Chapter 51
Lola watched bewildered, as Mary hurried outside and decided to went after her. She found her near the stables, where she was running, restlessly, back and forth.
"What happened?" Lola asked concerned. She put her hand on Mary's shoulder, to force her to stand still.
Mary stopped pacing and took a deep breath. "This wedding is like a curse! It brings back so much old memories!" she gasped out. "I wished I had never agreed, that Bash and Kenna get married in the Castle!"
Confused, Lola frowned. "But it was your idea!" she reminded. "You almost begged them to marry in the Castle."
"Don't remind me! I know what I said. But it was a bad idea, in hindsight." Mary smoothed her cream-coloured chiffon gown. "Almost, I would have done something unforgivable." she confided to Lola.
"And what exactly?"
Mary took a deep breath again. "You know, that I always get emotional at weddings. But this time was different..."
"Mary!"
"Be patient! I'll tell you. But you have to promise me first, that you won't tell a soul about our little talk!" Mary put on a serious face. "Especially not a word to Kenna!"
Lola looked at her, wide-eyed. "So, this is about Kenna?" she asked, curiously.
Mary shook her head. "Not exactly. But close." She started pacing again. "Bash was on the dance floor alone and I asked him, if he wanted to dance with me. He agreed immediately, but I could tell from his behaviour, that he was concerned about Kenna's reaction to my proposition."
Lola nodded. "Understandable, it is not appropriate behaviour to dance with another woman on your wedding day."
"And while we were dancing together", Mary continued without responding to Lola's interjection, "all of a sudden, the thought came into my mind, how close we were once."
"Oh no!" Lola gasped out. "I have a bad feeling about this."
Mary nodded. "I don't know, what came over me, but suddenly, I had the desire to kiss him."
"You kissed him?" Lola asked shocked. "Right on the dance floor, where all wedding guests could see you?!"
"No, no, don't worry!" Mary reassured her. "I didn't get the chance. He took one step back, and I realized, how stupid and dangerous my thoughts had been."
Lola shook her head in disbelief. "But I thought you were over him."
Mary forced a smile. "Yes, I thought that too. But apparently, I was wrong. To be in his arms again, brought back so much old feelings. We had been lovers for so many months. And the sex with him was simply incredible..."
"He is a married man now, Mary!" Lola cut in. "I can't believe, that you have such lewd thoughts about him on his wedding day!"
"And you have to admit, that he looks so sexy and dashing in his wedding suit."
"Mary, stop it! Think about Kenna. How would she feel if she knew, that you still have feelings for Bash?"
Mary looked at Lola, alarmed. "You promised not to tell her!"
„I won't. But she is neither blind nor stupid." Lola sighed. "And she just told me, that Bash agreed to live in the Castle. She was so happy."
"They will stay?" Mary's eyes began to shine. "I thought they wanted to move out, as soon as possible?"
"It would be better for all of us." Lola muttered, that only she could hear it.
"What did you say?"
"Nothing." Lola took a deep breath. "I have to go back. Promise me, that you won't do something you will regret!"
"Just because, I still have feelings for Bash doesn't mean, I want to drag him right now into my bed chamber!" Mary said indignantly.
"Not right now, not tomorrow, never." Lola said flatly. "He belongs to Kenna, and she belongs to him. Don't forget that! And I think, he had told you more than once in the past, that he was not in love with you."
"Yes, unfortunately." Mary sighed. "But sometimes I wonder, how it was possible for him to have hot sex with me, without any feelings."
"Lust." Lola replied. "Men are quite capable to separate love and lust. Women are different. I think it is because we think too much."
"Probably." Mary forced a smile. "I'm glad that Kenna decided to stay at the Castle. So it is easier for me as well, to reach Bash, to discuss business with him. He is still my deputy." She turned and left Lola alone with her thoughts.
„Hopefully only business..." Lola muttered, before she followed Mary back inside, where the guests were still celebrating the newly married couple.