrounded by everything Alison made her feel better even if it was only for tonight. She was shocked to hear Alison suddenly whisper into her ear. "Are our initials still on it?" Ali asked curiosity clear in her voice. Of course she would have known exactly where Emily would have run to. Emily felt the need to turn around and face Alison. She found herself staring into the cerulean blue eyes. Eyes that seem to move in waves just like the ocean. She'd forgotten what it was like to be so intimately close to Alison her breathe caught. She forgot just how overwhelming it was to only be able to see Ali and nothing else. She tried hopelessly to not look at the plump heart shaped lips opposite her. She knew she was weak when it came to the blonde. She had almost forgotten the reason she had turned around, to answer her question. "It's still there," Emily replied earning a small smile from Ali. She watched Ali who she could tell was also not trying to look at the brunette's lips. Then, it was just like that night in Alison's bedroom; Alison's same genuine vulnerability in her eyes and Emily's weakness for her. Their lips met somewhere in the middle, their eyes shut and it wasn't obvious who kissed who just that they were now kissing. This kiss however was different from before. Where the earlier had been shy and almost hesitant touches of the lips; this one was hard and passionate. It was fire and a battle between the two filled with more emotion than ever before. Their tongues now battled for dominance once Emily had taken Alison's bottom lip between her lips. There was accusation, longing, anger and love pushed into the kiss by both sides. Emily quickly found herself breathless, amazed by how Alison's kisses still made her yearn for more. There were no lips softer than Ali's, no tongue sweeter and no kiss as magical as hers. They were both quickly pulled out of the moment as they noticed Hanna shifting in her sleep on the sofa next to theirs. Then unlike before Emily turned around leaving Alison more bewildered than ever.
The next day went by quickly. The blonde and Spencer had left by the time Emily had awoken. All five women had later met up for lunch and hung out in Spencer's barn later on. There had been no talk of what had transpired between the Emily and Alison during the day. Emily could feel that Alison was a lot more distant towards her however, never directly speaking to her unless necessary.
The day after all of them had once again hung out and even met up with Mona. It turns out that like Alison, Mona too was engaged and not surprisingly to Mike. Emily had to keep her eyes from rolling every five minutes as they all had gushed about Alison and Mona's love lives. On the fourth day the women had done separate things and decided to meet up for one last sleepover before they would eventually begin to go their separate ways once again; with Spencer and Aria returning to their new lives within the upcoming couple of days. Emily had arrived later to the sleepover after visiting Toby alone, since him and Spencer were no longer together. The girls especially Hanna had already started drinking. She was greeted with a slightly tipsy Hanna and giggling Spencer and Aria. Alison had waved at her from her position laying on the floor. "God you guys are still like a group of teenagers." Emily said taking the only empty spot on the floor opposite Alison. Emily drank a little to catch up with the other girls being careful not to get drunk, considering she was still a relatively emotional drunk. A small while later Hanna suggested they play drinking game which she forced everyone into. After a failed 'Never have I ever' they settled on 'Truth, dare, drink'. The girls were almost drunk at this point because Aria had already been dared and succeeded into a steamy prank call. It was Emily's turn now, with Hanna asking the question. Emily held her breath in anticipation because drunk Hanna had a way of stirring trouble. "Truth or dare Em?" She asked with a wicked grin across her face. Their eyes met momentarily as a silent conversation went on between the two. Emily considered it knowing either one could be cataclysmic. She responded, "dare." Hanna smirked as she blurted out her pre-prepared question," I dare you to kiss the hottest girl here." Aria and Spencer shared a look as Spencer tried to intervene,"Hanna leave Em and Ali alone, don't make things awkward." Aria went to scald the other blonde too before she was cut off by Hanna, "why its just a kiss, it's not something they haven't done before…" a smile played across her face, as if she was please with herself. "Hanna," Alison warned in a dangerous tone. "Haven't done before recently," the blonde finished off her sentence. Aria and Spencer looked between the two girls shocked, awaiting confirmation or denial. "You still haven't done your dare Emily," said Hanna still grinning. What happened next surprised them all, Emily turned to Hanna and grabbed her face pulling her into a close mouthed kiss. Hanna surprisingly reciprocated and after about ten seconds Emily pulled away. "If you'd wanted a kiss Hanna all you had to do was ask," Emily said pleased with herself. Hanna sat there with her mouth open not knowing how to react causing them to burst out laughing. Except there was one person who wasn't fully laughing, there was a set of blues eyes Emily could feel staring daggers at her. She could see that Alison was perhaps hurt or even jealous but it quickly flashed away leaving that long perfected unreadable expression. The game continued with Spencer having a much nicer dare for Aria. It was now Alison's truth with Aria asking, the blonde knew that the small brunette would take pity on her and no doubt ask a sweet question. "Who was the first person you were in love with and the first person who fell in love with you?" The question was intended to be harmless but something had Emily alert and apprehensive about Alison's response. No one really knew what answer to expect. Except Emily who assumed her answers would be, perhaps Ian and herself. It was silent as everyone waited for her answer. "The first person I loved was Emily," she spoke confidently looking straight at her brown haired ex lover. This raised a few eyebrows in the room including Emily's. "The first person who really loved me I think was…Lorenzo." Alison finally stated no longer looking at Emily but Spencer. A collective breath was taken at the bomb. "Ohhhh shit." Hanna said looking between Alison and Emily. Aria and Spencer didn't know where to look and suddenly their drinks had become so very interesting. Emily looked at Alison thinking over what she said, her pain clear on her face. "Lorenzo?"Emily questioned incredulously. Alison looked up to meet her eyes. "What so you're saying I never loved you?" Emily asked pain evident in her voice. "I never said that," the blonde responded calmly. She couldn't look at Emily especially when she looked at her with wide eyes and every emotion worn on her face. "Exactly what are you saying then?" Her brows frowning. "I never said you didn't love me. I just don't think you were in love with me-" she began before being cut off, "how would you know if I was in love with you or not?" Emily's voice was beginning to raise. "You didn't really know me when you thought you were in love with me. No one did back then. You could see the nasty, ugly parts of me; your crush on me clouded you to the monster I honestly was. How could you love someone like that? Someone you didn't trust as far as you could throw?" Emily sat up straight to address Ali. "I saw you for exactly who you were Alison, and maybe I chose to focus on the good and sweet girl I only saw glimpses of, but ultimately I knew exactly who you were. My 'crush', as you so dismissively put it, did not affect my judgement on you. You're mistaking two completely different things here, because you seen I was in love with which is why I accepted you for everything you were." Emily spoke passionately with tears stinging her eyes. Alison was silent for a moment before replying, "well for someone who was supposedly in love with me you have a funny way of showing it." Her voice was laced with accusation. Emily barely registered Aria saying, "I think this is our cue to go for a walk," and the women leaving before she replied with same fervour as the blonde. "I could say the same about you." At this point they were face to face wearing a rage of different emotions with every second that went by, but what was clear was that it wasn't over between these two. "Really?! Because for as long as I can remember it is me that's been pushing and pushing for you to see me, for you to love me," Alison began shouting before her voice towards the end. Emily had never seen the blonde so unabashedly honest and it knocked her off kilter, disoriented her even. " I know I was no angel but; I was the one who saved you from 'A' more than once, I was the one who got you out of the dollhouse, I was the one that forgave you for putting me in jail, I was the one begging for your attention since you left but I was also the one you pushed away for that crazy bitch Sara, for college but now I don't know why you're still pushing me away." She no longer raised her voice. Tears had already fallen from the blondes eyes. Exhaustion was already evident in her voice and it set the atmosphere of the room. Emily knew what Alison was saying was true but she also knew that there is always two sides to every story. "You were also the one the let me believed I had a chance with you, the one who let me believe you were dead. You left me confused and alone in the dark trying to find myself and you at the same time. You forget how hard I fought for you against everything and everyone that didn't believe in you when you came back. I pushed for you to love me too for so long…" Alison was staring intently at Emily, her eyes surrendering to Emily's every word. She had hope that this may finally be the time they get to move forward. "I know what it's like to be in love with you Alison, whether you believe it or not. It's the greatest and worst thing in the world because you feel untouchable, invincible even but we always end up stuck in the mud."
Emily explained taking Alison's hand in her own. It was no longer clear whether this was an argument or long awaited declarations of love. "So you gave up on me?" Alison questioned hurt lacing her voice. "You speak of how I push you away yet your the one with the engagement ring." Alison stared down at her ring for a long time. "I couldn't wait forever Em…" She said very distantly. "That doesn't mean I've given up, I'm still rooting for us." She admitted wiping away the tears that had fallen down Emily's cheek. "God what do you want from me Ali?!" Emily shouted getting frustrated again. She let go of Ali, suddenly finding it suffocating being smothered with so much honesty. She lashed out a few times at the wall behind her, not caring about hurting her hand. "I want you Emily, I always have." She whispered reaching to place her hand on the back of Emily's shoulder. Emily breathed out heavily as she placed her forehead against the wall. "I want you too Ali…" Emily's responded resigned. "…but I'm not the person to come here and talk you out of your wedding. If you were expecting me to tell you how much I love you and how being with Rollins will be a mistake I won't do that-" she said as she turned back around to face the shattered blonde. "You wouldn't have to beg me. Just say the words and I'd leave it all behind for you." Alison pleaded. Desperation was seeping into her voice. "If I've learnt anything about love it's that love is not always enough. I wouldn't want you to walk away from the life you've built for yourself. I'm proud of you I truly am. I see how well you're doing even though I've come and shaken things up. Rollins makes you happy-" Emily continued to explain. "Don't deny it either, I know what you told Spencer and it's okay to move on Ali. All I've ever wanted was for you to be happy…even if that's without me." Tears had long been running down both their faces but Alison wiped hers away angrily as she grabbed Emily's shoulders and shook her in anger,"God damn it Emily when will you stop looking out for everyone else and take something for yourself!" Her sudden change shocked both the women in the room. "I couldn't make you happy," Emily uttered honestly. Alison scrunched up her eyebrows. "You don't know that." She stated pulling Emily's chin to make her face her. "The truth is…I don't think I could handle it if it didn't work. It would kill me, I mean I feel so strongly for you and we haven't even been in a relationship…it would break me." Her honesty was met with a quiet gasp from the blue eyed beauty. Emily wasn't surprised when Alison kissed her. This was Alison's last desperate attempt. She grabbed at Emily's hair pulling her impossibly closer. Their lips never parting as Emily turns them around to push Alison into the wall. Their movements were frenzied as hands roamed everywhere, tugging at clothes and snaking up bare backs. The air was electric and the two were close to setting alight. As Alison tried to lift her own shirt but Emily intwined there finds before stepping back. Her forehead lay to rest on the blondes as they stare at each other, breathing fast and heavy. "I love you Ali." She finally whispered. Alison's face couldn't help but light up as she heard the words she had been waiting so long to hear. "And I love you." Alison replied eyes twinkling. She didn't try and stop the brunette as she picked up her bags and walked out the room. Alison quietly watched on in hope.
-End-
I left the ending pretty open so people can decide how they want it to end. Personally I like the mystery of not knowing what Emily does next. Sorry it was superrrrr long but sometimes you get carried away. I still trying to improve so literally inbox me me with suggestions and questions about the prompts/fanfic.